The days of cohabitation with gangster boyfriend

Chapter 97

In the end, he chose to forgive, chose to give up, and chose to use his letting go to fulfill my future! -
During these days, he hated and resented, but he would rather torture each other like this than leave him. -
He knew that without the bondage of hatred, I would not be willing to be by his side, so he tried every means. -
Threats, captivity, including marriage, he did all these, just so that I could stay by his side. -
But I made him think that I wanted to run away with Jing and leave him at all costs... -
I was wrong again! -
Since I stood in front of Jing and defended Jing desperately, I was giving up the last chance... -
I have never hated myself so much. If I could have half of his determination, half of tolerance, even half of his affection, we would not be what we are today. -
Therefore, I am doomed to always pass by the happiness that is at my fingertips! -
Jing hugged me who was sitting on the road blankly, and said to me: "Beibei, forget about him! Your life has just begun." -
Just started?How do I feel that I have experienced all the pain that can be experienced in life. -
The physical pain and the huge mental blow, I couldn't bear it anymore, and fainted in Jing's arms. -
Now I finally understand Dai Xichen's meaningful words: the most intolerable thing in love is deception. -
Without trust, the relationship between us is so fragile! -
Sitting in the coffee shop, I saw his car approaching from a distance. I leaned over the glass window and looked around vigorously, for fear of missing any expression or movement of him. -
Like every day, he didn't get out of the car quickly. He waited until the bodyguards in the two cars behind ran up and opened the door for him. Then he got out of the car, squeezed the cigarette between his fingers, and threw it away. -
I carefully touched his figure through the glass with my fingers...until he walked into the magnificent building. -
I used to be able to wait for him and hold him openly, but now it has become so extravagant to peek at him from a distance. -
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A few days ago, I went home to find him, and the guard said that he had explained: I was not allowed to enter the gate again. -
Seeing the guard's face full of embarrassment, I had no choice but to sit on the stone steps beside me and wait. -
In the evening, a few people came out carrying a lot of things, and threw them on the garbage dump not far away...-
That evening, the early autumn wind blew through my thin dress. -
I knelt and sat on the ground trembling, and carefully picked up the things in front of the dustbin with tears in my eyes. -
The paintings he once cherished, the withered flowers of the other shore, the broken orange lamp, and the sheets we slept on... -
Let him throw away everything that is full of my precious memories like garbage. -
I have never seen such a man who can afford and let go. -
He told me in such a decisive way that no one can stop what he wants to do, and similarly, no one can change what he doesn't want to do. -
Now that he has decided, I should respect it. -
Love him, just as he wishes, never let him see... -
When I left, I reluctantly turned my head and forgot to glance at my window. The lace curtains were gone. -
An empty room is like our empty life. -
On the road I walked thousands of times, I moved my stinging ankle step by step... -
The doctor said that I had injured my ankle when I was a child. This time, the old injury recurred and I was stimulated repeatedly. It is unlikely that I will fully recover. -
Thinking of the situation when I was injured when I was a child, what else can I do but smile wryly. -
Hatred is just like a bone wound. When it doesn't hurt, you forget it. -
But you don't know when it will remind you of its wounds with stings. You can numb the pain with stolen happiness, but you can't deny its existence... -
He is right not to believe me, I can pick up the knife after the passion, who can guarantee that I won't pick up the gun in his heart again in the middle of the night many years later? ! -
Perhaps separation is the best relief for me. -
Eternal life is gone, let love and hate be buried slowly with time... -
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(End of this chapter)