Your loneliness is more moving than this world

Chapter 5 Sunset Tiantong Court (4)
I closed the door and handed her a cigarette. She picked up the lighter on the table and lit it, then sat in the corner of the sofa with her legs crossed.I sat down and said, "I scolded Lu Xiaoyan and broke up with her." Dongdong put down his cigarette and opened his mouth wide: "Ah? You really broke up?" I said, "You don't need to be surprised, in fact, I have long wanted to break up. , has nothing to do with what happened between you and her today." Dongdong sat back in the corner of the sofa, hugged his legs and did not speak.I said: "Dongdong, there is a saying called 'the authorities are obsessed'. I want to hear your young people's views on this relationship between me and Lu Xiaoyan. Why do you think Lu Xiaoyan and I have come to this point?" Dongdong glanced at me cautiously. One glance, and said: "You are stupid, a woman like her is not suitable for you at all, and you can't control her. My mother is right, you will not have any good results at all." I said: "Yes, we Why do we foolishly love those who we can't control at all? Why pursue those loves that have no results? Don't you look stupid in the end? So, I think today's things are quite meaningful, at least I don't have to do this in the future You're being stupid." Dongdong took a puff of cigarette and said, "Of course you can think so, I also think you are not worth being with someone like her." I said, "Actually, Lu Xiaoyan is right, everyone has their own. Personal character and way of life are just not suitable for two people to be together. When we don’t understand this, we will all fantasize, be obsessed with obsession, be stupid, make mistakes, and be cheap. Once things are over, we will understand everything and live instead. It's easy." Dongdong bit his lower lip, nodded and said, "Well, I think what you said makes sense." I sat close to her and said, "So Dongdong, we have to thank the previous people and experiences , Without those people and experiences, how can we find out our own life and position? It is impossible to be truly happy, right?" Dongdong said: "Don't worry, Brother Chao, I understand what you mean, You don't have to go around in such a big circle with me, I won't hate your friend."

10.
After the new year, Dongdong resigned from the newly promoted position of store manager and returned to the life of her drunken daughter A Fei.

When I came back from other places, I received a call from Guo Xiaoyu at the airport. He was very sorry and said that it would be impossible to find such a capable girl again in a year or two.Dongdong's mother came to me immediately and took me, Dongdongdi and Yangyang out for dinner. During the dinner, she asked me to come forward to persuade Dongdong. I asked her: "Where did this guy go? Why didn't you see her?" A figure?" She glared at Yang Yang and said, "I made a new friend and played around wildly, and if I said a few words to her, she would quarrel with me, and she wouldn't come back after the quarrel."

At ten o'clock in the evening, Guo Xiaoyu and I walked into a bar in the East Third Ring Road, and found Dongdong and her henchmen in the corner.I rushed over and grabbed her and asked, "Why did you write the resignation report? Who told you to do it?" Dongdong shook off me, gave Guo Xiaoyu a vicious look and said, "I just don't want to do it anymore. As for blowing your beard and staring, you guys? Come here?" She breathed a sigh of relief, waved to a few friends behind her, and said, "Look at you, this is our brother Chao, how is it, okay?" I said, "Your mother is angry, Do you know?" She said: "Angry? Why is she angry? When will she not be angry? Brother Chao, tell me, she, oh my God, no, angry! If I really leave someday , she will be angry." I said: "Is it because of the high school classmate that Yang Yang brought recently, he won't let you do it?" Dongdong's face changed drastically, and he pushed me away and said, "Stop talking nonsense here You don’t need to take care of Lao Tzu’s affairs!”

The high school classmate that Yang Yang brought has become Dong Dong's new object.He is the same age as Dongdong, a student of engineering college, and his family runs a timber business in Northeast China.Dongdong liked him, so he went to school to play with him, and dragged him to the bar to play. Later, when Dongdong's mother and Yangyang went back to their hometown to visit relatives, they simply took the boy home for the night.

I find that I don't understand this girl more and more. Maybe it's just like what the "third sister" said, she is more mature than I imagined.As a 23-year-old girl, Dongdong has chased after almost all the men she can pursue. She is far more plump than her peers in this regard. She has loved in real terms, fake love, and missed love. Now, she only needs a man worthy of her man to love.

Dongdong's move severely injured Dongdong's mother, and also seriously injured the big man in the north compartment.The big man called during work hours and said very disappointedly: "Brother Chao, I got up late today, went to the bathroom, and heard Dongdong's voice in the master bedroom. They are doing it at home during the day, Brother Chao, I can't stand it I’m gone.” I said, “I can’t stand your death! I’ve told you before, don’t fall in love if you live in one family, or you will have to move out if you break up. Don’t you lose your face when Dongdong’s family buys shares and eats?” He said, “Brother Chao, you don’t know, I really like Dongdong.” I said, “You really have a fart, she’s playing with you, you understand!"

The big man didn't move away, maybe he really liked Dongdong, maybe he couldn't even get the money to move.These ignorant boys don't understand women at all. They only know how to sleep fast when they look at them. Far more times than loving and being loved.

In early May, Dongdong came home and announced that she was pregnant. She told her mother that the child's father had promised to marry her.Dongdong's mother collapsed completely, and the mother and daughter tore their faces apart again, and threw everything in the master bedroom to pieces.When I came back from get off work, I found Brother Dongdong crying and Yang Yang crying too.Brother Dongdong said that her mother took her sister to the hospital for stitches, and the glass on the cabinet almost cut her belly open.Yang Yang said that during this fight, no one in the other rooms came out to persuade them.

I opened the door, looked at the suitcase on the ground and said, "Are you back?" She said, "I'm back." A small head popped out from behind the suitcase, and I said, "Your daughter?" She smiled and said, "Yes , baby, call me uncle." The little girl called out timidly, and I pushed open the door and said, "Come in."

The singing girl dragged the suitcase into the house, looked around, and said, "Why is it so quiet, hasn't anything happened at home recently?" I said, "It's nothing, by the way, the sister who lives in the second bedroom in the north just moved out." "She pointed to the room and said, "That's the one...'Third Sister', did you leave with the contractor?" I said, "No, I left alone. Dongdong's mother said that the contractor disappeared. Phone, address They were all changed, but no one was found, but the old guy left some money before he disappeared." She said, "It must be that someone has a new, young one, so let her go. Alas, these rich people are really unreliable .”

I helped pack the big and small things in the house, and asked her, "Where is this going?" She lowered her head to fold the clothes, and said, "There is a friend from Beijing at Anzhenmen who wants me and the child. I want to go early." My son will move there so that I won’t have anyone to take care of my children when I go to work.” I said, “That’s good, many foreigners want to marry a Beijinger, who has a house and a household registration, and you and your children will have someone to rely on in the future.” She stopped what she was doing, and said with a sneer, "Are people in Beijing really that good? Their old house has been replaced by two houses, but their son and daughter are arguing with him because of these two houses. People go over to take a look at him. There is something to rely on, hum!"

I straightened the straps on her shoulders and lifted the hair on her forehead. She looked at me and her eye circles turned red: "What else can I expect from a person like me? Just live a peaceful life." I held back my emotions , leaned over and picked up the little guy on the ground who saw his mother crying and began to wipe his tears, and said, "Let's go, I'll take you down to take a taxi." After wiping her face, she tugged at the child's pants and said, "Say thank you, baby!" uncle."

When I got home, Dongdong was eating bananas by the door of the master bedroom. She glanced at me and said, "Is your lover gone?" How long are you going to be angry with your mother here?" Dong Dongbai walked away with a glance: "Cut, I'm not angry with her."

When the poplar trees on the street stopped spitting, the big man finally decided to move away.The big man was the third to move from here, and he wasn't the first to despair of the place.The "third sister" in the second bedroom in the north knew her status and identity from the moment she moved here.As Dongdong Ma said, if life is measured purely from the perspective of money, life will reduce a lot of confusion and sadness, but the "third sister" violated the "rules" and rashly mentioned marriage, which caused unnecessary confusion and sadness.The big man is different from the "Third Sister". He was originally a young man who treated life simply and rudely, so life treated him simply and rudely.The first time I helped the big man clean up the room was because his sales girlfriend came back to sweep the goods after dumping him. The second time I helped him clean up the room was because of saying goodbye, he was inspired by his family to go back to work in his hometown, expressing that he would never set foot in the capital again in this life.

I went into the master bedroom and asked Dongdong to come out to say goodbye to the big man. While eating carrots, Dongdong said, "No, I never loved him."

And the singing girl, have I ever loved her?I didn't even know it myself, maybe it was because of this reason that she was moved in front of me, and then she chose to leave.

A ray of sunshine raised my head proudly, ending my dreams and memories. I opened my eyes, walked barefoot to the window sill, and opened the thick curtains for the first time.I was naked, my eyes were dull, and I enjoyed the astonishment of the countless windows of the opposite pavilion. I wanted to tell them that I had taken off the last coat, and that I was a child of Tiantongyuan just like them.

11.
Summer is here, and summer is here again. The summer in Tiantongyuan is a kilometer-long food stall, with barbecue, seafood, and high-footed draft beer that is foaming, pulling hundreds of thousands of people to the sky.In the evening wind, the shirtless Northeast man talked about the past, the Shanxi man who cooked the dumplings brought out a big bowl, and the guitarist sang "Life in Bloom", and the girl who was listening stretched out her snow-white thighs far away.

Walking into the deli, the sales lady quickly put on a smiling face and said, "Is it off work?" I nodded, and she continued to be busy and said, "I heard Dongdong's mother said that you are going to change jobs, so you don't want to live here?" I said: "Yes, the new company is too far away from here, so I have to move. Isn't it the same when working in Beijing? The place of residence follows the company." She grabbed two sausages and handed them to me. I'm here to buy chicken chops." She said, "Take it, my sister gave it to you, and come back when I'm not busy."

After the re-examination, I invited all the new bosses to eat at the food stall in Tiantongyuan, during which I took the initiative to introduce the geographical environment of each district to them.This group of people has been in Beijing for many years, so they have heard of Tiantongyuan's name, and they took the opportunity to show their superiority. They accused the house design here of being too utilitarian, complained about the people here being too ordinary, and complained that the intermediary here was too dark.I smiled and nodded in agreement over and over again. When they finished speaking, I sat down and looked at the surrounding buildings and said, "The house is not important, what matters is who lives in it. In fact, it makes a difference where you live, because there is no difference between people."

Dongdong went back to the Northeast to get married, but I didn't go see her off, because I was at work, Yang Yang didn't go to see her off, Yangyang was also at work, and the only person who accompanied Dongdong to see her in-laws at his hometown in Northeast China was her mother.

Dongdong's mother drank the beer, wiped the corners of her mouth and said, "Is the house you live in rented by the company? How much can you raise your salary?" I said, "It's a house rented by the company, so the salary will naturally increase." Son, what else is there to change jobs for?” Dongdong’s mother said: “That’s good, alas, I wish my children could be as promising as you, even if they are as sensible as you, I’m content.” Yang Yang Said: "Godmother, don't keep complaining about Dongjie, she is married to a rich man anyway. Besides, don't you still have us?" I said: "Dongdong is not a bad boy, he just understands life well. It's a bit one-sided. But now she has a family and has a child, and she may understand everything in a few years. You have more experience raising children than we do. Dongdong, daughter, you have to wait." "I'm still waiting , Super?" Dongdong's mother put down her glass, "I have been waiting for these little bastards for so many years, but what have I waited for? They are all disobedient." She pointed to Brother Dongdong and said, "Like this, now all day Stick to me, who knows if he will be as virtuous as his father in the future." "Son!" Dongdong's mother shouted.Brother Dongdong, who was gnawing chicken paws, quickly raised his head, and Mother Dongdong said loudly: "When you grow up, you will kiss your mother, or will you be like your sister Dongdong?" Brother Dongdong laughed twice.

Lu Xiaoyan sent a message to ask me out for dinner, I went, watched a movie with her, and went home together.I didn't tell her about my job change, and she also showed me a different and unfamiliar tenderness.In the middle of the night, she became sad, and asked me in the dark, "Dan, why do people get married?" I said, "In order to start their own family." She then said, "What about love? Is there love, marriage? Will you be happy?" I said, "Not necessarily, these days there are also blind dates and flash marriages who are doing well." She said, "Marriages without a foundation of love are doomed to be unhappy, but there are also many marriages with love that eventually get divorced. I don’t understand, after thinking about it for several years, I still don’t understand, what is love and what is marriage? Tell me.” I got annoyed, pulled the quilt and said, “Love and marriage are nothing. When you arrive in Huaichun At the age of explosion, you sleep with people in a daze; at the age when your face turns yellow, you panic to find a spare tire, and finally you choose a man who you think is reliable to get a book and register, and then he runs around outside, you Complaining at home, he thinks you are not as beautiful as your female colleagues, and you think he is not as good as your neighbor's big brother who can make money. You quarrel, you fight, and the conflicts that you could have solved by coaxing each other back then have been sarcastically arguing all night. Your man is early I am tired of this family, but I can only use my energy on my career with a forced face and a smile. You are getting older and your sense of security is getting lower and lower. You long for your husband to get rich overnight, but you are worried that your husband will go away after getting rich. Finally, you Become a bloated shrew in the sunset, become a female fat in society; your man uses work as an excuse to go out to steal food all day long, and become a bastard who always abandons you."

She stopped talking and started crying.

That night, I dreamed that I was chasing a girl I hadn't seen for many years. The girl was light and elegant, and soon disappeared at the end of the road.

In the fall of 2012, I left Tiantongyuan.I pressed the car window, glanced at the tall buildings and the crowd, and thought of a friend who studied abroad.At that time, she stood at the security checkpoint at the airport and looked at me affectionately and said, "I will definitely miss you when I get there." I said, "Honey, if you can leave, don't come back."

(End of this chapter)