In those years, we were not together

Chapter 13 Finally Say I Love You (2)
But when Gao Hui was crossing the road, a taxi quickly came out of a small alley...

"Gao Hui!" Li Lei yelled, and rushed over... But it still didn't prevent the tragedy from happening. Gao Hui was sent to the hospital because of the severe impact.

"Doctor, how is her condition?" Li Lei asked.

"The patient's injuries are very serious. Because of the impact on the head, he will not be able to wake up for a while."

"Then when will she wake up?" Li Lei asked anxiously.

"I'm not sure about this. If it's fast, it's two or three days, and if it's slow, it's a week or two." The doctor said.

"Doctor, is there any good way?"

"From the current point of view, we can only make further conclusions after the patient wakes up." The doctor was also at a loss.

After the doctor left, Li Lei was left standing there alone, thinking back on what happened just now, with deep regret in his heart.

If I hadn't told Gao Hui so bluntly that I didn't like her, if I hadn't told her that I was just looking for the memories of the past, if...

However, no amount of ifs would be useless. At this time, Gao Hui was lying quietly on the hospital bed, her face pale, like a quiet child, motionless.

At this time, the sun shone through the glass of the hospital on Gao Hui's hospital bed. Sometimes the sun was so warm that it made you feel that your life was very long. Li Lei suddenly had such a realization.

Li Lei suddenly understood one thing from Gao Hui - if you love, you will be crazy, if you don't love, you will be strong, if you are always so rational, you will never understand love.

Until night, Miss Gao still lay so quietly, motionless.Li Lei suddenly felt that his world was empty.

Suddenly, he was awakened again, so he looked at his watch, it was only 5:[-] in the morning, and he had no sleepiness at all.The dream just now is so strange, what does it indicate? Miss Gao seemed to appear in his dream. Li Lei wanted to recall the whole dream, but he still couldn't remember what happened. So he had no choice but to get up, get dressed, wash up, and go out.

6. Lucy's phone

Because it was too early, Li Lei didn't have breakfast at home, but left a note for his mother.For a long time, as long as I was at home, my mother prepared breakfast for myself.

The breakfast outside was unhygienic and not nutritious, so from childhood to adulthood, every morning, Li's mother prepared the most delicious breakfast for her son on time.

Therefore, Li Lei really didn't know what to eat when he went out so early.

However, the morning air is fresh.Morning exercise is the best in this kind of weather. I haven’t done morning exercise since I was in college, mainly because I’m lazy. I sleep until I’m about to go to work every morning before getting up, so I always excuse that I don’t have time.

Perhaps many times, our time is squeezed out by various excuses and reasons. It is precisely because of this or that excuse that we really have no time.

At this time, Li Lei walked to a street stall selling tofu nao and ordered a bowl of tofu nao and a tea egg.

"Mom, I want to eat fried dough sticks." I saw a child at the table next to me say delicately.

"Be good, baby. Fried dough sticks are unhygienic and not nutritious. We don't eat them, ah!" the young mother persuaded the child.

"No, I just want to eat." The child acted like a baby.

"If you do this again, Mom will be angry!" The young mother pouted.

The child stopped talking, and obediently drank soy milk and ate tea eggs.

After a while, the child said again: "Mom, I only eat once, okay?" His eyes seemed to be begging.

The young mother finally relented, so she bought a deep-fried dough stick, cut it into three pieces, gave one piece to the child, and said, "Remember, you can only eat one piece, okay?"

"Okay! Thank you, Mom!" the child said happily.

At this time, Li Lei suddenly wanted to eat fried dough sticks, so he asked the boss to bring a fried dough stick too.

I remember that when I was a child, when I wanted to eat fried dough sticks, my mother said the same to me, so when I grew up, I forgot what fried dough sticks really were like, so I didn't want to eat them anymore.

But suddenly, he thought of his own life.Yes, some things may not be nutritious in themselves, but there are bound to be some people who accept them, because the existence of any kind of thing is not without reason and will have its value.

Just like this deep-fried dough stick, although it is not as nutritious as the young mother said, many people still like to eat it.

Li Lei suddenly felt like this deep-fried dough stick. He thought he was really not nutritious, but there were still people who would like to eat it, but his heart was always on people who didn't like deep-fried dough sticks...

Just as he was thinking, the phone rang. Li Lei saw that it was a strange number.

"Hello, hello!" Li Lei answered the phone.

"Hello, is this Li Lei?" The man on the other end of the phone spoke not very standard Mandarin.

"Yes, I'm Li Lei, may I ask who you are?"

"I'm Lucy!" said the other end of the phone.

"Lucy?" Li Lei was very surprised.

"Why do you have my number?" In fact, Li Lei's subtext was why you suddenly thought of calling me, what can I do for you?

"I'm in the United States now, have you been doing well recently?"

"I'm okay, I've always looked the same," Li Lei said.

"I didn't have time to go to the last class reunion, sorry." Lucy said.

"It doesn't matter, you are so far away, there will always be a chance."

"Well, Li Lei, I have something to ask for your help, okay?" Lucy said.

"As long as I can do it, you can say it."

"Yesterday Lily called me and told me about you. In fact, I always knew that Lily liked you, but you never knew, and Lily didn't know how to tell you, so she just buried it silently. In the heart," Lucy said.

Li Lei didn't say a word, too many people knew that Lily liked him, but he was indifferent!

"However, Lily actually told me that she is getting engaged, and the other party is also a Chinese." Lucy paused, and then asked Li Lei, "Do you know why Lily is getting engaged?"

"why?"

"Because she said, that person looks like you." Lucy said.

For a moment, Li Lei was stunned.He didn't know that the reason why someone got married was very simple, just because he was like a person, not because he really loved someone.

"Li Lei, can you persuade Lily for me? If I hadn't been seven months pregnant, I would have flown back to China to persuade her!"

"Then, all right! I'll help you persuade her." Li Lei said.

"Also, Li Lei, if you also like Lily, please tell her. She has always liked you, but she was afraid that you would not like her, so she kept silent. Lily is a very proud girl, only in front of one person She will bow her proud head, and that person is you."

Li Lei didn't know what to say anymore. Suddenly, he felt that he was an idiot. Why was he always acting like a fool when it came to emotions, and he didn't know what to do?
"Then, help me persuade her first. I think she must be really sad about this engagement. Lily regards love more than anything else. She can't live without love. I really don't know." I don't know what she would look like if she really got married, I don't want to see her sad and miserable, so Li Lei, please, help me and persuade her." Lucy said more sincerely.

"Okay, Lucy, I see. I will go to Shanghai to see her in the next two days. Don't worry, you will be fine." Li Lei comforted.

"Thank you very much, Li Lei. I will definitely thank you when I go to China!"

"What kind of thanks are we talking about, and this is what I should do, so don't worry!" Li Lei said.

"Okay, see you later. I'll contact you when I have time. If you have any news, you must tell me!"

"Okay, bye! Keep in touch!" Li Lei said, and waited for Lucy to hang up the phone.

After the phone call, Li Lei was not in the mood to have breakfast anymore. After paying the bill, he hurried to the company.

7. Go to Shanghai to find Lily
Before Li Lei entered the office, he received a call from Lily.

"Li, I don't want to marry Zhu Zhifang, I don't love him at all." Lily on the other end of the phone was talking nonsense as if drunk.

"You know, when I promised him to be engaged to him, he was so happy! He desperately bought me things to make me happy. I really like beautiful clothes, beautiful jewelry, and expensive cosmetics. But these are insignificant in front of feelings, they are all insignificant!"

Li Lei really wanted to talk, but Lily just didn't give him the chance to talk.

"Since junior high school, I have always liked you, but I have never said it, because I know that you have always liked Han Meimei. But now that Han Meimei is married, I still dare not say it, because I am afraid of being rejected by you. , afraid of being rejected by you. I am a person who is afraid of being rejected..." Lily cried while talking.

"Lily, where are you? I'll look for you!" Li Lei said on the phone.

"Li, I came to Shanghai alone because I knew you had gone abroad to study. I was afraid that staying in that familiar city would be full of your breath. I was afraid that I would not be able to bear the longing, so I came to a strange place. City, I want to forget everything before, but I have no way to forget, really!" Lily went on to say, "After graduating from junior high school, my father wanted me to go back to China to study, and I disagreed with all my heart, but I still went back to the United States. After finishing high school, I applied to come to China and study at a university in China. I asked Han Meimei which university you went to, and I would go to that university. But when I went to your school to enroll, people said that foreign students The exam is over, we can only wait until next year..."

"At that moment, I felt so disappointed, and I even began to suspect that all this was just my wishful thinking, but I was still not reconciled, so I had to stay in a university not far from you for four years."

"After graduating from college, I knew you were going home, and I came back with you. Every class reunion, you look so good, I can only hide in the corner and listen to your high-spirited talk, and occasionally have a chance to chat with you, I'm very, very excited."

"However, it didn't take long for you to go back to the United States to study... I didn't want to study anymore, so I stayed in China. This waited for another four years..."

"I feel that I have waited so hard. I don't know if it is worth it. Today, when I decided to marry Zhu Zhifang, I realized that love has always been so far away from me. In front of you , I will always be just a passer-by, passing by in a hurry, even if I keep turning my head, what I see will always be your back, just your back!" Lily was crying a little bit.

"Lily, I know everything, I know everything, where are you now, I'll go find you right away!" Li Lei suddenly felt a heartache, which was guilt for Lily.Yes, how many times he saw Lily caring about him silently, but he only paid attention to Han Meimei, and didn't care at all about this foreign girl who was extremely proud and pretended to be strong, and even rejected this silent liking. outside the door!Think about how cruel you are!
"You don't need to look for me anymore. I'm getting engaged. My fiancé is rich and can buy me a lot of good things. I think feelings can be forgotten with time! Goodbye, Li..." said Forget it, Lily hung up the phone directly.

"Lily, Lily!" Even though Li Lei shouted loudly here, the phone was always blind, and the beeps kept ringing.

I am really a fool. Over the years, I have lost a relationship I pursued and rejected a relationship that pursued me. I am really a fucking fool!
After calming down a bit, Li Lei called Jim.

"Hello, Li Lei."

"Hey, Jim. I want to ask you something, do you know where Lily lives in Shanghai?"

"Why did you suddenly think of asking this?"

"Lily called me just now. She seemed to be drunk and said something incomprehensible. I think... I want to go to Shanghai to find her."

"Lei, you have to think about it. If you really want to come to Shanghai to find Lily, do you really like her, or are you just trying to persuade her not to get married? If it's the latter, I still advise you not to come, because you came It’s worse than that, it makes her sad.”

"Jim, tell me quickly, where Lily lives and where the company is, tell me quickly!" Li Lei became a little anxious, and his voice suddenly became louder, which really surprised Jim.Obviously Li Lei was a little excited, which seemed quite different from his usual gentle and refined image.

"Well, Lily lives not far from me. I told you, you may not be able to find her. If you want to come, come to me first, and I will take you to find her." Jim said.

"Okay, I'm going to Shanghai tomorrow, and I'll call you when I get there," Li Lei said.

After hanging up the phone, Li Lei still felt something was wrong, so he called Lin Tao.

"Hey, Lin Tao, do you know what kind of person Lily is going to marry?" Li Lei said hastily before Lin Tao could speak.

"How would I know, what's wrong?" Lin Tao asked.

"Oh, I'm just asking, it's nothing."

"However, it is said that he seems to be a very rich person. You know that, Lily is so stinky, how can she support her if she doesn't marry a rich man!"

"Oh, I see." Li Lei was about to hang up the phone, but Lin Tao said again: "Lei Zi, the girl in the cafe that day shouldn't be your ordinary friend, right?"

"Sun Yifei!" Li Lei said.

"Yes, it's her."

"She was introduced to me by my mother." Li Lei replied.

"But listening to your conversation, it seems that it's not just as simple as a blind date. Why, do you like her too?"

"This is..."

Seeing that Li Lei was hesitating a bit, Lin Tao said: "Lei Zi, I'm not talking about you. You are good at everything, but when it comes to emotional matters, you always hem and haw, and you can't explain clearly. That's how Han Meimei married. It was for Han Gang, and now it's Lily again, don't you really feel regretful?"

Li Lei stopped talking.Yes, why do I hesitate so much when I encounter emotional matters?
"Okay, you'd better think about it yourself! Brother, I can't interfere with emotional matters, so you still need to think about it yourself, but let me remind you, Sun Yifei is not suitable for you." After Lin Tao finished speaking, he also hung up the phone.

8. Conversation with Han Meimei

In the morning, even though Li Lei's mind was in a mess, he still bit the bullet and finished the work.Today is the last day. Li Lei felt his head froze when he had to hand in the work plan for the last meeting. He just couldn't write the report well.

Finally finished the report before four o'clock in the afternoon.So, he walked into Han Meimei's office with the report.

"Come in!" Han Meimei said when someone knocked on the door.

"Li Lei!" Seeing Li Lei coming, Han Meimei hurriedly got up, "I'll pour you a glass of water."

"No need, I'm here to hand in the report." Li Lei said and put the report on the table,

"Then, I'll go first." Li Lei turned around and prepared to leave.

"You, don't you have nothing to say after seeing me?" Han Meimei asked suddenly.

"Li Lei, we haven't sat down and talked alone for a long time." Han Meimei continued, "Every time when other people are present, you are silent and don't speak. I don't know what you are thinking, but I don't want us Time has become like this, you know?"

"Meimei, stop talking, isn't it working time?" Li Lei deliberately interrupted Han Meimei's words. Li Leiming knew what Han Meimei was going to say, but deliberately pretended to be indifferent. It felt painful to pretend, but he didn't There is no way, because many things have become facts and cannot be changed, and there is no way to change them.Life is a cruel thing. Things change and people change. Li Lei suddenly thought of this word.

"Well, in this case, let's find a place to have dinner together after get off work!" Han Meimei sighed and said helplessly.

Li Lei had no way to refuse, and in fact he didn't want to refuse. Normally, he would be very happy to meet such an opportunity, but now he couldn't be happy at all. For some reason, he nodded involuntarily and agreed.

Back in the office, Li Lei recalled the past again. He had always liked Han Meimei, but when he found out that she had married someone else, disappointment filled his heart like a dark cloud.However, he is still reluctant to give up his past attachment and the little beauty of his youthful and frivolous days. The first little ambiguity will be unforgettable, especially if he doesn't get it, he will be more nostalgic.So, all these years, Li Lei still misses Han Meimei, and in his dreams and memories, her figure and voice are indispensable.

However, one day suddenly, when everyone told himself that there was a girl who had silently liked him for many years, when he was suddenly moved by this silent attention, he suddenly felt that Lily was the same person as himself, Persistent and strong, I would rather bury everything in my heart, but also silently wish the happiness of the person I like.

Such a person is very hard, always thinking of others, and he will never get the person he likes.Li Lei has lost Han Meimei, he no longer wants Lily to lose himself.Because the one who loves is always harder than the one who is loved, Li Lei has already regretted it, and he doesn't want another kind girl to regret.If that is the case, it will be like what Jim, Lin Tao, and Lucy said - Li Lei, you will regret it for the rest of your life!
In the evening, Li Lei and Han Meimei met at "Remember". Li Lei found that when he was dating his friends, he would always choose this place, because here, he would always have an inexplicable feeling that he could recall the past.

"Li Lei, it's been a long time since we talked face to face alone." Han Meimei spoke first.

"Not really, you've always been busy." Li Lei said.

"It makes me feel bad when you say that, you know?"

(End of this chapter)