Your loneliness is more moving than this world

Chapter 6 You're like the boy I've seen (1)
1.
In the summer of 2007, in Shijiazhuang, I left behind my newly purchased bicycle and the crazy boss in Handan, carrying five hundred yuan, a military quilt and some clothes, and walked to the train station. I got carried away, as if there was my lover in the distance .

The fifth ring outside the bus window, the sun is dazzling, the sky is desolate, the ground is dirty, the newly opened shopping malls are full of colorful flags, and there is a noise of farmers' markets.I got off the car and entered the village in the strangeness and anxiety.In Zhongtan Village in Changping, there are crooked small streets, crowded small shops, and fruits and snacks are placed outside.This village is a paradise for foreign small businessmen, full of students, workers and farmers who are working or planning to work.The houses in the village are densely packed, and the tallest one is no more than four floors, and most of them are temporarily raised. Beijingers call this "eating tiles".There is a family in the depths of the village, the yard is also built into a house, and the passage is only enough for two people to walk side by side. The main house is a tube building with a deep passage, and countless doors are distributed on both sides of the passage.The third floor is the top floor. There is only one row of houses. When you go out of the house, you will find a wide roof. The roof is full of ropes, hanging sheets and clothes. It is colorful and swings in the wind.Several college classmates who came to Beijing in the early days lived here. Ke and Lei lived together, Huizi lived with his girlfriend, and Huizi’s sister-in-law Xiaoxi and her boyfriend lived in the outer room of Huizi’s house. All the furniture in the outer room was a small bed. other.

At first, the situation of the Tiantai Gang was like this: Ke was working, and the typesetting job introduced by the university teacher had a monthly salary of more than 3; Lei was choosing a career, and his intention was [-]D design; Zizi is choosing a career, and his intention is post-production of film and television; Just get out of here.

I stayed at K and Ray's place, three big boys in one bed.Ke was relatively big and couldn't stand it, so he borrowed a door panel and dozens of bricks from the landlord, and built a small creaky bed next to the big bed.The three of us shared the rent of [-] yuan per month. There was a gas tank outside and a vegetable market in the village. I started cooking, and the quality of life of the rooftop gang improved instantly.

The roof gang is very warm, each set up a table at night, eat, chat, joke on the roof, and sometimes enjoy a full moon.After eating, I stood on the edge of the roof and looked around, surrounded by small houses of different heights and flickering lights, the nearby alleys, the distant streets, the uninterrupted noise, a huge place full of life A slum with cheap food, maybe sixteenth-century Paris.

Every morning, Lei and I went to Huizi's house to submit our resume online, because only his computer could access the Internet.As college students who have just graduated, we are not qualified to choose employers, and we almost have to vote for recruits.The next day, the recruiting unit called, no matter where they were, they went there and took the bus.That was in 2007, and there were no subway lines [-] and [-] in Beijing. Line [-] had just opened, and subway stations even had eye-catching tickets.Within two months, Lei and I traveled to every station in the capital. The scorching sun, dark clouds, and wind like a bag of popsicles made people tortured to reality. Butterflies cannot fly over the sea, and chicks perish in Haogu.

Two design companies asked me to try it out for a long time, and I ran out in a cold sweat, my mind was full of the scene of working overtime and revising the draft in the Shijiazhuang design company in the dark a few months ago.Four months later, the capital entered winter, and I went to work in Haidian District, learning to do projects, with a basic monthly salary of 3.Lei, who was obsessed with [-]D design, returned to his hometown in Xingtai with all hope lost.

I got off work early, passed by the vegetable market to buy vegetables, then cooked, ate, and left half of the pot for Ke.Going to the public toilet on the first floor in the middle of the night, I vaguely heard the sound of bed calls in the corridor, full of temptations from the market.

2.
The first company was a small unit that did public relations activities for several IT giants, and I was the only boy.Dalan joined the job at the same time as me, sitting next to me, Dalan is two years younger than me, from Jiangsu, beautiful, tall, loves to eat, eats but not fat, speaks sweetly, really sweet, and calls Lan's mother in the same way , Diligent, studious, love to laugh, silly cute.

Almost every female nest is rich in gossip. As long as there is no one around, a girl will speak ill of another girl, such as which girl has been adopted, which girl has loved a silly x, which girl said she is not a virgin anyway, just before marriage Play more men.As time goes by, you will feel that there is only one good person in this company, Dalan, who is still stupid.Dalan lives in a top bunk in a shared room near the company. She is warm and cheerful, and believes in love.Her boyfriend, who works out of town, came to Beijing on a business trip. He was ugly, dark, fat, and tall. Da Lan booked a room online with a smile on her face. Asked him, he said he was dragged to massage by others.I persuaded Dalan to break up, but Dalan struggled a bit, but there was no point. A few days later, she was smiling and flirting with her boyfriend on the phone.During the New Year's Day holiday, Dalan rushed to Dalian to meet her boyfriend. When she came back to work, she pouted and said that there were traces of a woman living in her boyfriend's house, and that her comments with the word "husband" in his QQ space were deliberately deleted.I persuaded Dalan to break up, but Dalan struggled a bit, but still couldn't get any points. A few days later, she was smiling and flirting with her boyfriend on the phone.Summer is coming again, I am getting tired of this place, there is nothing to learn in a small company, I am eager to go to a big company for experience, I drop the project I am working on, call and resign from work naked, the female manager is very angry, and scolds me in public in the company.

When my family learned that I was unemployed, they were anxious. They opposed my going to Beijing at the beginning, and now they have more reasons.My cousin’s father-in-law is from Beijing. He introduced me to a biotechnology company. When I went to the appointment, the receptionist was a man with a big belly. He said arrogantly: “You were introduced by XX, right? Come to work next week, and the monthly salary is [-] Three, if I do well, I will give a red envelope." I forgot about this company when I went out.This move caused a catastrophe, my family broke with me completely, and they didn’t answer my calls for two months. I only had a few hundred yuan in my pocket at the time, and I had to borrow money to eat after paying the rent.Misfortunes never come singly, the Ke who lived with me began to change, I can’t remember when it started, he started to look at me a little annoying, as long as I spoke, he would be sarcastic, I don’t know why, I asked him to talk, he said he wanted to live alone.It broke my heart when I said that, he was one of my best friends from college and now he stabbed me and I said I will move out as soon as I get a new job.

Because of lack of money, I sold the rock DVDs I had accumulated for many years.I struggled all night and sold it.I posted the news online, received a call, and met. The other party was a rich second generation who drove a famous car. I was invited to sit in his famous car. Yes, but the Nine Inch Nails concert is missing, which is hard to find now." At the subway station, I watched the famous cars go away, and began to hate the music I liked for ten years, thinking that it was just a rich man's plaything , The bitterness of the poor.

That was the most difficult period after I came to Beijing. I was betrayed by all relatives and penniless, and almost a gust of wind could knock me over by the side of the road.During that time, two people were also accomplished. One was Mr. Gao who came to Beijing and lent me 1000 yuan. Mr. Gao’s kindness was beyond heaven; the other was Huang Xiaoye who chatted with me on the phone with a strong Hunan accent. After three years , I fell in love with a girl again.

Soon, the new job was implemented, and I left Zhongtan Village, threatening not to see Ke within five years.

3.
In Haozi Building in Dengshikou, the whole building is occupied by offices, densely packed with young and strong men and women.To the east of the sixth floor is my new employer, and to the west of the new owner is an insurance company, with countless desks and even more landline phones.Most of the children in the insurance company are smokers. Regardless of gender, they go to the corridor to smoke regularly, and change a new batch of faces every two months.The respondent said bitterly: "Aren't all insurance companies like this? Iron-clad soldiers, maybe I will disappear next month. Leaving the insurance company is a good thing, at least it proves that they have made progress."

The new company was recruiting people, and soon it was overcrowded. I pulled Dalan, who was looking for a job, over to "fall into the grass", and she left the PR company not long after I ran away.Of course, Da Lan didn’t say anything on the phone, but left in a humane and harmonious way. When she left, she didn’t forget to formally “goodbye [? Goodbye, the Chinese transliteration of goodbye, and the meaning of goodbye.

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My boss is a white-faced, slightly chubby treasure island profiteer. He entrusted me and a girl from Guangxi to take care of the activities, so I was lucky enough to go to a foreign country for a week at public expense.I bought a cloth bag for Da Lan in Genting, Malaysia.Da Lan had no conscience, took my cloth bag, and found a new boyfriend who was not good looking on the Internet in the blink of an eye.On the plane back to China, we woke up in our sleep, the fuselage shook violently, the announcer reminded everyone to calm down, saying that the plane was going to encounter a strong turbulence.I was frightened, my legs were tense, I calculated the time and should be at sea, if I can make a forced landing on land, I will die in a group at sea.I left the airport at four o'clock in the morning, and there were delegations from all over the world participating in the Olympic Games. I took the bus back to the city. At dawn, it started to rain lightly at Beijing Station. I looked at everything in front of me, as if I was dreaming.

The profiteers defaulted on the game prize money, and many parents in the Northeast Division came to settle the score, and the profiteers ran to Zhuhai Xiaosan’s house to hide.Forgot to pay the salaries for two months, rumors spread all over the company, the young people quit and wanted to remove the computers and equipment in the office.A phone call came from the operator of the famous wine company "Liu Wang". I don't drink baijiu, but the opportunity is rare, so I joined in the winter, and then I did it for three years.

Later, Zhang Dalin, a colleague and good friend of Dengshikou, told me that the profiteer was arrested. He continued to organize children’s art competitions in the south, and bewitched mainland students to participate in Taipei. The parents of the students complained about the accommodation conditions after arriving in Taipei. Call the police.Zhang Dalin sent a picture of the profiteer, with his hands wrapped in his coat, and followed the police to the elevator.He was sentenced to probation for the crime of forgery, and then changed his name to make a comeback.

Although I met people who were not nice, those days were the happiest days since I came to Beijing.I live in a village in the southern suburbs of Communication University, and my life is unprecedentedly liberated.After staying for six months, he became a 120-pound skinny man with great energy.In summer, it rains heavily, and when I get off work, the underground bridge is flooded by my waist, and I swim back with my bag on my back.It takes half an hour to walk to the subway station for work, and I have to go through the horrible crowded subway movement, but I am rarely late.I am very happy. I have never been so happy. I am appreciated by the boss of the unit, play with my peers in the office, watch the sunset on the Tonghui River Bridge, and talk about life in the Internet cafe at the entrance of the village.I spent [-] yuan to buy a TV set in the second-hand electrical appliance market, and stayed up late watching the "European Cup". Startled. After the "European Cup" ended, I got pharyngitis, severe pharyngitis, coughing in the middle of the night, and sometimes I couldn't breathe, and I thought about what to do if I coughed to death.When I went back to Shijiazhuang to apply for a passport, I woke up in the middle of the night and coughed, which frightened Haili, the senior in the same room.

The Internet cafe at the entrance of the village was full of non-mainstream and Shamat, and Ke left a message on the Internet, asking me to forgive him, I forgive him, and he called to greet him when he was excited.Xiao Ye called and said, "Let's get married." I said, "I don't have anything now, so what should I tie?" Xiao Ye said, "It's fine if we have music to listen to and books to read." I said, "You're so childish." Xiao Ye didn't speak, I let her down, and then she found another boy to be her boyfriend.

4.
In the winter of 2008, Ke and I rented a two-bedroom apartment with one living room in the Huiqian housing area near Tuqiao, Tongzhou. It was more than 80 square meters, enough for each of us to have our own space, and our life has since entered the stratosphere.On the Lantern Festival of the following year, several factories in the suburbs set off fireworks, and I accompanied some girls in the community to watch them. When Ke came back, he said with a smile that a building in the CBD (Central Business District) was on fire, and people from several streets were watching.

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