Yan all over the world

Chapter 196
Xiyin smiled strangely, and turned to look at me: "A year later, one night, my father was discussing matters in the study, and I couldn't sleep, so I wanted to go to his study to find a paperweight to play with, but suddenly there was a sound of hooves rushing towards the inner courtyard of the palace that night. The courier who passed the letter on a fast horse almost rolled off the horse. When the letter was in the hands of the king, he rushed out immediately, wearing soft shoes, and rushed into the darkness... and brought me down who was walking by the door. He didn't even look at it, I thought he would help me, but no one paid any attention to me..."

She smiled slowly: "Since then, no one has really paid attention to me."

"later……"

I said lightly: "That night, my mother passed away."

Xi Yin sneered: "Yes, I am very happy that your mother passed away. I thought that from now on, there would be no one and nothing that could completely cover my father's sight, and he would treat me more attentively, but I didn't expect that after your mother passed away , You popped up again!"

She stared at me with hatred in her eyes: "Do you know how much I know you, do you know how much I hate you? Since I was six years old, I have been forced to hear anything about you... Huai Su looks like Nai Mu ...Huai Su is extremely intelligent...Huai Su can write at the age of three, can draw at the age of four, dances swords well, and can write poems well...Huai Su is born noble, with little dignity...Huai Su has a heart of Xuanji and treasures his strategy... ...Huai Su Huai Su Huai Su... I was forced to hear this name all the time, although my father didn't mention you much, but every time he spoke in that tone, I was going crazy, I was afraid, afraid to hear My father compares you with me, and my father said that you are the most like his daughter!"

Her eyes were red and her whole body was trembling. I looked at her with pity, but her eyes flashed and she shouted angrily, "Don't look at me like that!" She tried to slap me with her hands, but she slowly withdrew her hands under my gaze.

After a long time, she gradually calmed down, and she laughed in a low voice mockingly and sarcastically: "How are you like him? He likes you like a pearl, like a treasure. In the final analysis, it's just those four words, which are exactly like Naimu... and when I heard those four words I know that my good days are over, I borrowed the exclusive love, and now I have to return it to the Lord, no matter how much I am like your mother, I will never be as good as you!"

"He went to distant Gansu again and again, and my heart was getting colder day by day. In this life, after all, can I not find someone I can love for a long time?"

"Later, we met in front of the city gate of Beiping, and I recognized you at a glance. At that moment, I really didn't know what it was like in my heart. I just felt that the deep fire that had accumulated in my heart for many years seemed to be burning on my face. The eunuch and I couldn't react to what I said, I thought about my mother, I thought about myself, and I said to myself... don't rush to hate, that person has come, and the days are still long."

"Then I saw Mu Xin."

"With just one glance, I knew that he was the one I wanted, but he was by your side, and the way he looked at you made me despair."

"That night I said to my mother's memorial tablet, how can there be such a person in the world, who would steal everything from others, even if I have everything, but still want to grab even a little bit of cherished good things from others!"

I said coldly, "Mu Xin is not yours."

She ignored me, with a flush of excitement on her face: "I heard my mother tell me that we owed you in our previous life, and we will use this life to pay it back... No, I don't believe it, it's because my mother didn't fight or ask for it that she fell behind." If I end up like that, I don't want to be a mother!"

Her excitement gradually turned pale: "But I don't have a chance... I still don't have a chance... He is polite to me because I am your sister. I play chess, but I always look at you and smile...he refused my embroidered handkerchief, my snacks, and my pretended naive request to let him relax, he said, Xiyin, I am your master."

"Master...hehe, it's so funny, what kind of master is that? But he would rather take the joke seriously. I really hated you at that time. You can teach me yourself. Why should he teach me? I hate myself more, why should I suppress you?" To curry favor with my enemy with full of hatred? When I played chess with Mu Xin, every word you said was beating. You are so shrewd and powerful, and I realized that I started to be afraid of you."

"When you were in Prince Yan's mansion, I always paid attention to you, trying to find your weakness, but the more I watched, the more afraid I became, and the more I watched, the more desperate I realized that the words my father praised you at the beginning were not fake. He will be your opponent, but I am in a hurry, because that day, he came back with you in his arms... I knew that there was someone else in your heart who was always rejecting Mu Xin vaguely, and I knew that if you didn't love Mu Xin I will never accept him. I hope that you will give up completely, but I know that I am not so lucky. In my life, all expectations and hopes will eventually be annihilated, and I will go in the opposite direction to me. .”

"He hugged you, the expression on your face made me despair at just one glance... Then I listened to Lan Zhou's hint and brought you the ginseng soup, but you were not fooled, I knew you might just be tempting, But I dare not take such a risk, even if I am exposed, revenged by you, and despised by him, I dare not make fun of his life. I love him so much, but you, he loves you so much, but you have the heart to take it His life was used as a cover to force me to show my feet. When I went back that day, I thought sadly, if Mu Xin had eyes, he would know who loves him the most and who is the most suitable for him. However, he is just like my father and king. He doesn't care about his, what he wants is always the one that rejects him."

With a long sigh, she said quietly: "I thought I could have a better fate than my mother, but in the end, she and I have the same fate. God treats us? How harsh is it?"

I turned my eyes and looked into the depths of the cave, which was so dark that there was not a trace of light. I only felt that this place was ten feet soft and red, and everyone was full of sorrow, but I never knew who caused that sorrow.

"Later, Feng Qianzi ran into me in the garden and saw me spelling Mu Xin's name on the ground with flower petals. She said to me, do you want to get rid of that woman?"

"But I still want to give you a chance, because occasionally I still think that you are good to me. Besides, you are so powerful, I am a little afraid of being your enemy, so I went to test you. I think, as long as you talk Relax, and I won't hurt you."

"But you are so domineering. That day I knelt at your feet and tried several times. When you accepted my words, I begged you. I would like to serve you together, but you didn't give me a chance at all. You blocked me." All the possibilities, even without giving me a chance to speak, I thought at that time, as long as you answer me, answer me, even if it is just a sentence, I will wholeheartedly treat you as my sister in this life, even if I serve you personally!"

(End of this chapter)