windy daydream

Chapter 3 Zhai Xinyue
Name: Zhai Xinyue
Pen name: Ye Jinmian
Age: 13 years old

Constellation: Libra
I like--

Beverage: milk tea

food: sweets

animal: cat

Stars: Milk Coffee, BY2
Biggest wish: Of course, all wishes come true

coward who plays the piano
"Xiaoxiao, are you planning to make a show at the Christmas party?" On the way home, I still asked this sentence.

The atmosphere of Christmas has become more and more intense. The shops in the commercial street have advertised Christmas promotions and put up tall and beautiful Christmas trees.Even the small shop in front of the school began to sell shiny little bells, small Christmas trees, red Christmas hats and Santa Claus dolls.Even in our music classroom, the singing of "Silent Night" echoed.

The cultural and entertainment committee members and some activists began to plan the Christmas party in the class. "This time we must have an amazing party", these are the original words of the entertainment committee.

This is not a joke, even an outsider like me has already felt the importance they attach to this event: not only went to the music teacher to borrow the multifunctional classroom, but also spent a large amount of class fees to purchase things to decorate the classroom—— Ribbons, snowflakes, stickers... There is a big bag.In addition, the cultural and entertainment committee members who have always been a little arrogant came to our desks and asked one by one, "What show will be performed?"

"Xiang Kui, what show are you going to perform?" When the cultural and entertainment committee member walked up to me, I wanted to say "piano solo" confidently, but when I got to my mouth, my throat was blocked, and I couldn't swallow it. It's not like vomiting, so I had to turn it into a very meaningless "I haven't thought about it yet, so I'll tell you tomorrow, okay?"

"Well... I haven't made up my mind yet." Nan Xiao turned his face and said.

Nan Xiao is my best friend, we have been inseparable, even going to the bathroom together.

"Hmm..." I mulled over a sentence in my stomach, "Do you want to play the piano?"

Coincidentally, Nan Xiao and I both started learning piano since we were young.

Nan Xiao pursed her lips and smiled: "Hehe, I think I'd better forget about it! A timid person like me will definitely have stage fright if he goes on stage to perform!"

"How about we play with four hands?" Suddenly an idea popped into my mind.

"Oh, no need, I really get stage fright. When I think of the dark crowd under the stage, I'm scared to death. If I get nervous on the stage, I might forget the score on the spot! Thinking about the situation is terrible and affects It will be bad for you." Nan Xiao thought for a moment, but still refused, "Xiaokui, you should go solo."

"I don't dare!" I shook my head and waved my hands again.

"En." Nan Xiao responded, and stopped talking.

I turned my head and looked at Nan Xiao's profile flushed by the setting sun.

When I got home, I didn't even do my homework, so I hurriedly lifted the cover of the piano and played "Adilina by the Water", which I couldn't be more familiar with.

The wonderful melody immediately echoed in my small bedroom, and I gradually became intoxicated with it, and a beautiful picture slowly emerged in front of my eyes...

After playing the last note with endless interest, my thoughts slowly pulled away from the music.

Alas, I obviously played this song very well, but I still didn't have the courage to sign up for the performance, so I could only keep procrastinating and procrastinating until the deadline for registration.This happens every time!From entering elementary school until now, I have never had a chance to perform on stage, even if it was only at the party in the class...

I bit my lip a little annoyed.

"Xiang Kui, you can't be so timid anymore! You must show yourself bravely and let others notice!" I said in my heart.

Muster the courage
When I came to the school the next day, I subconsciously looked at the seat of the cultural and entertainment committee member, alas, she hasn't come yet.

Be sure to sign up today!I cheer myself up.

After a morning reading class, I have been absent-minded, always paying attention to the position of the cultural and entertainment committee.

Why are you in such a hurry!I scolded myself in my heart.

When the morning reading get out of class was about to end, the cultural and entertainment committee members came late. I just wanted to go to sign up, but the cultural and entertainment committee members were surrounded by several girls and began to chat about the decoration of the Christmas party.

The courage he had just mustered up disappeared in this instant.I was very disappointed.

"Xiaoxiao, are you really not going to play four-handed music with me?"

To be honest, I feel really conflicted.I'd love to play a piece by myself instead of playing some four-hands.However, I suspect that I really don't have the guts to go solo.It will be better if you have girlfriends to fight together.

Alas, I'm not sure whether I want Nan Xiao to agree to me, or to reject me.

"Hey, it's really unnecessary! Xiaokui, you will definitely play well!" Nan Xiao said with a smile.

A complex mood flashed through my mind: a little disappointed, but also a little relieved.

"Hey, then I won't perform anymore! I dare not perform alone!" I said to Nan Xiao.

In fact, I still want to sign up in my heart.

I frowned slightly, alas, what happened to me?
"Mom, do you think I should sign up?" At the dinner table, I asked my mother a little distressed while poking the rice grains in the bowl with chopsticks.

"Of course it's up to you." Mom said, "If you want to report, please report!"

I feel a little lost, actually, I want my mother to encourage me, say something like "Report, you play the piano very well" or "You play the piano well, you have to show your confidence".However, I didn't expect that she just said an ambiguous sentence.

"Then, Mom..." I hesitated for a while, "Do you think I can sign up to play the piano?"

"Okay." Mom replied briefly.

"Oh..." I sighed helplessly, and then settled the dinner in threes and fives.

I went back to my little room, lifted the lid of the piano, and danced my ten fingers on the black and white keys. A smooth and beautiful melody flowed from my fingertips. The irritability and stress of the day disappeared at this moment, and I just devoted myself to it. In the performance of the piano, every note is so full of vitality and emotion.

"It's really good!" At some point, my mother was already leaning against the door of the room. After I finished playing a piece, she praised sincerely, "It's really good! Not only skillful, but also full of emotion!"

Listening to my mother's praise, my heart has already floated to the clouds.Since my mother said it played well, it must not be so bad!I thought, showing a bright smile to my mother and to myself.

The courage that had disappeared during the day suddenly gathered together again.Tomorrow, I must register!
The black and white keys of the piano glow softly under the light.I was full of anticipation.

Nanxiao's lie
"Hi!" I walked to the side of the cultural and entertainment committee member who was doing homework at his desk and shouted.

"Huh? Xiang Kui, are you okay?"

"Well, I want to sign up." I smiled at her.

The cultural and entertainment committee member took out a piece of paper from his school bag, it should be the program list. "Well, what's the show?" The cultural and entertainment committee member picked up his pen and asked me.

"I'm acting..." I was about to say it, but I suddenly stopped, dumbfounded.I saw the words "Nan Xiao: Piano Solo" clearly written on that piece of white paper.

What?Nanxiao!She actually signed up!Didn't she say she would have stage fright?Didn't she say she didn't dare to go on stage?She used such a reason to reject my request to play four-hands with her, and then even reported for a solo by herself!

I bit my lip hard.

"Xiang Kui, what are you performing?" Seeing that I hadn't spoken for a long time, the Cultural and Entertainment Commissioner raised his head and asked me strangely.

"Sorry, I won't perform anymore." After I finished speaking, I rushed out of the classroom.

The cool air outside cleared my mind a little.

Oh, I want to understand, completely understand!

It turns out that words like "stage fright", "timid" and "will affect you" are all excuses, and they are all Nan Xiao's clumsy excuses!She refused to play four hands with me, just to let her play alone, so as to get the effect of "attracting attention"!

It turned out that my so-called "best friend" lied to me. If I didn't find out today, I'm afraid she would have more excuses to make her look innocent!
Nan Xiao, I see through you!I will break up with you from now on!
I clenched my fists secretly.

in a bad mood

After all, I didn't have the courage to get angry at Nan Xiao, I've always been a cowardly person.And, I know, getting angry will do me no good.Because my eloquence is poor, I always lose when I quarrel with others.

But it doesn't mean that I will compromise and continue to be friends with Nan Xiao. I started to alienate her, don't talk to her, and avoid her everywhere.

Nan Xiao and I, one sitting in the first group and the other sitting in the fourth group, were not very close to each other, so my "cold war plan" was successfully implemented until after school in the afternoon.

I packed my schoolbag and walked out of the classroom, feeling a sudden sense of loss in my heart.

For the whole day, I was alone, and Nan Xiao, she didn't come to chat with me, as if she didn't notice my "cold war" at all.

I lowered my eyes and let the wind blow across my cheeks, making my hair slightly messy.I stopped in my tracks, and wanted to call Nan Xiao to go with me, and I wanted to speak clearly with her on the way, maybe I can forget about the previous deception!Really, I can act like it never happened!I took a deep breath, and the word "Xiaoxiao" was ready to come out of my mouth.

"Nan Xiao!" The cultural and entertainment commissioner's soft voice sounded, forcing me to swallow the words that just came to my mouth.

"Nan Xiao, what would you like to write on the blackboard during the party?" The cultural and entertainment committee member walked over and took Nan Xiao's arm affectionately, with a beautiful and touching smile.

The scene in front of me deeply hurt my heart, and various thoughts surged in my heart.

"Write 'Merry Christmas' in artistic characters, and then write 'Merry Christmas' in English." Nan Xiao answered the words naturally, and his words were full of confidence, not at all like when he waved his hands and said "I will have stage fright" that day shy.

"What style should I use for the calligraphy?" The cultural and entertainment committee member tilted his head, his eyes full of playfulness.

I bit my lower lip hard.

"Xiang Kui, don't be so worthless! Nan Xiao has a lot of friends and doesn't care about you at all! Don't be so humble!" I told myself over and over in my heart, and then forced myself to turn my head and leave.

In the evening, after finishing my homework, I lifted the cover of the piano and played the well-known "Adilina by the Water" again.For some reason, the melody and notes that I had been practicing for a long time suddenly turned into a naughty little doll, running around between my fingers without listening, and could hardly make up the original melody.

I forced myself to continue practicing, but my thoughts had already flown elsewhere, so that a piece of music was played intermittently, which was extremely unpleasant.

I simply closed the piano cover heavily, feeling terrible.

The day of the Christmas party was getting closer and closer, and as the date approached, besides the cultural and entertainment committee members, there was also Nan Xiao.

Every time between classes, Nan Xiao would get together with the cultural and entertainment committee members to discuss the matter of the party enthusiastically.As for Nan Xiao's position in it, it doesn't seem like she's just playing tricks, and it can even be said to be the backbone.

My heart was filled with jealousy and resentment, but there was nothing I could do.

No, I won't just let it go!I won't let people be deceived casually!
evil revenge

An evil idea took shape in my mind.This idea came to me inadvertently when I was practicing the piano.

There are three pedals under the piano, and one in the middle can play the effect of weakening the sound.In other words, as long as you press that pedal, the sound of the piano will become very low. Of course, if you want to restore the sound, you only need to press it again.

If I step on the middle pedal before Nan Xiao's performance, then the sound of the piano will be adjusted to a very weak state.The music classroom is so big, you probably can't hear it, so her performance will definitely be very embarrassing.

It is simple to implement and not easy to detect.Such an ingenious plan actually gave me a chill.

The thoughts in my heart became complicated again, with both faint excitement and faint anxiety.If this is done, Nan Xiao's performance will be a mess, that's for sure.Thinking of this, I was a little happy, and a sneer appeared on the corner of my mouth.

Nan Xiao, this is the retribution you deserve!
"Next, the piano solo performed by student Nan Xiao."

There was warm applause in the classroom, and while I applauded, I looked at Nan Xiao who walked onto the stage gracefully with a gloating expression.

The moment Nan Xiao put his hand on the piano, time seemed to freeze.I hold my breath.

He didn't hear any sound of the piano, Nan Xiao was obviously in a hurry, and pressed the keys harder, but it still didn't help.

The discussion in the audience was getting louder and louder, Nan Xiao was at a loss like an ant on a hot pot.

I smiled schadenfreude.

But suddenly, Nan Xiao left from the piano and shouted, "It was Xiang Kui who tampered with the piano!"

Nan Xiao's shout immediately stirred up waves.

"So it's Xiang Kui's fault!"

"Aren't they good friends?"

"I didn't expect Xiang Kui's heart to be so sinister!"

Nan Xiao rushed to the stage, pointed at the bridge of my nose and started cursing. All the classmates helped Nan Xiao speak, and I couldn't argue with it.

I felt black in front of my eyes and fainted...

"Xiaokui, wake up!" Mom woke me up.

"Ah?" I woke up in a daze, in front of me was a familiar room, and my mother who woke me up.

Oh, it turned out to be a dream!I breathed a sigh of relief.

But fortunately, a wave of uneasiness surged in my heart: what is going on with this dream?Could it be a bad omen?If it is really like in the dream, my tricks are discovered and pointed out, what should I do?
Bury the hatchet
I followed the flow of people and came to the music classroom.

The students who were going to perform were discussing something around the entertainment committee, while everyone else was choosing seats.

It's a great opportunity!Now step on the pedal, no one will find out!
I took a deep breath, still conflicted in my heart.Go, it will be bad if you are found out, don't go, I really can't swallow this breath.

I finally took a step and walked towards the shiny black piano.

Slowly stopping in front of the piano, in order to cover up, I pressed the keys on the piano casually, hoping that others would think I was just playing the piano.And my left foot slowly moved towards the pedal, guessing to find the second pedal.I raised my head vigilantly, looked around, well, no one noticed me now.

Put your feet on the pedals, step on them, and it only takes a second.

In just one second, Nan Xiao's piano solo can be messed up.

Just as I was about to step on it, the dream I had last night came back to my mind, and the scene in the dream played back clearly in my mind.Thinking of this, my hands trembled.

"Little Kwai."

It's Nan Xiao's voice!I was shocked, she...wouldn't have found me!

I turned my head tremblingly, and Nan Xiao was smiling at me.

Oh, it's okay.From the looks of it, Nan Xiao didn't notice.

"Ah, Nan Xiao." My tongue was not so sharp, "Are you performing a piano solo today?"

I just wanted to talk to her and divert her attention so I could put the pedal down.

"Well, yes." Nan Xiao smiled at me sincerely.It was that smile that made my vigorous feet stop suddenly.

That smile is so familiar and warm, just like the good times I spent with Nan Xiao in the past, it warms my heart when I think of it.

"Uh..." I hesitated and didn't know what to say.

"Xiao Kui," Nan Xiao paused, seemingly making some great determination, "I'm sorry."

"Huh?" I was stunned.

"I'm really sorry. I lied to you that day. I lied to you that day when you asked me if I wanted to play the piano. In fact, I had already signed up that day. It's just that I was afraid that you would know that I was going to play the piano. Sign up to join me... So, I lied." Nan Xiao said guiltily, "You said you wanted to play four-handed music with me, but I refused. Because—I know, you will despise me— —I want to show off. It's that simple reason. I don't want someone to steal my spotlight. You and I are the only ones in the class for piano lessons, and if you don't act, then I can take the spotlight. I know you're timid, I don't necessarily dare to sign up for a solo, so I deliberately said some "what ifs" that you will encounter on stage, just to scare you so that you don't dare to sign up. I hope that the cultural and entertainment committee can use my program as the finale. But almost everyone Everyone hopes that their show will be the finale, so, for this matter, I approached the cultural and entertainment commissioner and gave her advice, hoping that she would meet my request."

As Nan Xiao talked, he lowered his head: "I know, you will definitely not forgive me. Because I am so hateful, I am a villain who is greedy for fame and fortune. In order to show off, I actually deceived my best friend. I'm so sorry..." Nan Xiao bit her lip in pain.

I was overwhelmed by Nan Xiao's long speech.

Actually, Nan Xiao and I are really similar.Why am I not like her, hoping to be in the limelight and being noticed?At that time, I invited Nan Xiao to play with four hands, but didn't I still think in my heart that it would be best to play solo?Also, why was I so angry when I learned that Nan Xiao had submitted a solo?Was it really just because of Nan Xiao's deception?Also, I later planned such revenge, probably because of jealousy, right?
I was suddenly filled with self-blame.Since I have the same idea, what right do I have to accuse others?
"Nan Xiao...Actually, you don't have to blame yourself so much..." I paused, "I forgive you!"

"Really?" Nan Xiao's melancholy eyes suddenly turned bright.

I didn't speak, just nodded with a smile.

"Xiao Kui, would you like me to play the song for you?" Nan Xiao asked with a smile.

"Yeah!" I nodded vigorously.

The song is over.Nan Xiao raised her face and said, "Xiaokui, do you think the piano is amazing? The black keys and white keys are so close together, only one semitone apart, but the white keys sound clear and loud, while the black keys sound a bit muffled." gone."

"Yes." I nodded and held Nan Xiao's hand while smiling.

The keyboard of the piano glows softly under the light.

end

There will always be shadows in friendship, and all kinds of suspicion and jealousy will make friendship no longer warm.But as long as we can understand each other, we will always return to a beautiful appearance.

Just like the black and white keys of a piano, in fact, the crisis and warmth of friendship are not separated by thousands of miles.They are very close, but the feeling is very different.But as long as there is a little tolerance for each other, in a blink of an eye, the sadness of the black key will become the clarity of the white key!

Lonely bear soul secret

What turned two close friends into two unhappy lonely bears with pursed mouths and frowning brows?

If you are smart, many answers will pop up in your head: it is jealousy, it is jealousy, it is timidity, it is selfishness...

Read these words again, and you will find that these answers do not point to others, but to our own inner world.It is because I have a grudge in my heart that I take the initiative to alienate and choose to be alone.

So, you suddenly realize that loneliness is our own choice. The reason for loneliness is not that others are not good enough, but that you are not considerate and tolerant.

I really like the last sentence of the novel: "As long as you show a little tolerance to each other, the sadness of the black key will become the clarity of the white key in a blink of an eye!" Getting out of loneliness is just a matter of a blink of an eye, and it is not difficult.

(End of this chapter)