The rest of my life is no longer sad for you

Chapter 17

——Lu Tang

{Can you please, just look at me.Do you know that you are the belief in my life.But it turned out that I was the biggest mistake in your life. }
"Our newspaper reports that Lu Tang, the former CFO of the Ning Group, absconded due to commercial crimes. While being wanted by the police, he kidnapped the girlfriend of the acting director of the Ning Group, Shu. After many days of tracking, the Jiangzhou police discovered that Lu Tang had taken Shu to Japan. , in the cross-border cooperation with the Japanese police, the Jiangzhou police turned the tide and finally rescued the hostages. Lu Tang has a history of epilepsy. During the implementation of the crime, he suddenly fell ill due to high emotional fluctuations and was sent to the hospital for emergency treatment. Time was rescued, Lu Tang had an intracranial infection, meningitis caused mental disability, now Lu Tang has been released on bail and transferred to a psychiatric hospital, this newspaper will continue to follow up and report on the case.”

1.
The first time Lu Tang saw Ning Zechuan was through the transparent cover of the incubator.

At that time, Ning Zechuan, who was already two months old, had just been transferred from the NICU to the general ward, and had to stay in the incubator to take good care of him and wait for observation.

Taking advantage of the gap when the nurse on duty forgot to close the door, Lu Tang got in and saw Ning Zechuan at a glance.

The villain the size of a palm, with wrinkled facial features, and a small shriveled mouth, curled up like a small shrimp, Lu Tang felt his heart melt just by looking at it.

This is his little cousin. In the family, he used to be the youngest. Now, he can finally be the elder brother.He can hold these little hands, walk and play together, he is very good at playing the top, no one can match him, if the little cousin is willing, he can pass on this unique skill to him without reservation .

He couldn't help giggling when he thought of the wrinkled little man in front of him wobbling and spinning a top.

"younger brother."

The little cousin seemed to have dreamed of something scary, slept very uncomfortable, and suddenly grinned and began to cry.

Lu Tang thought about it, she stood on tiptoe trying to imitate Eminem, and stretched out her hand desperately, wanting to caress her little cousin.

"Oh, where did the child come from, why did he come here, Xiao Wang, hurry up, take this child out."

The sister nurse found him and carried him out.

After that day, Lu Tang pestered Ah Mu to take him to the hospital to see his little cousin every day. The nurse sister already knew him, and she smiled when she saw him: "Tang Tang came to see him again."

Ping An is the nickname given by the little nurses to his unnamed younger brother, hoping that he will grow up safely and smoothly, free from illnesses.

Lu Tang smiled and nodded: "Brother, younger brother."

The good times didn't last long, and after only a few days, the younger brother was sent away. He went to the nurse sister, who said that the younger brother was not feeling well, and the doctor uncle took him to take care of him.When I asked Ah Mu, Ah Mu said that my little cousin entered the palace for the second time in the NICU, and he was afraid that he would not survive.

"You talk nonsense!"

He burst into tears in a hurry.

Crying all the way home, my mother thought it was because Ah Mu didn't take good care of her, so she scolded Ah Mu.

Eminem screamed for injustice, he added oil and vinegar, hugged his mother's leg and cried sadly: "Eminem is bad, Eminem is bad, give Tangtang hot grandma, Tangtang is hot."

Who made Amur curse brother?

Eminem bad, too bad!
2.
During the five years when the little cousin was in the hospital, the Ning family's children became regular visitors to the Ning family's mansion, and he was one of them.

Lu Tang heard her mother chatting with her father: "Look how many times have you rescued the sick child that Ning Yao gave birth to? He is hanging half his life in the hospital. Whether he can live or live for a few days is still a question. I laughed so hard. My uncle, in order not to share our share of the pie, he even resorted to tricks, and now the bamboo basket is empty, so people can't be too selfish, my uncle is too selfish, Ning's such a big property, share some Everyone is not in pain or itching for him, right? Now, Ning Yao can't give birth again, and the only one is that she won't live long. After a hundred years, uncle can't be left alone to take over the Ning family, right? My brother still has Those of the uncle's family have already started to take action, taking the children to the uncle every day. To put it nicely, they want to be happy with the uncle and show filial piety, but who doesn't know that they want to get out of the way and squeeze out that sick child? , starting tomorrow, let Tangtang go too, we Tangtang are much more lovable than those children."

The next day, his mother took him to the Ning family's mansion. Standing at the gate of the Ning's mansion, his mother adjusted his bow tie for him, patted his face and said, "Tantang, Mom depends on you."

He responded sweetly: "Mom, don't worry."

He will do better than anyone else, drive away those people with impure motives from the Ning family, and then wait for the little cousin to return home and give him a safe and peaceful Ning family mansion.

He did well in those few years. Grandpa and uncle liked him very much, saying that he was smart, humble, polite, kind, and would become a great weapon in the future.

He is not a sharp-edged person. At that time, he chose to let himself shine in order to be seen by others, thus illuminating his world.

But after a long time, he realized that if that person couldn't see, he could only be with the darkness forever.

3.
The day when the little cousin came back was the season of warm spring and flowers blooming. The crabapple trees in the Ning family’s mansion were in bloom like clusters of brocade. The senior and junior stood under the crabapple tree, pointing at the cluster at the top, and said something with a smile.

"Grandpa."

"Uncle."

The voices of the children disturbed the tranquility of the older one and the younger one, who looked a little shy, watching the crowd swarming up, the smile faded from his face, and moved behind the grandpa.

The grandpa held the hand of the younger cousin, and said to the same group of cousins: "Xiaochuan, these are your brothers and sisters."

This was the only sentence Lu Tang listened to, and for the rest, he concentrated on the little shrimp the size of a palm in his memory.

He has grown up, but he is too thin and pale. His brows are raised slightly, and he looks at the crowd with a slight scrutiny. When his eyes sweep over Lu Tang, he doesn't stop there.

Lu Tang's smile was a little stiff.

The children, one big and one small, walked into the house. Lu Tang slowed down his pace, and while his grandpa was being pestered by the children, he turned his head slightly and said to his little cousin, "Don't you remember me? ? I'm Lu Tang, your cousin."

After finishing speaking, he thought it was ridiculous, he was still a baby who couldn't see the color of the world, how could he remember him.

The little cousin looked at him suspiciously, and Lu Tang saw his own smile rippling in those brown pupils, dazzling.

It doesn't matter if he doesn't remember him now, Lu Tang said to himself, one day, he will let himself be deeply engraved in his life, so that he will never forget him in his life, and let him be the only one in his eyes.

4.
It's just that he is the only one in the little cousin's eyes. Those in the Ning family who are taught by their parents to please the little cousin should get as far away as possible.

He has plenty of time to slowly plan and implement his plan, and he wants to let his little cousin know that in this world, among those approaching with malice, he is the only one who is sincerely for his own good.

He made himself sick, and then secretly spread it, and the little cousin's disease would be contagious.

When everyone was having fun together, he secretly injured his little cousin, and then told his grandpa that it was his second cousin who did it. The second cousin was personally punished by his grandpa. forgiveness.

Gradually, those people respected the little cousin on the surface, but they were afraid and disgusted in their hearts. He then planned to let the little cousin see those people in front of and behind him. The way the little cousin was injured made him both heartbroken and happy.

Soon, the little cousin will lose confidence and enthusiasm for everyone, and at that time, only him who is different from those people will be left.

As he expected, the little cousin became more and more indifferent, he locked himself in his own world, no one could get in, and he didn't want to get out either.Just when Lu Tang was about to enter this world, an accident happened.

Lu Tang didn't expect that he had planned everything, but he couldn't match the changes. Gong Peilin, the housekeeper of the Ning family, suddenly appeared out of nowhere a child who was the same age as Ning Zechuan, who was raised in Ning's family. , not afraid of losing face, not afraid of being punished, and not afraid of the little cousin's indifference, and soon became the only friend of the little cousin.

He worked hard for many years to weave the wedding dress, but let Gongyu reap the benefits of a fisherman.

Lu Tang was angry and angry, and lost his composure for the first time. During a plan to leave his little cousin and Gongyu's relationship, Gongyu discovered the clue and exposed his plan in front of his little cousin.

That was the first time he found disgust in the way his little cousin looked at him.

He hated him, and it made his heart ache so badly that he could hardly breathe.

He is not wrong!

Where is he wrong?
From top to bottom, the Ning family has ulterior motives, and the purpose is not pure. He is protecting his younger brother!

But the person he wanted to protect didn't appreciate it...

The little cousin didn't like people from the Ning family, but he really wanted to tell him that it wasn't the Ning family's blood that didn't flow on him.

In this sick family, everyone is sick. The adoptive mother was a daughter when she gave birth. In order to fight for the family property, she sent her daughter away and brought him in.

But even though they are not related by blood, he still loves him as his own brother, because they are the same, have the same disease from the mother's womb, came to this world unexpectedly and unexpectedly, also dislike the Ning family, and are unique. How lonely, two people can get eternity together.

Him and him.

Peace, I will destroy everything you don't like.

The Ning family?

Heh, I will take it into my hands bit by bit, and then I will smash it into ashes with my own hands, and it will be beyond redemption.

5.
The first conflict between Lu Tang and his little cousin was because of Gongyu. He always wanted to get Gongyu away from his little cousin. After learning of Gongyu's life experience, he designed it to let people in Pei's house know about it. The two adults of Peining and Ning worked together to hide the matter. Under the stimulation of Pei's parents' house, Gongyu, who was shocked by her own background, made a big fuss about the Peining and Ning families, and was locked up.

He has always been good at killing people with a knife, and the stabbing incident was also done by others, but the little cousin still found him and was sure that he was the instigator.

He hated that the only time his little cousin came to him alone was to protect the appearance of other people, so he made a sudden move and pushed him down the lotus pond.

He watched coldly his little cousin, who couldn't swim, struggling in the water.

He just wanted to make him sober and let him know that even if he was pushed into danger, he, Lu Tang, his elder brother, would never put him to death.He should listen to him and not doubt his intentions!
He will not harm him.

How could he be willing to hurt him.

Why doesn't he understand!
There was a human voice in the distance, getting closer and closer, Lu Tang suddenly woke up from his anger, watching the struggle of the people in the water getting slower and slower, the water covered his head.

It was as if water was pouring down from above the sky, making him feel suffocated.He jumped into the water, rescued the little cousin, pressed his chest, and gave artificial respiration. When the adults arrived, the little cousin would spit out a big mouthful of water, but he still didn't wake up.

The adults were shocked and rushed to send the little cousin to the hospital.

On the way, Grandpa asked him what happened.

He calmly said: "My cousin slipped and fell into the water. I was beside him, but I didn't take good care of him. It was my fault. I am willing to be punished."

He was ordered by his grandfather to kneel in the ancestral hall, and he was not allowed to come out until his younger cousin woke up.

The adults begged for mercy, even his uncle pleaded for him, saying that it was because of Tangtang that Xiao Chuan was saved.

The grandpa who always defended his shortcomings for no reason was unmoved, and neither was Lu Tang. He knelt in the ancestral hall, put his hands on the ground, and knocked his head on the ground over and over again.

Those were not his ancestral gods, he never expected their protection, but at this moment, he hoped that they could hear his appeal.

Fortunately, the little cousin woke up three days later, and he finally left the ancestral hall.

His mother took him home and cooked a large table of nutritious dishes. Of course, he would not think that it was because he felt sorry for him that he hadn't eaten water or rice for three days.

Sure enough, his mother rubbed his face with a smile and said: "Tantang, you did a good job. Mom didn't dote on you for nothing. It's a pity that he survived again this time."

He smiled at his mother, and the food he ate seemed to be chewing someone's flesh and blood.He said in his heart that these people will eventually pay off their debts for their own greed, and he will not let any of them go.

At that time, he never thought that those who were greedy included himself.

But others are for money and power.

He is for one person.

6.
The little cousin was in poor health, and after falling into the water, he stayed in the hospital for two months and lost several laps of weight.

As Lu Tang watched, the pain in his heart twitched uncontrollably. He wanted to apologize to his little cousin, and he would definitely control his temper in the future.

But before he could speak, the little cousin spoke. He didn't even look at him, and spoke every word in a cold manner.

"I don't like him, let him go."

A word from the little cousin turned him from the most favored child of the Ning family into an outcast.He was ordered not to set foot in Ning's house again, not even to touch the door.

No matter how others persuade him, the grandpa is always stubborn.

In the cynicism of the Ning family's relatives, the parents turned their hopeless hopes into violence and insults to him. He had a very bad life in those five years, especially when he knew that without his protection, his little cousin was surrounded by the intriguing Ning family. , life is not too good.

At that time, Lu Tang hated Ning Zechuan.

He hates, hates that he is stupid, hates that he sees his protection as a hindrance, hates that he regards his good intentions as cunning tricks, hates that he does not understand his good intentions, hates that he gives all tenderness and smiles to her. irrelevant people.

7.
In the year after his great-grandfather passed away, he finally won the favor of his cousin by virtue of his ability, and returned to the Ning family.Although he knew in his heart that what Uncle Biao did was also a kind of protest and disapproval of Grandpa.

Coincidentally, that day was also when the crabapple blossoms were in bloom, just like the day many years ago, he was talking with his uncle, and then he watched his uncle leave.

Turning around, he saw his little cousin.

"Don't you remember me? I'm Lu Tang, your cousin."

The pale and thin young man looked back suddenly, and in the eyes as clear as glass, he saw his own shadow.

With thousands of miles of clouds behind him, he laughed like a fool.

A long time ago, when he saw those eyes for the first time, he wanted to live in those eyes for the rest of his life.

When everyone stops looking at you and pushes you away from them, will there be only my shadow in your eyes?

At that time, the 15-year-old little cousin only glanced at him indifferently, and there was disgust and contempt in his eyes for a moment, and even more indifference that was thousands of miles away. With quick steps, he turned around and left.

Lu Tang stood where he was, the smile on the corner of his mouth could no longer hold on.

Since childhood, he wanted to be close to him.

He has always regarded him as a poisonous snake.

8.
Under the nurturing of the Ning family for many years, Lu Tang understood that only by working hard to stand at the highest position can he be qualified to be a guardian.

He has to earn a lot of money and have a lot of power, so that his little cousin will not be tortured by illness and he can live a long life.

He took the initiative to ask to study abroad. His grades are very good. He has completed multiple degrees during school, and his grades in each subject are A+. His papers often appear in world-class financial magazines. Before graduation, there are many international students. The company extended an olive branch to him with a generous salary.

He resolutely returned to Ning's.

On the first day after returning from school, he went to the Ning family's mansion. He wanted to see his dearest brother. He really missed him all these years abroad, and it was because of thinking about him that he was able to survive so much hardship. day and night.

He is the faith of his life.

But he didn't expect that when he came back from a long distance, his little cousin had already left here for many years.

He knew that his little cousin didn't like the Ning family, and dreamed of leaving the Ning family, but he didn't expect this day to come so soon.

That night, Lu Tang whispered to the far north country, "Ping An, I will wait for you to come back, and I will definitely give you the world you want."

His ability is extraordinary, and he soon became Jiang Bozhou's right-hand man. In just two years, he sat in the position of Ning's CFO.

After another few years, he finally waited until his return.

But at that time, his dislike for him had grown deeper and deeper, and there was a girl beside him who could give everything for him.

In this world, no one is worthy of a little cousin.No one can be the reason for his life or death. The little cousin doesn't understand that he is the best and he should live for himself.

From the beginning, only they are one, and only he and he can live together until they are gray-haired.

The others are all burdens and should get far away.

But Xiao Chuan didn't understand!He will never understand!He didn't want to bother to understand him at all!
why!Why?Why can't I just look at him more, just one look is enough...

Why, he asked for so little, but still nothing?A big dream?
Lu Tang felt that he was cursed by unwillingness and resentment. He obviously didn't do anything, but the heart under his skin was shattered in the journey of time.

He beat his chest, countless times, and wept in the dark night.

In the little cousin's heart, he is a bad person.

He is the bad cousin Lu Tang.

Ha, then let him be a bad guy, bad to the end.This is also good, if his love is given to others, then he will have to hate him.

My dearest cousin, my Xiao Chuan.

Why don't you die?

It would be fine if you died. When you die, I will dig your grave, take your ashes, and put them on my bedside, so that you can look at this person you hate day and night.

Can you, just look at me.

Do you know that you are the belief in my life.

But it turned out that I was the biggest mistake in your life.

(End of this chapter)