If the deep sea is not happy

Chapter 39 I heard that 50 million people on this planet are missing every day? (3)
Maybe he will be heartbroken and blame me for my stupid decision not to take the opportunity. Anyway, in the end, without exception, he immediately took me to the hospital and firmly opposed my doing so.

Or, he will pull down his old face, pull Xue Jinhan out, and ask him to give me an explanation.

Cheng Moyi sat there, looking down at her rice bowl, the light above her head was very dazzling, she saw her own shadow cast on the dining table, blurred and distorted.

For as long as a century, she could feel the scrutiny from her father, the sad eyes, just looking at herself so firmly, like a contest of psychological quality.

She hates this atmosphere, very annoying.She hoped that her father would speak up quickly, so that she could escape from this place as soon as possible, hide in the bedroom and think if she was really too selfish, but she was so afraid of her father's opening up. The defense line will collapse in an instant.

She admitted that she was not that strong, she just didn't want to worry about anything, so she swallowed her tears and swallowed all the sadness into her stomach.

"Moy..."

Cheng Moyi's body trembled, and all the nerves in his body tensed up, like a prisoner waiting for an execution order.

But after waiting for a long time, there was nothing to say on the other side of the dinner table. Cheng Moyi didn't dare to look up, afraid of seeing his father's disappointed eyes, and afraid that what he had done would make his father feel ashamed.

All she could do was sit quietly and say nothing.

But there was a faint and depressing voice from over there. Cheng Moyi peeked over, and suddenly found that such a big father was crying on the table like a child!
At that moment, her heart felt like being bitten by all the bugs in the world, and it hurt her heart. Even when Xue Jin treated her coldly, her heart was never so sad.

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She couldn't bear it any longer, and howled, she rushed over and knelt down in front of her father, pulling his clothes with both hands: "Dad, I'm sorry, it's my fault, it's my daughter who is unfilial, it's my daughter who is sorry for you! You beat me, what do you call me?" Everything is fine, I beg you not to cry, I am so afraid of you crying!"

Ten years ago, when he got the result from the doctor that Mo Xiaorui died after being rescued and failed, Cheng Tianmu never shed tears. During the sparks and the burial, he always looked calm and worked hard to raise himself up.But now, because of his own affairs, he, who is over fifty years old, is crying like a child!

Seeing him like this, Cheng Moyi's heart almost broke.

"Dad... don't be like this... don't torture me like this..." At that moment, like a child who committed a heinous crime, she begged for her father's forgiveness.

The watery moonlight spread in this small courtyard, Cheng Tianmu wiped away his old tears, sighed deeply, as if he was going to fall into Cheng Moyi's heart, and wrapped that soft heart tightly .

He pulled up Moyi who was kneeling on the ground, and the two of them sat facing each other like that, separated by the already cold meal, he said, with unspeakable pain in his throat, "Moyi, you have grown up, really grown up."

That sentence contains many years of heartache and tears.

Every night, the world that has been noisy all day suddenly quiets down. He is lying on the large double bed, alone, holding a photo with Mo Xiaorui in his hand, mourning his lover who died young. When he raises his head, the black tall building is split I saw the shape of the sky, there was no starlight, no moonlight, and then I thought of my daughter, always sighing heavily.

He wasn't lamenting her disobedience or disobedience, he was just sad that his daughter, the daughter he loves the most in this world besides Mo Xiaorui, had such ups and downs in her life.

When she was young, Cheng Moyi liked to run back and forth behind Mo Xiaorui the most. She was as beautiful and happy as a little peacock, and the world in her eyes was always colorful.

Mo Xiaorui is gentle in nature, beautiful in appearance, and extremely kind-hearted. She never quarrels with others. No matter who she talks to, she always smiles lightly. It seems that in her eyes, the word angry has never been used.Maybe it's because of heredity, maybe it's because of Mo Xiaorui's subtle influence the day after tomorrow, Cheng Moyi is also that kind of well-behaved and gentle girl, who never conflicts with others, and never talks back to her parents.

She was a standard well-behaved child, sweet-looking, good at talking, always ranked among the top in exam results, and was loved by teachers and classmates, but all of this came to an abrupt end the moment Mo Xiaorui left.After that, Cheng Moyi hid alone in his own world, so he had no choice but to change his situation. After his daughter became friends with Xia Zhilin, a cheerful child, he was very relieved, thinking that maybe friendship could help her get out of that period. Shadow, but who knows, at this moment, Xue Jinhan came out.

He sighed, maybe this is fate.

Seeing Cheng Moyi sitting opposite him motionless, tears fell on his heart drop by drop like broken beads, it was so painful.

"It's good to grow up, you know what you're doing, as long as you don't regret it, just do it. Dad is old, and his only wish is that you can find a good man, but..." he said , he couldn't help choking up, he knew Mo Yi's temper, like Mo Xiaorui, although she was soft on the outside, she was stubborn on the inside, even a hundred spaceships couldn't pull her back from her decision.

However, even if everyone agreed with her approach, there was still one person who tried his best to get rid of this child.

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Every night, she stroked her flat belly, full of fantasies, not knowing whether the life she conceived was a boy or a girl, but then she thought again, as long as it was given to her by Xue Jinhan, no matter if it was a boy or a girl, she would be happy. They must be born well and give him (her) the most beautiful love in the world.

It's just that all of these were all broken in the days that followed, and they could no longer piece together the original appearance.

Xue Jinhan, you are such a heartless person.

In the sky after a thunderstorm, the air was exceptionally fresh. Cheng Moyi went into the yard to tend to her flowers and plants when he had nothing to do, and was extremely busy.

When the bell rang outside the door, she was trimming the flowerbed, wearing loose clothes, her face and hands were covered with mud, she quickly dropped the small shovel in her hand and ran to the iron gate.

"Excuse me, is Miss Cheng Moyi there? There is her express delivery." Outside the door was a middle-aged man in a postman's clothes, with a kind smile.

Cheng Moyi clapped his hands and said with a smile, "I am."

The postman took out a courier from it and delivered it to Cheng Moyi, "This is your courier."

Looking at the courier in his hand, Cheng Moyi didn't write the sender's address, only his own address and name, and suddenly felt a little inexplicable, with a faint feeling of bad premonition.

"Would you please sign your name here?"

After seeing off the postman, Cheng Moyi walked into the room, washed his hands, sat on the sofa, picked up the courier and slowly tore it apart.

There was also an envelope inside. She weighed it and felt that it was quite heavy.She tore it open and took out what was inside. It was a stack of photos. When her eyes touched it, she felt the blood in her body rushing to the top of her head. The whole world was spinning in her eyes, and there were boundless sarcasms in her ears. and ridicule.

Flipping through the photos with trembling fingers, looking at them one by one, the stack of thick photos, without exception, is the picture of Ah Jin having fun with different women, those charming peach blossom eyes, once gazed at him so affectionately. She is so hideous now.

It's not that she doesn't know Ah Jin's flirtatious playboy and rebellious nature, but, obviously, he said that he and all women go to the end, and have never had a relationship that crosses the threshold, why are these photos appearing here?
Ah Jin, did you lie to me?

I once said that I want to trust you, no matter when, but now, with your baby in my stomach, what I see in my eyes are the pornographic photos of you and different women, how ironic, isn't it?
No matter who sent it, no matter who did it deliberately, she didn't want to track it down, that's all, from the moment she left Shanghai, she had already decided that there would be no relationship between the two of them from now on.

She smiled wryly, was she too prescient, so she got what she wanted and left without greed.

Covering her lower abdomen with her fingers, she said sadly: Son, this time, mom really can't give you a dad.

She recalled that night, Xue Jinhan narrowed his eyes and asked: Momo, won't you regret it?
Do I regret it?

She asked herself, the photo slipped from her fingers and scattered all over the floor.

Ah Jin, I don’t regret it, and I don’t regret it now. In my womb, the best ending you gave me is pregnant. I know, and I understand. That night, your eyes were full of tenderness and love.You know, eyes can never lie.

Cheng Moyi picked up those photos, took out the lighter and ashtray from under the coffee table, lit them one by one, and burned them.

Although looking at those photos and seeing different women in the arms of the man she loves deeply, her heart is filled with sadness like a swarm of bees stinging, but she can't stop her from wanting to give birth to a child.

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She remembered that once when she went to Shanghai, she hid under the quilt and shouted to Xue Jinhan who was staying in the living room. At that time, she said that she would open a bar of the highest quality in the future, and then open a flower shop next to the bar. , he runs the bar, she manages the flower shop, and she cooks for him when he returns home.

Xue Jinhan said in the living room, you are just a child, thinking of everything so simply, college students are too naive.

Yes, that is the gap between them, a student, a society, there are so many differences in thinking.Although Xue Jinhan laughed at her stupidly, he still tried his best to protect her innocence. He said: "You are too innocent, what should you do if I can't be by your side?"

It turned out that they were destined not to be together.

It turned out that Ah Jin at that time had already seen through the future.

So Ah Jin, have I grown up now?

You see, I graduated and stepped into the society; You see, I have your child, I want to find a job and take care of us; You see, I am really sensible, I will not pester you anymore; You see, I'm fine without you by my side, although I still have nightmares, always dreaming of your figure and waking up crying.

Looking at the burnt ashes in the ashtray, Cheng Moyi finally shed tears, his heart was empty, and there was always a vague emotion lingering in his heart, which indicated that something was about to happen.

She shook her head, dismissed those strange thoughts, only said that she was too nervous, and thought that maybe a pregnant woman is like this, a sense of joy of being a first-time mother surged in her heart.

Because she thought that her stomach would grow bigger and bigger in the future, she would not be suitable for applying for a job, so Cheng Moyi joined his father's company and occasionally did a little favor. It was well organized, not at all like a family lacking a hostess.

The "photo incident" doesn't seem to have a big impact on her. For the sake of the child in her belly, she still smiles every day, flipping through one book after another about pregnancy in October to supplement her poor knowledge, Xia Zhilin Occasionally, he would come to accompany her, but because Qin Ye's own company had just started, many things were very cumbersome, so time was very tight.

But Xia Zhilin really did as she wished, and kept hiding it from Xue Jinhan.She knew that they all loved her and wanted her to be happy, but the happiness she wanted was only Xue Jinhan.If there is no him, there are his and her children, just fine.

When she misses him, she will take out her mobile phone and read the text messages sent by Xue Jinhan over and over again.Xue Jinhan's text messages are very few, and there are almost only three formats.
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"Call me when you arrive, and I'll pick you up."
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"Be careful on the way home."
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"Are you home? Rest early."

He didn't even address him when he was sending text messages, and Cheng Moyi never expected him to say sweet words to himself.

The last day of June was a sunny Sunday. She hid under the blanket and watched the sun shine in.Because Cheng Tianmu was on a business trip to Chengdu last night, she was too lazy to get up, so she took out her phone to play.

Looking at Xue Jinhan's number, she had an urge to tell him that I was pregnant, but reason kept her fingers bound.

Just as she was struggling to call or not, the bell rang, and she was extremely flustered as she watched the incoming call flashing on the screen.Finally, she still couldn't help the temptation of missing, and picked it up.

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"Ah Jin..." Her voice trembled a little, and no one knew how long she had been looking forward to this call.Sometimes, even she can't help but scold herself for being cheap, but when in love, who wants to be shamed.

Although her love may only be one-sided and fruitless.

After a long silence, a dry and hoarse voice came from the other side, "En." Very simple syllables.

(End of this chapter)