The days of cohabitation with gangster boyfriend

Chapter 98

"Does it make sense to look at him like this?" At some point, Jing sat across from me. -
I also know it doesn't make sense, I'm trying to control myself, but I really miss him. -
I opened my eyes and wanted to go downstairs and have breakfast with him ;-
Wherever I go, I want to go home;-
Every night I do nothing, sit in a strange room, wait for him on a strange sofa, thinking that I will never see him again, I don't want to spend the next day at all... -
So I can only come here every day, watch him come from a distance, and watch him go. -
Jing held my hand and wrapped it in the palm of his hand: "Beibei, I have already contacted the best orthopedic doctor for you, and the air ticket... I have bought it, next Monday." -
"He's been in a bad mood recently, very bad! I'm worried about him." I was still looking at the door where he disappeared. -
"how do you know?"-
"When he is in a bad mood, he always chooses a dark shirt subconsciously. These days he wears black... He is a person with good self-control. What others see is his decisiveness. In fact, he also has conflicts and struggles. Sometimes...when something makes it difficult for him to make a decision, he will light a cigarette, put it on his lips and inhale slowly...when he has made a decision, he will pinch the cigarette out with his fingers..." -
"Forget about him." -
"My biggest concern is that when he comes home at night, there is no one waiting for him..." -
I withdrew my hand, picked up the pen at hand, and carefully wrote on the coffee pad that had been blurred by me: "Chen, I love you! I'm waiting for you!" -
I don’t know how many times I’ve written it. Anyway, the words overlap, and it’s all dark blue. No one can see what’s written on it except me... -
In fact, what Dai Xichen said is right, love is not something you say with your mouth, let alone something you think about in your heart. -
For him, my love for him is not worth my hatred for him, nor my protection of Jing. -
Compared with his love for me, my insignificant love is not worthy of swearing it out! -
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Before going abroad, I went back to our home again. -
The security guard still said the same thing: "I'm sorry, he doesn't allow you to enter this door again."-
"I know." I handed him the CD that I recorded all night: "Please give this to Mrs. Li for me, and tell Mrs. Li: If he is in a bad mood, play it to him." -
That's the piano I play, it's all very soothing music, and it's also the music he likes to listen to when he's in a bad mood. -
Whether he needs it or not, it's the only thing I can do for him. -
As I left, I took one last look at the villa where we had lived for more than eight years. -
It is so gorgeous! -
I never looked at it carefully before, because I only had eyes for him. -
People are so ridiculous sometimes. -
I used to think that cream cakes were not tasty, but now I think back to the cake I ate with tears on my birthday, it was all sweet...-
I can't go back to the happiest moment, but it's good to go back to the night of my birthday, at least I can still see him every day and hear his footsteps... -
After walking a long distance, I looked back at the window of his study, facing the glare of the sun, I couldn't see clearly inside...-
But I can feel his eyes—helpless determination. -
I raised my head to keep the tears from streaming down, leaving him with one last smile. -
"I'm gone! I won't show you again! If that's what you want..." -
"I just beg you, don't miss me..." -
...-
When I walked into the security checkpoint, I was still reluctant to look at every corner of the airport again. -
Knowing that he won't come, I still can't let go of that unrealistic fantasy. -
You don't need to keep me, just let me take another look from a distance and let me know if the color of your shirt is beige... -
Turned around in frustration, took a deep breath, and followed Jing step by step towards the boarding gate... -
From now on, I will face my life alone. -
future?Something no one can predict, so let people have expectations! -
When I was with him, I never planned for my future. For me, the future was a dream too far away. -
After leaving him, in the agony of despair, I suddenly realized that I had nothing left, only the future! -
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Time is really a wonderful thing, no matter how deep a wound can be healed, even the heart-piercing pain can be smoothed away... -
(End of this chapter)