In those years, we were not together

Chapter 14 Finally Say I Love You (3)
"I..." Li Lei didn't know what to say, and indeed, he didn't know what to say in front of Han Meimei.When they were in a relationship, it was Han Meimei who often told him some jokes. All Li Lei could do was show up every time she felt lonely, and give her a little romance.And these little romances speak louder than any words at the time.

"For so many years, we have experienced many things and missed many things. We can deceive others, but we cannot deceive ourselves, are you right?"

"En." Li Lei nodded, at this moment he no longer knew what to say to the woman in front of him.In the past, she was his classmate, girlfriend, and even his wife when playing house.But now she is a strong woman, her boss, and her boss' wife.

Time is really not a good thing, but it can change everything in a short time!
"The reason why I didn't notify you of my marriage is because you are studying in the United States and I really don't want to disturb you; another reason is that I don't want you to be sad, so I didn't let you come to the wedding... In fact, in my heart, I still... ..." Han Meimei tried to explain everything.

At this time, Li Lei understood what Han Meimei wanted to say, but from the day he knew that Han Gang was his boss, he deliberately kept a distance from Han Meimei, because even though he wanted to be with Han Meimei, after all, she still had a For a complete family, whether it is wind or rain, she needs to bear it by herself, and the only thing I can do is to watch from afar and wish her happiness.

So he interrupted her: "Enough, Meimei. I know that I am not a good man, I know that I am far from the standard of a successful man, so I voluntarily quit, I voluntarily give up, I voluntarily be alone, can Is it?" Li Lei suddenly became very excited, and even he himself didn't know why he said such words.

"Lei, I've been thinking a lot during this period of time. I don't know what's wrong with me. I seem to be suffering from schizophrenia. Maybe in the eyes of outsiders, I am very happy. My husband is rich and has both children. I look very happy. Happy, in fact there is still some gap between rich people and ordinary people, Han Gang and I are actually not as happy as we look, everything you see is not all true."

Li Lei didn't understand that he always tried to know everything about Han Meimei before, but when Han Meimei took the initiative to tell him, he didn't want to hear anything. At this time, his mind was full of Lily, because he had already realized that A person must grasp the happiness in front of him in order to have happiness.

So, he started to change the subject and said, "I'm going to Shanghai tomorrow, I'm looking for Lily."

"Oh." The flickering light in Meimei's eyes dimmed suddenly.

"Lily said she was getting engaged, but the other party was not the one he liked. I wanted to see her, and I didn't want her to regret it for the rest of her life." Li Lei said.

"Well, yes. Marriage cannot be forced, let alone impulsive." When Han Meimei said this, she seemed to be implying something, and also seemed to be talking about herself.

"Okay, it's getting late, let's stop here first, and make an appointment next time." Li Lei also seemed hesitant to speak, but he still called the waiter resolutely, "Pay the bill."

"Okay!" Han Meimei also stood up, ready to leave.She also knew clearly that nothing could happen between herself and Li Lei, the past was over, but sometimes she couldn't control herself and would always want to explain something to Li Lei.

When I left the cafe, it was actually only 8 o'clock in the evening.It's getting late, it's just an excuse!Throughout the night, the two of them seemed to want to say something, but they didn't say anything.Perhaps, this is the most painful thing. It can be clearly explained, but because some words are difficult to speak, the other party has been regretting.

The same is true for the missed love. Obviously, it can be redeemed with a look, a word, and a hug, but they all pretend that it doesn't matter, so that the current one will be missed forever.

9. Han Meimei's Thoughts
When Han Meimei returned home, Han Gang was watching TV in the living room.

"Meimei, are you back?" Han Gang never took his eyes off the TV when he said this.

"Why are you back so late today?" Han Gang asked.

"Oh, I went to meet a friend." Han Meimei obviously didn't want to say anything.

"What kind of friend? Male or female?" Han Gang suddenly asked like an interrogation.

"What, is there a problem?" Han Meimei put the handbag on the sofa and sat down.

"It's nothing, I just care about it." When Han Gang said this, he seemed to have noticed something, so he stopped talking.

Then, as if feeling cold, he said, "Have you eaten yet? How about I ask Mama Wu to make something for you?"

"Oh, I've eaten." Han Meimei said, and then asked, "Where's Coco and Sissy?"

"Mama Wu took them to bed, and they probably fell asleep too!" Han Gang said.

"Oh." Han Meimei responded, turned around and went upstairs to change.

"Meimei!" Han Gang called out.

"what's up?"

"It's nothing, are you going to bed so early?" Han Gang seemed hesitant to speak.

Just now she said that she came back late, and now she said that she went to bed early, Han Meimei felt that Han Gang was trying to know something. Could it be that he was still worried about not going home that night?Seeing that Han Gang didn't speak, Han Meimei went upstairs, took a hot bath, and went to bed.

Lying on the bed, Han Meimei's heart could not be calm for a long time.I have been married to Han Gang for more than four years, and I have never felt wronged, but at this moment, I suddenly feel very uncomfortable in my heart, and tears flowed out of the corners of my eyes.

For more than four years, I have been living a life without worrying about food and clothing.With a good job, a husband who seems considerate, and two lovely children, she always felt that life was just going by.However, as the days passed, she found that Mrs. Fu's life was not what she wanted. After all, she and Han Gang were people in two worlds.He was used to living a rich life without worrying about food and clothing since he was a child, but he had been growing up in an ordinary family until he married Han Gangang and began to truly have no worries about food and clothing.

But so what?On the surface they are a loving couple, but in fact they are more comrades-in-arms at work, because they really don’t communicate much about life, except for their children, but they talk more about work than family. Several times!
Are you living for life or for career?Sometimes even she herself can't figure it out!So, when Li Lei suddenly appeared in front of her eyes, all of this was put on a question mark again.Is all this really what you want?She began to doubt, and even felt that she was a greedy woman who wanted everything for emotion and money.

Later, when she met Li Lei at the company, Han Meimei seemed to feel that God was torturing her on purpose. Why did the past that she had so hard to forget reappear in her sight?Could this be destiny?
Therefore, every time she met Li Lei, Han Meimei showed a relatively happy appearance. This kind of happiness is taken for granted by others. Only Han Meimei knows that all of this is not her own. They are all pretended by themselves!

Han Meimei suddenly felt that people in this world, no matter they are rich or poor, everyone has their own troubles, everyone will stand in their own direction, envy others, and look forward to the best happiness.But what kind of life is the best happiness?Even she herself couldn't tell.

When the cruel social reality shatters the dreams of every post-80s generation and annihilates the love of every post-80s generation; when the cruel social reality makes people think that affording a house is a lifelong pursuit, and a happy marriage is a beautiful Many factors in the whole society have begun to deteriorate, so the pursuit hidden in people's hearts has to change direction.Because you are always small and unable to change the situation, you can only choose to change your current situation to the greatest extent!
The former Han Meimei also had a dream. She wanted to be an English teacher like Miss Gao, but after she graduated from university, she found that the salary of an English teacher was not enough for her one month's makeup money, so she shrank back.Sometimes, change is necessary, especially when there are oppressions in your life.

However, Han Meimei was lucky again. She met Han Gang, and it was because of him that Han Meimei lived an enviable life as a rich wife.All of this is entirely my own choice, so who can I blame?
You can’t have both, the world is fair, everything cannot belong to you at the same time, it’s too hard to live for yourself, and it’s too tiring to live for others, people, it’s really hard to choose.

That night, Han Meimei tossed and turned sleeplessly, never thinking so much, but everything exploded in one night.

10. Another dream - a false alarm

However, how could Li Lei sleep at this time? The faces of Lily, Han Meimei, and Sun Yifei kept flashing in his mind. Why, why is he always so slow in love?Why can't I always get the feeling I want?Morality, emotion, entanglement, guilt and too much loss all of a sudden rushed into Li Lei's heart.

"Ladies and gentlemen, we are gathered here today to attend the wedding of Ms. Lily and Mr. So-and-so. Marriage is the sublimation of love and mutual trust. It not only requires the love of both parties for a lifetime, but also the trust of a lifetime. Today, this The couple will solemnly declare their commitment of love and trust to each other here."

In a solemn and sacred Christian church, Lily is about to board the wedding hall with her fiancé.

"Next, please invite the bride and groom to declare your wish for marriage to everyone present."

"So-and-so, are you willing to marry Lily as your wife, whether she is in good times or bad times, rich or poor, healthy or sick, happy or sad, you will love her unreservedly and be loyal to her forever?"

"I am willing."

"Lily, are you willing to marry so-and-so as your husband, whether he is in good times or bad, rich or poor, healthy or sick, happy or sad, you will love her without reservation and be faithful to him forever? "

"I...will..." Lily paused, but still agreed.

"Okay, now please face each other, hold each other's hands, and swear to each other as wives and husbands." The priest said solemnly.

"I, wholeheartedly marry you Lily to be my wife, no matter good times or bad times, rich or poor, healthy or sick, happy or sad, I will love you unreservedly, I will try my best to understand you, completely I trust you completely. We will become a whole, a part of each other. We will face everything in life, share our dreams, and spend the rest of our lives as equal and faithful partners." The priest said, the groom said, The atmosphere at the scene is so unholy!
"I object!" Before the groom could finish speaking, Li Lei, who was sitting in the audience, stood up.

In an instant, all the eyes of the audience turned to Li Lei.

"I object, and I can testify that the bride does not love the groom!" Li Lei said loudly.

"Who is this man?"

"This man is talking nonsense, kick him out!" someone shouted.

"Lily, what I said is true, right? The person you really like is not him!" Li Lei asked.

Lily didn't say anything.

"This man is here to make trouble, drive him out!" At this moment, a group of sturdy bodyguards came towards Li Lei.

"Lily, run!" Li Lei quickly ran to Lily, grabbed her hand, and quickly escaped from the rostrum.

"The bride has run away, let me chase after her!"

The scene was in chaos, but Li Lei and Lily had already run outside the church.

They crossed the pine trees on both sides of the church, crossed the wide road, passed through countless traffic lights, and ran to the playground of the elite middle school.

"I'm exhausted!" Li Lei said out of breath.

"Me too," Lily said.

"Why did you run away with me just now?" Lily asked Li Lei.

"Because I don't want you to walk into a lifetime of marriage with regrets." Li Lei said.

"So you're here to save me, so, do you like me?" Lily asked.

"I..." Before Li Lei could speak, a few strong men suddenly appeared in front of them and dragged Lily away.

"Li Lei!" Lily shouted while crying.

"Lily!" Li Lei ran fast, but he couldn't catch up no matter how hard he tried.

"I love you!" Lily said loudly to Li Lei.

Lily disappeared, leaving Li Lei alone on the playground.

Loving someone is painful, especially when the other person doesn't love you.At this time, Li Lei still couldn't say those three words to Lily, because he was still not sure whether this reluctance was love or not.

"Lily, you can't go!" Suddenly Li Lei chased after her like crazy.

"I love you too!" Li Lei no longer knew whether he said this from the bottom of his heart or just on impulse, he just felt that he was reluctant to let Lily be taken away by others!
"Lily, I love you!" Li Lei shouted, waking up from the bed.

It turned out to be just a dream, a false alarm.Awakened, Li Lei sat on the bed and asked himself, how does he feel about Lily?Why do I say "I love you" in my dream?Is it true that only at the moment of loss can the truest voice of the heart be spoken?

Li Lei was in a daze, he suddenly felt that this dream seemed to indicate something, yes!If you love, you will be crazy, if you don't love, you will be strong, if you are always so rational, you will never understand love.

11. Jim and his wife
Since there is a girl who likes me so much for more than ten years, what reason do I have to refuse?Do you have to wait until you are sad again before starting to regret it?No, you must seize this opportunity! Lily likes herself, just like she likes Han Meimei, she has already lost the chance to love once, so she can't lose it again...

So early in the morning, Li Lei drove off.Before departure, Li Lei sent Jim a text message, and agreed on an approximate time to meet.Therefore, Jim also helped Li Lei book a hotel early.

At around 8 o'clock in the morning, Jim called Lily.

"Hi, Jim!"

"Hi, Lily!"

"long time no see!"

"Yeah, long time no see!" Lily said over there.

"Is there any time at noon today, let's have a meal together?"

"Why do you suddenly want to eat? Hehe!" Lily asked.

"Your sister-in-law said that she suddenly wanted to go shopping, so I thought of you. Men are most afraid of shopping, so after dinner, I will entrust you with this difficult task!" Jim said with a smile.

"Haha, so there is a request! Well, I just happened to be free today, and I happened to go to the mall to see if there are any new models. So what time should we meet?"

"Let's go at 12:3! It's in the 'Chocolate' western restaurant on the third floor of the department store." Jim said.

"Okay, 12:[-], see you soon!"

After hanging up the phone, Jim's wife Susan came over and said, "Obviously Li Lei is coming, why are you lying and dragging me into it?"

"Isn't this afraid that if Li Lei is coming, Lily won't come?"

"Then if that's the case, even if Lily comes, she will leave by then."

"Not necessarily!" Jim said with a smile.

"Look at you like you know Lily very well." Susan smiled too.

"Hey, I don't know very well, but this time I promise it will be fine!" Jim raised his eyebrows at Susan.

"Look how proud you are! Do you really want me to go shopping with Lily this afternoon?" Susan asked intentionally.

"Wife, don't you understand me? Don't you have to tell me clearly before you are willing to go out, my wife?"

"Haha, okay! Seeing how pitiful you are, I'll sacrifice it for now!" Susan said with a smile, "However, your friend is really good. Where can I find a girl as good as Lily? You have to wait until things turn out like this before chasing after you.”

"Li Lei, I know the best. Everything is fine, but he stumbled in the relationship. So until now he has not found a partner." Jim continued, "But this time, if he and Lily really become If so, then everyone will be happy!"

"Seeing that you are happy, it's as if you are going to get married."

"Haha, it's not as happy as when I got married. My wedding day was the happiest day of my life!" Jim said as he kissed Susan on the cheek.

"Honey, I love you the most!"

Although Susan Le's heart was blossoming, she still said: "Are you sour?"

"For my wife, I can drink vinegar every day, I can take a vinegar bath every day, hee hee!" Jim began to talk poorly again.

"Don't be poor, hurry up and tidy up, I have to clean up the house, in case your friend comes to our house after dinner, it looks so messy, how bad it is!" Susan said, and began to wipe the table.

"My wife is the best, she is beautiful and hardworking, my wife, I will give you a gift tomorrow!" Jim said.

"Okay! I don't want cheap ones!" Susan said deliberately.

"There's something wrong with 'wood'!" Jim deliberately used a buzzword on the Internet, which really made Susan laugh non-stop.

12. The embarrassment of encountering a rival in love

Just after 12 o'clock, Jim and Susan arrived at the "Chocolate" restaurant.The two ordered an ice cream first, and ate it while talking and laughing.

From a distance, they saw Lily approaching. Jim waved to her and said, "Lily, over here!"

Lily smiled at them from afar and walked towards them.

Taking a closer look, it turned out that Lily brought a strange man over.

"Let me introduce first, this is my boyfriend Zhu Zhifang!" Lily introduced.

Jim and Susan were stunned for a moment, neither of them thought that Lily would bring Zhu Zhifang over.

At this moment, Li Lei called.

"Jim, I'm in the parking lot of the department store right now, where is the restaurant you ordered?"

"Oh, you're already here? Then come straight up, 3rd floor, chocolate restaurant." Jim said.

"Anyone else coming?" Lily asked.

(End of this chapter)