Yan all over the world

Chapter 195
Xiyin squinted at me, "Are you still thinking about the ins and outs of things?" She sighed: "My sister, although I hate you, I have to say that I have always admired you, look Look at you, what is your heart made of?"

I smiled, the smile didn't reach the bottom of my eyes, my eyes were too sharp, so sharp that she couldn't help shivering, turned her head slightly, and after a while I said word by word: "My heart is also made of meat, with warmth and longing , So, I gave something inferior to a beast, a chance that shouldn't be given. This is the most painful mistake in my life. I will never allow me to make such a mistake again. What can be done is to make the dead understand, and the living sinners live in torment."

Staring at her flickering eyes, I said: "I don't need you to tell me anything. I still don't understand that I am not Liu Huaisu. Hua Ting's molesting Fang Qi is not the son's intention at all, but you and Gao Xu's instruction. It's just because the scene in Huating in the woods today made Mu Xin and I believe, and tricked Mu Xin to leave my side. Then, Gao Xu sent someone to push Fang Qi down the cliff, so he transferred Jin Xie away, you Then you are responsible for attacking me with purple soul beads, and then lure Aunt Ai Lu to this place, where Feng Qianzi ambush and assassinate me. Your plan must have started very early, and it must have been agreed when Feng Qianzi was in the mansion. Three people, you, Gao Xu, Feng Qianzi, good, good."

Xiyin listened quietly, and smiled sweetly: "You are also very good, you can almost guess as if you saw it with your own eyes. If I am alone, I will never be able to deal with you."

I said sadly: "Why didn't I think so, I thought that with you, no matter what, I couldn't hurt the person I want to protect, but I didn't expect that you could be united together. The fate is really so cruel, just a negligence, and a slip I have been hated for thousands of years, and there is no chance to look back and save."

"However," I looked at her indifferently: "You hate me so much, I really don't understand, I offended you? Don't tell me it's because of Mu Xin, do you think Mu Xin will love you if you kill me?"

"Love me?" Xiyin smiled sadly: "Of course I'm not that stupid, why do you ask me why I hate you so much? Heh...why? Hehehehe..."

She gently stroked my hair: "Such beautiful hair... Such clear eyes... Such an outstanding woman, who has captured everyone's eyes and attention... He, he, them, the one I care about, the one I love , they can only see you, and me, what about me? Where am I?"

Her voice gradually became weaker: "I'm a concubine... My mother is a noble girl from Shihualou in Beiping. I heard that she was beautiful and elegant. Mother, so I took her in as a concubine, she was only 16 years old when she entered the door, she thought she would marry a prince, and her lover was so handsome, it really could not be a better destination."

She suddenly talked about the past, and my heart sank. I only knew that Xiyin was a concubine and was not welcomed by the princess, but I didn't know who her mother was. Today's public case may still be related to the previous generation.

"At the beginning, the good time when Duan raised his eyebrows together, and the two were in love... But during those good times, my mother felt that between the prince and her, there seemed to be another person's shadow from time to time. The way the prince looked at her, Always passing through her body, looking at a person farther away, the prince hugged her into his arms, but often murmured: "Wuxu..." She knew it must be another woman's name, but she didn't want to mind, Even if he lives as someone else's shadow, at least his embrace is still warm and she will always rely on him."

"However, the embrace will cool down, and the support will collapse. It was snowing heavily that winter, and my mother was about to give birth. The fetus was a little big, and it took a long time to give birth. In those few days, the princess was sick, and all the servants of the medical center were waiting for the princess. There was only one mother here. Unfamiliar Mrs. Wen didn't even make enough braziers, and the room was as cold as an ice cellar... When the mother was in extreme pain, she murmured the name of the prince, but he was not there. He went to Yunnan, and he had to go there every two years. Yunnan, but everyone knows that the woman never saw him."

Xi Yin sneered: "Comparison between people is really unfair. My mother still can't see her man in the face of life and death, but at that moment, her man would rather be rejected by another woman than leave the one who needs him the most. people!"

There was a faint fire in her eyes: "Mother survived, but she also suffered from a whole body of illness. After giving birth to me, she couldn't get out of bed. I grew up in the smell of medicine in the house, and the smell of medicine that soaked into the bone marrow Ah... Until today, I don't like to take medicine, I would rather endure it, I am afraid that the bitter smell of the medicine will remind me of my mother at that time. At that time, my mother had long lost her beauty, and she was as soft as a willow branch. A girl as light as catkins, skinny and sallow day by day, her hands feel bone-piercing... During those many years, when the moon was cold and frosty in Qinxin Pavilion, how many times did my mother hug me and say, "My dear girl, you have to be like me!" , like me, then you will be more or less like that woman, when I go, your father will treat you better for the sake of your appearance, otherwise, you are all alone, how can mother rest assured...' I'm listening, but I don't want to be like that woman, don't be like that woman who deprived my mother of her life's happiness with just one shadow!"

I closed my eyes, my heart was as desolate as water, slowly drenched, thinking of my mother who died sadly in the blood all over the floor, Xiyin thought she was happy?In the final analysis, my mother and her mother are ordinary people with miserable lives!

"My mother didn't survive until I grew up. When I was five years old, she went. At my mother's funeral, I met my father and king who had forgotten our mother and father for the first time. He was very tall. When I looked at him, I felt as far away as in the sky, and I said to myself, that is my father, the father who gave birth to me and raised me but didn't love me!"

"He picked me up and looked at me in a daze. I know, my mother said, I have a little bit of that woman's shadow. At that moment, he looked at me with such tenderness, but I didn't know whether I should be sad or happy... From then on, he treated me very well, appointed a maid to serve me, and I also became a princess, and received more love and care than other sisters. After all, I was still young, and I was left out in the cold all those years. In my heart, I was actually better than anyone else. I am more eager for family and care, my father has finally become the best father in the world, I am very happy and very happy."

"However, such a good day, after only one year, it will end forever."

(End of this chapter)