If the deep sea is not happy

Chapter 38 I heard that 50 million people on this planet are missing every day? (2)
The flower shop was far away from Xue Jinhan's bar, but she didn't take a taxi, and walked towards "Nian" step by step against the wind and snow with flowers in her arms, with a determined expression on her face.

Scenes of the past hovered in her mind, like silent old movies: the handsome face of the young man, the handsome running on the playground, the naughty smile when they met for the first time, the waiting under the cherry tree, the gentlest smile that night , For every fight she fought, the soft green skirt, the desperate hug in front of the French windows, the bright red on the blue bed sheet, the continuous snow in Shanghai.

Also, your eyes turned into the sea, devouring all my emotions, condensed into a waiting posture, never changing.

The cold wind was piercing, and Cheng Moyi burst into tears while walking with the bouquet in his arms.

The most painful pain always comes silently.

Standing at the door of the "Nian" bar, Cheng Moyi almost became a snowman holding flowers. After a long time of hesitation, she decided to go in.

Although, to let her face this breakup alone, her heart is still too weak to bear.

However, if you don't talk about it now, you won't have much chance when Li Zerui brings up the matter of getting married.She was engaged, not willingly, but it would be best to speak face to face.

After making up his mind, just when Cheng Moyi turned around and was about to go in, a black car stopped beside Cheng Moyi amidst screeching brakes, and a man in a suit and leather shoes got out of the car, a bit like a bodyguard.Cheng Moyi ignored it and stepped up the steps to go in, but the man stopped in front of her and said very gentlemanly: "May I ask if you are Miss Cheng?"

Although Cheng Moyi felt puzzled, he still nodded.

"Hello, our wife wants to see you, please come with me."

"Your wife? Can I ask who it is? What's the matter?" It seems that I don't know any wife.

The man didn't answer, but his tone was unquestionable: "You will know when you arrive, please get in the car."

Seeing that he didn't look like a bad guy, Cheng Moyi nodded, turned around and walked towards the black car.

In the "Nian" bar, the waiter who often told Cheng Moyi to go to the VIP box noticed that Cheng Moyi was standing at the door and seemed to be waiting for someone. He was about to open the door to let Cheng Moyi come in and wait, but suddenly a car drove up car, took her away.

He could see the manager's unusual attitude towards Cheng Moyi, so he immediately ran to the small room where Xue Jinhan used to stay and told him about the situation.

When Xue Jinhan heard this, he immediately cursed "Stupid woman, go with everyone", pushed the waiter away and ran out quickly.

The black car had just turned a corner, he wrote down the license plate number, and immediately chased after it in his Ferrari.

Seven

The car didn't stop until it reached a lively bar.Cheng Moyi followed the man out of the car and was ushered into the innermost box. She turned around to ask who was inside, but was pushed in by the man in a suit.

There was no light in the room, and she couldn't find a switch on the wall near the door, so she just stood there and didn't dare to move rashly.

"I'm glad we met again, Miss Cheng Moyi."

A clear female voice came from the room, but Cheng Moyi's heart tightened: it seemed that he had heard this voice before.

"Who are you? Do we know each other? Why don't you even dare to show your appearance?" Cheng Moyi was puzzled, always feeling that the visitor was not kind.

"Haha, Cheng Moyi, you are so funny. You actually asked if we knew each other? Could it be that you really can't hear my voice?" The woman smiled, and the lights in the room turned on with a "snap". Decorative lights, the dim lights are enough to illuminate the entire box.

"It's you?!"

On the sofa, the woman was crossing her legs, holding a glass of red wine in her hand, and the moment the light was turned on, she had a victorious smile on her face, proud and arrogant.

"That's right, it's me, Tian Xiaoxiao!" She leaned lazily on the sofa, her black lace dress was sexy and enchanting.

The down jacket on Cheng Moyi's body was soaked by the melted snow, the blue rose had lost its luster, and the red font on the card was blurred, making it look more artistic.

She walked to the edge of the sofa, put the bouquet in her arms on the coffee table, then took off her down jacket, shook it and threw it on the sofa, with her arms folded in front of her chest: "Speak, you came to me with such great fanfare, What's the matter?"

"What? Those two trash didn't spoil you that day, aren't you glad?"

"Sure enough, you did a good thing." Cheng Moyi looked down at Tian Xiaoxiao, who was indifferent, "12 years ago, because of your words, I hurt my Zhilin. Repeat, don't you feel shameless?"

"Shameless?" Tian Xiaoxiao shook the red wine glass in his hand, his eyes instantly became vicious, and he almost gritted his teeth: "You seduce Xue Jinhan time and time again, and destroy our relationship time and time again, why don't you think you are shameless!"

"Sorry, I'm really not interested in the relationship between you and Xue Jinhan. It's none of my business if you can't keep your man? Tian Xiaoxiao, do you think I'm still the old Cheng Moyi? Do you think I will let you go?" Don't you know how to fight back when you bully me? Ever since you touched my Zhilin, my hatred of you has reached the extreme!" Cheng Moyi's voice became colder and colder.

"Oh? It's reached the extreme so easily. If I tell you another secret, wouldn't you wish to cut me into pieces?"

"You don't need to know, your current evil deeds are enough to be hacked into pieces."

"Really? Don't rush to draw conclusions. Let's drink some wine to give you courage and listen to this story." She put down her wine glass and clapped her hands. The door was opened, and the man in the suit brought in a bottle of high-end red wine and After two wine glasses, there was a plate of apples, and the door was closed again.

It's not obvious that I'm trapped here, I'm afraid there are people guarding the door all the time.

Since this was the case, Cheng Moyi was not polite anymore, sat down directly, unscrewed the cap of the bottle and poured himself a full glass. "It's so warm in here, and there's such good wine, why should I go out to suffer from the cold?"

From the beginning to the end, Cheng Moyi's face seemed to be covered with a thin layer of frost, and his tone was clear.

Eight

"So leisurely? I think you won't be so relaxed after listening to this story. At that time, even if you cry, I won't let you cry."

"If it's about Xue Jinhan, don't talk about it!" Cheng Moyi drank a big sip of red wine, letting himself forget what was written on the card, "I'm already engaged to Li Zerui, after this year, we will get married. At that time, I still want to invite you to drink Xue Jinhan and come over for a glass of wedding wine."

"You don't need to go with him. His heart has never been with me, and he doesn't even belong to me. But, even if I destroy what Tian Xiaoxiao can't get, I won't let you get it! Besides Now, thanks to your Li Zerui and Xue Jinhan, I was able to leave Beijing and follow a rich man from Hong Kong, and the last thing I need is money."

In the past six months, after Tian Xiaoxiao spent all the money in her bank card, she flew to Hong Kong to make a living, and sat in a nightclub. Two months later, she was spotted by a Hong Kong businessman who went there, and she followed him from then on. Started mistress.

Although this kind of status is not glorious, for Tian Xiaoxiao whose heart has died, it is good to have money.What Xue Jinhan said that day made her feel cold. She finally admitted that even if she lost her whole life, it was still impossible for him to put his heart on her. In this case, she must let those who hurt her People who are dying of pain.

"Revenge?" Cheng Moyi asked back, "Is this why you came back?"

"That's right, I just want to make each of you feel miserable. Why is it that I'm the one who gets hurt all the time? What's so good about you? It's fine if Xue Jinhan likes you. I can still have a career without love, but why does Li Zerui It's your childhood sweetheart again? Cheng Moyi, don't you think God has given you too much?" Tian Xiaoxiao became hysterical, and the delicate makeup on his face became hideous.

"If you say that, I should be the one who should cry. Why are all the men in my life inextricably linked to you?" At this moment, Cheng Moyi didn't care about his own words. .

Xue Jinhan has been entangled with Tian Xiaoxiao for so many years, even Li Zerui, in his past time, always had sex with different women, and even Tian Xiaoxiao offered his body, he never refused.At first she was almost desperate, but Li Zerui turned from a man who lingered in the flowers into a good man at home overnight, who gave her so many unexpected warmth and surprises, and most importantly, gave her a long-lost sense of security.

That sense of security has never been obtained from Xue Jinhan.

However, even so, the person she buried in her heart was always the man who occasionally gently called her Momo, Ah Jin.Maybe it's because he was the first one to live in his heart when he first fell in love.

Tian Xiaoxiao picked up an apple and gracefully peeled it with a fruit knife.

"Cheng Moyi, where's your child?"

After a long time, she finished peeling the apple, took a bite, and asked Cheng Moyi an earth-shattering question.

child!

Her fingers were clenched tightly, and her face was pale. Although the heating in the box was adequate, she couldn't help shivering. The coldness spread from the heart, to the limbs, to the brain, making her unable to breathe.

She thought of Xue Jinhan's cold and heartless face again, and said blankly: "Dead!"

Those two simple words seemed to drain all her strength and warmth.

nine

Four years ago in Shanghai at night, Cheng Moyi bit his lip and made a decision, which was finally realized in Xue Jinhan's embrace.

The snow is getting bigger and bigger, and the people around me are breathing lightly and shallowly, so beautiful.She looked at Xue Jinhan's handsome sleeping face, felt the warmth of his body hugged tightly, and felt so satisfied in her heart. At that moment, she felt that she was the happiest woman.

Xue Jinhan finally became her Ah Jin.

From then on, this graceful body, together with the little heart wrapped in layers of love, belonged only to him, and to her Ah Jin.

After a sleepless night, she ran her fingers across Xue Jinhan's face and looked at him without blinking, as if she wanted to engrave his face on her heart.Tears flowed from his eyes, and cool kisses fell on his chest in pieces.

"Ah Jin, goodbye."

She reluctantly got up and put on her clothes.

The sky dimmed, the snow stopped, and the world was white.

It seemed like it took a century for her to hold back her tears from looking away from the sleeping Xue Jinhan, turn around decisively, and leave Shanghai.

She turned off the phone, unplugged the battery, and thought with a smile, if she didn't leave so early, she could give Xue Jinhan a good morning kiss, and then prepare a table of delicious meals. Like a lover, how beautiful.

But now, the person who made this decision is himself.

She doesn't want this kind of ambiguity to continue anymore, she is afraid that one day she can't stand it, so, take his mark and leave early.

Although she thought so in her heart, when she returned to Beijing and didn't wait for a call from Xue Jinhan for a month, she was still somewhat sad.It's just for writing her graduation thesis, and she doesn't have much time to worry about those things. Just going to the library and looking up information every day is enough for her to be busy.

I found out when I was having lunch, and Dad Cheng suddenly said: "Moyi, are you tired from working on your paper recently? It seems that you eat more than before."

In a word, Cheng Moyi almost choked, and the chopsticks stretched out to the plate unconsciously retracted, "Is there any?"

Father Cheng didn't notice her strange expression. He just said without raising his head while eating, "Yes, the appetite is much bigger. In the past, there was always leftovers from the meals that my father cooked. Now, there is not enough to eat. Good boy." Daughter, you should eat more, you look thin."

While Cheng Moyi agreed, he thought about it while eating.

But time was tight, she was only busy with school affairs, and forgot about it in a blink of an eye.

Later, when she was sitting in front of the computer and writing something, her back was always sore and her back hurt. She stood up and wanted to move around, stretching her waist, but her stomach made a gurgling sound.

"Shouldn't it be..."

Thinking of this, she buried her head in the warm blanket and smiled foolishly.

It was already April at that time, the season of warm spring and flowers blooming, the sun came in through the windows, and the whole room was filled with beautiful spring scenery.Hiding under the blanket, her face was full of happiness, without the panic and shame of getting pregnant out of wedlock.

It was left to her by her Ah Jin, how could she reject it?

For love, anyone can become crazy, there is no reason.Because, he is the reason for all love, nothing else, nothing else.

For him, you can throw away all the beautiful love that you may meet in the future, and with the thoughts he gave, one person is a lifetime.

Ten

Then when she finished her graduation defense, after Xia Zhilin flew back from Hainan, accompanied by her friends, she went to the hospital for an examination, and after getting the exact answer, she hugged Xia Zhilin and cried silently.

It was summer again, she was wearing a thin white dress, she still looked like an immature little girl, with a calm expression and a pure heart, but who knew that under her flat belly, a two-month-old child had already been conceived, Xue Jinhan's child.

After coming out of the hospital, she excitedly took Xia Zhilin to the baby clothing store, caressing those gorgeous clothes, the expression on her face was exactly like that of a mother-to-be.

But Xia Zhilin, who followed her, had a worried expression on her face. She even said that she would fly to Shanghai to find Xue Jinhan out, but Cheng Moyi refused, and tried her best to ask her and Qin Ye to keep this secret for herself.Since Xue Jinhan didn't even say alas = love her, how could she use her child to force him, not to mention, her original plan was to spend the rest of her life with Xue Jinhan's child.

After shopping around the mall, the two went to sit in the coffee shop. Cheng Moyi still ordered orange juice. She looked at the crowd passing by outside the window with a calm expression: "I want to give birth to the baby. One day, Ah Jin is tired. Come back and I'll tell him we have a baby."

It's just that Xia Zhilin didn't think so. Although Qin Ye had already proved to her that there are still good men in this world with his own actions, she wouldn't believe it if he was put on Xue Jinhan.It's not that Xia Zhilin didn't know what he did in high school before, so she wouldn't be so naive to believe that the prodigal son turned back.

"Do you trust Xue Jinhan so much? I was really stupid back then. I shouldn't have been fooled by you into stealing Xue Jinhan's address in Shanghai. Otherwise, none of this would have happened. I don't believe that there are so many good boys in college. None of them He can be compared to Xue Jinhan!" While stirring the coffee in front of her, she said these words unceremoniously, "You said that you are a beautiful beauty, why did you give up your mind and spend your whole life on him? ?”

Maybe it's the child in her stomach that makes Cheng Moyi feel extremely good, maybe it's because she knows that Xia Zhilin has always been dissatisfied with Xue Jinhan, or maybe it's because Xue Jinhan is indeed a person who makes people feel insecure, anyway, she doesn't talk, just Smiling and looking at Xia Zhilin who was about to smoke with anger.

Sure enough, Xia Zhilin gave up and waved her hand: "Forget it, the thing has already happened anyway, so saying nothing will work. If you are not [-]% sure, go ahead and get rid of it." She said this sentence cautiously , who has the heart to kill his own flesh and blood, "Don't foolishly sacrifice yourself for the rest of your life, when you are old and have a child, which man would want it?" She admitted that what she said was a bit too much, but this It's all for Mo Yi's good, she doesn't want to see her regretting only to find out that everything is irreparable.

Cheng Moyi bit the straw and said calmly, "Even if I'm not even [-]% sure, I still want to give birth to the child. As long as it's given by Ah Jin, no matter whether it's happiness or pain, I'll be happy with it."

"My dear Moyi, why are you so stupid!" Knowing Cheng Moyi's stubborn temper and knowing that she could not persuade her, Xia Zhilin only had to sigh sadly, and when she spoke, there was an obvious cry in her voice , "Why does God have the heart to torture you like this!"

"Okay, Zhilin, I'm fine. Don't worry about me. When the child grows up, I'll let her call you godmother." She reached out to hold Xia Zhilin's hand, "You Hurry up and marry Qin Ye, and then give birth to a big fat boy, so you can call me a godmother."

Xia Zhilin was amused by her words, and said angrily, "Cut, who is going to marry Qin Ye, you stupid bastard."

eleven
"Just be stubborn, and you might blame Qin Ye for not proposing in your heart. I said, you all graduated, get married quickly, so that I can drink the wedding wine quickly." Qin Ye is a good boy. Zhilin will be happy if she follows him.

"Understood. Even if we are not in a hurry, our mother should urge us to get the certificate." Xia Zhilin's face was rarely flushed, "By the way, does Dad Cheng know?"

Of course Cheng Moyi knew what she was referring to, his eyes darkened abruptly, and he shook his head: "I don't know how to tell him. His impression of Ah Jin has never been very good, although he didn't object to our meeting Together, however, if I let him know about my decision, I think he will firmly oppose it. No parent would agree with his daughter to take such a risk, let alone I lost my mother at the age of 13, and he has always felt guilty towards me. "

"But you can't hide this kind of thing, and I don't want you to do it." In the end, she still didn't want her dearest sister to be so desperate for love.

"No, I have already decided. The child is mine. I must give birth. I will find a chance to confess everything to my father. He will understand me." Cheng Moyi drank the orange juice, very For sure.

With the relationship between him and Mo Xiaorui, he will definitely understand my feelings.

At that time, Cheng Moyi was so crazy, and the reason behind her crazy was simply, I love him, that's all.

Taking the opportunity of having dinner, Cheng Moyi confessed the matter to Cheng Tianmu, and resolutely stated his attitude, quietly waiting for his father's verdict.

Maybe he will fly into a rage and call me an unfilial daughter.

(End of this chapter)