David Copperfield

Chapter 95
Chapter 42 Telling the truth (2)
"We're not related," I replied, "but we grew up like brother and sister."

"I wonder why you fell in love with me?"

"Perhaps it was love at first sight, Dora!"

"What if you never saw me?"

"If you say that, it's better to say what if we were never born!"

She kissed me passionately before going out of the house.

A few minutes later, they all came back together again.Dora happily asked Jeep to put on a show before the car came.Dora and Agnes agree to write letters to each other.

When it was time to change trains for Haiji, I looked eagerly at the few steps we had to take in the middle of the change, in order to hear what Agnes had to say to me about Dora.How affectionately and enthusiastically she praised my sweet little creature! How carefully but subtly she reminded me how great it was for this child without father and mother to depend on me alone. Trust and responsibility!

I love Dora more deeply and sincerely.The second time I got out of the car, I told Agnes that I owe Dora so much to her.

"When you sat with her," I said, "you seemed to be our protector."

"A poor and loyal god," she replied.

I said:

"Your cheery spirit, Agnes (I have never seen it in others), is resurrected, and you are at home, happier than ever?"

"My own feeling," she said, "is that our family is still the same as before. Nothing has changed."

"No more," I said, "remember—what happened last time I left?"

"No," she replied.

"I've been thinking about that remark."

"You should think less. You needn't worry about me, Trowood," she said. "I'll never take the move you fear I'll take."

Although I don't think I've ever really been afraid of her taking that course, so long as I think about it with a cool head, it's still true to hear that assurance from her own lips, which never lied. An indescribable comfort.I said this to her sincerely.

"After you go," I said, "how long will it be before you come to London again? I'm afraid we will never have another chance to be alone together."

"It will probably be a long time," she answered, "and I feel—for papa's sake—that I'd better stay home. We'll probably not see each other for a long time. But Dora and I will have a message, In this way, we can often hear each other's news."

When we came to the doctor's small yard, it was already very late.There was still light in Mrs Strong's bedroom window, so we said good night.

"Well, don't worry about my troubles," said Agnes, "your happiness pleases me more. If you can help me at any time, I will ask you to help me. May God bless you forever you!"

Lovingly and gratefully, I stood on the porch for a while and walked away.I had booked a bed in a decent Mai Hotel nearby, and was just going out the door when I happened to see a light still in the Doctor's study.I thought he was compiling a dictionary by himself without my help, and I couldn't help but blame myself.So I turned around and wanted to say goodnight to him.

When I opened the door, I saw Yulia, and the doctor was sitting on a chair, covering his face with his hands.Mr. Wakefield, on the other hand, looked very sad and anxious, leaning forward, stroking the doctor's arm anxiously.

For a moment, I thought the doctor was ill.With this thought in mind, I hurriedly took a step forward.But when I saw Yulia's gaze, I understood it all at once.I was about to pull away, but the doctor gestured for me to stay, so I stopped there.

"Anyway," Yulia said, "we have to close the door, and we don't have to make a scene in the city."

Then he closed the door.

"What we have said, Master Copperfield," said Julia, "is my first compliment, and should be pointed out to Dr. Strong. But you didn't quite understand me then, did you?"

I didn't answer, and then I walked up to the doctor, intending to comfort and encourage him.

"Since you didn't quite understand me at the time, Master Copperfield," said Yuriah, "I will say it as a lowly person. Since we have no outsiders here, I have tried to make Dr. Strong Watch out for Mrs. Strong's behaviour. It's not in my nature to take part in such unpleasant things, but, as a matter of fact, everyone seems to have taken part in something they shouldn't have. I go When I told you back, you didn't understand what I meant, young master, that's what I meant."

I really want to strangle him.

"I didn't make my point," he said, "and you didn't make yours. Of course, neither of us wanted to have a hand in such matters. But I decided to say it anyway." Yes, I have already spoken to the Doctor, sir?"

The Doctor groaned.

"—I have already said to Dr. Strong," he went on, "that Mr. Melton and the Doctor's lovely Mrs. Mr. Melton are too close, as can be seen. Yes, now is the time Now, we should let Dr. Strong know that this situation was clear and obvious before Mr. Melton went to India, and everyone knew about it. But Mr. Melton came back with an excuse , he was for no other purpose; nor was he always here for any other. When you came in just now, sir, I was asking this friend of mine," he said, turning to Mr. Wickfield. Come on, "Get out your conscience and tell the Doctor if you held that opinion a long time ago. Say it, Mr. Wickfield! You ought to tell us! Say it, man!"

"For God's sake, Doctor," said Mr. Wakefield, "you don't take too seriously any suspicions I may have had."

"Yes!" exclaimed Julia, "what a heavy confirmation! When I was a little clerk in his office, Copperfield, I saw him do it twenty times. Disturbing—disturbing to think of Miss Agnes being involved in something she shouldn't be involved in."

"Strong," said Mr. Wakefield, "I needn't tell you, my friend, that my great problem with being a man is that I try to find a dominant and motive in everyone, and measure it with a narrow scale. All actions. Perhaps it was because of my mistake that I had suspicions before."

"You were suspicious, Wakefield," said the Doctor, looking up, "you were suspicious."

"Say it all, friend!" Yulia urged.

"For a while, yes, I did," said Mr. Wakefield.

"I haven't," said the doctor bitterly.

"I thought for a while," said Mr. Wickfield, "that you wanted to send Mr. Melton abroad in order to separate the two of them."

"No, no, no!" replied the Doctor. "I just want to make Anne happy and make arrangements for her childhood companion. I mean nothing else."

"I feel so," said Mr. Wakefield, "and I have no reason not to believe you when you tell me you think so. But I think—with such a difference in age— —”

"That's right, you know, Master Copperfield!" Yulia said.

"——For such a young and beautiful woman, no matter how sincere her respect for you is, when she gets married, she may only plan on property and be dominated by property. I may have never considered those beautiful things when I said this. goodwill feelings and circumstances. Please don't forget that."

"How magnanimously he speaks!" said Yulia.

"I only see her from one angle forever," said Mr. Wakefield, "but, in view of all that you value, my old friend, I beg you to consider the circumstances. I must now Not admitting it frankly, because there's no way to hide—"

"Indeed! Now that things have come to this point, Mr. Strong!" Yulia said, "you can't hide!"

"—I must confess now," said Mr. Wickfield, "that I had doubted her before, and thought she had been unworthy of you. I have had times when, if I had to say everything, it would be very inappropriate." I would like to see Agnes as close as she is, and I don't want Agnes to see what I have seen. I have never revealed this to anyone, and I never intend to let anyone know. It sounds horrible to you now," said Mr. Wakefield, "but if you knew how horrible it sounded to me when I said it, you'd have a great deal of sympathy for me!"

With natural kindness the Doctor extended his hand to Mr. Wickfield.Mr. Wickfield shook the doctor's hand vigorously for a moment, keeping his head down.

"I dare say," said Julia, "that the question is unpleasant to anyone. But since we have come to this point, I should say that Copperfield also noticed this. a little."

I question him.

"You are too kind, Copperfield," Yulia said, "we all know how kind you are, but you know very well that when I talked to you about it that night, You know what I mean. You know, you understood me then, Copperfield. Don't deny it! You mean well if you don't. But don't you deny it, Copperfield .”

Anger is useless.I can't hide my situation.

Dr. said:

"I am largely responsible for this matter. I believe it is mostly my fault. I have caused my beloved to suffer and be slandered--she would never have suffered so much if it had not been for me, such defamation."

"If it were not for me," said the doctor, "my Anne would never have suffered so much, so slandered. You all know that I am old. To-night I feel that my purpose in this world is Not much. But I can vouch with my life for the fidelity and kindness of the lovely lady we were talking about!"

"But I wasn't prepared," he continued, "to deny—I subconsciously put that woman in an unhappy marriage. I've never been good at observing things. Now I have to believe, Your observations are better than mine."

"When the lady was very young," said the Doctor, "we were married. When I brought her into the family, her character was scarcely formed, and as far as her character development was concerned, I was the one who brought her up." I have been proud of what she has become. I know her father well, and I know her well. I have taught her as much as I could out of love for her virtuous, peaceful qualities. If I have used Her gratitude and admiration for me, for doing something wrong to her, I beg that lady's forgiveness from the bottom of my heart!"

(End of this chapter)