If the deep sea is not happy

Chapter 40 I heard that 50 million people on this planet are missing every day? (4)
"What's wrong with you? Are you sick?" Hearing Xue Jinhan's voice, her heart immediately rose to her throat. He is a big boy over there, how can he take care of himself? "Have you seen a doctor? The voice sounds like Very bad look!"

"...I'm fine, don't worry."

I always felt that the response over there was a bit strange, but because Xue Jinhan had never called her, she was very excited for a while, and almost lost the ability to distinguish.

"Ajin, I... am pregnant, and I want to give birth to a child." She gritted her teeth and confessed.She just wanted to share her joy with him, and had no other intentions. There was silence over there, and she immediately explained, "I don't want to use my child to ask you to give me a title, whether you accept it or not , I will give birth to the child, and you can still live your own life, because the child is my business."

Knowing that it hurts her heart to say these words, but Xue Jinhan's silence still made her despair, well, she will live a good life without Xue Jinhan's life if she cuts off the last thought.

Hearing what she said behind, the other side immediately became anxious: "How can this be done!"

Her heart was warm for a moment. Sure enough, Xue Jinhan cared about her and would not bear to leave her alone.But the smile on the corner of her mouth hadn't fully bloomed yet, but was frozen there by the words behind her.

"Go to the hospital immediately and kill this child! Otherwise, don't blame me for not being merciful to you!"

His voice was so cold, every word was like a sharp knife, piercing into her heart fiercely, it hurt terribly.

The phone slipped and she collapsed on the quilt.am I wrong?Am I wrong?Ah Jin, am I really wrong?Are those tender feelings in your eyes fake?

On a sunny morning, she hid under the quilt, crying like a lost child, as if she wanted to shed all the tears in her life before giving up.

But, can these cheap tears and cheap self-esteem be exchanged for your resolute departure?
Cheng Moyi was tired from crying, his eyes were looking at the endless void, and he lay pale on the bed, but his fists were getting tighter and tighter.

Xue Jinhan, I live for my love, not for you!
She got up quickly, finished washing in less than a minute, then sat in front of the makeup mirror, and seriously dressed herself.In the past, she always wore a plain face. Even though she entered a university full of beauties and hid among a group of female students with heavy makeup, she still did not wear makeup.

Ah Jin, starting today, I will bid farewell to the past.I am still me, Cheng Moyi, but I am not stupid anymore, because I want to learn to be independent and strong for my children.Before today, the person I loved the most was you. After today, the person I love the most is the child you left for me, our child.

I specially chose that kind of more mature makeup, looking in the mirror, even Cheng Moyi didn't dare to recognize himself, although there was still a trace of childishness, but with a specially selected set of more intellectual clothes, the whole person It looks elegant and luxurious.

Picking up the bag in her hand, she smiled at the mirror, turned around and left the house.

sixteen
While sitting in the taxi, she called Cheng Tianmu and said that she was going to Shanghai to say goodbye to Xue Jinhan. From then on, she would stay by his side and be a quiet little daughter and a good mother .

Cheng Tianmu just said okay, as long as you think about it, go ahead and do it.When he put down the phone, he sighed, his brows and eyes were full of sadness, holding Mo Xiaorui's photo, and kept saying that it was his fault, if he hadn't brought his daughter to Beijing, none of this would have happened .

A big man finally cried holding the photo of his dead wife.

And Cheng Moyi was smiling all the way.

Yes, she has to laugh, like her mother Mo Xiaorui, no matter what she encounters, she has to face it with a smile. Now that she is going to be a mother, she must always maintain a good mental state. And harm the child's prenatal education.

Shanghai was still very prosperous. Standing at the exit of the airport, Cheng Moyi took a deep breath facing the beautiful blue sky and the sun, then hailed a taxi and went straight to Xue Jinhan's residence.

It's just that she didn't notice that when she was getting into the car, someone was watching her back and making a call not far from her: "Well, she's already in the car, and she'll be there in 10 minutes at most."

In the taxi, she looked at the passing scenery outside the window with a calm expression.Leaning his head tiredly on the glass window, things are different, that's probably what he said.

It was daytime, and "Tianyu" seemed relatively deserted. She walked through the passage and walked into the small reception hall. The young waiters were chatting in twos and threes. Seeing her coming in, they immediately went back to everyone.After she and Xue Jinhan got together, she also came here a few times, and almost all the waiters here knew her.

No, one of them came over and greeted her warmly and flatteringly, but Cheng Moyi said flatly, "Is Xue Jinhan here?"

"No, brother Han said he was not feeling well this morning, so he stayed at home all the time, and told us to order a takeaway for him after three o'clock in the afternoon." The waiter here is not called Deputy Manager Xue Jinhan, but Affectionately called Brother Han, although he sometimes looks cold, he is also good to them.

"Got it." After Cheng Moyi finished speaking, he turned around and left.

He doesn't eat well, but it's a pity that I won't be able to accompany him in the future and cook delicious meals for him. Thinking about it this way, I feel a little uncomfortable.

Perhaps, our fate has come here.

Or climb up the stairs from the first floor, the fourteenth floor of the stairs, she walked up step by step, and said "I love you" with each step, but she knew that even if she walked up to these stairs and they were polished, they would not be happy in this life. There is no fate.

Standing at the door, with green fingers covering her lower abdomen through the clothes, she said softly, "Baby, you will see your father soon, he is very handsome, you must remember his appearance for your mother." , "Sadness welled up, "Because this is the first and last time you saw him."

Cheng Moyi sniffed to stop her sourness, ordered herself to show the most beautiful smile, and then knocked on the door that she had entered and exited countless times.

Seventeen
No one came to answer the door.

She knocked twice more, but still no one answered.Is he not at home?She stretched out her hand and twisted the handle, but the door creaked open.

Puzzled in my heart, if Xue Jinhan goes out, he will never forget to lock the door. The door is open, which means that he must be at home. If so, why didn't he come to open the door?
Cheng Moyi closed the door and walked in, the living room was still empty, there was no sofa, only a big TV and a few wooden chairs, a lot of cigarette butts were thrown on the floor, and a pile of fast food packaging bags.

The smell of alcohol was pungent, and Cheng Moyi frowned. She put down the bag in her hand and was about to tidy up when she heard a sound coming from the bedroom. She maintained that posture of bending over, with her hand still reaching for the beer bottle on the floor .

It was the moans of women and the gasps of men.

Her body froze there, it was hot summer, but everything around her felt so cold, so cold.Moving with difficulty, she gently pushed open the bedroom door, and saw her beloved Ah Jin, naked and entangled with a woman, and that woman was none other than someone else, and it was through her words that she Tian Xiaoxiao who ruined Xia Zhilin's innocence!
Although she only saw Xue Jinhan's back, at that moment, she felt extremely desolate and her chest was tight. She bit her lips tightly to prevent herself from spitting it out. She tightened her fingers and embedded them in her flesh until Blood oozes.

Staggering to pick up her bag, she subconsciously clutched her stomach and rushed out the door.

No, this is not the result she wants to see, not the scene she wants her baby to see, dirty, really dirty, she tried her best to restrain her urge to vomit, standing in front of the elevator, wanting to escape quickly.

Before the elevator door opened, her eyes went dark and she passed out.

It seems to have had a long, long dream. In the dream, there was her Ah Jin and a very beautiful and cute little daughter. She was holding her daughter's hand and standing in front of Xue Jinhan, with a sweet smile on her face. "Ajin, this is our daughter. I raised her. You see, I really did it."

Xue Jinhan said "Momo, you are great." Then he squatted down and said to his daughter, "Come on, let Dad see you and give you a hug."

The daughter looked up at Cheng Moyi, and she said softly, "Go, he is your father."

"Yeah." The daughter ran over bouncingly, slipped into Xue Jinhan's open arms, and called out to her father sweetly.

But at this time, Xue Jinhan's face suddenly became ferocious, and his five fingers stretched out, pinching her daughter's neck. She struggled in pain, calling mother to save me, mother to save me...

Cheng Moyi wanted to move, wanted to run over to take back his daughter, but found that his whole body was so weak that he could only watch Xue Jinhan who had turned into a monster laugh wildly and took her daughter away.

Her eyes were heavy and she couldn't open them, but there was a sour and foul smell in her nose, which was very unpleasant.Someone kept shouting in her ear, one after another, just simple syllables: "Hey... hey... hey..." It was cold and without temperature.

Cheng Moyi struggled to open his eyes, and the first thing he saw was a grayish-yellow lamp above his head and the mottled and dirty walls.She moved her body lightly, trying to stand up, but there was a sharp pain in her abdomen, and she grinned her teeth in pain, and didn't dare to move again.

A man in a white coat came over with stubble on his face, "Are you awake? If the pain doesn't stop, you can go." Then he turned around and began to pack the cold instruments, expressionless.

Eighteen
Cheng Moyi struggled to digest the information: "Where is this?"

"Where? What else could it be a hospital! Your boyfriend doesn't want you, otherwise why would he bring you to a small clinic like ours for abortion."

"what?!"

Hearing this sentence, Cheng Moyi was startled, thinking of the horrible dream he had just had, it turned out that everything was real, it was a hint!She immediately got up from the dirty bed, and there was a sharp pain in her abdomen. Beads of sweat slid down her pale face and wet the makeup that she had carefully put on.

Cheng Moyi stumbled out of bed and grabbed the wretched doctor's white coat, "What are you talking about! Who told you to kill my child! You will pay with your life!" She stared fixedly at him like she was going crazy. Doctor, as if he could breathe fire.

The doctor is a big man, and he threw Cheng Moyi's body away: "You crazy woman, your boyfriend doesn't want to have a baby with you, what's wrong with me! Your boyfriend signed it," he said from the shelf behind him Picking up a folder, pulled out a surgical drape and threw it at Cheng Moyi's face, "If you don't believe me, see for yourself!"

The surgical signature sheet was printed on Cheng Moyi's face, and then slowly fell to the ground, soaked in the accumulated dirty water. Cheng Moyi endured the pain and bent down, tremblingly picked up the piece of paper, which was extremely dirty by the sewage The three words "Xue Jinhan" suddenly caught my eyes.

Looking at it, Cheng Moyi raised his head and laughed so loudly that even the doctor felt that she was panicking and hid aside.Cheng Moyi kept laughing until tears flowed down his haggard face.

She tore the piece of paper fiercely, picked up her bag, clutched her abdomen, smiled and walked out of the small black heart clinic, and walked all the way to the airport in a daze.

Xue Jinhan, I never want to see your hypocritical face again, and I never want to hear your hypocritical words again. She walked all the way, crying all the way, and the pedestrians on the bustling road all took a detour like hiding from a lunatic.

The sun was scorching the earth, but Cheng Moyi felt that she was thrown onto the Antarctic glacier naked. The bone-chilling cold eroded her remaining sanity. She boarded the plane back to Beijing numbly, feeling desolate in her heart.

When she got home, she locked herself in the bathroom and didn't come out until dusk. Finally, a little color returned to her face.Flipping through the TV station boredly, Cheng Moyi had no expression on his face, but his body, which was hiding in his pajamas, was trembling constantly.Xia Zhilin's call came in at this time, she laughed cheerfully, with unconcealable joy.

Cheng Moyi turned off the TV, leaned on the soft sofa and closed his eyes: "What's wrong? Seeing you smiling so happily, what's the good news?"

"Moyi, I have two good news for you!"

"Well, listen, let's talk."

"Qin Ye and I went to the Civil Affairs Bureau to get a marriage certificate today!" Xia Zhilin's voice revealed a sense of happiness.

Cheng Moyi sat up straight all of a sudden: "Really?!"

"Why did I lie to you? I have this certificate in my hand now. Also, our mother looked at the old calendar. It will be a good day in seven days. We plan to hold a wedding next Sunday." Xia Zhilin looked happily Looking at the red notebook in his hand, "You can accompany me to see the wedding dress tomorrow, things are urgent, and there are many things to prepare."

"But..." Cheng Moyi hesitated, wondering if he should tell Xia Zhilin.

(End of this chapter)