come on!you are the fattest

Chapter 15 After parting with you, when will you come again

〔one〕

It was the police who took me to the hospital. At the door of the emergency room, the moment the doctor announced that my father’s rescue was futile, my mother fainted from crying, and my relatives were in a mess.

A few aunts helped to take care of Mom, and the people on Dad’s side were divided into two groups, one group surrounded the real estate agency, “What are you doing? An accident will happen when people come to your place!” The other group surrounded the emergency doctors, “The people sent and returned Okay, how did you die here?"

According to the doctor, Dad suffered a heart attack and had stopped breathing when he arrived.

According to the real estate agent, Dad was quite normal before he fainted.At that time they were chatting about how celebrities can make money, and there was a little celebrity watching a courtyard house at their place. Dad asked who it was, and the intermediary laughed, pointing to the TV, "This is the person, yo, this is dating. Already?"

Dad looked back, and Hao Zeyu on TV was embracing the shoulder of the first sister to admit his relationship.

"Mr. Fu suddenly got excited, stood up abruptly, and then passed out..."

I was sitting in a wheelchair, expressionless, just staring at Dad on the hospital bed.Dad seemed to be asleep, as if he would open his eyes in the next second.

Dad, that's just Hao Zeyu's business needs, he didn't cheat, we are still together.Get up quickly, you won't be in the car later?Don't sleep, after waking up, we still have dinner.

By the way, Hao Zeyu, where are you?why don't you come backIs career really that important to you?We have been together for so long, I have never begged you for anything, but now, I beg you to come back, you come back and tell Dad, it is all fake, you let him go with peace of mind, okay?

I wanted to cry, but the irony was that there was no way to wrinkle up my freshly Botoxed face.

There was a lot of noise in my ears, and countless voices were intertwined, like a huge net.Everyone's mouths kept moving, but I couldn't make out what they were saying.

Someone gave me a hard push on the shoulder, and I looked up blankly.I saw Mom recovering, and someone patted her chest to give her relief.

I saw my second aunt slapping her hands in front of me with a sad face, "Speak up! Why are you acting like a normal person after your father died?"

I saw my third uncle pointing at my nose and scolding loudly, "If it weren't for you, your father wouldn't be rushing to sell the house day and night!"

There was a buzzing in my head, and the third uncle's slap came towards my face, my head was very dull, I didn't want to hide, and I didn't want to ask anything.

The one who grabbed the third uncle's hand was my mother.Mom protected me with her body and pushed third uncle aside. "Even if Lao Fu throws the money into the sea, you don't care, let alone spend it for your daughter."

The third aunt got angry: "Sister-in-law! You still protect her. If it weren't for her, brother would be gone like this?"

"That's our own business too."

I grabbed Mom by the sleeve: "Mom..."

Mom gave me a backhand slap.The slap knocked my head aside, and the clock on the wall showed that it was zero o'clock.

The most important day of my life just passed away.The longest day of my life passed like this.

The person I've been waiting for, he didn't come.My heart seems to be dead.

In the next few days, my mother and I stayed at the second aunt's house.Hao Zeyu keeps contacting me, but I haven't seen him because I don't know what to say to him.

On the day my father was cremated, the sky was very overcast, as if it was holding back a rain.

Dad's coffin stopped at the cremation furnace, and I supported Mom to stand aside. Mom's face was old and haggard visible to the naked eye, and she was very quiet.In the past few days, we have cried too much, and we have cried too much. We are so tired that we are like a pair of unconscious dolls, and our eyes are so dry that there is no tear left.

Xiao Songzi ran in from the outside and whispered in my ear, "Hao Zeyu and Lao Niu are here, but they are not family members. The crematorium will not let them in, and the door is blocked."

I didn't answer.At this time, the master who controlled the stove asked, "Would you like to take another look?"

We walked forward, and I bent down slightly, giving Dad a deep look for the last time.After the body beauty treatment, Dad's demeanor is very serene, except that his face is extremely pale, he is almost the same as usual, as if he will open his eyes in the next second and scold me, saying, "Didn't I ask you to take care of yourself? Look what you look like." .

Dad, I cleaned it up, really.Hao Zeyu is also here, but what's the use of him coming at this time?We waited for him to eat together, but in the end we didn't.He is not qualified to see you for the last time, so why should he, don't you think so?Don't be silent, you can talk to me again, Dad, Dad?
The master put on his gloves and motioned us to stand away, "It's started."

"Don't, master, I'll go first, don't, don't." I said in a mess, backed up step by step, my feet were weak, and I staggered and ran out.

Behind me, I heard a burst of women's cries suddenly erupted in the cremation room, and the huge vibration of the mechanical operation made the ground tremble along with it.

I ran out of strength and squatted down under a tree. My breathing was so fast that my lungs were about to explode. I kept retching, but I couldn't spit out anything.At this moment, I seemed to be sucked out of my soul, my consciousness was floating in the sky, and countless chaotic memories were intertwined at this moment.

When I was born, the umbilical cord was not tied properly, and I couldn't defecate. The doctor couldn't do anything, and my grandma and mother were ready to give up on me.Dad heard about a folk remedy, using pickle sticks dipped in sesame oil to stimulate the anus.He didn't close his eyes for days and kept doing this job repeatedly, and I sprayed him with black shit.

Every day when Dad leaves work, he wants to sneak away. If I see him, I will "Dad, Dad" not let him go. He has no choice but to put me in the car and coax me until I fall asleep. I carry it back to the house.

I got into a fight with the district chief's son at school, the school protected him, and my dad fought the principal directly.The principal scolded that the dragon begets the dragon and the phoenix begets the phoenix, you are a driver's child, you will never be good for anything.When Dad led me home, I cried and told Dad that I would be successful.

But I don't.I'm so worthless that my dad took my life, I'll never have a chance to make it up, the rest of my life will be soaked in hatred, I hate myself, I hate that I'm dad's daughter, if this world doesn't have me , Dad will live well.But why should people live?To live a life of scrambling and suffering, just to be shoved into a cold furnace and burned at the end of it?

Mom's more and more desperate cries got into my ears, piercing my eardrums one after another.When I heard Xiaosongzi urging my mother to mourn, my heart clenched into a ball.I bit my tongue, desperately resisting the impending collapse.I suddenly realized that after Dad left, I was the backbone of the family.Anyone can fall, only I can't.I have to shoulder everything, take good care of my mother, and I want to live for him.This is the only thing I can think of, the meaning of death.

I raised my head and saw puffs of smoke slowly drifting out of the tall chimney, and I knew it was Dad.The only person in the world who thought I was thin, who thought I was beautiful, who thought I was a treasure, just disappeared.

I squatted in place for a long time, and a staff member hurried over and told me that there was still trouble at the door.I stood up against the tree and rushed over with him.

Hao Zeyu was torn into a ball with the people in the crematorium.The old cow stopped him desperately, saw me coming, and quickly shouted: "You counted it! Hurry up, this kid is crazy!"

I stepped forward and slapped Hao Zeyu with a clean hand, "What's the matter! My dad is still inside, just burned to ashes!"

He seemed to be stupefied, and instantly fell silent, looking at me in disbelief.

The staff of the crematorium watched coldly, as if they were used to such scenes, with disgust and impatience on their faces.

Hao Zeyu said slowly: "What do you want to do?"

I noticed that someone was pointing in our direction, discussing in a low voice, with a bit of surprise in their expression.

So I said, "Let's change places first, and I'll tell you what I want to do."

As I walked towards Hao Zeyu's nanny car, sadness rushed into my eyes.At this time, I was still thinking about him, afraid that he would be photographed and be on the news tomorrow.I do love him.

The two of us got into the car with Lao Niu.I touched all the pockets on my body irritably, but I didn't bring a cigarette.Hao Zeyu seemed to know what I wanted to do, so he handed me one, and I quickly took it and lighted it up, like an addict getting addicted to drugs, the nicotine calmed me down, so calm that I lost all hope.

Hao Zeyu also lit a cigarette, he looked at me, and I looked at him.Neither of them spoke, as if whoever spoke first would bear the guilt of the upcoming parting.

I looked at him carefully, and he became more and more beautiful, and his haggardness could not cover up the radiance of his body.I reached out and gently touched his face, touching the place where my slap fell.His hand was on the back of mine.

The old cow said, "Speak up."

I tried my best to suppress the trembling of my voice: "Can you stop being a star? We have made enough money, I will accompany you back to Harbin, ah, don't you Northeast people like Sanya, let's go to Sanya, if not, let's go abroad, Find a place where no one will stop us from being together, okay?"

He clenched his hand suddenly, paused for a few seconds, took my hand away from his face, and looked at me with such aggrieved eyes, "Do you really love me? Are you sure you love me?"

I couldn't help but laugh.

He was still staring at me, as if my appearance had changed, and he was trying to find the familiar traces, "Fuzi, don't you know what I want to do? If I don't do this, what else can I do? You don't think about me Want to?"

"I've thought about you, really, I've been thinking about you, but now I have no other way." I slowly pulled out my hand, "Hao Zeyu, now I think about you thoroughly, let's break up. "

His face suddenly changed, "What are you kidding? What's wrong with you? You don't see me, and you won't let me accompany you. I understand, your father died, you feel sad, and I feel sad too, but Fuzi, isn't this My fault."

I shook my head: "It has nothing to do with you. My dad is dead. What a big deal? But I can't handle this. It has to be Little Swallow Zhao Wei, if she were a pig, she wouldn’t even be able to make cartoons.” I suddenly smiled, like an [-]-line talk show entertainer inspired by the audience, and continued to talk—it was all about me broken heart. "But I'm just a fat lucky boy. I've tried my best to become thin like this. Looking at the entertainment industry, there is no actress who can play me well..."

"Jia Ling." He said suddenly.

We looked at each other and laughed so hard that I had to look hard at the roof of the car to stop the tears in my eyes.

"Oh, Jia Lingxing, but she is so beautiful, not like me... I remembered, there is someone who can, Shen Dianxia, ​​she is quite similar to me, she insisted on staying with Zheng Shaoqiu, but she died early, I spent my whole life going in, and before I died, I had to ask that man if he ever loved her. But how can I compare with her, she has the love of all Hong Kong people hanging on her body, I only have the love of my parents, and my father loves me even more. Gave his own life to love..."

Hao Zeyu's small voice came into my ears, "I still have me, I still love you."

"No." I looked at him and shook my head, "Maybe we just have a crush on each other, I really want to believe that you really love me, but we have to admit that this is not love, this is just two patients, warming each other .Now that spring is here, it's time to separate. Love is so beautiful, but you see, we are together, I become your weakness, I become your weakness..."

Hao Zeyu interrupted me: "I know, Sister Rose asked you to break up with me. I knew about it a long time ago. I understand that it is because I am not strong enough to protect you. So I worked hard to film, and I worked hard. , in exchange for the trust of the leader. Fuzi, we don’t have to be afraid from now on, no one can hurt us, as long as we both hold it together, we’ll be fine, trust me, okay?”

"But I can't take it anymore." My eyes were hot, "Hao Zeyu, do you know? Before I fell in love with you, I was very happy every day. I was happy selling subway tickets, and doing odd jobs in magazines. But I’m not happy now. I’ve never had such low self-esteem when I was the fattest. Is this a relationship? I overdraw all my fighting spirit in this life just to be with you. Before, I thought, for you, I’m willing to let go of me In my life, I do housework at home every day, but the most suitable for this state can only be the housekeeper, not Hao Zeyu's lover. Your career is getting more and more successful, and I can only become the best-paid cleaner in Beijing , such a person, is it worthy of your love? Will you be happy? Will I be happy? Yes, we shared weal and woe, we were sweet, scarves...heavy snow...Macao...Harbin...But we can no longer deceive people with memories Yes! We used to be better, but we are not well now, and we will never be better in the future. Why should we be tied together and drag each other down? Hao Zeyu, let it be like this."

Silence pervaded the entire carriage, I tried not to cry, and opened the door to get out.

Hao Zeyu grabbed me and looked at Lao Niu in confusion, his voice trembling, "Auntie, please say something, I beg you, please help me."

The old cow raised his head, but his gaze was dodged, "I'm sorry, Xiaoyu, I can't help you this time."

Hao Zeyu was at a loss for a moment, and suddenly shouted sharply, "What are you doing? You want to leave me too, right?"

The old cow raised his eyes, but did not try to comfort him.He hesitated for a moment, then nodded slowly as if making up his mind. "Two kids from the company are also in this play. This play is sure to be popular. It's cheap, so I should quit." Lao Niu said, "I'd rather be a chicken head than a phoenix tail. Work. I’ve been popular with Hao Zeyu, and I’m pretty good in the circle. I’d better find out the kids who are not popular. If I go now, I can make a friendship. I’ll hang out in the circle in the future. I can always read the old ones and help , anyway, mountains and rivers meet each other.”

"Where are so many mountains and rivers meeting each other!" Hao Zeyu beat the car window fiercely, and the joints on his hands gradually bled.

"What are you doing, ancestor!" The old cow quickly took out a tissue to stop the bleeding, but he pushed the old cow away, and his eyes were red.

"I knew that anyone I like will leave me!" Hao Zeyu opened the car door and jumped off. I hurriedly got out of the car to chase after him, but he ran back again, like a begging puppy, with a fawning expression on his face "Fuzi, if I don't become an actor anymore, I'll take back everything I said just now, I..." He stammered, took out two pieces of paper and handed them over, "I still have this, we don't have to break up Right? Huh?"

I looked down and saw that it was the two yes-any-request tickets. I took it and tore it to pieces in a few strokes.

"What are you doing!" Hao Zeyu yelled, squatting on the ground like crazy, picking up pieces of paper, trying to put them back together.However, a gust of wind blew by, and all the debris drifted away with the wind. He screamed and chased after it, but caught nothing.

I looked at his face: "There is nothing now, there is nothing between us."

Hao Zeyu looked at me in disbelief. In the end, as if he had been greatly wronged, the tears finally burst. He bit his fist to stop the sound of crying.

"I shouldn't believe that someone will fall in love with me!" He threw down such a sentence and stumbled away.

I stared blankly at his back, and all my thoughts stopped. At this moment, I was really tired to the extreme.After a while, I said, "Lao Niu, ask the driver to come over and pick him up. This place is far from the city."

The old cow scolded: "It's really cruel, can't you give him another chance? In fact, you are not as tough as you said just now. You still love him, right?"

"He was born to be someone else's dream, the dream of [-] million girls, the dream of [-] million gay men, the dream of [-] million aunts, no matter what kind of dream, his own girlfriend, the role setting should not be a dog. Pig. It’s okay for me to be a pig, I accept it, but I can’t continue to be whimsical. Dad is gone, I have to keep this life, take good care of my mother, I dare not make any mistakes in my life anymore. "

I looked at Lao Niu, and from the moment he forced those little fresh meats into the group, I vaguely felt that he might be paving a way out for himself, so when he said his decision to leave, I didn't Too much surprise.But I still couldn't help asking him: "Why did you choose to speak at this time?"

"Why, can't bear it anymore?"

I lowered my eyes and shook my head: "Very good. A real big star should deny his relatives. At best, we are now a tumor growing on his life, and we will cut it off sooner or later. Cutting the two together might make him even worse. Sober up, the road ahead will be better."

"You still haven't answered my question." The old cow glanced at me, "Do you still love him?"

I was silent for a long time, took a slow breath, and finally said with difficulty, "I love him, but until I ask the question of whether I can stop being a star. That question is the last chance I give between us He didn't choose me, he has more important things to do." I paused, "After that moment, I only have hatred. Even love, for me, is the most important thing in the world. shameful thing."

I gritted my teeth, as if I wanted to remind myself that this hatred is real.But I understand that what I hate is that as long as I see him, I will think of my dirty self.I hate the self who wants to eat swan meat, the self who once thought that as long as he loses weight, his life will be perfect.I hate myself who loves him so much, I hate the self who thinks that someone in the world will give up everything for me.

We were silent for a long time at the same time, and no one spoke again.I opened the door and got out of the car, walked a few steps, and suddenly remembered something, turned around and smiled at the old cow.

"What a coincidence, today is the last day of the countdown."

The old cow looked at me confused.I waved to him and turned to leave, but I thought in my heart: even God helped us break up, so why should I be unwilling; all love is an illusion.Fuzi, you shouldn't have believed that anyone would love you.

〔two〕

The chicken thief is really a loyal dog. After Dad was cremated, he seemed to understand something and began to go on a hunger strike. We had to send him to the pet hospital for IV drip.

In the evening, I sent my mother to live with Xiaosongzi.I told her that I'd better go back and want to stay at home with my dad for the last night.

Mom took a look at me, "You don't have any crooked thoughts, do you?"

I laughed and said, "You really think highly of me. If I really had that backbone, I wouldn't be me."

After returning home, I lay on my parents' bed, and there was still a little bit of my father's smell on the pillow, which made me feel particularly safe.Soon, I fell asleep.In the dream, I was trying to put together the two "Response Tickets" that I had torn apart, but after I finished putting them together, they were blown away by the wind, so I had to run around looking for the pieces again.After repeating this several times, I was also very tired in the dream, and suddenly a voice said, don't fight, it's useless.

I woke up and saw my grandma lying beside me.

My eyes were wet, but there was nothing good in my mouth: "You old lady is really useless, you argue with me all day long, your son-in-law is about to have an accident, and you don't come to remind me."

Grandma said, she wants to come too, but the jade pendant around my neck won't let her come.Now that the jade pendant was gone, she came back again.

I sat up and looked around. There was only grandma and the brand new urn in the room.I asked, "Where's Dad? Why didn't Dad come?"

"Your dad also wants to come to see you, but he can't come, don't wait, let him go." Grandma smiled and got up, "I can't come anymore, Dafuzi, you are well."

I quickly got up and wanted to chase grandma. I wanted to ask, why couldn't dad come?Why don't you come?Where are you going?Unexpectedly, in a hurry, he fell under the bed instead.

This fall, I really woke up, and found myself lying on the ground, with the sun shining brightly in my eyes.After the pain subsided, I finally realized that everyone had left me.From now on, I can only rely on myself.

I carried the urn and went back to Xiaosongzi's house.Mom didn't sleep all night, and the little pine nut was pillowing on Mom's leg, snoring all the time.

The TV was still on, but on mute, and Ma was watching intently.

I walked over and sat down.Mom took a look at me and said: "The house has been transferred, and the full payment is more than 1000 million. How can you say that they foreigners are so rich? It's nice to be rich. Hey, you first take a cushion for him to sleep on, my legs are crushed Numb."

I replaced my mother's leg with a cushion as promised, and Xiao Songzi fell asleep, turned over and continued to snore.

Mom reached out and took the urn I put on the sofa and hugged it in her arms, like holding a baby, weighed it, and continued: "I have discussed with Xiao Songzi, the money will be divided into two parts, and one will be left to you. , I'll take the other one, I'm going out to play."

"Where are you going?"

"Go to the beach. When you were born, your father said he would take me to see the sea, but we have only been to Beihai in our life, and we have never seen the real sea. Now that we have money and time, I will take him Go see the sea."

"Then let Xiaosongzi go with you."

"What about you?"

"I've got to work, and I've got to give you a good life."

Mom smiled: "You have to let yourself live a good life. Don't blame yourself too much. Mom has already blamed you for that slap."

I bowed my head and remained silent.

Mom said again: "Of course, it's useless for me to say this. You have to figure it out for yourself. If you live, you have to abide by the rules of living."

Xiao Songzi snorted suddenly, and howled in his sleep, "Dad, don't worry, I will take good care of Mom and Fuzi..."

Our mother and daughter admired Xiaosongzi's sleeping appearance for a while, and my mother said that my son was so beautiful, but then wept.

I wiped my mother's tears: "We both abide by the rules of living, live well, and you still have to watch Xiaosongzi's child."

"how about you?"

I laughed.I want to say a lot and shout a lot of inspirational slogans to her.But when he spoke, he just said: "I'd better work hard."

〔three〕

My mind has never been so clear. There are two choices in front of me: one is to return to work with Lao Niu, and the other is to choose another job.

After thinking about it for 10 minutes, the first one was rejected internally by me.Once there is no way out and I take refuge in Lao Niu, what obligation does Lao Niu have to help me out?Was he from the Red Cross Society in his previous life?What's more, he has already found a new publicity director and Dong En's agent. If I run around shamelessly, won't this cause him trouble?
Or choose the second one, new job, new boss, new ancestor, just like a new life.Anyway, I am also the former publicity director of Niu Meili Entertainment Co., Ltd., and I have also made such a successful case as Dong En, the "new generation of buttocks king".

However, I underestimated the current employment environment and hit a wall several times in a row.During a certain interview, the kind-hearted HR hinted me euphemistically, "Our publicity team, the oldest one is also from 1991."

In fact, I can understand that this circle is changing too fast, and the tastes of fans change every day. The team must be younger, and the thinking must keep up with the current fashion trends.But at the same time, I also feel wronged: How do you know that I must not keep up with the trend?When I was Dong En, I was also a trendsetter of the times.

So what you can find all at once is just a bunch of junior copywriting jobs.But no matter what I do, I really can't compete with a kid who just graduated and is looking for an internship with a straight face.

In the end, an Internet celebrity approached me as an agent, and I worked for 28 days. When it was almost time to pay my salary, she fired me because she thought I was not careful enough and did not bring emergency contraceptives with me.I wasn't too upset, and sent some hook-up messages on the Internet in her name.Facing her full of gossip news, I was really elated.

At this moment when I was out of the village and out of the store, Bailianhua's manager called and asked me if I would like to be a publicity agent for Sister Hua.I am willing, let Bai Lianhua give me sesame sauce every day, and I am also willing.

But the white lotus forgot about me, maybe because I was thinner, maybe because I cut my hair short.But no matter what, when I saw her again, I was filled with emotions, choked up for a while, and said, "Sister Hua, you really changed my life."

Yes, if it wasn't for the interview with her, I wouldn't have pinched her head with sesame sauce and been kicked out of a fashion magazine; I wouldn't have known Hao Zeyu later, and went to work with him; I wouldn't have become so thin, and Dad I won't die... Okay, stop, let's think about it this way, in the spring of 1979, that old man didn't even draw a circle in the South China Sea.

So I swallowed these words in my stomach, just wiped my tears, and said against my conscience, Sister Hua is my idol in life, and it is the glory of our family to be able to work for you.

The elderly Bai Lianhua was very helpful in this method. After seeing me working overtime late at night, she was full of praise and gave me a high-grade eye cream that she used half a tube to cure my dark circles.However, I know that the best way to treat dark circles is to get enough sleep, but I can't sleep.The restful sleep when I feel the dawn is as far away from me as the fat I lost.

The subway is the only place I can sleep.I often work overtime until eight o'clock in the evening, and then take the first subway and sleep on the car until the conductor of the last subway tells me to get off.After exiting the subway station, I hail a taxi to go home, then sit at the window and smoke a cigarette, watching the night sky change from dark blue to light blue, and when the gym opens, I go to the gym and run 1000 meters before going to work.My life has become a circular subway line 2, but fortunately, I have this job, which can dilute all the boredom.

After working for a month, I gradually figured out the personnel relationship around me.

Bai Lianhua is like all successful old-fashioned celebrities, her fortune does not flow to outsiders, her younger brother is the publicity director, and her younger brother and sister are managers.So, taking advantage of her younger siblings' pregnancy, Bai Lianhua hurriedly recruited An Wen, the current big manager.When An Wen came, she also brought her own team, so Bai Lianhua was divided into two groups, An Wen's group and Hua Brother's group. When the two groups get along normally, there is no doubt that they are at odds with each other.It's a pity that An Wen recruited me, and I have to work under Brother Hua, so I'm not good at both sides.

An Wen is also a fat girl, but she is quite easy to talk to.Once when we were chatting, I asked her: "Have you watched the first episode of "The Legend of Zhen Huan"? The queen rewarded Concubine Hua with a court lady, and she was thrown into the well by Zhou Ninghai within a few days. The maid happened to be named Fuzi. You said that my situation is very similar to mine now, maybe one day I will be killed by Brother Hua." She smiled and said nothing, and I asked her again: "Before me, you should have sent a lot of 'ladies' to Hua In the younger brother’s palace, I’m the only lucky son left, so I’m just going to live on mediocrity, right?”

"I'm sorry for you, Sister Fuzi, if he doesn't leave, I can't help you if you have to be like this all the time." She said this bluntly, wishing that I was a two hundred and five, and would directly quarrel with Brother Hua.

In fact, it's not impossible, but I know very well that An Wen and Huadi are at most the second boss and the third boss. Even if I am used as a gunman, I can't just fire casually. I have to put a shot at a key place.

The opportunity came.Sister Hua is a producer and has made a movie. It will be released soon and needs to prepare for a new movie launch.This is a very greasy job. Of course, my immediate boss, Hua Di, will not let him go, and I am happy to have a leisurely time. I don't think that Hua Di, who is careless, has mistaken the date of the invitation letter.Seeing that the press conference was about to start, there were not a few reporters in the media area. Sister Hua lost her temper, so she raised her eyebrows and had a big fight with Brother Hua. Brother Hua felt ashamed and left the mess behind. Ran.Everyone was gloomy and gloomy, packing up their things with drooping eyebrows, and preparing to leave.

I stopped Bai Lianhua, "Sister, this won't work, the money has been spent, even if it is thrown into the water, we have to listen to it. Now, you and some leading actors play mahjong, and we will live broadcast it online."

Sister Hua was taken aback, "This, this is too low..."

"Low is good, as long as there is news, who wants to lose face!"

The next day, the news about White Lotus playing mahjong at the press conference of the new film really broke out.Ben Fuzi became famous in the first battle.

I'm helping Brother Hua to deal with the aftermath. He found me and asked me to speak with him, put the wrong date on others, and let the kids go.I agreed, and went directly to Sister Hua, explained the ins and outs clearly, and handed over the evidence of his brother's embezzlement of production funds for the press conference.

Sister Hua didn't get too angry, and asked me what I wanted to do.

I said straight up, "I want to be a communications director."

A week later, Sister Hua killed her relatives righteously, and I took office.

Peng Song has always been concerned about this matter, "This is too dangerous. What if Bai Lianhua hates snitches the most? How do you know that she will definitely fire her brother? He was born in a mother's womb."

I smiled, "She has been looking for a reason to fire her brother for a long time, and she wished I would do the trick. What's more, this kind of first-line star puts interests first and refuses to recognize her relatives. Whoever can bring her benefits is the real relative. "

I squeezed his shoulder, "let go of these gossips first, and talk about business. Now the leader of the white lotus styling team is not dealing with me. I have to find a way to kick him out, and then let Xiaosongzi you. It's so important The position must be one of my own. Well, those few propaganda under my hand don’t quite convince me, so I have to be replaced by my own people by the way..."

Xiao Songzi stared at me, then suddenly smiled, "You look like a scheming superior right now."

I happily accepted this compliment, "It's good to be a superior. A superior is only hated by others, and never hates himself."

Hao Zeyu's face suddenly appeared in front of my eyes.I maintained the smile on my face, but subconsciously clenched my fists.Keep going, Fuzi, because now, you still hate yourself.

〔Four〕

One day, I saw a passage in a book. "From now on, I began to choose my life carefully, and I no longer let myself get lost in all kinds of temptations easily. I have heard the call from afar in my heart, and I don't need to turn around to care about the right and wrong and the discussions behind me. I have no time to think about the past, I want to move forward."

I copied this passage and posted it on the head of my bed, so I can read it every day when I open my eyes.From now on, I am not afraid of anything, I will move forward.

White Lotus is increasingly dependent on my opinion.When did it start?Probably when I successfully transformed the somewhat outdated image of the white lotus as a female model worker with both moral and artistic virtues into a sexy general attack for both men and women?Or when she participated in a reality show, when I replaced the glittering name tag in the suitcase with casual home clothes to show her private image of being close to the people?Or when other celebrities are eager to do somersaults in front of the camera, I let her quietly knead dough, steam buns, chop firewood, and attract countless fans with her hardworking image?Or when I learned that she missed Lao Niu, I cleverly arranged for the two of them to meet, so that they could let go of their previous suspicions and hug each other and cry?I can't tell which of the above reasons it is, but the result is that I quickly became the backbone of the team.

An Wen saw that the power had been left behind, so she took the initiative to hand in her resignation.At that time, I was confirming with Bai Lianhua about her role in the next reality show. Bai Lianhua didn't show any special nostalgia. She said a few words in a perfunctory manner and agreed. The route is still to simply act coquettish.An Wen was also very calm and retreated automatically.

After we finished talking, I caught up with An Wen, and when I was about to speak, I didn't know what to say.If I told her that I really never thought of driving her away, and all this was just a product of my "no time to think about the past, I want to move forward", would she believe it?After hesitating for a moment, I just said, "Let me treat you to a meal."

After get off work, I invited An Wen to a restaurant that loves to play noble cards. After drinking for three rounds, she patted my hand and suddenly spoke the truth, "Who would have thought that I, a returnee who graduated from Yale, would be beaten by you?" The exiles who run undergraduate courses are squeezed out, Da Fuzi, you have the ability, you are not the unlucky one in "Zhen Huan Biography", your good days are still to come. I really regret it, I shouldn't have listened to it at the beginning Sister Rose, I'll recruit you in..."

"Sister Rose?" I was a little surprised, but An Wen seemed a little drunk, so she didn't go on talking, talking about the next family is also a difficult boss.

I thought about it and felt relieved.I have already broken up with Hao Zeyu as promised. Sister Rose did this, maybe she just gave me a favor, or maybe she wanted to monitor whether I was having sex secretly, but no matter what, she would never catch my life again , I can't constitute a threat to her.No matter what her purpose is, it has nothing to do with me.

I called a car to take An Wen home. Before leaving, she probably still felt a little bit unwilling, and said in my ear, "You know, other people secretly say that you have two faces..."

I nodded, grinned suddenly, said I knew, closed the car door, and sent her away.An Wen, you are such a good girl, you can even spread small words so gently.Believe me, what I heard was much worse than what you heard.

Once, when I was in the bathroom of the company, I heard someone yelling outside the cubicle door, "Fuzi is such a green tea! Playing like a slave in front of the white lotus, and playing a master in front of the subordinates."

If it was Fuzi who was obese, she might pretend not to hear; if it was Fuzi who was losing weight, she would reflect on herself.Unfortunately, I am already me.Now I, penny and penny must be weighed, cutting weeds and roots.I lifted my foot and kicked the door open, without getting up, I sat on the toilet and cursed, "Yes, I am green tea, I am a double-faced person, come if you have the ability!"

The girl was immediately frightened.A girl next to her quickly said, "Sister Fuzi, I didn't say anything..."

"It's a crime to listen to it, and you're going to die if you listen to it. Get out now! Go back to your hometown and take the civil servant exam. You have plenty of time to speak ill of me!"

The two of them ran out crying, and I didn't feel any disturbance in my heart. I closed the door and continued my unfinished business.I was fiddling with my mobile phone, and Zhang Ziyi occasionally gave likes in my circle of friends. I fantasized about the wonderful scene of working for her for a while, flushing, washing my hands, applying makeup, and returning to the office to be an old Buddha.

Do you think that I will be so cold in a high place, alone and independent, with a glass of red wine and a movie, and drip until dawn?Sorry, no, I'm fine.Traveling in business class, with a dedicated driver, wearing the most flashy clothes, using the most expensive skin care products, no one dares to give me face, even Bailianhua respects me three points.On my birthday, I booked the whole bar, and there was no white man, and a dozen little fresh meats with their upper bodies naked, danced and kissed my birthday star.

This is how to be a human being!So many years of wasted work, being a dog is just a bunch of shit!

During the Chinese New Year, another little Huadan who was more popular invited me over. Bai Lianhua heard the news and sent me a car to appease me.I yelled thank you, Lord Long En, next year I will do my best to embarrass my mother, but on the back I talked with that popular little actress about the conditions for quitting.While talking, I happened to receive a New Year's greeting message from An Wen.When An Wen left, Bai Lianhua's unmoving face suddenly appeared in my mind.In this line of work, what maintains the relationship between everyone is nothing more than favors and interests.I never expected White Lotus to be sincere to me. I understand that she values ​​me only because I can bring her more benefits.Back then, she really relied on An Wen. When An Wen left, she didn't even frown.There are talented people from generation to generation. Once I lose such a great use, I will be replaced by the new generation of "Fuzi".At that time, no one will sigh for me.I suddenly came to my senses, whoever signed the contract is also a slave, why not be my own master?

After the vacation was over, I drove the car presented by Bailianhua and told Bailianhua frankly, "Sister Hua, I'm going to start a business. You will protect me from now on."

It is not easy to set up your own business, but after so many years of hard work, I have accumulated a certain amount of contacts and prestige.Although it is not easy, three steps, one hurdle, five steps and one pass, even if you grit your teeth, you can pass them all.

After the company's business was on the right track, I discussed with Lao Niu and signed Dong En back.I don't dare to compare with Sister Rose, but I probably understand that if Hao Zeyu is the white moonlight in Sister Rose's heart, my Dong En is still the cinnabar mole on my chest.

Later, at a wine bureau, I met Miss Rose.When the large circle of people around us dispersed, I solemnly toasted her.

"I can't take it anymore." Sister Rose raised her glass with a smile, "You are also a big manager now."

I also laughed: "Don't look down on me, I haven't thanked you yet. If you hadn't been a good person behind your back and secretly introduced me to Bai Lianhua, I wouldn't be where I am today."

Sister Rose took my hand and looked at me carefully like a girl, "Seeing that you are living so well now, I feel at ease."

She said, sighed, and her tone suddenly sank, "Fuzi, I have something to tell you, don't blame me. When your father passed away, you sent a message to Hao Zeyu, saying that something happened to your father. He was being interviewed and the phone was in my hand, I was afraid that he would lose his composure when he saw this message, so I deleted it."

"I always felt it was my fault that you had such a stiff fight afterwards. I'm sorry for you. If I hadn't deleted that message, maybe you two are still together now."

I seem to be a little drunk, my mind is spinning, and the sweat in my palms is coming out.But I still laughed, "What are you talking about? Is it right for us to break up? After breaking up, he flourished. As for me, wherever I go now, people call me 'sister', thanks to you. Than It was accidentally exposed, and the two of them went to hell together, so I don’t know how much better it is now, I can think clearly.”

Rose showed a gratified expression, and said earnestly, "Fuzi, Sister Rose has not come to this day because of her cruelty."

"Of course, of course." I nodded, "Sister, I have to go first, I'm drunk, I really have to go."

I turned and left, and within a few steps, Rose caught up, grabbed my hand, and said, "Xiaoyu left me and started his own business. He has been alone for the past two years... Now you, maybe you can match me." We deserve to be with him and be with him now.”

I laughed and brushed her hand away, "Sister, you've acted."

In the open-air parking lot, I leaned on the car, waiting for the driver to pick me up. My eyes fell on a car next to me, which looked familiar no matter how I looked.Take a look at the license plate, oh, it belongs to Miss Rose.Why do I remember it so clearly?I thought about it for a long time, and then I remembered, because the last four digits of her license plate number are my dad's birthday.

As soon as the wind blows, I wake up a little bit, and I seem to have some strength in my body.I took a golf club out of the trunk and slammed it into the old lady's car.I!Now!can!Worthy!fuck him!
Dad, why did she delete that text message? !If not delete!he will be back!He will definitely be back!
The security guard rushed over, only to see a collapsed woman holding a golf club and crying.

I was dazzled, read the wrong car number, and smashed the wrong car.

Nothing if.It doesn't matter whether you delete that text message or not, the ending is set, we can't go back to the past, everything is too late, we can't go back.

〔Fives〕

A few days later, I accompanied Dong En to catch up with the announcement, and the traffic jam on the road was so bad.

This kid secretly observed me all the way, and at this moment, he finally couldn't hold back, "Why did you smash the car that day?"

"revenge."

"Who do you have a grudge against?"

"With myself."

"Do you still have hatred against yourself now?"

When my aunt arrived, I was very irritable, and flipped through his schedule, "If I'm late today, I will have a bigger hatred, even you."

Dong En immediately opened the car door, "For my personal safety, let's squeeze the subway."

Line [-] has not changed, it still smells like urine, and the ticket seller turned out to be my old colleague, still with a sad face, but she didn't recognize me, and the action of tearing up the ticket stub was still quick and easy. breath.

After passing the security check, I turned to Dong En and said, "A few years ago, I sold tickets at this subway entrance."

When we got off the elevator, I looked at the huge crowd waiting in line for the subway, and muttered to myself, "Look, there are so many people on the subway at five o'clock. Suddenly, I'm so thankful for my life that I don't have to squeeze the subway every day. "

Dong En couldn't bear it any longer, "Do you know that you are in need of a beating now?"

I nodded: "Who gave me such a miserable life?"

"You yourself, you used to sell subway tickets, but now you're a gold agent, you've completely forgotten your roots."

"Is it me? It seems not."

"Who is that, ghost? Fu Mom, you are really sick recently!"

Until I got in the car, I was silent, looking at myself reflected in the glass, there was a shadow in my mind.How about the man who appeared on the cover of ten magazines a year?How about the one who nominated for the Golden Horse Award and the Academy Award?Will he still be haunted by nightmares while sleeping?Does his leg still hurt when it rains?I suddenly miss him very much.

"Brother Xiaoyu." Dong En called.

I was startled suddenly, and my hairs stood on end.Why did he come to take the subway too?Do big stars understand people's sentiments?This is too idol drama, meet on the street?How should I act without embarrassment?Do you want to say hello?Should I speak first or wait for him to speak first?Did I put on too much makeup today?Squeeze all the way, will there be folds on the clothes?
I turned my head, only to find that Dong En was staring at the TV in the subway, and the entertainment news was broadcasting the news that Hao Zeyu had suspended filming and went to study in the United States.Dong En asked me thoughtfully: "Mom Fu, why do I feel that everyone likes to go on a study tour recently? Wait a few years, will you also arrange this for me?"

I replied: "You don't need to take the route of youth hormones, more bubbles in the gym are the right way."

"Does it have to be for the sake of ignoring others? What if I really want to go?" He refused to let go.

"Then I will personally take you to a famous school and learn from a famous teacher. No matter how poor you are, you can't afford poor education."

Dong En grinned.I sighed, and pushed up the sunglasses that had slipped off, "Shut up and keep a low profile, lest others won't recognize what's wrong with you."

Dong En nodded, and after a while, he added in a low voice, "Actually, I think Brother Xiaoyu also really wants to go, but he has so many drama appointments a year, so he can really think about it."

The host on the subway TV is still happily reading the manuscript, the Mercury retrograde is coming again, have you been reversed?Well, it must be Mercury retrograde increasing my aunt, which made me feel so lost all of a sudden.

The next day I still had a bit of dysmenorrhea, so I went to the real estate agency to go through the formalities.I said casually that the house prices in this neighborhood have risen too fast.

"Have you seen this house before?" the agent asked.

I nodded: "Two years ago, almost lived in."

"Oh, it's a pity, the house price was cheap at that time, why didn't you buy it?"

"Because of love."

The intermediary brother praised me for being humorous: "Your love is enough to lose money."

Hehe, not only losing money, but also losing life, turning a fat man who has nothing to do with the world into a thin hedgehog with prickles every day.

The Filipino maids who push the children to bask in the sun in the community are still Filipino maids who speak English. That’s great. This community is like a paradise. Regardless of how the world changes and how the world changes its appearance, it is still here, neither fast nor slow, as if everything is going well. It has nothing to do with it.

Nothing has changed except you are not with me.This time the Mercury retrograde was fierce enough, and I expressed my love again.

After the contract was signed, when the qualification review was done, the agent was at a loss and said, "Sister, this is your second apartment."

I went to the District Real Estate Bureau to check and found that there was indeed a house under my name.I went there according to the address of the house, but when I got to the place, I just felt dizzy and thunderous.It was a courtyard house.A feeling of deja vu suddenly appeared in my heart, and I tried to recall where this feeling came from. Tiansha’s dysmenorrhea came to join in the fun at this time, and I sat on the ground in pain.

I finally remembered that a man once bought me a mink in Harbin, and I was so moved.

Back then, who said that they wanted to buy me a courtyard house?How come you take what I said as a joke?

A kind aunt on the side of the road asked me what was wrong, and I burst into tears.Dysmenorrhea really hurts.

〔six〕

"Is it too late to break Hao Zeyu now?" Xiao Songzi was looking at the real estate website, and estimated the market value of the courtyard house, feeling a little regretful.

"I didn't ask you to count the zeros in this house!" I threw the computer over, "Quickly check all the interviews of Hao Zeyu for me."

"What are you doing?"

"I want to know what he thinks."

"What else can I think? I bought all the courtyard houses, which means that he must still love you..."

I screamed, about to tear Xiaosongzi's mouth off, "Stop talking! If you say anything else, I'll jump off the stairs."

My madness made Xiao Songzi very obedient, but he couldn't find Hao Zeyu's name when he typed it on the search engine.

I slapped my head with the force of a boulder in my chest, "I forgot, I blocked his name!"

In the past two years, I tried my best to avoid his information, I was afraid that he would show a little tenderness and break all my pretended strength.I'm also afraid that he will be ruthless all the time, making me unable to stop in my self-loved drug addiction.I had no choice but to block all his keywords on Weibo, such as "Hao Zeyu", "Brother Xiaoyu", "The Next Best Actor", etc. The children in the company knew that Hao Zeyu should not be mentioned, and sometimes some film companies who did not understand the situation sent him Themed gifts for movies starring in, these companies have all been blacklisted by me and will never work with them again.

However, at this moment, he is overwhelming, flashing on TV, in photos, and in texts. He looks so good with his hair combed back. He has developed abdominal muscles. There are two steel nails on his stumped leg. He has never bought He didn't mention any real estate, and he didn't say a word about his relationship... I read the news one after another, and my brain was so rusted that I couldn't turn it.

"This thing, I think you should watch it." Peng Song pushed the computer in front of me and opened the latest episode of a reality show.In Macau, guests including Hao Zeyu finished the game tasks and sat by the fountain, waiting to watch the fireworks.

Hao Zeyu naturally leaned on the shoulder of the veteran actress Sister Zheng, squeezed Sister Zheng's wrist, "Sister, you are really fat." Sister Zheng's face changed color.

Seeing that he said something wrong, Hao Zeyu quickly said: "My last girlfriend was also quite fat..."

Xiao Songzi turned up the volume of the computer, "Pay attention, the key part is coming."

In the show, everyone wentssip instantly because of Hao Zeyu's words.

"Why, do you like fat girls?"

"I don't like fat people, I just like her, she just happens to be fat."

"When was it divided?"

"Two years ago."

"Why did you divide it?"

He lowered his eyes: "She thinks, I don't love her that much."

Someone joked: "What kind of girl is this, she doesn't even love you, is she sick?"

Hao Zeyu suddenly laughed.

"She is sick, like a heartless person, no matter how bad her life is, she is always smiling and has a big heart."

"Listen to you, do you still like her now?"

"Hey." He smiled and stopped talking.

"Why did you stop talking suddenly? Can't you speak clearly?" Sister Zheng pulled Hao Zeyu in front of the camera, "Come on, talk to her, maybe she will be able to see it."

Hao Zeyu looked at the camera anxiously, his eyelashes flickering, like a puppy trying to please others, "You..."

During the show, it started to rain suddenly, and the people around stood up to hide, and the camera in front of him also shook.However, he kept staring at the camera and opened his mouth to say something.

At this moment, a cluster of fireworks suddenly shot up behind him, blooming in the air, forming a huge flower.He looked back, and in the end he didn't say anything, just drenched in the rain and watched the fireworks foolishly, so thin and desolate.

Silly you, you don't even know how to hide when it rains.I scolded in my heart, looking at his rain-wet hair, I grabbed it hard.But he is on the screen, and I am off the screen. The distance between us is not only far away, but even two dimensions apart.I can't do anything for him.I stood up, rummaged through the room, and finally found an umbrella, opened it, and covered Hao Zeyu's head on TV.

Peng Song stared at me in horror, probably thinking that I was crazy.

I want to tell him that I'm not crazy, I just want to do something for Hao Zeyu, I just hope that the rain in the whole world will fall on me, and not to drench him.But before I could speak, Tiansha's program director suddenly added a song.

Good flowers don't always bloom, and good times don't always exist.Sorrow heaps and smiles, tears shed with lovesickness.After leaving tonight, when will Jun come again...

I was holding the umbrella, and tears suddenly came up majesticly. With Hao Zeyu's face watching the fireworks in the rain, the last line of defense also collapsed.

How long has it been since I cried so thoroughly?My heart has grown harder and harder since Dad passed away.In the past two years, it's not that it's not without suffering, and it's not that it's not without grievances. There have been a few playful sorrows and a few insignificant tears, but I have never really felt uncomfortable.The most precious part of my life is gone, what else can knock me down?But during this period of time, I have become vulnerable again. Whenever I hear news about him, my heart will twitch uncontrollably.My eyes were so blurred that I could no longer see his face clearly on the screen. I cried hoarsely, as if the old Fuzi had returned.

At this moment, I can no longer deny that I like myself now, but I also miss me in the past, and I miss the fat Fuzi who is obviously vulnerable but always desperate.That Fuzi has nothing, but the person she loves most is standing beside her.

After a long time, I finally lost the strength to cry and gradually calmed down.

Xiao Songzi let me lean on his shoulder and gasp breathlessly, and silently handed over the tissue, "Okay, rub my snotty nose, you go rub him, he is so affectionate, so give me a gift You are a courtyard house. The man who loves you the most in the world is the only one.”

I shook my head: "It's our dad."

"Then he ranks second!"

I sighed: "He ranks third, the second man in the world who loves me, it's you."

He was stunned.

I stretched out my hand and hugged him: "Really, you will always be with me, you will always be behind me, only you will never leave me, why didn't I find out earlier..."

Before he finished speaking, he suddenly jumped up, "Stop it! Are you so skinny and confused? The sky is a lesson, I don't think anything wrong with you, I'd rather change my mind and go to sex. It is impossible to follow you!"

"Xiao Songzi, listen to me..."

He took a few steps back, "Don't give me this set of 'suddenly looking back, that person is in a dimly lit place', I am not your diminutive place, you are in a dimly lit place in the United States!" After Peng Song finished speaking, he fled in despair .

I was like a sculpture, with my arms outstretched, awkwardly standing there.Although I've lost weight, I've become awesome, and I've learned to be shameless, but I've always been proficient in shameful skills.In fact, I just want to say, Xiao Songzi, thank you, thank you for supporting me and accompanying me all the time. Although we are not related by blood, we will always be the closest siblings in this world.However, before I said the key content, I was preempted by him and misunderstood by him!Mad!I looked up to the sky and screamed, and all the touching atmosphere disappeared.

A long time later, when Peng Song’s children knew how to make soy sauce, he told me that when he heard me screaming downstairs, he thought that I couldn’t live without him. He hesitated, but still felt that his innocence was important. He decided to let me die, jump off the building, at most he would burn a few more sticks of incense for me after I died.

I beat him up, "I really have no conscience, even if I have incest with my sister, don't let my sister die at that time, otherwise how can I go to the United States to find my 'recession'!"

〔seven〕

I decided to go to the United States to find Hao Zeyu immediately.

Fortunately, my US visa is a ten-year visa, and there are not many complicated procedures.I bought the latest ticket and got on the flight to New York without any luggage.

After ten or so hours of hard work, I finally landed on the ground.As soon as I turned on my phone, I saw that Dong En had sent me countless messages. I found a coffee shop and made a video call with him.

Dong En on the other end was almost going crazy, "Mother Fu! Did you forget that I was shooting an advertisement today?"

I smiled: "I really forgot." I'm sorry, today I love beauties but not country.

"Forget, didn't this remind you! Get over here!"

"I can't get out, I'm in New York." I showed him the Statue of Liberty in the distance.

"Ah? What are you doing in New York? Looking for a man!"

"That's right, I'm going to find Hao Zeyu."

He froze for a moment, then suddenly there was a bang, and the screen went black.I thought the signal was broken, so I searched up and down for the signal with my mobile phone, but I heard Dong En's cheering voice over there, "She wants to make up with Brother Xiaoyu!"

The assistant over there screamed: "Reconciliation? When did they get married? Brother Xiaoyu went to the United States, wouldn't it be their appointment?"

I hate iron for steel, boy!Why is the mouth so lax!But the assistant's words reminded me that I came here in a hurry, but what is Hao Zeyu's contact information in New York?

Dong En mobilized all resources to find Hao Zeyu's contact information.However, Hao Zeyu changed his domestic number a long time ago, and he did not reply to his WeChat messages. He went to his company to inquire.

I asked Dong En to continue to help me inquire, and went straight to New York University.Who knew that New York University is so big, where can I find it?A kid from the company sent a message. Just now on Weibo, someone said that they met him in a study room at New York University.

I spoke my bad English, gestured and used translation software all the way, and finally found the building.My luck was not bad. I ran into a Chinese student on the road and begged him to help me find Hao Zeyu.The kid thought I was a crazy fan, and refused to accept it.While we were talking, a foreigner came over with a loudspeaker. I decided to grab the loudspeaker regardless.

That day, people in New York with a radius of ten miles could hear a crazy woman shouting Chinese hoarsely.If there are Chinese friends around, I will probably translate for them, "Hao Zeyu, come out for me! Didn't you buy me a courtyard house? What about the house book! I came to ask you for the house book! Get out of here I cried until tears came out, if according to the acting method of idol dramas, Hao Zeyu should hug me from behind me at this time, laughing and calling me silly girl, then we hugged and kissed, and the foreigners around me applauded Come.

But I'm sorry, Fuzi has never had the life of an idol drama heroine (except Hao Zeyu's forehead was squeezed, and he has to fall in love with this dead fat guy), Fuzi who is thin is also very unlucky, I didn't call Hao Zeyu, but sent the school police to her shouted.They "invited" me out of the campus very efficiently, and the process of "inviting" was quite tragic. My makeup was messed up, leaves stuck to my hair, my clothes were rubbed in a mess, and one of my high-heeled shoes fell off.

I sat on American soil and took out a pack of cigarettes brought from China.The current plot is also very American-style tough-a stupid girl in Beijing, who has just sailed across the ocean to see her old love, is so humiliated, and probably has to go back to China in despair.

By the way, do you want Dong En to post information about him on Weibo?My Dong En's popularity is not bad, with so many people walking around, he must be able to see it, right?That's not right, it's now on the top of the list, and the topic is #望求超泽宇#, and the good people may not know what they are thinking.

I was smoking a cigarette and looking for a lighter all over my body, when a lighter was passed over my head.I looked up, and it was the Chinese student who refused to help me find Hao Zeyu just now.

He timidly asked me: "You really know each other? Why did he buy you a courtyard house?" He heard what I yelled just now, and followed me all the way.

"Good question, didn't I just come to America to ask him?"

"Who are you?"

I lowered my head to see how embarrassed I was, and said with a wry smile, "I said I was his girlfriend, you wouldn't believe me, would you?"

The child nodded, then shook his head.

I waved my hand: "Okay, okay, let's go, study hard, and repay the motherland and people in the future-hey, can you give me a lighter?"

The kid nods.

I thanked, got up and left, walked two steps, then turned around, "Meet an old friend in a foreign land, you can be regarded as a witness to the process of my search for love, give me another chance, I still have to repay you. Do you like it?" Which Chinese female star?"

This child might have been frightened by me, and his expression was a little confused. I asked again, and he mentioned a certain little Huadan who was very bad at acting but very popular.

Shouldn't you be a high-achieving student who goes to school here?Eyes can be really times.I groaned, took out my phone, turned to Xiao Huadan's manager's number, and called FaceTime.After a few words, the face of this beautiful girl appeared on the screen of the phone. I asked this child to say hello to Xiaohuadan, which was considered a repayment.After the call ended, the child looked at me differently, as if looking up at a great man.

"Auntie, what on earth are you doing?"

I was dizzy and resisted the urge to punch him. "To put it bluntly, it's the same nature as pimping."

The child was stunned again, he seemed to be a pure doll, and couldn't understand this kind of vocabulary.

"Now we're settled, and we'll see you again." I smiled at him, turned and left gracefully.

A voice came from behind: "Actually, I can find your boyfriend..."

With a click, the other heel was also broken by me.

When I arrived at the door of Hao Zeyu's house, I stared awkwardly at the tattered high heels on my feet, and asked him, "Is it a bit too sloppy?"

The kid looked at me and quietly took out a pair of sneakers from his schoolbag.

I gratefully took it, a little big, but not a hindrance.I took a deep breath, and when I was about to ring the doorbell, I stopped again and smiled weirdly, "What do you want for your birthday present this Christmas?"

"……what?"

"Say it!"

He shivered in fright: "I want to change a computer..."

"My sister will buy it for you!" I calmly helped myself down, took out my credit card and handed it to him, "But you still have to do me a favor."

I hid aside, waiting for him to buy what I told him.After meeting again, we returned to Hao Zeyu's gate.

Ring the doorbell, but no one answers.

"Are you sure he lives here?"

He pointed to the opposite side: "My aunt said that Hao Zeyu lives across from him."

There are several houses next to it. Could it be that the "opposite" refers to the diagonally opposite?I rang the doorbells of other houses, but the people who came out were not Hao Zeyu.

I was a little disheartened, turned around and left.

The child hurriedly followed: "Where are you going?"

I dragged my voice dejectedly: "I'll find a hotel nearby to stay, stay here and look for it slowly."

He looked at the bulging shopping bag in his hand: "What about these things?"

"Send it to you."

"Uh, what about the computer?"

Why are kids nowadays so money-obsessed!Didn't do anything and still want to get paid?I was about to turn around to teach him a lesson, when I suddenly saw a figure of a man walking slowly not far away.I have drawn that figure countless times in my heart, even when it turns into ashes, I know it.It's Hao Zeyu.

He was thin, with a small beard around his chin, and a headband that was casually put on his head to hold his long hair. He looked like a wandering artist, with a cigarette in his mouth, constantly lighting the lighter, But it still fails to catch fire.

I laughed out loud.God is so funny, I have conceived plans for countless reunions, but now I have to give up all of them.I adjusted the lighter valve in my hand to the maximum, stepped forward, and handed him the lighter without saying a word.

Without raising his head, he said "Thank you" with a Northeast accent. When he lit the ignition, he glanced at me and was stunned.The fire in the lighter burst out suddenly, burning his bangs with a bang.

I rushed forward, blowing and clapping to put out the fire.The whole time, he stood there stupidly, motionless, just looking at me with wide eyes.

"It's not burning, is it?" I asked anxiously, "You should hide a little bit!"

He suddenly smiled: "Did you do it on purpose when you gave me the lighter the first time?"

I was taken aback by the question and smiled, "It wasn't the first time, but it is now."

He looked at me, I looked at him, neither of them spoke, probably afraid that the other party would fly away like a butterfly.

After a long time, he asked me softly, "What are you doing here?"

I stretched out my hand, "I want a house book. Didn't you buy me a courtyard house?"

He restarted the ignition, lit the cigarette, and sighed, "This afternoon, I fell asleep in the study room. I dreamed that you came to me and shouted all over the world, asking me for the house book. here comes."

"It wasn't a dream, it was really me, and it was your campus police who carried me out in the end."

He nodded, looked at my face carefully, and smiled again, "I always feel that there is something missing."

This laugh made my eyes suddenly dazzle.Something icy and cool fell on my face little by little. I looked up and saw that it was snowing.

Is there any difference between the snow in New York and the snow in Beijing?There is no difference, there is still a me, and a him, but separated by two years.

My heart warmed up, and I held out my hand to him, "Let's do a dance."

Yes, this time I took the initiative.He should reach out, grab me, and we dance in the snow early this year, and then it all goes to zero and starts all over again.

However, he just stared at my hand, the smile on his face gradually disappeared, and finally raised his head, "Give me an address, and I will arrange for someone to give you the house book."

My hands froze in the air.

"Let's get in touch again." He handed me the lighter.

I didn't answer, I retracted my hand, trying not to lose my composure, "Oh, okay, then, let's contact again." I tried my best to keep my face sullen, nodded to him, turned and left in a daze.

Yeah, why should I come to him and we can get back together?It was me who said to break up at the beginning, and it is me who wants to reconcile now, so why do I get what I want every time?I looked up at the sky, really, I thought the snow was here to help me.

I held back my tears, and suddenly my feet slipped and I fell hard again.I didn't recover from the pain for a long time.It turned out that this snow made me ashamed, God just wanted to see my jokes.

Hao Zeyu ran up from behind to help me, I pushed him aside, stood up, pointed at the sky and cursed, "I've had enough of you! You haven't given me a good face all my life, I've worked hard to be like this, and you're embarrassing me!" It’s not enough to be ashamed in China, you still play me when I go abroad, you’re amazing! It’s useless! People here believe in God! I’m not as good as you want today!”

Hao Zeyu came to pull me: "Fuzi, what are you talking about? Who are you talking to?"

I turned around and gave him a sharp push, "Keep in touch, if I had your contact information, would I be carried out by the American police like a fool today? Who wants to keep in touch with you, I never want to Contact you, if you have something to say, make it clear face to face!"

I stepped forward aggressively and pushed him one after another. The flesh was gone, but my strength was still there. He couldn't stand it, and stepped back step by step.

"Aren't you amazing? Aren't you a big star now? Why are you still so cowardly? You loved me for so long before you dared to kiss me in Macau. If you dare to love me, if you don't go to Macau, you still have to continue to have a crush on me uselessly, right? When I dumped you back then, who was like a puppy and said no! Now that my mother gave you a chance, you gave me a slap in the face, I am! You are used to it! I think it has been two years since I beat you, you are so skinny! "

I kept Hao Zeyu cornered, probably because the noise was too loud, and all the foreigners around me ran out of their homes to watch.

Hao Zeyu had no choice but to retreat, he frowned and asked me: "You came to the United States just to scold me?"

The crowd of onlookers gradually increased, and I became angry from embarrassment, feeling even more ashamed of myself.

Okay, then I'll be ashamed to the end and go crazy once. If I don't go crazy this time, I will regret it for the rest of my life. "Who is traveling across the ocean to scold you! I want to remind you, don't forget the four great inventions of China!"

He didn't understand. "Ok?"

"Gunpowder, the Chinese invented gunpowder." My eyes were so bitter, "With gunpowder, there are fireworks. It seems that you have forgotten!"

He just looked at me and didn't say anything.

My heart skipped a beat. "Forget it, forget it, I'll change it for you!"

I stood on tiptoe, closed my eyes, and kissed him.

His lips were still tightly pressed, hesitating, which made me sad, and I opened my eyes and cupped his face hard.

"Hao Zeyu, I'm not the lucky boy who was so fat regardless of gender! I've lost weight! I'm a big beauty now, and a big beauty takes the initiative to kiss you. You can't deal with it like this..."

"Shut up!" He kissed back hard.

Tears welled up in my eyes, as if there were fireworks all over the sky in front of my eyes. In the beautiful fireworks, all the processes of our past encounters and acquaintances flashed through. I saw grandma's face, father's face, mother's face, Xiaosongzi's face, and the old cow's face in a trance. Face……

I was still thinking about showing the doggy face of my chicken thief, but there was applause all around, I opened my eyes, hey, a police car is coming, and the police are also applauding.

I suddenly became shy.I made a big noise just now, and now I still kiss in public, will it embarrass the Chinese people?

I raised my head and asked Hao Zeyu: "What should I do now?"

"What else can I do?" He said viciously, "Continue to change into fireworks, I haven't seen enough!"

He leaned towards me again, and I raised my hand to block him, "Wait a minute!"

When I looked back, the foreign student was standing aside, clapping his hands as foolishly as a sea dog.

I scolded angrily: "You still clap like foreigners! Do you want a new computer!"

He held up the fireworks in his hand aggrievedly: "The lighter is in your hand."

I threw the lighter over and continued to kiss Hao Zeyu forcefully.

The fireworks sounded, rang a few times, bluffed a few times in mid-air, lit up a few times, and immediately stopped spraying.

We couldn't move anymore. Looking at the defective fireworks, Hao Zeyu smiled and scolded: "It's so ugly."

"Anyway, I'm at this level, whether you like it or not."

He looked down at me and muttered, "I'm so angry."

"Why are you angry? Angry that I broke up with you back then and didn't come to you these two years?"

"To be honest, you didn't think of coming to me until you found out that I bought a courtyard house for you?"

I became serious: "Really, because of the courtyard, I feel that I love you too much!"

He bit my lip hard, "You money-greedy old woman, watch how I torture you for the rest of my life!"

We both smiled and hugged each other.

It's snowing heavily in New York.

Is this the end?right.

No, after all, only in fairy tales can the prince and princess be together happily.

He may be a prince, but I'm not a princess. I have worked hard to evolve into what I am now. At most, I will be a March [-]th red flag bearer. The March [-]th red flag bearer and the prince will not necessarily be happy when they reunite. There are many problems to face in the future, maybe Still stumbled.Because I am Fuzi, Fuzi doesn't have so much good luck, don't expect God to give Fuzi anything, everything she wants, she has to fight for herself.

After leaving tonight, when will you come again?If this is an interrogative sentence, I actually kind of want to tell this "waiting for you to come back" person, instead of waiting for you to come back, you should go find your own happiness.

Don't have no confidence in yourself, come on, you are the fattest.

Come on, you are the best!

(End of this chapter)