Your loneliness is more moving than this world

Chapter 19
1. The man in front of the French window

There is no more moving place than a media company.

It is fashionable, from the decoration of the office to the clothing of male and female employees, from the constantly updated service concept to the extravagant publicity rhetoric, it is always at the forefront of the trend as much as possible.Educational institutions can be rustic, medical institutions can be rustic, and charities can also be rustic, but the media industry can't be rustic. Media companies that don't know how to follow the trend cannot survive in the trend.

It is utilitarian. Under the market economy, there has never been a free service. Most media companies do not have their own products and brands, but serve products and brands from all over the world, and then realize their own value little by little in the gap between budget and settlement.It is obscene, shameless, unscrupulous, bullying, hypocritical and vain. The world's prejudice against media companies can almost exhaust the derogatory terms in the dictionary, because it is a vanity fair in the tertiary industry.Disputes on Vanity Fair never require the participation of the soul.

Sometimes even I find it strange that I have been able to gain a foothold in this industry for five years, five years, three companies, six companies with national prefixes, and dozens of product promotions and services. I am simply a standard media machine.But I still can't convince myself to fall in love with this industry. I'm just eating and drinking, and I'm doomed to leave, to commit myself to the second industry, to serve my own brand, and to be the pride of being kneeled and licked by my former colleagues of
bastard.

I am not the only media worker with this career plan.Beijing is a place where 10,000+ fresh graduates flood in every summer. They actively or passively join the advertising, public relations or consulting industries, and devote themselves to fast-paced, high-intensity, high-stress jobs, just for an opportunity to accelerate their training. The faster their pace, the higher the labor intensity, and the greater the pressure they are under, the closer they are to getting rid of this industry.There is a popular metaphor here: a girl from a poor family, penniless, only young, in order to establish a world, devoted herself to a brothel, has no right to complain about fatigue, has no right to choose a partner, and has no reason to evade responsibility. "If you are a customer, you have to pick it up. The more customers you pick up, the more money you earn.Until one day, when Yi was full of gold, she gave up her money and redeemed herself, married a man who fell in love with her, and then went back to the inner room to take care of her husband and teach her children, and never be polluted by the dust of the world.

Li Xiaogan said a word: "When you are in your twenties, you don't fight with a face. Do you have to wait until you are 30 or 40 years old? Who wants your old face at that time?" So I am that You stern-faced guy, my job is good enough, I just want to throw myself into the cruelest battlefield as a last-ditch effort before "conforming".

At [-]:[-], I followed the crowd into SOHO Modern City and stopped to watch amidst the endless hustle and bustle.This is the commercial center of Beijing and the Hollywood of the capital market. In the vast buildings, there are hundreds of media giants, half of which are listed companies with great momentum.This is also the most competitive workplace in Beijing. You can see the pace of racing and trembling long hair everywhere. At the elevator entrance, boys are clutching documents and browsing quickly, girls are quickly applying makeup in front of the small mirror, the bell rings, hula La rushed in, shouted the slogan "Oh, don't squeeze", and pressed the floor where the contract was signed, just like a group of extras.

The sunlight began to become stronger, and it slid over the glass walls of the nearby pavilions, making people dizzy.The waiter at the cold drink shop retrieved the change and said, "Welcome to come next time." I said, "There are so many buildings, which one is Block B in District 2?" He kept smiling and said, "Go ahead and turn right at the end, which is 2B."

The general manager surnamed Dou who interviewed me was an Australian Chinese, a handsome man in his mid-fifties, with thick eyebrows and big eyes, cool short hair, and very casual clothes.Lao Dou was originally from Liaoshen. He was a provincial captain runner when he was young. After graduating from Tsinghua University, he joined IT and worked as a sales manager for more than ten years.Lao Dou is a typical Northeast intellectual, with elegant and humorous speech and manners, without the slightest bureaucracy and airs. When chatting, he will utter shocking vulgar words in order to relieve the restraint and embarrassment of the scene.

In the general manager's office, he invited me to sit down, walked to the window and opened the thick curtain with a bang, and introduced the past and present of this company with his back to me.He bluntly said that he didn't understand the media, but the chairman came to help him temporarily. The chairman was his classmate when he was studying in Tsinghua University. The two hadn't seen each other for many years, but they were in love with each other.

He turned around and said, "Brother, I have seen your resume. You have changed three companies in the past five years. Why do you change jobs so frequently?" I said, "I was relatively young when I entered this line, 23 years old, I My understanding is that if you want to make a difference in this industry, you must dabble in different industries and serve more different brands while you are young. Job-hopping is a shortcut to growth. In addition, I only change jobs between the same industries, and I don’t Out of this circle, my ultimate ideal for the media industry is a company with a listed company background like yours, so I am very honored to be invited by you."

"That's it." He obviously didn't trust me and didn't like my way of speaking. "Is there no other reason? Just because I'm a subsidiary of a listed company."

company? "

I thought for three seconds, then changed the subject and said, "Of course, besides the big career direction, there are other small factors." He said, "Really? Tell me about it." I said, "My girlfriend is my colleague. She is in administration, and I am in planning. We have known each other for a year and we have been together for half a year. It is an affair. Last month, I ran into her dating a big client, so I had to break up. Because we are in the same company, for To avoid embarrassment, one must go."

"I don't want to see her again," I said with a shrug. "That's all."

Old Dou laughed, walked back to the desk, sat down on the leather chair, and asked, "When can you come to work?" I said, "I'll think about it for a week." He said, "Is there anything else to think about?" ? My treatment here is much better, and the company is bigger than yours. You can come over this week, and I will ask the administration department to clean up your office. I just took over here, everything is messy, there are many things I don’t know how to carry it out, you can help me if you come here earlier.”

I walked into the elevator and met the girls who were putting on makeup in the morning. They held the 7-ELEVEN (7-11) fast food boxes in their hands and rolled their eyes to look at my black uniform. Finally, a girl with a Northeast accent asked, "Your property owner?" you?" I said, "Well, do you need help?" She said, "I haven't seen you before, new here?" I said, "Just transferred from the head office, what floor are you on?" In the elevator Started whispering and whispering, the Northeast girl said proudly: "We are on the seventh floor, just opposite to the company you just went to." I said: "Oh, 702, tell your boss when you are convenient. Just a word, a car in your company was photographed last month when it was parked in the wrong place, please ask the relevant personnel to go to the property to pay the fine in the next two days."

I returned to the original unit and handed the resignation report to the female leader. She held the report with a few words and looked at me seriously. I smiled at her and stood aside obediently waiting for instructions.She was obviously reluctant, but she had no choice but to say, "Which company?" I said, "Don't ask, isn't it written on it? Anyway, I won't be coming back." I, said: "Let's hand over to the HR department, and we will meet in Chaoyang District later, don't say you don't know me." I said: "Okay, sister, I will recognize you." She said: "Let's go."

Li Xiaogan and I passed the office area with our suitcases in our hands. Our colleagues got up and said goodbye to me. Only my girlfriend hid in the far corner and pretended to be typing on the keyboard. I don’t hate her. In fact, I have always suspected that we never loved each other. I am greedy for her figure and style, she is greedy for my salary and potential, each takes what he needs.

Finally my girlfriend couldn't hold back anymore, she raised her head and looked at me affectionately, Li Xiaogan stared at me and said, "What are you looking at!"

2. Public Enemy
Lao Dou's respect for me soon exceeded my expectations. He set up a brand new planning department for me, arranged for me one of the two most beautifully decorated independent offices in the whole company, and specially arranged a special car.Lao Dou stood at the entrance of the office hall, ordered people from administration, media, public relations, sales, design, legal affairs, finance and other departments to stop working, and grandly introduced my identity and history. Under his guidance, I smiled and talked with The managers and supervisors of each department shook hands and quickly distinguished which ones were welcome and which ones were hostile.

At lunch time, Lao Dou came in with three young colleagues. I got up to greet him. He waved and said, "No need, you eat first. I'll introduce you. Just listen. Here, this young man is a pony. He was recruited recently, the head of the design department, and knows a little about planning and copywriting." I wiped the rice from the corner of my mouth, and reached out to greet Xiao Ma.Old Dou pointed to the tall girl and said, "This is Liu Jing. I went to the front desk of a company and came here. I originally arranged for her to join the sales department. She said she wanted to learn how to plan, so let her follow you. I will do it in the future." Whether it’s an assistant or an executive, you can teach her more.” I said, “Don’t say that, let’s learn from each other.” I shook hands with Liu Jing, who raised her eyelids and smiled.Old Dou pointed to the short girl and said, "This is Xixi. She has been doing sales with me. Like Liu Jing, she wants to change careers and do projects, so I will be at your disposal in the future." Xixi smiled and said, "Hello, Mr. Guo." I said: "No, everyone, don't call me that in the future. I'm not a few years older than you. It's awkward to be called 'Zong'. Let's call it Brother Guo or Xiaoyu." Said: "Okay, you can decide what you call it yourself. Xiao Guo, you use these people first, I will discuss it with the HR department later, and then find a few capable newcomers. From now on, the company's projects, large and small, will be entrusted to you to plan. Department of execution. I will take a step here first, the driver has been waiting downstairs for a long time, you guys should chat first, you are all familiar with it.”

After seeing off Lao Dou, I went back to the office, dragged out the swivel chair behind the desk, loosened the collar and said, "Okay, let's each introduce our past jobs first, who will come first? Or... I will come first? "Xiao Ma, Liu Jing and Xixi still looked at each other in blank dismay, but none of them spoke.

On Guanghua Road where the lights were flashing, Li Xiaogan sat on the co-pilot with his arms crossed and said, "You're going to be dragged to the sky these days, aren't you? Everyone around you is calling 'Mr. Guo, Mr. Guo'. How about it? ?” I said, “It’s only you people who take me seriously as a director. I’m still a newcomer in this company. There’s still a long way to go. Besides, I have worked hard in this industry for four or five years, is it too much to be a director?" Li Xiaogan sneered, closed his eyes and rested on the back of the chair.I turned around and asked Wang Dandan in the back row: "Did you say it was too much?" Wang Dandan woke up and said, "Where is it? Not too much, not too much, Xiaoyu is also an old media person, let alone being a director, It’s normal to be the head of the House of Internal Affairs.” Li Xiaogan opened his eyes and said, “I didn’t say you’re incompetent, but you’ve been too high-profile recently, so take it easy. If it gives you benefits, it will also give you difficulties in the future. Besides, you also said that you are a newcomer, and all the advantages are taken by the newcomers. Can the old people in your company be happy? In the future, they will inevitably squeeze you, so be careful." I Said: "Is it possible that I don't understand this? But I don't care, I do things, and when things are done, no matter what they say, I don't want to be friends with people in the business field." Li Xiaogan closed his eyes again, not Talk back.

My friend's worries are not unreasonable. Any company has a "hatred" complex, especially for new leaders.This kind of emotion mostly stems from jealousy. An old employee who has worked hard with his boss for many years, watching his dream position being "get something for nothing" by a new face, has a thousand unconvinced and ignorant people in his heart, and will treat the new leader Make things difficult everywhere.

For me, what is more troublesome than "hatred" is the "nepotism" in the company.This is a company that is completely supported by nepotism. Lao Dou was appointed by the board of directors as the general manager because he and the chairman are old classmates. In each department of the company, these people are either managers or supervisors. It is very easy to distinguish, and the sales department is all "children".In front of the old employees and new members, the younger soldiers are arrogant, their voices are loud, and they are respectful and obsequious in front of the old Dou. They never call the old Dou Mr. Dou, and they open and close their mouths.

The most fatal flaw of a company that is cobbled together by nepotism is management.Lao Dou was born as a sales manager and was not very good at business management. Over time, this company became a "wonderful work" in the CBD, with late arrivals, early departures, loud noises, and sabotage. It was almost a mess.Especially the members of the sales department, they never have their fingerprints taken when they go to work, and they turn a blind eye to the attendance discipline established by the administrative department and the personnel department. A group of people you can trust.

The soldiers love to party and have fun. Every weekend, they take the lead in organizing company personnel to participate in activities such as buffet, karaoke, and mountain climbing in the form of AA system.They have a high-sounding reason: Mr. Dou is too lonely, we need to help this old man find the feeling of going home, and thank him for his kindness to us.

In the KTV box, the temperament and self-cultivation of the soldiers were fully exposed. They grabbed the bottle, shook their bodies, and laughed and groaned wildly, full of ugliness.They scrambled to sing the "Nong Jin (Agricultural Heavy Metal) Divine Comedy" for Lao Dou, boasting about Lao Dou's past deeds to non-children soldiers, and they even told pornographic jokes in front of girls, and then laughed and accused Boys' clothes with different poses ×.

I stopped attending the company's weekend party, and then Xiao Ma and Liu Jing also quit.The reason for my refusal was that I wanted to communicate with friends in the media circle on weekends, Xiao Ma and Liu Jing didn't even have a reason.This move caused criticism from some junior soldiers. They all attacked the planning department in private, saying that the newcomers did not respect the old people, and the new department disdain to communicate, and they pointed the finger at me clearly.

I walked into the general manager's office and said to Lao Dou: "I have no objection to my colleagues eating and playing together, but everyone has a different way of relieving pressure. Xiao Ma has to do part-time work as an illustration at home on weekends. Liu Jing has a boyfriend and two friends." Personal life, as well as some colleagues in the design department, media department, and public relations department. Everyone has their own circle of life during holidays. I don’t object to internal communication within the company, but communication can only be limited to work content. You know, colleagues Too much personal friendship will make the work easy to be emotional and subjective, and it will be easy to breed favoritism and favoritism. Everyone is here to do things, and the first thing to think about is how to do well what the company's leaders have given them."

He looked at me calmly, patted me on the shoulder and said, "Brother, just do your own thing and don't care what they say."

In the early days, Lao Dou still trusted me, not only because I took on most of the company's projects and tried my best to share his worries at work, but also because he gradually had a new understanding of the new environment. He understood that if a company full of laymen wants to develop , People like me are needed to do things, even if I am really noble, it is nothing but a manageable internal contradiction.

I had to give up some customers, because these resources were in the hands of the sales department. Although Lao Dou gave instructions to hand over the work, the younger soldiers did not hand over the list to me for a long time, so I simply stopped asking.In the matter of dealing with the subordinate soldiers, I admit that I am indeed a little bit noble.I have been working for more than half a year, and I have a panoramic view of what the junior soldiers are doing at work. They are not material for project planning and execution.These people are just a bunch of parasites raised by the old Dou. Most of them are fooling around with their lives and salaries. All things related to construction and development have nothing to do with them.In a word, I am not afraid that they will not work well, but I am afraid that they will make trouble for me.

The disciple soldiers still took the initiative to add to the chaos for me.The early projects of the planning department were frequently rejected by the subordinates of various departments. They reached a consensus in private that they would not participate in anything related to the planning department, and they would delay the assistance given by Lao Dou as long as they could.In desperation, I had to curry favor with former employees and new recruits in various departments, which inevitably exacerbated the division within the company.

At the annual meeting, the manager of the sales department walked over with a wine glass and opened his mouth with a sinister smile. This man who was three years older than me called me Mr. Guo over and over again in poor Mandarin, with a touch of naked sarcasm.I finished drinking the wine in the glass with my neck back, Lao Dou took the lead in applauding, and other sales department staff surrounded me, I put all the wine in the box on the table, and said: "Come on, if you don't drink a few today, you won't be considered a man." !" Everyone booed and applauded, and the drunken old Dou patted the table and laughed.Liu Jing came over to pour water, lowered her body and said, "Drink less, don't you see that they are trying to get you drunk because of the number of people?" Now I'm busy flattering Lao Dou. You girls, go back first, remember to call me after you go out, don't need to say anything, I'll just pretend I have something urgent to leave first. "

At the entrance of the subway station, Liu Jing ran over beckoning and asked, "Are you okay?" I said, "What can I do with just a few bottles of beer? You didn't go back, what are you doing here?" She said, "Wait for you. Anyway It’s still early, and you haven’t drunk too much, let’s go for a walk together.” I said, “Okay, if you’re not afraid of getting tired, just walk with me, I live in Jinsong, and there’s a subway there.”

She raised her head and said, "The man who came to the company to look for you last time, the boy with long hair who shared the house with you, is your friend?" I said, "You mean Li Xiaogan? That's right, what's wrong? She smiled and said, "It's so good-looking, I can't tell it's a man." I said, "Have you taken a fancy to him? He has a partner." She said, "Oh, I just asked casually, Really." I said, "Okay, if you have anything to say, just say it, it's a big circle."

(End of this chapter)