Your loneliness is more moving than this world

Chapter 2 Sunset Tiantong Court (1)
1.
I used to have deep prejudices against Northeast people. Like other ridiculous regional discrimination, these prejudices all stem from ignorance in my heart.I pride myself on being erudite, and I boldly explain to people around me the causes of the Northeast people's personality: the crops that are ripe once a year, and a lot of slack time, have created endless visits and countless grievances, so recklessness and unrestrained coexistence, Blood and jokes are flying around, and there is no need for human restraint-similar fallacies can also explain why southerners, who grow crops three times a year, are good at calculating.

But I was wrong, I don't know the real Northeast people, just like I don't know too many other things.

My ignorance of Northeast people is to some extent similar to the ignorance of some Beijingers about Tiantongyuan.Tiantongyuan, a well-known large community in Beijing, is nothing more than a pile of cheap concrete houses in the eyes of Beijingers. It is full of houses and only houses. I wish all the corners could be built into houses. People can't breathe.This kind of place is not a city at all, but a slum on the edge of the city. Its poor infrastructure, low rent, and chaotic rental mechanism make it the most ideal habitat in the eyes of low-income people.Beijingers who made their fortunes from Tiantongyuan seldom live in Tiantongyuan. Most of them only have a lease relationship with this place. After the contract is finalized, they drive here and ask the intermediary or the second landlord for money. , like a prince visiting the Eight Great Alleys, while counting the "dividends" handed over by the "old bustard", while contemptuous of the salty smell of "Fireworks and Willow Lane".

In the eyes of more foreigners, Tiantongyuan is dominated by people from the Northeast. From developers to intermediary company owners, from hairdressers to roadside stalls, there are high-decibel accents from outside the customs. Sometimes you will be mistaken when you walk on the street. I thought I was in another city, which had nothing to do with the capital in terms of appearance or culture.In the deli, the saleswoman curled up her curly hair and told the customers the difference between the Northeast sausage and the local sausage over and over. , Amusing passers-by.This is the case for the Northeast people in Tiantongyuan. Everyone relies on talent and courage to start here little by little, and accumulate little by little, until one day, they get a house here and a registered permanent residence here, and then feel that they have become Beijingers from the bottom of their hearts.

"Don't repeat these words to me, it sounds tiring," Dongdong's mother said while brushing the bottom of the pot, "After all, don't you still have prejudices against us Northeast people? What's wrong with prejudice? We Northeast people are straightforward, Righteousness, just these two things, you people from the south can’t compare, especially those who are educated like you, they are all weak, let me tell you. Besides, so what if you are educated? If you are educated, you have skills. ?Look at the rich people nowadays, which one is educated? Educated, like you, they all work for others.” She took off her apron and stuffed it into the cabinet, and continued, “I tell you, Chao, in the future Don’t show how educated you are in front of your aunt. Haven’t you seen any educated aunt? Last year, a Peking University graduate who was several years younger than you chased me. I didn’t agree with it. What’s the use of being educated? Huh? In this world, you have to have money, and if you don’t have money, you can say nothing.”

She continued to stare at me: "Are you saying that what Auntie said is unreasonable?" I smiled and helped her with the work.She said: "You, it's useless to talk about those things. You work hard to make a lot of money, and I will give you stuff when you get rich. When the time comes, I will let you call me old mother-in-law." I said: "Ha, you But don’t, I’m not so lucky.” She said, “What’s the matter? Look down on us Dongdong, you want it now, but I won’t give it to you, what are you thinking about!”

She shook her hands and walked out, then came back, slapped me on the back of the head with a round circle, and said, "You brat!"

2.
In the autumn of 2010, because of the relocation of the company, I moved from Tongzhou District to Tiantongyuan. Like other hypocritical white-collar workers, I felt a little uneasy.I had no choice but to "pay public food" to my hometown on a regular basis, and my renting budget was very limited. The most economical way to the company was only Metro Line [-], and Tiantongyuan was a major station on Line [-].Many Beidiao have struggled with houses. Most of the houses with good environment are within the Fourth Ring Road, and the rent is high. It seems that only Tiantongyuan is left in Beijing with low rent, sufficient houses and quick occupancy.

After renting together for half a month, I faced even greater anxiety. There are no fewer than ten people living in a two-bedroom apartment of 20 square meters.Adjacent to my master bedroom is a big party for Dongdong and her friends, all of them are heavily made-up visual kei and gender-unidentified killers, and it is hard to tell how many people come in and out every day.The living room was divided into two partitions, the south partition lived in the KTV singing girl and her boyish boyfriend, and the north partition lived in the big real estate salesman and his colleague and girlfriend.The second bedroom in the north is a plump, white, short-haired sister. Her man looks more than [-] years older than him. She works in engineering and only shows up a few times a month, which means that this sister is a mistress who lives in a foreign house.

I live in the second bedroom in the south, and I am the only single householder, the only single family, and the only person who works from nine to five.Compared with my standard and paleness, my neighbors are full of vitality: the killers sleep during the day, go to the bar at night, and come back to make trouble in the middle of the night; The two eat in the kitchen, wash the bathroom, fight on the bed, and sing and sing almost every night.The big guy doesn't have to go to work on time, he plays pop songs at high volume to welcome his girlfriend, and spends a lot of time cleaning the corridors, kitchens, and partitions spotlessly.

On the first watch, the master bedroom party started to revel. A group of people drank and sang, sang and yelled.They booed, men and women divided into two factions and roared, sarcasm, and laughed at each other; they fought civilly, Shamat loudly reprimanded the visual brother, the visual brother picked up the wine bottle on the ground and shouted: "I will fight with you!" Dongdong was on the sidelines La persuaded: "You guys are fighting with your own guys, are you excited?"

I turned off the computer, climbed into bed, and tried to induce sleepiness by imagining myself being interviewed by the TV station.An hour later, I opened my eyes, and there was the panting of Shamat, the moaning of Dongdong, the panting of the little boy, the panting of the singing girl, the panting of the big man, the moaning of the saleswoman, and the creaking of the wooden bed from the crack of the door. The sound of rattling, slapping on the wall, pieced together a well-defined movement, and all kinds of vulgar words mixed in it complemented each other and flowed continuously.Suddenly, the saleswoman let out an "Aww" like killing a pig. Her voice was loud enough to surpass the "Concorde" plane, piercing the night sky in an instant, cooling down the audience, and awakening the dream of half the community.The couple of salesmen finished playing first, just like the real estate business they were engaged in, anticlimactic, loud but not lasting, and after the short-term shock passed, the remaining gasps and moans returned one after another.

The world has finally calmed down, and the dark Dongdong said coquettishly, "Why, you didn't even have a word of praise when it's over?" Shamat responded, "Well, you are so good."

I lay flat on the bed, looking at the emptiness in the air, I just felt that I lived in a non-human world, and thousands of sperms filled my surroundings, making it difficult for me to breathe and see and hear, I was beyond anger.

This is one of the reasons why I have a good impression of Dongdong's mother.The appearance of Dongdong's mother directly forced Dongdong's friends away, and completely blocked the master bedroom party. Immediately afterwards, the salesman and his lover in the partition broke up. The big man closed the door and stopped playing the Divine Comedy loudly. Accompanied by singing the title of a girl in a house, it gradually became a harmless joke.

3.
Dongdong's mother and Dongdong don't look alike. Although Dongdong is beautiful, Dongdong's mother is probably five times more beautiful than Dongdong when Dongdong is this age.Dongdong's mother made no secret of her beauty. She said that she was the flower of a county back then, and those who chased her were all big men of the underworld and the white way. As for why she married Dongdong's father, it was fate in her previous life.The fate in the previous life usually has a debt relationship, so in this life it becomes a bad fate. Dongdong's mother, who is the flower of the county, met her old love in the capital when she was a tiger and wolf. Dong Ma remarried to the capital.At that time, Dongdong had already become acquainted with human affairs, and refused to go to Beijing with his mother, and lived with his grandparents.Dongdong's mother gave birth to Dongdong's half-brother in Beijing, and took Dongdong to Beijing to study in middle school. her life as a non-mainstream female hooligan.

Dongdong's mother's money from her marriage made her no longer have to worry about making a living, but she still wanted a daughter, so she moved here on her own initiative and paid the rent and food for the master bedroom.At the same time, she brought Dongdong’s child, Yang Yang, who is Dongdong’s mother. Yangyang’s mother is Dongdong’s mother’s god-sister. Yang and the unrestrained Dongdong are obviously not on the same channel, they prefer to be called siblings.

Yang Yang stood at the door chewing cucumbers and asked: "Sister Dong never talks to strangers, let alone neighbors, how did you subdue her, brother Chao?" "He said: "No way, sister Dong should be able to cook." I said: "Have you eaten the food she cooked?" He said: "No." I closed the account book and said: "This is Well, before you came to live, I was the one who supported her."

I told Yangyang that it was a breezy weekend, after I cleaned up the room and went into the kitchen to cook, a short-haired girl in pajamas suddenly ran out of the master bedroom.She curled up her thin body, leaning against the painted wooden door, looking forward to meeting my eyes. I gave her a white look, and she immediately flicked her hair and smiled charmingly.I said: "Your master bedroom?" She said: "Yeah." I said: "Have you eaten?" She said: "No." I said: "Is there a bowl?" She said: "Yes."

After Dongdongma took charge of the house, I was liberated, at least I no longer had to pay attention to the vegetables I didn’t want to eat in the morning market. Dongdongma’s three-star hotel-level cooking skills tempted me to start a career of eating.In the evening, when I came back from get off work, I saw Dongdong’s mother working in the kitchen with an apron tied. I rolled up my sleeves and walked over. Dongdong’s mother said disgustedly: “Don’t mess around here, go to the night market downstairs with Yangyang to buy some Serve cold dishes, and buy a pack of cigarettes for your old mother-in-law by the way."

Except for the underage brother Dongdong who occasionally came to visit his mother, Dongdong's family was basically full of wine jars, drinking almost every night. A whole room of people sat cross-legged on the floor, drinking and chatting around a low table. During the patrol, Dongdong began to pick on her mother's thorns. Although Dongdong's mother refuted, she deliberately lost every time.

Yang Yang opened the door, stared blankly at Lu Xiaoyan, and asked, "Are you...?" Lu Xiaoyan said blankly, "I'm looking for Wang Dandan." She comes in." Dongdong's mother laughed: "Chao, your nickname is really Wang Dandan, I thought you were joking with us." I smiled and continued to go outside and said: "Yan'er, this way .”

As my friend, Lu Xiaoyan was placed in a position facing the TV. Dongdong’s mother kept picking up vegetables for her. Lu Xiaoyan didn’t drink alcohol, and thanked her over and over again with a plate full of vegetables. Dongdong’s mother smiled and said: "Good boy!" , eat well." Most of the rest of the time, Lu Xiaoyan was expressionless, indifferent to everything in front of her.

Sending Lu Xiaoyan back, I sat down again at the banquet, and Dongdong's mother drank and asked: "Is this girl living with us?" I said, "She lives in the northern district, quite far away." Dongdong's mother then asked: " rented house?” I said, “I bought it, it used to be her husband’s, and it was awarded to her after the divorce.” Dongdong and Yangyang said “Oh” in unison, and Dongdong said, “She’s already divorced. I can’t tell.” Dongdong’s mother raised her eyebrows and said, “Are you two full? Go and play when you’re full. Don’t make trouble here if your lord says something.”

After the meal, in the kitchen, Dongdong quietly came up from behind, Dongdong's mother said in horror: "What are you doing?" Dongdong said: "Sister Lan, you are so big, hahaha." Dongdong's mother twisted her body: " Get the hell out of here!" Dongdong hugged her mother's back and continued to act coquettishly: "Sister Lan, no, um, um, hahaha." Dongdong's mother said: "Look, look, you make you super cute. Look at this stinky behavior, she usually talks to me like this." I had fun watching from the side, and came over and said, "Okay, help your mother wash the dishes, why don't you make trouble here." Dongdong smiled run away.Dongdong's mother said: "You said this is so worrying, you are so old and you are not in shape, you are sloppy, you are messing around with a bunch of men and women, and you don't want to find a more formal one." Sooner or later, she will be pissed off to death." I said, "Little girl, you will grow up one day, so don't be too strict." Dongdong's mother said: "I'm still a little girl. Ah, she is already twenty, and I gave birth to her when I was as old as her, was it like this when you were 20?" I said, "I was still in college when I was 20, and I was quite muddled." Dongdong's mother said: "That's better than ours."

I helped Dongdong's mother light a cigarette, and she put down her sleeves and leaned against the stove and said, "Tell auntie about the girl you brought today, and help you check it out. Auntie can tell that you like her."

In the early morning, I tossed and turned and couldn't fall asleep, thinking about Lu Xiaoyan over and over again.The fate between Lu Xiaoyan and me began in college. I had a crush on her back then, but she disdained her because she had a strict view on mate selection.Lv Xiaoyan's childhood was unbearable. Her family disliked her as an only child. Her mother tried to kill her twice, covering her with a pillow once and tying her with a rope, but they failed.In the end, the wicked parents divorced, and she grew up with her grandma in poverty, and vowed to marry into a family of high education and high assets.Ten years later, Lu Xiaoyan's long-cherished wish was fulfilled by marrying the son of an out-of-town businessman in the capital, who bought a duplex house in the best part of Tiantongyuan to marry her. Not long after that, she quit her job and gave birth to a daughter, which aroused the dissatisfaction of her parents-in-law.Her husband didn't dare to speak for her, and started staying out at night. She cried and cried all day while hugging the nursing baby, and finally had to file for divorce. The husband's family got custody of their daughter, and she got a house in Tiantongyuan.

God drew a cake for Lu Xiaoyan, she was determined to get it, but in the end she still couldn't escape her fate.Dongdong's mother thinks that a girl like Lu Xiaoyan has a strange life when she was young, and she should blame herself when she grows up. She said: "You and her will not have any good results. Generally, women who encounter this kind of experience are more desperate for men. It is also very tough, unless you can meet all her requirements, otherwise she will reject you a second time."

The singing girl in the partition started to moan, I thought about what Lu Xiaoyan and Dongdong's mother had said for the last time, closed my eyes and fell into a deep sleep.

4.
The war in Tiantongyuan will always be a war between tenants and intermediaries.The intermediary rents the house from the owner and sublets it to the tenant at a high price. Every three months, the proprietress drives a second-hand domestic car to collect the bill. I'm leaving." The "third sister" in the second bedroom in the north missed the rent for a few days because she went back to her hometown for a funeral, and the proprietress yelled at her downstairs, attracting a large crowd of residents to watch. The "third sister" was full of grievances, went upstairs after paying the money, and called the contractor's phone number.

The contractor stood in the corridor and listened to everyone’s complaints. I said, “The proprietress is not a thing. On the day I signed the contract, she deliberately dragged me outside to chat, and let the male assistant enter my room to secretly sign the contract. I asked for it several times. , I just gave a copy, and her ID number on the contract is all fake." The girl who accompanied the singer said: "When the person signed the contract, he smiled like a flower, and after signing the contract, he turned into a crazy old woman. There are dirty words everywhere. Last time I reasoned with her, if it wasn’t for my friend, she almost hit me, crazy!” The big man said: “They never repair things when they break, and they complain that we broke it. They kept claiming that our deposit was deducted. A buddy of mine also rented their company’s house, and after checking out, he went to ask for a deposit, and was beaten by them.” Dongdong said: “She still scolded two of my friends who came to play downstairs. , saying that we should all get out of Beijing."

The contractor was trembling with blue veins, threw away his cigarette butt and said, "Everyone go to their company with me, I smashed her today." The big man said, "Uncle, they are similar to gangsters, we can't afford to mess with them." The contractor said : "What is the underworld? I specialize in the underworld. My team is downstairs. There are three Transits. Let's go!" Dongdong's mother said: "Yes, everyone, Yangyang, Chao and Big, you old men When the time comes, the men will rush forward and protect our daughter."

I admit that I was terrified that day. The moment I stepped into the building, my legs were still fluttering.As a man who was naughty when I was young, I am not afraid of physical conflicts, but I have reached the age of fear of consequences.I followed the crowd in a daze, with images of conflicts and a dozen kinds of consequences constantly playing in my head. More than 30 people, more than 20 people holding hands, were making trouble in the most famous downtown area of ​​the North Sixth Ring Road. The white-collar workers of the company went to the police station to make records or were detained, so I would lose not only my job, but also my future.But at the same time, I despise myself very much. I am simply a joke. I think I have a better education and culture than most Tiantongyuan people, but I have become a coward in front of the Tiantongyuan-style life.

Civilization, what a beautiful word, so beautiful that it seems to melt all grievances, but in a society where the jungle preys on the weak, how sincere is civilization?The civilization we yell about most of the time is nothing but the protection of our own image, or an excuse to take advantage of others.

I stopped my family at the elevator entrance and said, "They've already gone in, let's just wait here."

Afterwards, the contractor and his subordinates were packed into a car by the police and taken away.The intermediary boss and his real wife came to our place to apologize. They said that the woman who collected the rent was not an employee of their company, but a second landlord who signed a contract with their company. The company had already fired her, and everyone can sign a formal and legal contract with the company Contract, if you have any questions in the future, you can directly contact the company to ensure that it can be dealt with on the same day.

A contractor from Huainan vented his anger on his lover in the way of a northern hooligan.Of course, being hooligans for true love often has to pay a very high price. The contractor and his men were detained by the public security organs according to the law for crimes such as picking quarrels and provoking trouble, disturbing order, and destroying other people's property. Although they did not hurt anyone, the contractor still paid a huge amount. Compensation and fines, also had to suspend their own engineering business.

Unexpectedly, Dongdong’s mother praised my actions that day. She said that I was worthy of the standards of a mature man. I asked her what maturity is, and she said that maturity means knowing how to make a difference when your head is hot. Do something or not.

(End of this chapter)