The Complete Works of Xu Zhimo's Classical Prose

Chapter 35 Laughing at Life's Hibiscus Bird (7)
But we must not think that the secret of the structure of the universe can be seen through the progress of science alone.This is impossible.We opened a door of knowledge, only to discover more that were still tightly closed, to guess a small riddle, and from this guess to a bigger and more difficult puzzle, to climb a Mountain peaks, nothing more than discovering that there are higher and farther peaks ahead.

This infinity is the universality of life and the universe.Although the pursuit of knowledge cannot go to the end, the feeling of life has the same limitless state.In the game of being human on the ground, although it is a fleeting illusion, there is some fun, maybe we don't have enough energy, have never learned how to play, and maybe we don't have enough fun and rewards.

Therefore, it is important to develop and maintain a lively and unimpeded spiritual state, to use the innate physical and mental abilities, and consciously develop the possibility of life as much as possible.Lively and unimpeded spiritual realm: like a taut harp hanging in the middle of a pine forest, feeling the turbulence of the atmosphere, making high and low sympathetic tones.Don't we love freedom the most and hate slaves?But when we look at the future of life, I am afraid that it is not easy to make us optimistic. Except for our invisible soul, all kinds of forces are just forces that force us to be slaves: all kinds of hearts and responsibilities to people, social habits, Mechanical education, tainted prejudice, like a desert wind, blows up the sky full of sand, and sometimes can completely bury our poor traveler!
This is the great reason for the sectarianism of the religious, but the best that the sectarians can achieve is negative freedom, and we want more than that.We know that moving forward is a struggle, but we are unwilling to be deserters. We are willing to vent all our semen into the sweat and blood of struggle. As long as we can win the final victory, then as much pain as possible is as much as possible. hapiness.Sure enough, we can experience the reality and meaning of life from the phenomena and facts of life; we can understand the reality and meaning of nature from the phenomena and facts of nature, then it will be worth paying whatever price we pay.

To make life a conscious life, not a mechanical existence, is our ideal.It is our ideal to obtain the nourishment of Peibao's spiritual expansion of personality from our daily experience.It is our ideal to make our minds not only passively free from the restraint and oppression of external objects, but also continue to move towards the state of creation, liveliness and unhindered forever.Make our spiritual life obtain undeniable reality, make our self-consciousness of life grow bigger and bigger like a snowball, not only assimilate great, deep and profound emotions in life, but also comprehend It is our ideal to see the spirit of every plant and tree in nature.It is our ideal to make the power of our soul and body, which is endowed with us, develop to the fullest and tend to the final balance and harmony.

The ideal is our belief and the standard of hard work. Sure enough, we can use our imagination to project an ideal personality for ourselves, and at the same time use the rational function to identify the goal and strive to realize that ideal. At that time, we are in the process of struggle , we will definitely gain double courage, and we will not be disappointed when we encounter difficulties, because we know that this is the article that should be in the question, and we do not have to accommodate the established habits and laws of the society, but can compromise on our own. It is based on a higher moral standard beyond the usual so-called good and evil; then we can borrow Li Taibai's wonderful sentence when he was hiding in the mountains and enjoying himself.
We also know that this is not a state that can be achieved by chance; but the question is whether we can see this state. Most people just live without black and white, and die without black and white, which consumes a lot of food and drink , It took a lot of time and space, and as a result, I couldn't even clean up my own stinky skin, and it also affected others; there are not many people who can see it, and of course there are even fewer people who can see it and try their best, but these are very few Man is the creator of culture, so he can leave some traces of no grinding in the Yixing teapot mentioned by Mr. Liang Rengong.

My personal knowledge may be too remote, but I really can't believe how much value artificial education and other training can have: My last sentence at the beginning is just "experience yourself", true learning and true knowledge are by no means in What can be found in the books in the classroom.

Nature is a wonderful book, each of which has endless meanings, as long as we learn the method of studying this big book, we can understand the profound meaning of its content, and our spiritual life will not be afraid. Without support, our ideal personality is not afraid of having no foundation.But this wordless book is by no means clear at a glance without considerable preparation: when we first learned to read, we opened the book and saw many black shadows drawn on white paper, so we could understand the meaning there.Can't we feel a deeper meaning and a more intimate explanation in nature for one of the precepts in our current moral education?Every day the sun rises from the horizon in the east, gradually shining light, gradually shining colors, gradually dispelling the night, sweeping away the dull clouds and mists in the sky, and shining in all directions in an instant, filling the earth with light; what kind of scene is this?In the starry sky of the summer night, there are countless shining eyes, which set off the vast and infinite sky. What a great sight is this?The waves of the sea are whistling and rising and falling, what a great and mysterious sight is this?The pure white on the top of the mountain does not see some variegated colors, only the sky is flying and the clouds are changing. What a noble and pure scene is this?In a nutshell, it is just a very cheap grass flower on the ground, swaying in the spring breeze and the bright sun, with a solemn and happy expression, no wonder the poet saw it, and even felt "emotions that cannot be vented by tears".What Wantsworth said about nature is that "vigorously responding to one's tolerance has the power of taming and ordering", this is our true education.But the biggest lesson of nature lies in the phenomenon of "everything has its own nature".Roses are roses, crabapples are crabapples, fish are fish, birds are birds, weeds are weeds, running water is running water; each has its own characteristics, each has its own effect, and each has its own meaning.As a result of careful observation and careful experience, you can't help but feel the magic of all things, and you can't help but believe that there is a consistent spirit flowing through the bottom of all things, the universe is a reasonable organization, and life is nothing more than a joint of this large system.So we also feel that human beings are perhaps the most unpromising class.A stalk of grass has its charm, a stone has its own characteristics, unique people are mediocre, and most of them are not only unable to develop their possible personalities for life, but also leave traces of uncleanness such as ugliness or sin. Is this also the original intention of the Creator?
I said earlier that all life is just an expression of personality.As long as the natural and possible personality is realized as much as possible within the lifetime, it is the fulfillment of the will of nature.I have been paying attention to the rose flowers in our museum these days, watching them budding, opening, gradually blooming, gradually withering, and gradually falling off.My first emotion was sad, why the illusion of beauty is so perishable, but after thinking about it, I felt that not only did I not have to be sad for flowers, but I also realized the wonderful meaning of nature's endless life.The responsibility of the flower is to concentrate the spirit she absorbs the sunshine, rain and dew in the spring, and bloom into a beautiful flower with both color and fragrance. When the energy is exhausted, it will fall to the ground and turn into mud.Only one or two days when he is unnaturally destroyed and unable to realize his self-confidence and beauty, that is a hurtful waste.

It is a pity and it is against God's will to unnaturally kill the opportunity to grow hair.We young people should keep this principle in mind at all times.I am sorry for not being able to realize the reason why people are human in my life.If you can't realize the reason why you are me in your human life, I am sorry for life; we should always keep this principle in mind.

The greatest happiness and power of our human beings is that we have considerable freedom of movement in life. We can consciously adjust, organize, modify, and train our attitude towards life. Now that we understand that life is only the expression of personality, it is just an art. Take advantage of this privilege to see life as a work of art, and do it with care.We don't believe in the theory of fate, but even a fortune-teller admits that the heart has the fatal power to change appearances.We have to admit part of the environmental theory, but the possibility of the mind dominating the environment is at least equal to the possibility of the environment dominating life, unless we voluntarily allow the power of matter to completely extinguish the development of the mind, and that is the greatest tragedy in life.

It doesn't matter if we don't become good in our life. Talent means usefulness; it doesn't hinder us if we don't become useful. It also means useful.But life must be a finished product, not a standard, character is the expression of personality, it is for the life itself, not for other standards, such as the responsibility directly borne by the social family; the oak is not an elm, and the kingfisher is not a dove, each has its own uniqueness character.From the point of view of good fortune, oak trees are not born for cabinets and hangers, and pigeons are not for our love to eat spiced pigeons. This is their accidental use or being used. The original meaning of things as things is to realize their talents. Character, the realization of the idiosyncratic style required by the inner energy.The vitality contained in our life does not ask you to be a general, a phase, a capitalist, a laborer, a member of Congress, or a university professor in the world, but only requires the expression of a unique character, unique, self-contained, not Comparable to the second category, there are no two absolutely identical leaves on a Jewish tree, and there are no two identical noses among our [-] million people.

But to realize our pure personality, we must not only be new and weird in appearance behavior. This is sex change, not personality. Pure personality is the power of the soul, which can control and coordinate the body, reason, emotion, spirit, and all kinds of causes The state of the natural expression of the personality function in the future is not hindered by external objects inside, and is as sensitive as a spectroscopic mirror. Whether it is the mud and sand in the ground, or the stars thousands of miles away, as long as the light path is aligned, it will be able to Divide his light-wave properties; an experience is an invention, for a new combination, a new change.With such an inner life, it can be expressed outside, of course it can go beyond man-made regulations and echo with the more profound but more real laws of nature, of course it can realize a special character and character, and of course it can be in this natural environment. Make his unique contribution in the system to prove his own value.After understanding the meaning of each having its own nature, and then observing the things in the universe, there is really nothing that is not beautiful. Needless to say, a leaf and a flower are beautiful, even poisonous insects such as scorpions and ants are beautiful.Only man, the one with the deepest expectations of nature, is the one who disappoints and disappoints the most, because ordinary people are self-defeating, not only can't fulfill their nature, but they always ruin the essence that can be beautiful and good. .

Shame, man!A good topic that can make a good article, but you write it as an ignorant cliché; a good painting topic, a good canvas, and good colors are all painted into ugly and ugly paintings by you; Granite, but you break it into absurd and vicious grotesques!Good spirituality can transcend the material and the universal spirit to commemorate the eternal life, but you have ruined and desecrated it into an ugly, vulgar, despicable and dirty waste!

Life is art.Our problem is how to use our ready-made materials to realize our ideal works; how can we take a large piece of white stone that has just been opened in the mine like Michelangelo, and at a glance, we can see The statue in his imagination has been completely fixed, and in the future it only needs to open the stone and take him out without damage.So we should no longer complain that the environment is not good and inappropriate, which hinders our free development, or that the education is not good and inappropriate, and cannot reward our free development.Development or suppression, freedom or slavery, true life or lingering, finished product or incompatibility are all up to us. It all depends on whether we have the awareness of life in our youth, whether we can cultivate and maintain the freedom of the mind, Can you work hard consciously, can you treat life as art, and do it meticulously.That's why I have repeatedly stated that true news, true meaning, and true education are by no means publicized by people or books. They can only focus on our inspiration and directly face life itself and nature to study, experience, examine, and realize patiently. Only then can we understand the fun and value of life and its sanctity.

For thought and idea arise from the contact of the mind with appearance: creation is the result of action and change.The pure thought is an imaginary reality, with its own character and beauty, a rainbow of spiritual realms, a living fetus.But we have intellectual activities at the same time. Those who are moved inside often have a tendency to show outside. The great painter Millais said that deep impressions often seek to show outside, and they will naturally find the most powerful way to express the invisible results. Thoughts are transformed into visible words or audible language, but the highest function of written language is to symbolize our original ideas, and its value is limited to hinting at the ideas they represent at that time by virtue of the appearance of symbols.And the idea itself is nothing but the waves or islands and islands in the real sea accidentally illuminated by the sea lantern of our mind.The written language itself is an imperfect tool, coupled with the weakness of our use of control, so the performance of the written word is rarely satisfactory.We can open any book and listen to people's speeches casually, and we can find all kinds of language barriers and language barriers. Therefore, since we ourselves use words to express inner phenomena, which are at best barely applicable, we How can we expect others who are full of language barriers and language barriers to comprehend our momentary thoughts from the rigid symbols.The reason why there is a school of Zen in Buddhism, which preaches without words, is that Bodhidharma, who faced the wall for ten years, was able to get rid of the language barrier and directly see the truth with his mind.The current so-called education is especially far from the original. Even if the educational materials originally had many living elements, after several transformations and unconscious teaching, they can only become dead teachings. John Muller said "dead Dogma is not a living idea. Personally, I don’t believe in the value of artificial education at all. It has little impact on life. Needless to say, I think that the method of instilling knowledge, according to the existing education, is inevitable. Hard and stupid machinery sex.

But on the other hand, since human life is just a performance, and language is the most suitable tool for human beings to compare, we know that language is as inevitable as the government and marriage, or as Nietzsche said. "The prison of the human heart", we still cannot avoid him.We can only think of ways to increase its applicability, and we cannot abandon it.We can only do two parts of work, on the one hand, passively prevent the influence of language barriers and language barriers; The most clear and unambiguous representative.

This is one direction in which we should apply "conscious effort".You know that there is a great writer in France, Frobel, who has a belief that a specific idea can only be expressed by a specific word or sentence, so he has spent his hard life in literature, just looking for the only suitable word to express it. Represents the only equivalent idea.He often doesn't eat or sleep, just sits blankly alone, racking his brains, trying to find out the expression of his care and comfort. Sometimes he is so annoyed that he even wants to commit suicide. .Just imagine that a great genius like him, with such rich knowledge, still needs such hard work to produce immortal literature. Shouldn't we be moved after seeing his example?
Don't just write, just speak normally. We should also put our minds to it. One sentence can reveal the shallowness of your mind, one sentence can prove your conscious efforts, one sentence can show your muddled thinking, and one sentence can leave a permanent impression. impression.This is not to say that speaking should be beautiful, fluent, and rhetorical skills are not important: the most important thing is to be faithful to the inner thoughts and express appropriately.It is true that one can speak clearly only with a clear mind, but the faithfulness of expression and the determination to use words meticulously will also have the effect of correcting slack thinking and alerting the mind.

We know that speaking is an extremely important way to express individuality. Since life is a whole art, speaking is of course an important part of this art.Extremely high efforts can often be done from a very small starting point, and we can realize our life ideals by starting from paying attention to words.

The original issue of "Falling Leaves", the first edition of Beixin Bookstore in June 1926

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