Your warmth, my love

Chapter 190 It's Nice to Meet You in This Life

I really want to know the reason. I don't believe that the grievance between him and Zou Moyan is due to my existence. I really don't matter that much. Many times Lu Chengying does things that are so strange that people can't figure it out. "why?"

"Because when I saw him for the first time, he was like another me, a me who had not experienced any changes, and I felt that such a perfect man was either my friend or my enemy .”

What Lu Chengying said was calm and breezy, but these few words hit my heart very hard, I looked at Lu Chengying's proud face, stretched out my hand without hesitation, and slapped it.

'Snapped. '

Lu Chengying was stunned, I looked at him, and said loudly, "You ruined him, you ruined everything about him, and you ruined me too!"

"I saw Zou Moyan for the first time four years ago. I was waiting for you outside your get out of class when you were out of class. He had clear eyes and a stable personality. When the bell rang for the end of get out of class, you were the first to rush out and hold his arm." Arm, I will always remember that scene, Jiajia, at that time I remembered a sentence you said to me before, you said, Lu Chengying, I have a boyfriend, he is so tall and handsome, he is super nice to me... ..."

Lu Chengying spoke in a very relaxed tone, like an old friend recalling the past. I have long forgotten when Lu Chengying went to the United States. The scene he said is happening every day, and I can't tell which day it is .

"Just because Zou Moyan is perfect? ​​Just because he has clean eyes? He has no grievances or ties to you. How could you lock him up on that island? Do you know what kind of half a year he has endured?" , when he was rescued by He Changan, he was in extremely poor health! Almost died!!"

"I can see Zou Moyan's condition every day. I enjoy this feeling very much. I said that he is another me in the world. When he experienced family changes and was hurt in love, I felt that he It’s my friend, a friend who feels the same way as me, what I’m enduring is the inner torment, the inner pressure, I want him to accompany me, let him feel all this darkness!”

Lu Chengying's nonsense logic made me feel very speechless. Is it because of this, because he thought Zou Moyan was imagining him, so he imprisoned Zou Moyan?What is this thing!I cursed loudly: "You are sick."

"Yes, I am sick, schizophrenia, severe depression, and..." Lu Chengying looked at me, and gently stroked my eyebrows, "There is also a permanent illness."

I avoided Lu Chengying's touch, and took a step back, "Don't touch me."

"I have always respected you and will never force you." Lu Chengying withdrew his hand, and I looked at the pale fingertips without any affection, "Jiajia, a person who truly loves you knows how to cherish and respect you." You, rather than the kind of excessive demand for you, compared to Zou Moyan, I really have a conscience."

"Your conscience is to kill Aunt Cai, hurt my brother, kill Yu Xiaomai, kill Lao Yu, kill Chen Yutang, betray Li Nan, you hurt Zou Moyan, imprisoned Zou Moyun, and you indirectly Hurt Lu Xiaoxiao, and then force me to this road?"

"Then what are you going to do? Kill me?" Lu Chengying turned sideways to the side table and opened the drawer, and took out a disposable syringe inside. There was about ten milliliters of liquid in the syringe, which was transparent in color.

"The things that Zou Moyan likes to play may have originated from me. In the past six months, he was injected with a lot of similar drugs in the mental hospital and took a lot of mood-stabilizing pills. Jiajia, you keep saying that I am mentally ill, but you have Have you ever thought about it, isn't Zou Moyan mentally ill? Is everything about him logical and normal?"

"You mean, are you showing off to me what you did back then? Or are you reminding me of what kind of person Zou Moyan is?" I sneered, "Lu Chengying, don't talk about those meaningless things now, I treat you perverted I don't have any interest in my hobbies."

"Pervert? Zou Moyan will be so sad if he hears these two words." Lu Chengying approached me step by step, I didn't flinch, and when our clothes were tightly stuck together, I grabbed Lu Chengying's collar , glaring at him angrily, "What exactly do you want to do? Why did Zou Moyan go to the underground parking lot? Lu Chengying, what a big game of chess you played?"

"My chessboard is not big, you are the coach." Lu Chengying wanted to hug me, but I pushed him away. The place I pushed seemed to affect his wound. He frowned while covering his belly. I really took a big step Step back to the farthest position from him. "Jiajia, don't contradict me so much. Zou Moyan and He Changan should be trapped in the underground parking lot by my people. If they are good at fighting, they will probably find it here soon. But if they... are exhausted, they just go to the parking lot. In the emergency room, Gao Ziqian is waiting for him there."

"You really are" I stomped anxiously, "Zou Moyan let you go several times, but didn't kill you. How can you repay your kindness? You must know that the things you did to him are really not worth dying for. Zou Moyan has already decided to let go of those hatreds." Why are you still doing this to him?"

"Did you let go? Aren't you waiting for me to show my cards?" Lu Chengying looked at me, stood up and approached slowly, "You still don't know your man, and you don't know me, Jiajia, don't do it at a time like this. Talk about forgiveness, don't say let it go, the reason why Zou Moyan has not moved me is not because he wants to let go of these hatreds, but because he is waiting for me to make a move."

I was stunned. Although Zou Moyan said that he couldn't let go of the past, he didn't really want to do anything to Lu Chengying at this time. Otherwise, why would he send Lu Chengying to the hospital when he saw that Lu Chengying was injured? He just watched him die in the basement. Well, why bother?

"I know you don't believe it, but you have to believe what you see." Lu Chengying walked to the window and looked out the window, "Wait a minute, when Zou Moyan rushes in with someone, you should know, what I said Nothing is lying to you."

"It's not that important to lie to me or not to lie to me. I will choose to support and believe in whatever he does. After so many things, the most important thing between us is trust."

"What about us?"

I snorted coldly, "Other than the current antagonistic relationship, what else is left?",

"It was you who put me on your opposite side. You must know that I will always be on your side. It was you who pushed me out, Jiajia. In fact, all I have to do is to be good to you, even though sometimes I I used the wrong method, but my original intention was just because of my feelings for you. How I treated Zou Moyan and Aunt Cai in the middle have nothing to do with my feelings for you. It’s just that you just happen to know each other. .”

I happen to know each other, I happen to know each other well, is this how Lu Chengying defines my adoptive mother and my husband?

Such logical thinking really makes me want to kill him with one blow!

"I don't want to hear what you say, Lu Chengying, you are crazy now, what you say and do now are completely immersed in your own world, you are out of touch with us!"

"It's out of touch, because I will be from another world, Jiajia, you don't love me, I know, but I will let you remember me, and you will remember me for the rest of your life."

What Lu Chengying said was inexplicable, and I really couldn't figure it out. Everything he said now didn't sound like a normal person said. I ignored it, but I was worried in my heart. I didn't know what Zou Moyan was talking about. Condition.

"I know you're worried about Zou Moyan, but all of this is still in my plan, Jiajia, don't worry, he'll be here in ten minutes, trust me, I'll never lie to you."

At this time, Lu Chengying slowly approached me and hugged me from behind. His hands didn't move excessively, just wrapped my arms like that. I wanted to break free, but found that his strength was so strong that I couldn't do it at all. move.

At this moment, the sound of fighting started to come from outside, I knew it was Zou Moyan who came, and resisted more fiercely, but Lu Chengying still didn't let go of me, he was very calm, I guess it was because of the medicine he had just taken.

"Jiajia, in fact, I am a very simple person. When I want to eat candy, I can eat it. When I want to be with you, I just want to be with me. I don't have any wishes. I live very helplessly. Sometimes I wonder if my life is a dream"

Lu Chengying forcibly put the syringe into my palm, and he still hugged me tightly, "This is not a very happy dream, I thought I enjoyed those tormenting feelings, I thought I killed People will have a sense of accomplishment in their hearts, but I don't have it. I have been suffering from inner condemnation and those invisible pressures. I am very fragile. I have been walking alone in the dark night. In fact, I am very scared, really of"

What Lu Chengying said is very strange, the syringe is still in my hand, I want to throw it away, but Lu Chengying has already pulled off the cap on the syringe, "Jiajia, maybe I can only be quiet if I let you end all this Go away, maybe only you, I will not blame anyone"

After Lu Chengying said all this, he grabbed Wei's hand and stabbed his arm vigorously. I really didn't have any feeling or consciousness, and my hand didn't use any strength, but Lu Chengying held down my finger and put it on the plunger of the syringe. Above, finally said with a smile, "It's great to meet you in this lifetime."

"Lu Chengying, what's in here? Let go of me, you can't do this."

My resistance had no effect, Lu Chengying held down my finger, and slowly pushed the syringe down
(End of this chapter)