In this world, the only Mr. Warm
Chapter 10 Peel off the fake face, scars are everywhere
Chapter 10 Peel off the fake face, scars are everywhere
The days seem to be slowly slipping through such repetitions, so calm that there are no unnecessary things.Like her previous life in Melbourne, simplicity seemed to be addictive.
It wasn't until the last time when he came back from Chengtu's place and saw Xiao Sui at the door of his house that Chi Qiaoqi suddenly remembered that such a long time had passed.
Xiao Sui saw her, and greeted her with a smile, "The old man moved back from the mansion tomorrow, so I'll pick you up."
All the narrations, including the emotions, were so appropriate, and she was as gentle as before all this happened.
Chi Qiaoqi nodded and kept as calm as Xiao Sui, "Okay, then wait for me."
The moment he turned around, a little sourness flashed across his heart, and finally he couldn't restrain the grievances that seemed to gather in an instant.
He didn't come.
Although asking Xiao Sui to pick her up would be the best choice.But in her heart, the person she hopes most is him, and only him.
She is studying hard, showing courage that even she can't imagine, to face those rotten memories in her body.Just to face him normally at this moment.
She thought that this kind of recovery was much better than any verbal explanation.
But he couldn't see it after all.
Chi Qiaoqi's luggage has never been too much, which is a habit she has gotten used to.Never put too much emotion into one place, or you will always be hurt when you leave.Even here is the closest place to her.
Chi Qiaoqi left everything in the attic inside, locked it, and no one else would disturb him again.Here for the time being, she doesn't want anyone but her to know.
After everything was packed, Chi Qiaoqi smiled slightly at Xiao Sui, "Let's go."
Along the way, Chi Qiaoqi chatted with Xiao Sui a lot.
Xiao Sui is always good at finding topics, one topic gets a little cold, and another topic is brought up inadvertently.But if you think about it carefully, it is always irrelevant.
He just didn't want her to be too deserted.
Xiao Sui still sent Chi Qiaoqi back to Weiting Xiaozhu, with a natural expression, and couldn't find a single bit of the answer she was looking for.
Chi Qiaoqi finally couldn't help it, "Is he okay?"
It's just three words, nothing else is mentioned, but it's impossible for Xiao Sui not to understand.
Finally, Xiao Sui didn't hide anymore, and smiled faintly, as if he was very happy, but at the same time he seemed very relieved, "When you see him again, you can ask him yourself."
Chi Qiaoqi was a little relieved, which meant that at least she could still see him.
So, I waved goodbye to Xiao Sui, and my mood finally became clearer.
Xiao Sui stood by the car, stopped hesitantly, looked up at her, "Be nice to him."
It was not Xiao Sui who came to pick up Chi Qiaoqi the next day.
The driver who came to pick her up when she came back from Melbourne drove very steadily and didn't talk much.He sent her there, but still led her to Mama Feng at the door.Very measured, like last time.
It has been a month since the last time I came, but nothing seems to have changed.
Mama Feng was still waiting on the steps. When she saw Chi Qiaoqi coming, she went down to the second step and greeted her with a stretched smile. "Long time no see, Miss Chi."
Chi Qiaoqi took two steps quickly, followed Mama Feng's direction and shook hands with her, "Hello."
Mama Feng led Chi Qiaoqi in, and handed her tea as usual. The warm red dates and wolfberries seemed to be sweetened with honey.
Chi Qiaoqi gulped down half a cup, declined Mama Feng's invitation to add more tea, Wei Wei urgently said, "Let's go in."
The moment before stepping into the back room, Chi Qiaoqi had some certain expectations that there would be two people inside.
Two people, two cups of tea, a game of chess.The sound of the moves is clean and crisp, and the chess surface is sticky and dense.as usual.
However, when the door was pushed open, Chi Qiaoqi realized that it wasn't.Mr. Jane stood alone in front of the window, and when he heard her coming in, he just turned around lightly, sat down on the chair in front of the table as before, and did nothing else.
The chair beside him was empty, and there was only a cup of steaming tea on the table, without another corresponding one, and there was no chessboard that had been set or even started.
Perhaps the tea just now was a little too hot. At this moment, Chi Qiaoqi suddenly felt a little numb on the tip of his tongue.And this kind of numbness is starting to spread in her body from the tip of her tongue little by little, wanton and undisguised, as if to swallow her up.
Even though he had prepared, planned, and even planned worse than this, Chi Qiaoqi still felt that something in his heart had collapsed.She seemed to be able to hear very small sounds.They echo each other in every part of the body, until the whole body is covered with tiny cracks.
She doesn't know what pain is.But she can be sure that at this moment, in her heart, that ashes-like feeling will hurt more than pain.
In the next second, Jian Yiwei had noticed Chi Qiaoqi's daze.After pausing for a while, seeing that her eyes still hadn't shifted in the slightest, she raised her voice slightly, "What's missing?"
"No." Chi Qiaoqi smiled subtly, and walked to the specially prepared basin to wash his hands, "I'm just counting the moxibustion time for each acupuncture point."
Regardless of whether Mr. Jane believed in such an unnatural statement or not, he did not pursue it after all.
Chi Qiaoqi slowly washed his hands, as if in a school class, the teacher explained in detail the cleaning part of the pre-operation preparations.
The water was warm, and it even warmed her hands with stiff joints a little bit.Very comfortable, there will be a kind of breath that makes people very greedy.It's like the long-lasting warmth that exists in the palm of the hand after the hands are clasped.
The preparation work was extended to almost twice as long as before, and Jian Yiwei did not urge too much. Chi Qiaoqi also adjusted his emotions many times during the period, and finally took the first needle.
Hands up and down, it seems to be the same as usual.But it was just a slight hesitation in the subconscious that was almost negligible. When Chi Qiaoqi gave the needle, Jian Wei frowned slightly.
Soon, very shallow, he did not say.
But Chi Qiaoqi caught it in time, and when he paid attention to it, the second injection became more difficult.I squeezed my two fingers for a long time, but I still couldn't find the right feel.
Maybe it shouldn't be forced, before it gets worse.Chi Qiaoqi hesitated for a few seconds, and finally decided to confess, "I'm sorry, Jane..."
The words seemed to be able to be uttered completely with a little effort, but Chi Qiaoqi was keenly aware of a trace of redundant sound at the moment when the words were about to blurt out.It's very subtle, but because she has been waiting, she pays extra attention.
Sure enough, when she paused, the door was knocked twice, and then slowly opened.
Chi Qiaoqi couldn't help looking over.
It's Mama Feng.Holding a wooden tray, she walked over slowly and gently placed a cup of tea on the corner of the table.
Even though it was a very familiar face, it was not the one she missed day and night after all.Inexplicable disappointment, one after another, until all her hopes were sucked into a dark and cold space little by little.It's like a dancer dressed up to welcome, after preparing a dance that can conquer the whole world, waiting with joy for the moment to meet the stage again and again, but never having any chance to go on stage until he gets old.
Chi Qiaoqi took a deep breath, pursed his lips tightly, and forced all his longing and grievances into a corner.This is not a suitable occasion, and she can be allowed to express her emotions, especially at this moment, Mr. Jane is still by her side.
But she really missed him, as if she had never missed a person like this.After such a trace of emotion, Chi Qiaoqi finally couldn't hold back his tears, regardless of the occasion.
At this moment, she has no time to think about how to face Mr. Jane's inexplicable or even inquiries after this.Maybe she was still not indifferent and strong enough, but at the moment of complete disappointment, her tears were almost uncontrollable.
With tears in his eyes, Chi Qiaoqi suddenly heard Mama Feng's faint voice, "Sir, the young master is here."
Feng Ma spoke very softly, and she was already standing a little close to the door, so she really didn't hear it very clearly.It seems to be speaking to the outside, but it really seems to step into the warm sunshine in an instant.
Chi Qiaoqi wiped away his tears in a panic, and the next second his vision was clear, Jian Yanzuo's figure appeared at the door.
His voice was still not too loud, but she heard it all, "It's a long way, so I came back late."
Then he came over, put the box in his hand flat on the table, and opened it lightly, "The chess you liked before, I hope it's not too late."
From the beginning to the end, Jian Yanzuo didn't make any extra moves.However, he slowly brought Chi Qiaoqi's soul into his body bit by bit.
Very simple chessboard and chess pieces, I don't see much to like.Due to the accumulation of age, the chessboard has a somewhat old taste.Although the chess pieces are round, they look more and more like the ones they used before.
But looking at the obvious joy in Mr. Jane's eyes, it seems that he has acquired something he likes very much.He held the chess box in his hand, stroking it with his thumb, and said with a smile in his voice, "It's rare for you to remember."
Mama Feng was originally standing by the door, but when she heard what Mr. Jian said, she quickly walked over and laid out the chessboard, one on each side of the two chess boxes, and lifted the lid after they sat down.
Obviously no one spoke, but the chess game unfolded without any intention.The crisp sound of falling pieces quickly followed one another, slowly filling the chessboard.
Chi Qiaoqi's eyes fell on the chessboard for a long time, and it wasn't until Mama Feng came over and reminded her slightly that she suddenly realized that she was still clinging to the needle.
This counted as a mistake, but fortunately she corrected it quickly.After the second stitch, the feeling I had been looking for for a long time finally came back, and the stitches went smoothly.
It seems that it is really a psychological effect, she can clearly feel the power from the heart, that kind of prosperity.
Chi Qiaoqi lit the moxa sticks little by little, and began to moxibustion each acupuncture point one by one.
The smoke from the moxa spread quickly, and the special smell gradually diffused into the surrounding air.As time went on, it became more and more intense.
Maybe it was because of the smoke, but Jian Yan Zuo gradually started coughing.In the beginning, there were only three or two indirect beeps, but soon they became tense once.In the end, he stopped the movement he was about to make, covered his mouth slightly with a handkerchief, and began to turn his back. The coughing sound did not stop for a long time.
Chi Qiaoqi quickly finished the last acupuncture point, and the moxa sticks in the moxibustion box finally burned out.
Under Jian Yiwei's gesture, Chi Qiaoqi stood up, walked to Jian Yan's left and stood still, his voice lowered slightly, "Mr. Jian is not feeling well?"
When he said this, Chi Qiaoqi obviously felt that his tone was a little weak.She clearly knew the reason for all this, and because she understood, she had countless things to say.But at this moment, she has no better way.
Finally, Jian Yanzuo's cough stopped.The handkerchief moved away slightly, and the voice was obviously hoarse, "It's not in the way, I just have a cold."
After speaking, he sat up normally and turned around, cleared his throat slightly, picked up the tea cup and took a shallow sip.However, it seemed that just before he swallowed it, he coughed violently, forcing him to turn his back again.
Chi Qiaoqi clenched her hands tightly and restrained herself for a long time before hiding all her worries in her lowered eyebrows.
Jian Yan was still holding the teacup in his left hand, and while tilting his head and coughing, he fumbled to close the lid of the cup, trying hard to put the teacup back in place.Because his body was shaking a bit, there was a slight sound from the cup lid and the cup, making his hands tremble more and more.
Chi Qiaoqi finally couldn't help it, and took the teacup from his hand, "Mr. Jian, I..."
"Help me change a cup of tea." Jian Yan spoke from the left, restraining herself from pronouncing every word, "Thank you."
After speaking, he covered his mouth with the handkerchief again and didn't look at her again.Although it was a request, Chi Qiaoqi clearly sensed the irresistibility in the words.
Chi Qiaoqi came out of the room with a teacup in his hand. After taking two steps, he finally realized something was wrong.Gently lift the lid and finally verify.
In the clear yellow tea, there was a hint of faint blood, which had not yet completely melted into the tea.Very light, but very garish.
Chi Qiaoqi turned around reflexively, but when he was approaching the door, he stood hesitantly.He stood there hesitating for two or three seconds, and finally chose to follow Jian Yanzuo's arrangement.
She couldn't fully understand everything he was thinking, but at least, she shouldn't disrupt his original plan.
Chi Qiaoqi went to the kitchen to find Mama Feng, and asked for some dried osmanthus and rock sugar.Put it in a teacup and soak it in boiling water, cover it with a lid and let it simmer for a while. When the smell of sweet-scented osmanthus gradually emerged, Chi Qiaoqi returned to the room with Mama Feng.
The chess on the table has been put away, there is no fight just now on the chessboard, it is a bit empty.
Mr. Jane was putting a small handful of chess pieces back into the chess box. There was a series of irregular sounds, but they were very pleasant.It's like raindrops hitting the water, it's so crisp that even the ears feel clean.
But it was also at this moment that Chi Qiaoqi suddenly realized.In this room, everything is normal as it was when she was there just now.Chess, decorations, and people.Except, Jianyan Zuo is gone.
Mama Feng is always so smart, she understood all of Chi Qiaoqi's thoughts when she was stunned for a moment, walked over to put the teacup on the table, and turned towards Mr. Jane, her voice was well controlled, "Why did the young master leave without even drinking tea?"
"Some things." Mr. Jane seemed a little upset, "help me take Miss Chi back."
The moment the words fell, he closed his eyes heavily, no longer caring about everything around him, and saved Chi Qiaoqi from deliberately pretending to be somewhat unconcealable disappointment.
After saying goodbye to Mama Feng and coming out, the driver who picked up Chi Qiaoqi was waiting outside the courtyard with a car parked beside him, but there was nothing else.Although I had thought that such a situation would happen, when I faced it, I was really only disappointed.
Chi Qiaoqi silently waved at the driver who was coming up, expressing that he wanted to walk alone.
The driver got into the car and followed her step by step, but luckily he didn't stop her again.
After the stitches were removed from the wound, Chi Qiaoqi no longer used crutches. Fortunately, she didn't go out much, so she recovered fairly well.
As she walked slowly, she called Jian Yanzuo.It rang for a long time, and then there was a mechanical female voice.Over and over, in a loop, never answered.
Do they have to be like this?When she learned to face it, he began to choose to escape.Moreover, she was not given a chance at all.
Thinking this way, Chi Qiaoqi began to dial Xiao Sui's number.
After several long beeps, it was finally picked up, "Little shell?"
"It's me." Chi Qiaoqi's voice was restrained, "Where are you?"
pause.
"Not in Beijing." Xiao Sui said, speaking so fast that he could hardly hear clearly.
Obviously lying.
Chi Qiaoqi paused for a moment, said every word, "Give him the phone."
"Who?" Xiao Sui asked back, and then he hesitated, "I'm not with Sir Jane."
Chi Qiaoqi waited in silence for a long time, and then in the unusually quiet environment at the other end, he was almost as firm as an order, "Turn on the speaker."
After a few more seconds of pause, Xiao Sui's voice changed slightly, as if he had followed suit.
Chi Qiaoqi didn't make any further confirmations, and put the phone directly in front of him, saying in a low tone, "Do you want to hide, then don't regret your decision today."
Then, without waiting for any response from the other end, Chi Qiaoqi directly hung up the phone.Then, without looking back, without any hesitation, he strode forward.Every step seems to be exhausted with all the strength of the whole body.
She didn't know where she was going, but she tried her best to calm down, waiting for Jian Yanzuo to give her the answer she wanted.Perhaps more precisely, she is betting, taking out all the things that can be bet on, and betting on an ending that she is willing to accept.And the bargaining chip is in Jian Yan's left heart, her weight.
Chi Qiaoqi had just walked a dozen steps, and the driver who had been following behind drove up to catch up.
Slow down on her side and lower the windows side by side.
"Mr. Jane asked me to pick you up."
The car was parked downstairs, not the place where Jian Yan Zuo brought Chi Qiaoqi back that night.
Xiao Sui waited downstairs, stepped forward to open the car door for Chi Qiaoqi, walked to the elevator, but did not press the button to go upstairs.Standing there, with a hesitant expression, he seemed to want to say something, but he didn't speak.
In the end, it was Chi Qiaoqi who spoke out first, "It's my fault, I know."
In the words, there is some deep sorrow, which has already been touched without careful attention.
Xiao Sui didn't mean that. Hearing what she said, he sighed slightly, "I can't blame you."
Then, finally, without saying anything else, he pressed the button and led her upstairs in silence.
It's a very quiet place, the floor is not low, and I went up the elevator, and I didn't even see anyone again.The corridor is very long, empty, and very coldly decorated. There are two opposite doors at the end of the east and west sides.
The door was locked with a code. Xiao Sui opened the door to the east room, turned around and told Chi Qiaoqi the code, "I won't go in. Call me anytime if you have anything to do. I'm right opposite."
After speaking, he pointed to the end of the corridor, and upon seeing Chi Qiaoqi's understanding expression, he turned and walked away.
Chi Qiaoqi walked a few steps inside, then turned sideways, and gently closed the door.The room is very warm, compared with the temperature outside, it can instantly warm the skin.
There is no one in the living room, there is no decoration on the sofa and table, it is as clean as if no one has lived in it for a long time.The hard lines seem to neutralize the warm air in the house.
There are two additional steps between the living room and the bedroom, and Chi Qiaoqi walked up it step by step.One room after another, Jian Yanzuo was never seen until only the innermost room remained.
Chi Qiaoqi's hand slowly closed the doorknob, and with a little force downward, the moment he opened the door, he saw Xu Mo unexpectedly.
Xu Shi heard the voice, turned his head slightly, saw that it was her, put his fingers up to his lips, and let out a silent "shh".
Chi Qiaoqi stopped in place in an instant.After a little daze, I saw someone else in the room.Next to Xu Mo, in the inner position, the sphygmomanometer was being put into the consultation box.In a trance, it seemed that he could smell the disinfectant on his body.
After doing this, the two of them walked towards the door. At the door, he lowered his voice a little, "The blood pressure is still a little low. Please check your body temperature again. If it doesn't drop later, please contact me in time."
Xu Mo nodded inaudibly, "Okay."
After finishing speaking, the two of them passed Chi Qiaoqi sideways.There was no pause or greeting, they turned and left, returning the entire space to Chi Qiaoqi.
It also seemed that it was at such a moment that Chi Qiaoqi really saw everything in the room clearly.The room was a bit dark, the curtains were drawn single-layer, and the lights were not turned on.
On the bed, Jian Yan closed his eyes on the left side, as if he was sunk in it, his complexion was obviously much worse than before.Oxygen was given through the nasal cannula, and the breathing was obviously much slower than usual, as if he had fallen asleep.
Xu Mosong didn't even go out, and when he came back, Chi Qiaoqi was still standing at the door and hadn't entered yet.His eyes fell on a fixed position in a daze, as if there were tears in his eyes.The whole person looked like it was going to be broken, but stubbornly refused to shed tears.
Just as she was about to step forward, she saw Chi Qiaoqi walking in slowly.The walk was not fast, but there was no hesitation involved.
So Xu Mo stopped the steps he wanted to go forward, and left without making a sound.This is a time just for the two of them.Outsiders cannot participate after all.
Chi Qiaoqi walked in slowly, for fear of disturbing him with any movement.
Actually, not at all.Jian Yan's breathing on the left side was steady, and he didn't notice it at all.The whole person seems to have lost any sense of the outside world, sleeping in his own world, such a quiet appearance, it seems that he has not seen it for a long time.
The obvious lines of the blood vessels, the liquid dripping from the infusion tube, and the feeling of entering his body silently made her almost burst into tears.
Chi Qiaoqi subconsciously put his hand on his.Very cool to the touch.Even with a fever, the hands are cold as if lifeless.
This is not a good state, and in her memory, it doesn't seem to happen a few times.The only thing I remember clearly is the scene where the corner of the eye was injured and the anesthetic faded the next day after the stitches were completed.
He would occasionally sweat in pain, but he never said it deliberately.It's just that when she accidentally bumps into her, he will smile at her calmly.It's not like it is now, even the strength to pretend is no longer there.
Chi Qiaoqi sat in this posture for a long time, and after changing a bottle of medicine, he finally stood up slowly, walked silently and knocked on Xiao Sui's door.
Xiao Sui opened the door quickly, and smiled with some effort, "I knew you would find me."
After finishing speaking, he flashed out and invited Chi Qiaoqi in.
Xiao Sui did not exaggerate, he did guess that she would come.
On the bar at the door, wine glasses are ready.In the two square glasses, not only wine, but even ice cubes have been added.
Xiao Sui handed a cup to Chi Qiaoqi, and held the other cup in his hand. Without saying a word, he lightly touched hers, and then drank it silently.
Chi Qiaoqi took it and swallowed the wine in the glass in one gulp.Along with swallowing, the cool and slightly tingling taste, along the mouth, all the way down.
Slowly returning to consciousness, the scorching heat began to slowly recover again.In the end, it seemed to set her whole being on fire.
Chi Qiaoqi rarely drank.Ye Ce warned her from the first day of class that alcohol would affect her sensitivity when holding a scalpel.So she has always been very restrained, rarely touches, and rarely loses control.
But at this moment, she needs a little alcohol to numb her uncontrolled nerves.Otherwise, she is likely to go crazy.
"It's his own fault." Xiao Sui shook his empty wine glass, obsessed with the crisp sound of ice cubes colliding with the glass body, "I left the hospital on my own initiative, but accidentally got caught in the rain."
After finishing speaking, he slowly filled up the two wine glasses and sighed slightly, "It's really not your fault."
Xiao Sui said his sincerity, but unexpectedly met Chi Qiaoqi with a slightly self-deprecating smile.Very light, but bitter.
Almost sighing, she said, "Sometimes, I wish you could fool me."
As soon as the words died down, she drank the wine in the glass little by little, raised her head again, and paused word by word, "I knew he was going, and I knew he was going. Including, he was outside that day and guarded me all night."
At this point, Xiao Sui couldn't hide it anymore.Simply, spread it all out.
"After leaving your place, he fell into a coma on the highway and was rescued by a passing car. When he was sent to the hospital, his breathing could not be detected." Xiao Sui said, subconsciously paused, "Later, he lived in the ICU for nearly During the three weeks, the emergency treatment has not been interrupted, and dozens of critical illness notifications have been issued, but fortunately, he survived."
Accompanied by her drooping eyebrows and eyes, his voice sounded like a sigh, "You are a doctor, and you can understand some things better."
Xiao Sui will never forget the scenes described in his own words.
When he received the call, Dai Lian hadn't arrived, and the rescue had been carried out for five or six hours.
The director of the hospital knew Lian Wei very well, and he spoke unabashedly, "You have to be mentally prepared, and call the person who should be called as soon as possible. Judging from the current situation, it may not be able to last for too long."
Direct and candid tone, each word is sharp and harsh.Along with Xiao Sui and Lian Wei's torment along the way, the most terrifying and even doomsday hypothesis unfortunately came true.
At that time, they didn't even confirm the facts that were unbelievable to them, and they didn't use words or expressions to regret that they didn't stop Jian Yanzuo from leaving the hospital without authorization.After changing his clothes, he entered the operating room without hesitation.
Before entering, it seemed to be an oath, "Don't rush to inform, if he can't come out by then, I will report to Mr. Jane."
In a word, it is resolute and resolute, with the determination to fight to the death.
So far, Lian Wei has many dreams and expectations.But at that moment, the life in the operating room was more urgent and important than all dreams.
The final result made Xiao Sui, who was almost suffocated by the waiting, slack off.Although the ordeal was not short, it was finally worthy of their prayers.
It's like falling to hell, but finally able to return to heaven.
When Xiao Sui came back to her senses, Chi Qiaoqi was pouring wine into her own cup with a wine bottle.
Ice cubes were discarded in the ashtray nearby, and the empty glass was nearly overflowing.Then he picked it up without any pause, and poured down a full cup.
There were clearly no tears in her eyes, but Xiao Sui instantly felt her own cruelty.Such an undisguised truth, to her now, is like the last straw on the camel's body that is about to be crushed.
Xiao Sui felt a little regretful for spreading these undisguised and hidden sharpness in front of Chi Qiaoqi, "I'm telling you this, I don't want to accuse you of anything. Sooner or later, you won't be able to hide all this from you, rather than let you piece it together in guesswork." The truth is worse than telling you the truth."
What responded to him was Chi Qiaoqi's hoarse voice, "I'm going back, he can't live without people."
When she said this, there was no expression on her face.It was as quiet as usual, but it made him a little startled.
Walking through the long corridor, Chi Qiaoqi finally stopped in front of Jianyan's left room door.
Everything in this building is very ordinary, except the combination lock of the room is a little special, a rare alphabet lock with 26 letters, nine-square keys, and a five-digit password.
The password was just learned from Xiao Sui.Chi Qiaoqi pressed down one after another, even in less than ten seconds.The simple five letters seem to require no special memory.
SHELL.
Shell, compared with Chinese, has many annotations.But Chi Qiaoqi knew the only corresponding meaning very clearly.
That is, the shell.
Different from the shell that Xiao casually mentioned, it is a hard substance wrapped around the outside of things.Like the hard shell of a nut, or the outer layer of a mollusk.Almost the same, with a hard exterior, wrapping the soft and fragile inside.
This is the original intention of Qiao Duo to name her in the first place, hoping that she can grow up slowly under the protection of many people like a hard shell, and then no longer get hurt.
Qiao Duo would probably never have imagined that the softness that seemed to need protection from others would eventually hurt the soft, seemingly indestructible exterior.
The moment the door opened, the tears that Chi Qiaoqi had accumulated for a long time finally fell.
Xiao Sui watched Chi Qiaoqi's figure disappear behind the opposite door, she was very thin, as if a gust of wind could blow her away.
He couldn't even imagine that such a girl who seemed to have not grown up would carry such a heavy burden on her body.Moreover, he will stand up after being overwhelmed, and until now, he has not finally fallen down.
In her body, there is a force that is still tenacious after experiencing hardships.
When Chi Qiaoqi went back, Jian Yanzuo was still asleep.There was no movement at all, it seemed to be still.
It was at this moment that she could take a serious look at him and see what he had really become in the past six years.
Compared with six years ago, his appearance has changed a bit. How should I describe it? It's like a green fruit. Now it has gradually matured, but traces of the past can be seen in every place. .
The eyes that once smiled at her, the mouth that once ate her failed meals, the fingers that once wiped her tears away, the arms that once held her in their arms, and the shoulders that once gave her solid support.They are all so familiar and beautiful, just like, he has accompanied her through all the years.Like all of this, no matter what she has experienced, she can still feel warm.
Jian Yan Zuo woke up completely, it was already late.
In the beginning, he didn't regain consciousness quickly, only occasionally frowning while sleeping, and even moaning was slight.As time went on, he became more and more uneasy.
The hands began to be slowly clenched subconsciously, and the breathing also became irregular, long and short, and there was even a long pause of a few seconds in between.
Chi Qiaoqi was afraid that he would hurt himself when he was unconscious, and he still didn't get better after waiting for a while, so he tentatively asked him to get up.
There were a few soft beeps, even Chi Qiaoqi himself didn't hear them very clearly, but Jian Yanzuo slowly opened his eyes.His expression was a little tired, his eyes were a little foggy, and his consciousness didn't seem to be fully recovered, and he looked extremely tired.
Pausing for a few seconds, as if he finally saw that it was her, he subconsciously raised his upper body, supported his elbows, pulled out the nasal catheter, and seemed to want to sit up at the same time.
Because of the force, it seemed that the wound was affected, his brows frowned, the corners of his mouth trembled, and he lay back involuntarily.
The voice was a little hoarse, but there seemed to be a hint of anger called embarrassment, "Go and call Xiao Suilai."
Chi Qiaoqi directly ignored what Jian Yanzuo was still insisting on, got up and turned off the oxygen generator, then lowered his head, leaned slightly, and patiently guided him to sit up little by little.
When he sat up completely, he found a cushion and placed it behind him, deliberately not looking directly at his expression, "I'll get you a glass of water."
There are clearly classified medicines on the table, which ones are to be taken before meals, which ones are to be taken after meals, which medicines need to be separated from which medicines for a few hours, and which ones need to be taken at any time when you feel uncomfortable. The ones are very thin.
Chi Qiaoqi handed Jian Yanzuo the first batch of medicine that needed to be taken, but he had some difficulty swallowing the few pills.Slowly drink the water in the cup, and the breathing is temporarily calmed down.
"It hurts?" Chi Qiaoqi clasped his hand, and could feel the sweat, and slowly moistened hers along the lines of his palm.
"It's okay." Jian Yanzuo's voice was clearer than before, and he spoke very slowly, "It doesn't hurt."
It was finally his greatest bravado.
When the word "pain" was intentionally or unintentionally brought out in the words, neither Chi Qiaoqi nor Jian Yanzuo cared.
Although Chi Qiaoqi still didn't understand what kind of feeling that was, but in these years, she had consciously regarded it as a normal expression.It's as natural as referring to sweet, sour, or bitter.
Fortunately, the openness of the people around her allowed her to continuously enrich her understanding of pain from the accumulation, and sometimes she even seemed to really understand what it was like.
When her body hits a sharp object, or when a disease occurs inside her body, she will naturally think of this word, although she may never experience it in this life.But in her dictionary, it has never been missing.
There was porridge made earlier in the warming cabinet. Chi Qiaoqi did not expect Jian Yanzuo to sleep for such a long time, so it has been a while since he put it in.
There wasn't much mess in the porridge, except for a few pieces of very finely chopped yam and lotus root.It has been boiled for a long time, and it is just right.But after leaving it for so long, the appearance has begun to deteriorate.
Chi Qiaoqi took it out of the warming cabinet and was about to hand it to Jian Yan when the phone vibrated silently.After picking it up, Xiao Sui's voice was concise and to the point, "Is it convenient, come out."
Even though he knew the password, he deliberately asked her to go out. Facing her question, he even raised a look of embarrassment, "Aren't I afraid of bumping into something I shouldn't see?"
Chi Qiaoqi, who was blocked by a word, just wanted to punch each other, even though the tray Xiao was holding in his hand contained a lot of excuses that could be used as excuses.
It's a supplement from the old house.
Packed in large and small containers, many different styles, delivered all the way smoothly, but only very simple manpower was used.Careful and careful consideration is Feng Ma's arrangement.
These small actions today, even if they can hide the old man in a few words, they can't hide Feng's mother after all.A woman's heart is delicate, not to mention she has taken care of Jian Yanzuo for such a long time.
Xiao Sui also said that it doesn't matter. He said in a few words, understated, but repeatedly asked to keep it from the old man.
Mama Feng has served Jian's family for so many years, so she can easily hear the general idea from Xiao Sui's words.She understands the disputes and ups and downs in this family, and she also knows who Xiao is avoiding in his words.Naturally, he also understood that at this moment, for Jian Yanzuo, silence was more important than any concern.
But worrying about it is still inevitable, after all, it is a friendship that has been together for so many years.So almost all the close relationships were used to secretly deliver a peace of mind.It's been a toss-up, but worth it.
Xiao Sui handed the tray to Chi Qiaoqi at the door, and didn't mention going in to take a look at Jian Yanzuo, but with a deeply concerned expression, "Little shell?"
Chi Qiaoqi was staring at the various dishes on the tray, when she heard Xiao Sui calling her, she looked puzzled, "Huh?"
"How is your Chinese in elementary school?" Xiao Suixiao was cryptic, but his eyes were bright. "How do you write the four characters 'taking advantage of others'? Do you need me to teach you?"
It has been a few minutes since Xiao Sui left.
Chi Qiaoqi put the tray on the dining table, and began to take off the heat-retaining lids on the dishes one by one, and all kinds of exquisite side dishes were quickly revealed.
Steamed tofu with crab powder, stewed fish maw with sea cucumber, chicken soup with bamboo fungus, and steamed matsutake earthen bottle.These four things alone were enough to make Chi Qiaoqi's mood drop to silence in an instant.
She should have thought of such a detailed arrangement.Especially, the current him is no longer hers alone.
They arranged everything for him in such a proper way.It seems to be silent inadvertently, but there is always no gap that is missed.
In such an appropriate situation, her concern, like the bowl of porridge that has started to solidify, always seems so superfluous.
Jian Yan heard the door knock on the left, and knew that Xiao Sui had left, and waited patiently for a long time, but Chi Qiaoqi did not come back for a long time.
Subconsciously, he tried to get out of bed, but his fingertips accidentally touched something under the pillow.
The texture of the fine velvet, the hard touch, there will always be some unexpected warmth to the touch, it is the packing box of the tie she gave him that day.
Jian Yan picked it up subconsciously on the left and opened it. Under the soft light, the tourmaline was still shining.
Three days ago, Xiao Sui returned the box to him with his own hands.
"I found it in the car that was sent to be washed. It fell into the gap under the seat. Fortunately, the people in the dealership have professional ethics. Otherwise, if such a valuable thing is lost, even I will feel distressed."
When she came back from St. Petersburg that day, she fainted at the airport, and he was also anxious to send her to the hospital. In his panic, he didn't notice the ownership of this box that was actually not easy to ignore.
Later, things happened one after another, and finally they were completely unable to take care of them.But fortunately, borrowing someone else's hand, after all, is a return.And it was so complete, as if it really only belonged to him.
In fact, at the beginning, Jian Yanzuo didn't notice the true nature of this gift.The value he cares about is only limited to the person who gave it to him.
Until Xiao couldn't help it, "Do you know MrW's designer?"
It was very unfamiliar, so Jian Yanzuo didn't nod.
However, Jian Yanzuo didn't expect that Xiao Sui's expression suddenly became weird with his blank face, "Then who gave you this tie?"
At that time, he didn't answer, but frowned, and asked with difficulty, "Who is that person you're talking about?"
So, from Xiao Sui's mouth, Jian Yanzuo knew about MrW.Not a very detailed understanding, but gradually began to form an outline.
Especially in Xiao Sui's exclamation, "MrW's custom-made, Xiao Yi has been tormenting me for a long time. It's an ornament."
At that moment, Jian Yanzuo suddenly seemed to see the clue of everything.It was vague and not very sure, but he knew he couldn't miss it.
So, he said, "I thought, I need to go to New York."
Because of his persistence, Lian Wei even turned against him that day.Gritting her teeth for a long time, she was so angry that she couldn't utter a word.
Lian Wei seldom had such an emotional moment, but this time, he was really out of breath.
That day was the second day Jianyan was transferred to the general ward from the left.However, he knew he couldn't wait.
(End of this chapter)
The days seem to be slowly slipping through such repetitions, so calm that there are no unnecessary things.Like her previous life in Melbourne, simplicity seemed to be addictive.
It wasn't until the last time when he came back from Chengtu's place and saw Xiao Sui at the door of his house that Chi Qiaoqi suddenly remembered that such a long time had passed.
Xiao Sui saw her, and greeted her with a smile, "The old man moved back from the mansion tomorrow, so I'll pick you up."
All the narrations, including the emotions, were so appropriate, and she was as gentle as before all this happened.
Chi Qiaoqi nodded and kept as calm as Xiao Sui, "Okay, then wait for me."
The moment he turned around, a little sourness flashed across his heart, and finally he couldn't restrain the grievances that seemed to gather in an instant.
He didn't come.
Although asking Xiao Sui to pick her up would be the best choice.But in her heart, the person she hopes most is him, and only him.
She is studying hard, showing courage that even she can't imagine, to face those rotten memories in her body.Just to face him normally at this moment.
She thought that this kind of recovery was much better than any verbal explanation.
But he couldn't see it after all.
Chi Qiaoqi's luggage has never been too much, which is a habit she has gotten used to.Never put too much emotion into one place, or you will always be hurt when you leave.Even here is the closest place to her.
Chi Qiaoqi left everything in the attic inside, locked it, and no one else would disturb him again.Here for the time being, she doesn't want anyone but her to know.
After everything was packed, Chi Qiaoqi smiled slightly at Xiao Sui, "Let's go."
Along the way, Chi Qiaoqi chatted with Xiao Sui a lot.
Xiao Sui is always good at finding topics, one topic gets a little cold, and another topic is brought up inadvertently.But if you think about it carefully, it is always irrelevant.
He just didn't want her to be too deserted.
Xiao Sui still sent Chi Qiaoqi back to Weiting Xiaozhu, with a natural expression, and couldn't find a single bit of the answer she was looking for.
Chi Qiaoqi finally couldn't help it, "Is he okay?"
It's just three words, nothing else is mentioned, but it's impossible for Xiao Sui not to understand.
Finally, Xiao Sui didn't hide anymore, and smiled faintly, as if he was very happy, but at the same time he seemed very relieved, "When you see him again, you can ask him yourself."
Chi Qiaoqi was a little relieved, which meant that at least she could still see him.
So, I waved goodbye to Xiao Sui, and my mood finally became clearer.
Xiao Sui stood by the car, stopped hesitantly, looked up at her, "Be nice to him."
It was not Xiao Sui who came to pick up Chi Qiaoqi the next day.
The driver who came to pick her up when she came back from Melbourne drove very steadily and didn't talk much.He sent her there, but still led her to Mama Feng at the door.Very measured, like last time.
It has been a month since the last time I came, but nothing seems to have changed.
Mama Feng was still waiting on the steps. When she saw Chi Qiaoqi coming, she went down to the second step and greeted her with a stretched smile. "Long time no see, Miss Chi."
Chi Qiaoqi took two steps quickly, followed Mama Feng's direction and shook hands with her, "Hello."
Mama Feng led Chi Qiaoqi in, and handed her tea as usual. The warm red dates and wolfberries seemed to be sweetened with honey.
Chi Qiaoqi gulped down half a cup, declined Mama Feng's invitation to add more tea, Wei Wei urgently said, "Let's go in."
The moment before stepping into the back room, Chi Qiaoqi had some certain expectations that there would be two people inside.
Two people, two cups of tea, a game of chess.The sound of the moves is clean and crisp, and the chess surface is sticky and dense.as usual.
However, when the door was pushed open, Chi Qiaoqi realized that it wasn't.Mr. Jane stood alone in front of the window, and when he heard her coming in, he just turned around lightly, sat down on the chair in front of the table as before, and did nothing else.
The chair beside him was empty, and there was only a cup of steaming tea on the table, without another corresponding one, and there was no chessboard that had been set or even started.
Perhaps the tea just now was a little too hot. At this moment, Chi Qiaoqi suddenly felt a little numb on the tip of his tongue.And this kind of numbness is starting to spread in her body from the tip of her tongue little by little, wanton and undisguised, as if to swallow her up.
Even though he had prepared, planned, and even planned worse than this, Chi Qiaoqi still felt that something in his heart had collapsed.She seemed to be able to hear very small sounds.They echo each other in every part of the body, until the whole body is covered with tiny cracks.
She doesn't know what pain is.But she can be sure that at this moment, in her heart, that ashes-like feeling will hurt more than pain.
In the next second, Jian Yiwei had noticed Chi Qiaoqi's daze.After pausing for a while, seeing that her eyes still hadn't shifted in the slightest, she raised her voice slightly, "What's missing?"
"No." Chi Qiaoqi smiled subtly, and walked to the specially prepared basin to wash his hands, "I'm just counting the moxibustion time for each acupuncture point."
Regardless of whether Mr. Jane believed in such an unnatural statement or not, he did not pursue it after all.
Chi Qiaoqi slowly washed his hands, as if in a school class, the teacher explained in detail the cleaning part of the pre-operation preparations.
The water was warm, and it even warmed her hands with stiff joints a little bit.Very comfortable, there will be a kind of breath that makes people very greedy.It's like the long-lasting warmth that exists in the palm of the hand after the hands are clasped.
The preparation work was extended to almost twice as long as before, and Jian Yiwei did not urge too much. Chi Qiaoqi also adjusted his emotions many times during the period, and finally took the first needle.
Hands up and down, it seems to be the same as usual.But it was just a slight hesitation in the subconscious that was almost negligible. When Chi Qiaoqi gave the needle, Jian Wei frowned slightly.
Soon, very shallow, he did not say.
But Chi Qiaoqi caught it in time, and when he paid attention to it, the second injection became more difficult.I squeezed my two fingers for a long time, but I still couldn't find the right feel.
Maybe it shouldn't be forced, before it gets worse.Chi Qiaoqi hesitated for a few seconds, and finally decided to confess, "I'm sorry, Jane..."
The words seemed to be able to be uttered completely with a little effort, but Chi Qiaoqi was keenly aware of a trace of redundant sound at the moment when the words were about to blurt out.It's very subtle, but because she has been waiting, she pays extra attention.
Sure enough, when she paused, the door was knocked twice, and then slowly opened.
Chi Qiaoqi couldn't help looking over.
It's Mama Feng.Holding a wooden tray, she walked over slowly and gently placed a cup of tea on the corner of the table.
Even though it was a very familiar face, it was not the one she missed day and night after all.Inexplicable disappointment, one after another, until all her hopes were sucked into a dark and cold space little by little.It's like a dancer dressed up to welcome, after preparing a dance that can conquer the whole world, waiting with joy for the moment to meet the stage again and again, but never having any chance to go on stage until he gets old.
Chi Qiaoqi took a deep breath, pursed his lips tightly, and forced all his longing and grievances into a corner.This is not a suitable occasion, and she can be allowed to express her emotions, especially at this moment, Mr. Jane is still by her side.
But she really missed him, as if she had never missed a person like this.After such a trace of emotion, Chi Qiaoqi finally couldn't hold back his tears, regardless of the occasion.
At this moment, she has no time to think about how to face Mr. Jane's inexplicable or even inquiries after this.Maybe she was still not indifferent and strong enough, but at the moment of complete disappointment, her tears were almost uncontrollable.
With tears in his eyes, Chi Qiaoqi suddenly heard Mama Feng's faint voice, "Sir, the young master is here."
Feng Ma spoke very softly, and she was already standing a little close to the door, so she really didn't hear it very clearly.It seems to be speaking to the outside, but it really seems to step into the warm sunshine in an instant.
Chi Qiaoqi wiped away his tears in a panic, and the next second his vision was clear, Jian Yanzuo's figure appeared at the door.
His voice was still not too loud, but she heard it all, "It's a long way, so I came back late."
Then he came over, put the box in his hand flat on the table, and opened it lightly, "The chess you liked before, I hope it's not too late."
From the beginning to the end, Jian Yanzuo didn't make any extra moves.However, he slowly brought Chi Qiaoqi's soul into his body bit by bit.
Very simple chessboard and chess pieces, I don't see much to like.Due to the accumulation of age, the chessboard has a somewhat old taste.Although the chess pieces are round, they look more and more like the ones they used before.
But looking at the obvious joy in Mr. Jane's eyes, it seems that he has acquired something he likes very much.He held the chess box in his hand, stroking it with his thumb, and said with a smile in his voice, "It's rare for you to remember."
Mama Feng was originally standing by the door, but when she heard what Mr. Jian said, she quickly walked over and laid out the chessboard, one on each side of the two chess boxes, and lifted the lid after they sat down.
Obviously no one spoke, but the chess game unfolded without any intention.The crisp sound of falling pieces quickly followed one another, slowly filling the chessboard.
Chi Qiaoqi's eyes fell on the chessboard for a long time, and it wasn't until Mama Feng came over and reminded her slightly that she suddenly realized that she was still clinging to the needle.
This counted as a mistake, but fortunately she corrected it quickly.After the second stitch, the feeling I had been looking for for a long time finally came back, and the stitches went smoothly.
It seems that it is really a psychological effect, she can clearly feel the power from the heart, that kind of prosperity.
Chi Qiaoqi lit the moxa sticks little by little, and began to moxibustion each acupuncture point one by one.
The smoke from the moxa spread quickly, and the special smell gradually diffused into the surrounding air.As time went on, it became more and more intense.
Maybe it was because of the smoke, but Jian Yan Zuo gradually started coughing.In the beginning, there were only three or two indirect beeps, but soon they became tense once.In the end, he stopped the movement he was about to make, covered his mouth slightly with a handkerchief, and began to turn his back. The coughing sound did not stop for a long time.
Chi Qiaoqi quickly finished the last acupuncture point, and the moxa sticks in the moxibustion box finally burned out.
Under Jian Yiwei's gesture, Chi Qiaoqi stood up, walked to Jian Yan's left and stood still, his voice lowered slightly, "Mr. Jian is not feeling well?"
When he said this, Chi Qiaoqi obviously felt that his tone was a little weak.She clearly knew the reason for all this, and because she understood, she had countless things to say.But at this moment, she has no better way.
Finally, Jian Yanzuo's cough stopped.The handkerchief moved away slightly, and the voice was obviously hoarse, "It's not in the way, I just have a cold."
After speaking, he sat up normally and turned around, cleared his throat slightly, picked up the tea cup and took a shallow sip.However, it seemed that just before he swallowed it, he coughed violently, forcing him to turn his back again.
Chi Qiaoqi clenched her hands tightly and restrained herself for a long time before hiding all her worries in her lowered eyebrows.
Jian Yan was still holding the teacup in his left hand, and while tilting his head and coughing, he fumbled to close the lid of the cup, trying hard to put the teacup back in place.Because his body was shaking a bit, there was a slight sound from the cup lid and the cup, making his hands tremble more and more.
Chi Qiaoqi finally couldn't help it, and took the teacup from his hand, "Mr. Jian, I..."
"Help me change a cup of tea." Jian Yan spoke from the left, restraining herself from pronouncing every word, "Thank you."
After speaking, he covered his mouth with the handkerchief again and didn't look at her again.Although it was a request, Chi Qiaoqi clearly sensed the irresistibility in the words.
Chi Qiaoqi came out of the room with a teacup in his hand. After taking two steps, he finally realized something was wrong.Gently lift the lid and finally verify.
In the clear yellow tea, there was a hint of faint blood, which had not yet completely melted into the tea.Very light, but very garish.
Chi Qiaoqi turned around reflexively, but when he was approaching the door, he stood hesitantly.He stood there hesitating for two or three seconds, and finally chose to follow Jian Yanzuo's arrangement.
She couldn't fully understand everything he was thinking, but at least, she shouldn't disrupt his original plan.
Chi Qiaoqi went to the kitchen to find Mama Feng, and asked for some dried osmanthus and rock sugar.Put it in a teacup and soak it in boiling water, cover it with a lid and let it simmer for a while. When the smell of sweet-scented osmanthus gradually emerged, Chi Qiaoqi returned to the room with Mama Feng.
The chess on the table has been put away, there is no fight just now on the chessboard, it is a bit empty.
Mr. Jane was putting a small handful of chess pieces back into the chess box. There was a series of irregular sounds, but they were very pleasant.It's like raindrops hitting the water, it's so crisp that even the ears feel clean.
But it was also at this moment that Chi Qiaoqi suddenly realized.In this room, everything is normal as it was when she was there just now.Chess, decorations, and people.Except, Jianyan Zuo is gone.
Mama Feng is always so smart, she understood all of Chi Qiaoqi's thoughts when she was stunned for a moment, walked over to put the teacup on the table, and turned towards Mr. Jane, her voice was well controlled, "Why did the young master leave without even drinking tea?"
"Some things." Mr. Jane seemed a little upset, "help me take Miss Chi back."
The moment the words fell, he closed his eyes heavily, no longer caring about everything around him, and saved Chi Qiaoqi from deliberately pretending to be somewhat unconcealable disappointment.
After saying goodbye to Mama Feng and coming out, the driver who picked up Chi Qiaoqi was waiting outside the courtyard with a car parked beside him, but there was nothing else.Although I had thought that such a situation would happen, when I faced it, I was really only disappointed.
Chi Qiaoqi silently waved at the driver who was coming up, expressing that he wanted to walk alone.
The driver got into the car and followed her step by step, but luckily he didn't stop her again.
After the stitches were removed from the wound, Chi Qiaoqi no longer used crutches. Fortunately, she didn't go out much, so she recovered fairly well.
As she walked slowly, she called Jian Yanzuo.It rang for a long time, and then there was a mechanical female voice.Over and over, in a loop, never answered.
Do they have to be like this?When she learned to face it, he began to choose to escape.Moreover, she was not given a chance at all.
Thinking this way, Chi Qiaoqi began to dial Xiao Sui's number.
After several long beeps, it was finally picked up, "Little shell?"
"It's me." Chi Qiaoqi's voice was restrained, "Where are you?"
pause.
"Not in Beijing." Xiao Sui said, speaking so fast that he could hardly hear clearly.
Obviously lying.
Chi Qiaoqi paused for a moment, said every word, "Give him the phone."
"Who?" Xiao Sui asked back, and then he hesitated, "I'm not with Sir Jane."
Chi Qiaoqi waited in silence for a long time, and then in the unusually quiet environment at the other end, he was almost as firm as an order, "Turn on the speaker."
After a few more seconds of pause, Xiao Sui's voice changed slightly, as if he had followed suit.
Chi Qiaoqi didn't make any further confirmations, and put the phone directly in front of him, saying in a low tone, "Do you want to hide, then don't regret your decision today."
Then, without waiting for any response from the other end, Chi Qiaoqi directly hung up the phone.Then, without looking back, without any hesitation, he strode forward.Every step seems to be exhausted with all the strength of the whole body.
She didn't know where she was going, but she tried her best to calm down, waiting for Jian Yanzuo to give her the answer she wanted.Perhaps more precisely, she is betting, taking out all the things that can be bet on, and betting on an ending that she is willing to accept.And the bargaining chip is in Jian Yan's left heart, her weight.
Chi Qiaoqi had just walked a dozen steps, and the driver who had been following behind drove up to catch up.
Slow down on her side and lower the windows side by side.
"Mr. Jane asked me to pick you up."
The car was parked downstairs, not the place where Jian Yan Zuo brought Chi Qiaoqi back that night.
Xiao Sui waited downstairs, stepped forward to open the car door for Chi Qiaoqi, walked to the elevator, but did not press the button to go upstairs.Standing there, with a hesitant expression, he seemed to want to say something, but he didn't speak.
In the end, it was Chi Qiaoqi who spoke out first, "It's my fault, I know."
In the words, there is some deep sorrow, which has already been touched without careful attention.
Xiao Sui didn't mean that. Hearing what she said, he sighed slightly, "I can't blame you."
Then, finally, without saying anything else, he pressed the button and led her upstairs in silence.
It's a very quiet place, the floor is not low, and I went up the elevator, and I didn't even see anyone again.The corridor is very long, empty, and very coldly decorated. There are two opposite doors at the end of the east and west sides.
The door was locked with a code. Xiao Sui opened the door to the east room, turned around and told Chi Qiaoqi the code, "I won't go in. Call me anytime if you have anything to do. I'm right opposite."
After speaking, he pointed to the end of the corridor, and upon seeing Chi Qiaoqi's understanding expression, he turned and walked away.
Chi Qiaoqi walked a few steps inside, then turned sideways, and gently closed the door.The room is very warm, compared with the temperature outside, it can instantly warm the skin.
There is no one in the living room, there is no decoration on the sofa and table, it is as clean as if no one has lived in it for a long time.The hard lines seem to neutralize the warm air in the house.
There are two additional steps between the living room and the bedroom, and Chi Qiaoqi walked up it step by step.One room after another, Jian Yanzuo was never seen until only the innermost room remained.
Chi Qiaoqi's hand slowly closed the doorknob, and with a little force downward, the moment he opened the door, he saw Xu Mo unexpectedly.
Xu Shi heard the voice, turned his head slightly, saw that it was her, put his fingers up to his lips, and let out a silent "shh".
Chi Qiaoqi stopped in place in an instant.After a little daze, I saw someone else in the room.Next to Xu Mo, in the inner position, the sphygmomanometer was being put into the consultation box.In a trance, it seemed that he could smell the disinfectant on his body.
After doing this, the two of them walked towards the door. At the door, he lowered his voice a little, "The blood pressure is still a little low. Please check your body temperature again. If it doesn't drop later, please contact me in time."
Xu Mo nodded inaudibly, "Okay."
After finishing speaking, the two of them passed Chi Qiaoqi sideways.There was no pause or greeting, they turned and left, returning the entire space to Chi Qiaoqi.
It also seemed that it was at such a moment that Chi Qiaoqi really saw everything in the room clearly.The room was a bit dark, the curtains were drawn single-layer, and the lights were not turned on.
On the bed, Jian Yan closed his eyes on the left side, as if he was sunk in it, his complexion was obviously much worse than before.Oxygen was given through the nasal cannula, and the breathing was obviously much slower than usual, as if he had fallen asleep.
Xu Mosong didn't even go out, and when he came back, Chi Qiaoqi was still standing at the door and hadn't entered yet.His eyes fell on a fixed position in a daze, as if there were tears in his eyes.The whole person looked like it was going to be broken, but stubbornly refused to shed tears.
Just as she was about to step forward, she saw Chi Qiaoqi walking in slowly.The walk was not fast, but there was no hesitation involved.
So Xu Mo stopped the steps he wanted to go forward, and left without making a sound.This is a time just for the two of them.Outsiders cannot participate after all.
Chi Qiaoqi walked in slowly, for fear of disturbing him with any movement.
Actually, not at all.Jian Yan's breathing on the left side was steady, and he didn't notice it at all.The whole person seems to have lost any sense of the outside world, sleeping in his own world, such a quiet appearance, it seems that he has not seen it for a long time.
The obvious lines of the blood vessels, the liquid dripping from the infusion tube, and the feeling of entering his body silently made her almost burst into tears.
Chi Qiaoqi subconsciously put his hand on his.Very cool to the touch.Even with a fever, the hands are cold as if lifeless.
This is not a good state, and in her memory, it doesn't seem to happen a few times.The only thing I remember clearly is the scene where the corner of the eye was injured and the anesthetic faded the next day after the stitches were completed.
He would occasionally sweat in pain, but he never said it deliberately.It's just that when she accidentally bumps into her, he will smile at her calmly.It's not like it is now, even the strength to pretend is no longer there.
Chi Qiaoqi sat in this posture for a long time, and after changing a bottle of medicine, he finally stood up slowly, walked silently and knocked on Xiao Sui's door.
Xiao Sui opened the door quickly, and smiled with some effort, "I knew you would find me."
After finishing speaking, he flashed out and invited Chi Qiaoqi in.
Xiao Sui did not exaggerate, he did guess that she would come.
On the bar at the door, wine glasses are ready.In the two square glasses, not only wine, but even ice cubes have been added.
Xiao Sui handed a cup to Chi Qiaoqi, and held the other cup in his hand. Without saying a word, he lightly touched hers, and then drank it silently.
Chi Qiaoqi took it and swallowed the wine in the glass in one gulp.Along with swallowing, the cool and slightly tingling taste, along the mouth, all the way down.
Slowly returning to consciousness, the scorching heat began to slowly recover again.In the end, it seemed to set her whole being on fire.
Chi Qiaoqi rarely drank.Ye Ce warned her from the first day of class that alcohol would affect her sensitivity when holding a scalpel.So she has always been very restrained, rarely touches, and rarely loses control.
But at this moment, she needs a little alcohol to numb her uncontrolled nerves.Otherwise, she is likely to go crazy.
"It's his own fault." Xiao Sui shook his empty wine glass, obsessed with the crisp sound of ice cubes colliding with the glass body, "I left the hospital on my own initiative, but accidentally got caught in the rain."
After finishing speaking, he slowly filled up the two wine glasses and sighed slightly, "It's really not your fault."
Xiao Sui said his sincerity, but unexpectedly met Chi Qiaoqi with a slightly self-deprecating smile.Very light, but bitter.
Almost sighing, she said, "Sometimes, I wish you could fool me."
As soon as the words died down, she drank the wine in the glass little by little, raised her head again, and paused word by word, "I knew he was going, and I knew he was going. Including, he was outside that day and guarded me all night."
At this point, Xiao Sui couldn't hide it anymore.Simply, spread it all out.
"After leaving your place, he fell into a coma on the highway and was rescued by a passing car. When he was sent to the hospital, his breathing could not be detected." Xiao Sui said, subconsciously paused, "Later, he lived in the ICU for nearly During the three weeks, the emergency treatment has not been interrupted, and dozens of critical illness notifications have been issued, but fortunately, he survived."
Accompanied by her drooping eyebrows and eyes, his voice sounded like a sigh, "You are a doctor, and you can understand some things better."
Xiao Sui will never forget the scenes described in his own words.
When he received the call, Dai Lian hadn't arrived, and the rescue had been carried out for five or six hours.
The director of the hospital knew Lian Wei very well, and he spoke unabashedly, "You have to be mentally prepared, and call the person who should be called as soon as possible. Judging from the current situation, it may not be able to last for too long."
Direct and candid tone, each word is sharp and harsh.Along with Xiao Sui and Lian Wei's torment along the way, the most terrifying and even doomsday hypothesis unfortunately came true.
At that time, they didn't even confirm the facts that were unbelievable to them, and they didn't use words or expressions to regret that they didn't stop Jian Yanzuo from leaving the hospital without authorization.After changing his clothes, he entered the operating room without hesitation.
Before entering, it seemed to be an oath, "Don't rush to inform, if he can't come out by then, I will report to Mr. Jane."
In a word, it is resolute and resolute, with the determination to fight to the death.
So far, Lian Wei has many dreams and expectations.But at that moment, the life in the operating room was more urgent and important than all dreams.
The final result made Xiao Sui, who was almost suffocated by the waiting, slack off.Although the ordeal was not short, it was finally worthy of their prayers.
It's like falling to hell, but finally able to return to heaven.
When Xiao Sui came back to her senses, Chi Qiaoqi was pouring wine into her own cup with a wine bottle.
Ice cubes were discarded in the ashtray nearby, and the empty glass was nearly overflowing.Then he picked it up without any pause, and poured down a full cup.
There were clearly no tears in her eyes, but Xiao Sui instantly felt her own cruelty.Such an undisguised truth, to her now, is like the last straw on the camel's body that is about to be crushed.
Xiao Sui felt a little regretful for spreading these undisguised and hidden sharpness in front of Chi Qiaoqi, "I'm telling you this, I don't want to accuse you of anything. Sooner or later, you won't be able to hide all this from you, rather than let you piece it together in guesswork." The truth is worse than telling you the truth."
What responded to him was Chi Qiaoqi's hoarse voice, "I'm going back, he can't live without people."
When she said this, there was no expression on her face.It was as quiet as usual, but it made him a little startled.
Walking through the long corridor, Chi Qiaoqi finally stopped in front of Jianyan's left room door.
Everything in this building is very ordinary, except the combination lock of the room is a little special, a rare alphabet lock with 26 letters, nine-square keys, and a five-digit password.
The password was just learned from Xiao Sui.Chi Qiaoqi pressed down one after another, even in less than ten seconds.The simple five letters seem to require no special memory.
SHELL.
Shell, compared with Chinese, has many annotations.But Chi Qiaoqi knew the only corresponding meaning very clearly.
That is, the shell.
Different from the shell that Xiao casually mentioned, it is a hard substance wrapped around the outside of things.Like the hard shell of a nut, or the outer layer of a mollusk.Almost the same, with a hard exterior, wrapping the soft and fragile inside.
This is the original intention of Qiao Duo to name her in the first place, hoping that she can grow up slowly under the protection of many people like a hard shell, and then no longer get hurt.
Qiao Duo would probably never have imagined that the softness that seemed to need protection from others would eventually hurt the soft, seemingly indestructible exterior.
The moment the door opened, the tears that Chi Qiaoqi had accumulated for a long time finally fell.
Xiao Sui watched Chi Qiaoqi's figure disappear behind the opposite door, she was very thin, as if a gust of wind could blow her away.
He couldn't even imagine that such a girl who seemed to have not grown up would carry such a heavy burden on her body.Moreover, he will stand up after being overwhelmed, and until now, he has not finally fallen down.
In her body, there is a force that is still tenacious after experiencing hardships.
When Chi Qiaoqi went back, Jian Yanzuo was still asleep.There was no movement at all, it seemed to be still.
It was at this moment that she could take a serious look at him and see what he had really become in the past six years.
Compared with six years ago, his appearance has changed a bit. How should I describe it? It's like a green fruit. Now it has gradually matured, but traces of the past can be seen in every place. .
The eyes that once smiled at her, the mouth that once ate her failed meals, the fingers that once wiped her tears away, the arms that once held her in their arms, and the shoulders that once gave her solid support.They are all so familiar and beautiful, just like, he has accompanied her through all the years.Like all of this, no matter what she has experienced, she can still feel warm.
Jian Yan Zuo woke up completely, it was already late.
In the beginning, he didn't regain consciousness quickly, only occasionally frowning while sleeping, and even moaning was slight.As time went on, he became more and more uneasy.
The hands began to be slowly clenched subconsciously, and the breathing also became irregular, long and short, and there was even a long pause of a few seconds in between.
Chi Qiaoqi was afraid that he would hurt himself when he was unconscious, and he still didn't get better after waiting for a while, so he tentatively asked him to get up.
There were a few soft beeps, even Chi Qiaoqi himself didn't hear them very clearly, but Jian Yanzuo slowly opened his eyes.His expression was a little tired, his eyes were a little foggy, and his consciousness didn't seem to be fully recovered, and he looked extremely tired.
Pausing for a few seconds, as if he finally saw that it was her, he subconsciously raised his upper body, supported his elbows, pulled out the nasal catheter, and seemed to want to sit up at the same time.
Because of the force, it seemed that the wound was affected, his brows frowned, the corners of his mouth trembled, and he lay back involuntarily.
The voice was a little hoarse, but there seemed to be a hint of anger called embarrassment, "Go and call Xiao Suilai."
Chi Qiaoqi directly ignored what Jian Yanzuo was still insisting on, got up and turned off the oxygen generator, then lowered his head, leaned slightly, and patiently guided him to sit up little by little.
When he sat up completely, he found a cushion and placed it behind him, deliberately not looking directly at his expression, "I'll get you a glass of water."
There are clearly classified medicines on the table, which ones are to be taken before meals, which ones are to be taken after meals, which medicines need to be separated from which medicines for a few hours, and which ones need to be taken at any time when you feel uncomfortable. The ones are very thin.
Chi Qiaoqi handed Jian Yanzuo the first batch of medicine that needed to be taken, but he had some difficulty swallowing the few pills.Slowly drink the water in the cup, and the breathing is temporarily calmed down.
"It hurts?" Chi Qiaoqi clasped his hand, and could feel the sweat, and slowly moistened hers along the lines of his palm.
"It's okay." Jian Yanzuo's voice was clearer than before, and he spoke very slowly, "It doesn't hurt."
It was finally his greatest bravado.
When the word "pain" was intentionally or unintentionally brought out in the words, neither Chi Qiaoqi nor Jian Yanzuo cared.
Although Chi Qiaoqi still didn't understand what kind of feeling that was, but in these years, she had consciously regarded it as a normal expression.It's as natural as referring to sweet, sour, or bitter.
Fortunately, the openness of the people around her allowed her to continuously enrich her understanding of pain from the accumulation, and sometimes she even seemed to really understand what it was like.
When her body hits a sharp object, or when a disease occurs inside her body, she will naturally think of this word, although she may never experience it in this life.But in her dictionary, it has never been missing.
There was porridge made earlier in the warming cabinet. Chi Qiaoqi did not expect Jian Yanzuo to sleep for such a long time, so it has been a while since he put it in.
There wasn't much mess in the porridge, except for a few pieces of very finely chopped yam and lotus root.It has been boiled for a long time, and it is just right.But after leaving it for so long, the appearance has begun to deteriorate.
Chi Qiaoqi took it out of the warming cabinet and was about to hand it to Jian Yan when the phone vibrated silently.After picking it up, Xiao Sui's voice was concise and to the point, "Is it convenient, come out."
Even though he knew the password, he deliberately asked her to go out. Facing her question, he even raised a look of embarrassment, "Aren't I afraid of bumping into something I shouldn't see?"
Chi Qiaoqi, who was blocked by a word, just wanted to punch each other, even though the tray Xiao was holding in his hand contained a lot of excuses that could be used as excuses.
It's a supplement from the old house.
Packed in large and small containers, many different styles, delivered all the way smoothly, but only very simple manpower was used.Careful and careful consideration is Feng Ma's arrangement.
These small actions today, even if they can hide the old man in a few words, they can't hide Feng's mother after all.A woman's heart is delicate, not to mention she has taken care of Jian Yanzuo for such a long time.
Xiao Sui also said that it doesn't matter. He said in a few words, understated, but repeatedly asked to keep it from the old man.
Mama Feng has served Jian's family for so many years, so she can easily hear the general idea from Xiao Sui's words.She understands the disputes and ups and downs in this family, and she also knows who Xiao is avoiding in his words.Naturally, he also understood that at this moment, for Jian Yanzuo, silence was more important than any concern.
But worrying about it is still inevitable, after all, it is a friendship that has been together for so many years.So almost all the close relationships were used to secretly deliver a peace of mind.It's been a toss-up, but worth it.
Xiao Sui handed the tray to Chi Qiaoqi at the door, and didn't mention going in to take a look at Jian Yanzuo, but with a deeply concerned expression, "Little shell?"
Chi Qiaoqi was staring at the various dishes on the tray, when she heard Xiao Sui calling her, she looked puzzled, "Huh?"
"How is your Chinese in elementary school?" Xiao Suixiao was cryptic, but his eyes were bright. "How do you write the four characters 'taking advantage of others'? Do you need me to teach you?"
It has been a few minutes since Xiao Sui left.
Chi Qiaoqi put the tray on the dining table, and began to take off the heat-retaining lids on the dishes one by one, and all kinds of exquisite side dishes were quickly revealed.
Steamed tofu with crab powder, stewed fish maw with sea cucumber, chicken soup with bamboo fungus, and steamed matsutake earthen bottle.These four things alone were enough to make Chi Qiaoqi's mood drop to silence in an instant.
She should have thought of such a detailed arrangement.Especially, the current him is no longer hers alone.
They arranged everything for him in such a proper way.It seems to be silent inadvertently, but there is always no gap that is missed.
In such an appropriate situation, her concern, like the bowl of porridge that has started to solidify, always seems so superfluous.
Jian Yan heard the door knock on the left, and knew that Xiao Sui had left, and waited patiently for a long time, but Chi Qiaoqi did not come back for a long time.
Subconsciously, he tried to get out of bed, but his fingertips accidentally touched something under the pillow.
The texture of the fine velvet, the hard touch, there will always be some unexpected warmth to the touch, it is the packing box of the tie she gave him that day.
Jian Yan picked it up subconsciously on the left and opened it. Under the soft light, the tourmaline was still shining.
Three days ago, Xiao Sui returned the box to him with his own hands.
"I found it in the car that was sent to be washed. It fell into the gap under the seat. Fortunately, the people in the dealership have professional ethics. Otherwise, if such a valuable thing is lost, even I will feel distressed."
When she came back from St. Petersburg that day, she fainted at the airport, and he was also anxious to send her to the hospital. In his panic, he didn't notice the ownership of this box that was actually not easy to ignore.
Later, things happened one after another, and finally they were completely unable to take care of them.But fortunately, borrowing someone else's hand, after all, is a return.And it was so complete, as if it really only belonged to him.
In fact, at the beginning, Jian Yanzuo didn't notice the true nature of this gift.The value he cares about is only limited to the person who gave it to him.
Until Xiao couldn't help it, "Do you know MrW's designer?"
It was very unfamiliar, so Jian Yanzuo didn't nod.
However, Jian Yanzuo didn't expect that Xiao Sui's expression suddenly became weird with his blank face, "Then who gave you this tie?"
At that time, he didn't answer, but frowned, and asked with difficulty, "Who is that person you're talking about?"
So, from Xiao Sui's mouth, Jian Yanzuo knew about MrW.Not a very detailed understanding, but gradually began to form an outline.
Especially in Xiao Sui's exclamation, "MrW's custom-made, Xiao Yi has been tormenting me for a long time. It's an ornament."
At that moment, Jian Yanzuo suddenly seemed to see the clue of everything.It was vague and not very sure, but he knew he couldn't miss it.
So, he said, "I thought, I need to go to New York."
Because of his persistence, Lian Wei even turned against him that day.Gritting her teeth for a long time, she was so angry that she couldn't utter a word.
Lian Wei seldom had such an emotional moment, but this time, he was really out of breath.
That day was the second day Jianyan was transferred to the general ward from the left.However, he knew he couldn't wait.
(End of this chapter)
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