Youth Rebellion

Chapter 34 Ask the world what love is
Ruochen doesn't believe that her first love just ended so soon, and she doesn't want to believe that even if there is a breakup, it won't be so short, there must be a reason!
In the third month, Ruochen decided not to wait anymore, she went to Ye Liang's university to find him, and asked him what happened.

Just do what you say, early on Saturday morning, Ruochen got on the bus to the city where Ye Liang University is located. Along the way, she had a lot of thoughts and worries. She felt that she didn't understand Ye Liang anymore.

In the afternoon, I arrived at Ye Liang's university. Because it was the weekend, when Ruochen found his class according to the address on the envelope, Ye Liang was not in the class. His classmates suggested that Ruochen go to Ye Liang's dormitory. Chen then asked the specific address of the dormitory and searched for it. Unexpectedly, the administrator would not let him in. Ruochen had never been in a boys' dormitory before, and he didn't know the rules, so he didn't enter easily.

Seeing that she was alone at the door of the dormitory and refused to leave, the old administrator stopped a passing male classmate and asked him to ask if Ye Liang was in the dormitory.

After a while the boy came down and said that Ye Liang was not in the dormitory, maybe he went to the street or played basketball.

Ruochen thanked the boy and the administrator, asked all the way where the playground was, but did not see Ye Liang when he arrived at the playground, so at that moment, he really couldn't describe the feeling, with mixed feelings, and suddenly burst into tears.

But crying was useless, and it was impossible for Ye Liang to hear her cry, so she wiped away her tears and went back to Ye Liang's dormitory door to wait.

Many boys passing by looked at her with puzzled eyes, probably wondering why there is such a silly girl staring at the people coming in and out of the dormitory door so obsessively.

Ruochen didn't care about their strange gazes, her attention was all focused on the figure she was familiar with.

When it was getting dark, she finally saw that familiar figure and a male classmate coming from the front. The moment she entered the dormitory door, Ruochen wearily called out "Ye Liang"!Ye Liang looked back and saw Ruochen was stunned for a moment, and then walked towards Ruochen after saying a few words with the boy who was traveling with him.

"Why are you here?" Ye Liang asked.

Ruochen couldn't hold back anymore at this moment, and started crying.Ye Liang pulled her to a remote place on campus, let her cry enough and said, let's go eat first.

Ruochen obediently followed them to their cafeteria.After dinner, I went to Ye Liang's classroom, because it was the weekend and there was no one in the classroom.

Ruochen stared at Ye Liang and asked, "Why? Why is there no news suddenly?"

Ye Liang looked at Ruochen, but didn't answer directly, he changed the subject and said, "The end-of-semester exam is coming soon, why are you running here alone, be careful on the road."

Ruochen said angrily: "You don't have to worry about whether it's safe or not. I want to know why you suddenly cut off contact with me and became indifferent to me. I just want to know why?!"

Ye Liang actually said coldly: "There is no reason, maybe you will understand later."

Ruochen said angrily: "I don't want to understand later, I want to ask why now, what did I do wrong, what disgusted you, can you tell me frankly?"

Ye Liang still didn't speak, explain, or comfort.

Ruochen lost control of his emotions and said: "Is it true that you won't cherish it if you get it? I really guessed it. Haha, I'm so stupid to trust you so much!"

Ye Liang continued to remain silent, Ruochen really doubted that this was Ye Liang from a few months ago, could he be changed by some kind of magic power?Otherwise, when did his heart become so cold and hard? Could it be that he can't remember what he said? !

Ruochen shouted hysterically: "Why? Why? I just want you to have a reason, if you feel that I hinder your progress in life, then you can tell me, I will never pester you, I am not someone who begs for affection!"

After being silent for a long time, Ye Liang said: "I have nothing now, I even have to pay my own living expenses from my family, let alone control my own destiny, let alone guarantee a happy life for you in the future, you Give me ten years, okay?"

Ruochen had already lost her mind, so she didn't think about Ye Liang's words seriously, and said, "Isn't it just that I want to break up, isn't it that I don't even give a reason? Well, I don't want it anymore, let's share it, and I won't in the future." I will bother you again. Ten years, ten years later maybe my children will be playing soy sauce, who knows what the ending will be!! Can I trust you again? Let alone ten years, you are the same as you are now If you are different, how can you make me believe in you ten years later?!"

If Ruochen finished crying and walked out, Ye Liang grabbed her and said, "You are crazy, where are you going now in the middle of the night?!"

Ruochen broke away and cried, "Where you go is none of your business now!"

"I will stay with you in the classroom tonight, and you are not allowed to go anywhere until dawn tomorrow!" After finishing speaking, he locked the door of the classroom.

Ruochen lay down on the table and began to cry, Ye Liang sat in front of her, closed his eyes, neither spoke nor tried to comfort the crying Ruochen.

The two were sleepless and speechless all night.Before dawn, Ruochen asked Ye Liang to open the door and escape. This was already the case, and if he stayed for another minute, it would be an extra minute of suffering!
Ruochen thought a lot on the bus back home, and was so heartbroken that he couldn't breathe. It turned out that this lyrics felt like this!
She lost the feelings and men that maybe didn't belong to her, and she still didn't know why and how to deal with it. She watched the man disappear from her eyes, and walked forward with her poor self-esteem.

From then on, Ruochen became indifferent to his feelings and sealed up his love.

Ruochen said, my first love ended before it even started.

Later, Ruochen felt that this was not even considered first love, saying that in her youth, she only had poor crushes and being crushed, and the taste of love was gone before she had tasted it.

　Six years later, when Xiuwen changed to this point, his eyes are still moist.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)