Youth Rebellion

Chapter 33 Ask the world what love is
After the college entrance examination, Ye Liang came to Ruochen's university to see her. It was also a year and a half since Ye Liang went to Ruochen's house to find her last time.

Since Ye Liang had a hard time repeating his studies, Ruochen didn't bother him, fearing that he would be distracted, so even though Ruochen had acquiesced in the relationship since Ye Liang's love letter last time, there was nothing substantial about it. The progress of love is not the beginning of first love.In a real sense, it should be the beginning of Ye Liang's visit to her school this time.

Ruochen told the sisters in the dormitory that a male classmate of hers named Ye Liang was coming, and they all speculated about his relationship with Ruochen. Ruochen told them honestly that Ye Liang was the high school student who had chased her for several years. Classmate, she has decided to promise him to be with him.

Several sisters in the dormitory seemed more excited than Ruochen, and they all said that they must go to see this future brother-in-law.Ruochen scolded them and said: "You guys are talking nonsense, you haven't even written your horoscope yet, why did you call your brother-in-law!"

"If you don't call me brother-in-law, would you like to be called Ouba haha?" Several people took the opportunity to joke like dust.

Ruochen took the sisters in the dormitory to meet Ye Liang, and after introducing each other, they went to a restaurant in the school for dinner.

Ruochen took Ye Liang to visit their school while walking on the campus.They had a lot of chats happily. Being held by Ye Liang for a walk on the campus really felt a pleasant feeling physically and mentally. The palms of both of them were sweating. This was the first time they held hands. They should be both nervous and excited. Well, June is the official beginning of first love.

After dinner, Ruochen picked up the mat and sat on the grass in the playground with Ye Liang to watch the sky full of stars. The night sky was quiet and serene at this moment. Ruochen leaned his head on Ye Liang's shoulder and looked at the Milky Way in the sky together. , which one is the Altair and which is the Vega, and whether the Altair is brighter or the Vega is brighter.

Ruochen said that it was Altair, so that Zhinu could see him at a glance.

Ye Liang smiled and said that it was Vega, so that Cowherd would have a goal to move forward. No matter how difficult the future is, he would be full of energy when he saw Vega.

The two talked and laughed, and when Ruochen finally stopped laughing, she saw Ye Liang looking at her affectionately, his eyes full of tenderness.

Ruochen felt shy for a moment, hiding from Ye Liang who was about to kiss her, Ye Liang held her head and kissed her lips, about five seconds, Ruochen pushed Ye Liang away, and put his head on her shoulder Ye Liang said with a smile, "This is my first kiss, and it's only given five seconds!"

Ruochen said shyly: "This is also my first kiss, I feel embarrassed."

It was at that moment that Ruochen really felt that I had grown up. Today, I completed my first shy and flustered first kiss as a girl. This feeling is very special, and I may remember it for the rest of my life.

It was almost eleven o'clock in the evening, Ruochen suggested that Ye Liang go to the city to find a hotel to stay, because the school is in a big suburb and there are no hotels around.Ye Liang said you should go back to sleep, I will deal with it all night here, don't you have a mat, it happens that it is not cold in summer.

Ruochen hesitated and said, "Then I will stay with you on the playground overnight."

Ye Liang disagreed, "Your health is not good, if the dew in the night makes you sick, I will commit a heinous crime."

No matter what Ruochen said, Ye Liang insisted on dealing with it all night on the playground alone, and did not agree with her to stay with him on the playground.Ruochen had no choice but to go back and get him a blanket, then went back to the dormitory to rest.

In fact, she didn't fall asleep much, and she kept thinking about Ye Liang who was alone on the playground.

Ye Liang ran to the playground early the next morning, and saw Ye Liang was already sitting there admiring the coming sunrise.Ruochen saw from a distance that Ye Liang, who was sitting alone on the playground, looked like a practicing Buddha statue. Facing the morning glow, she seemed to see the hidden halo around him. She thought in a trance that this man really belonged to me What, Ruochen was stunned for a moment.

Ye Liang turned around and saw Ruochen who was standing still, and called her, and Ruochen suddenly came to his senses.

After breakfast, Ye Liang was about to go home, Ruochen sent him out, ready to take him to the station, but before he reached the school gate, Ye Liang stopped and said: "Ruochen, don't send it off, lest we Reluctant to part from each other, I count one, two, three, we turn around at the same time, and we are not allowed to look back, okay?"

At this moment, Ruochen nodded obediently. After Ye Liang finished counting one, two, three, she really obediently turned around and walked towards the campus at the same time as Ye Liang. Ah, but she thought that since she promised him, she would do it.

Unexpectedly, when he turned around this time, there would be no second chance to turn back.

During the summer vacation, Ruochen heard that Ye Liang was ill and was receiving an infusion at home, so she asked Yu'er to accompany her to Ye Liang's house to see him.

At that time, Ye Liang's parents were both working in distant XJ, and Ye Liang's father turned back as a prodigal son later, and assumed his due responsibilities as a father.

Ruochen and Yu'er went to their house for the first time, so they are not familiar with the car. It was already past one noon when they arrived at their house, and the family of Ye Liang's uncle who was in charge of receiving them was still waiting for her to eat. I feel very guilty, and I feel very sorry. I went to their house for the first time and was late. I don’t know what people will think of me. I must think that I am an extremely unreliable girl.

Ruochen was very fond of their uncle's impression of her at that time. Although it was not the first time the ugly daughter-in-law met her in-laws, they could directly report to her future in-laws about the future ugly daughter-in-law's various problems, so Ruochen was very happy. nervous.

Ye Liang's father made a special call from the distant XJ, unexpectedly, Ruochen called Ye Liang's father anxiously and nervously: "Hello, auntie!"Later, when Ruochen realized her mistake, it was irreparable, she was so ashamed that she really wanted to find a hole to drill down!Ye Liang's father probably thought to himself, why does my son fall in love with such a silly girl!How can this work, break up!So before Ruochen saw his old man's deity, this relationship died before it saw the light.

A few months later, Ye Liang suddenly heard nothing from Ruochen. When Ruochen finally found him and asked for an answer, Ruochen asked her if your uncle's family didn't like me, and then reported it to your parents. They forced you to divorce me. ,Yes or no?Ye Liang was noncommittal, and he didn't say why.

Ruochen's sophomore year started, and Ye Liang's freshman year also started. His test scores were good, but he was a little short of his first choice, so he was transferred to a second-year college that was not bad. Ruochen feels happy for him, his life can finally go on step by step without worrying about her.

But what Ruochen didn't expect was that she really didn't have to worry about it, and there was no chance to worry about it anymore.

It's been more than a month since the school started, and I haven't received Ye Liang's letter yet. I wonder if he is not used to his college life, but because I don't have his address, Ruochen has nothing to do in a hurry, so I can only wait.At the end of the second month of school, Ruochen finally received Ye Liang's letter, but to her surprise, it was also the last letter. The content of the letter is as follows:
Ruochen:

Hope all is well and accept my sincere wishes.

Stripped of innocent dreams, a new life means more pressure and challenges.I am very pleased that I can have a peaceful mood at this moment, and I hope to share with you each other's experience, and share that sense of reason and good expectations for the future.

"Recognize yourself" This is a question I often reflect on, and it is also your advice.

After familiarizing myself with the environment, I will completely choose to be alone to ensure that my time and thoughts are not too disturbed by the outside world.Only by enriching yourself and recognizing yourself can you determine what you can become.

I am a temporary squad leader now, and it doesn't matter whether I will go or stay in the end. The key is that I am thinking about and cultivating a certain ability that I lack.My scope of activities has been concretized, and my goals have been gradually clarified. In short, I try to live as simple and clear as possible.It's 6am and I'm finding it hard to sleep more than 6 hours, always being woken up by a pressing stress.And these are things that you cannot understand specifically.

This list-like letter is not written to you, but to myself. I am more inclined to the latter, focusing on the heart and expressing it—looking forward to understanding or empathy, rather than exhorting and showing off and always losing myself.

Only when a person realizes that he is an independent individual in the vast universe, will he discover that when he enriches and perfects himself, he will be strong and have individuality, and he will not have blind obedience and loss. This is my greatest achievement.

There is a saying: Excessive pursuit of perfection is an expression of lack of love.This sentence is undoubtedly suitable for my performance at the moment, and it is also the question I will think about next.

At the end, I will present a sentence from our school’s youth forum: Youth spirit includes lofty ideals, self-awareness and creativity, strong personality, positive critical spirit and sound cultural personality.

All my passwords are zero, which means that for me, everything starts from zero, and it also indicates a greater transcendence.

Cherish yourself, focus on yourself, don't lose yourself in loving and being loved! ! !
Ye Liang, class 3 of a certain university

**year month day

Ruochen felt uneasy and disappointed after reading the letter. She didn't wait for his second love letter. Talk to yourself.

At that time, the stupid Ruochen still didn't understand what Ye Liang expressed in the letter. What she didn't read was: Ye Liang is no longer what he used to be, and he is no longer the Ye Liang dragging behind the big troops , but has already strutted to the front of the team, ready to start his heroic, high-spirited march towards the goal.

Ruochen, who was originally at the front of the line, thought Ye Liang was behind the line, and occasionally turned around to encourage him to keep up with the line and walk forward side by side with her. Suddenly one day, Ruochen found that Ye Liang had finally walked up to her In front of her, she was very happy, thinking that she could walk side by side like this, but Ye Liang passed by in a flash, looked back at Ruochen, and continued to stride forward without saying goodbye. His goal at this time was not Walking down side by side with Ruochen, but at the forefront of the team, to be the leader of the team.

If Ruochen was smart enough to understand at that time, he should have rushed forward, even if he wanted to ask him, he should have asked him from the vanguard, instead of looking at Ye Liang's back alone and wondering He kept asking why, and when he didn't get a response, he used it as an excuse to give up on himself, decadent and depressed, and gradually fell behind in the team, getting farther and farther away from Ye Liang.

Ye Liang could no longer see or hear her crying, howling, or decadence, and would not look back at her position from time to time. At that moment, Ruochen felt abandoned by the whole world. In fact, Ye Liang was indifferent to him alone.

And Ruochen really didn't understand the last sentence of the letter. Why did Ye Liang say that suddenly? Could it be that she knew about her secret love and admiration for Xiao J?But there was never anything between them. To Ruochen, it was just that the little girl worshiped the bully unilaterally, and the two of them had never even met.In her heart, if it is called affection, the object is also him---Ye Liang!
Ruochen wanted to call him immediately to clarify, but he didn't leave the phone number of the dormitory.Ruochen had no choice but to write back, but she didn't mention anything beyond the last sentence, she wanted to ask him what it meant in person.

Ruochen waited for a month or two months, but didn't get a call from Ye Liang, nor did he get a reply. Her intuition told her that something must have happened.

(End of this chapter)