goodbye, childhood

Chapter 3 Break Up
01
In the end, the food stall still failed to be eaten.

It was almost one o'clock in the afternoon when we went. The food stalls belonging to the night market are not particularly open to those of us who are obsessed with its lazy atmosphere.

I squatted on the side of the road, blowing the wind, looking at the busy asphalt road with my eyes, witnessing the people coming and going in this city, letting the wind and sand blowing into my eyes, my eyes hurt.

Yang Fan and Tang Xiaowan were standing behind me, and I could still hear Yang Fan's habitual sound of rubbing the ground with his shoes, and I could smell Tang Xiaowan's strong perfume.

The three of us just stood and squatted, silently guarding the door of the food stall, and no one spoke.

I don't know how long I squatted on the side of the road, I just felt that my legs were so numb that I couldn't feel it, and then my butt hurt, and it turned out that Tang Xiaowan was kicking me with her high heels.

"Did you cry? Wait until people can't hold back their urine. If you haven't cried yet, then don't cry. You think Jiyu lied to you, and you feel uncomfortable, don't you? If you want to have some backbone, Then go directly to him, if you want to beat him or scold him, just come here, don't just stay here for a long time with red eyes and tears."

Tang Xiaowan gritted her teeth and kept cursing, Yang Fan who was on the side rushed over and hugged Tang Xiaowan's waist, pulled her back, and shouted urgently: "Xiaowan, don't do this, this is not the time to have a 'venomous tongue'! Don't She said that Shi Nian was uncomfortable, and neither was I, you said Ji Yu usually looks like an honest person! Why did you lie to us Shi Nian? Since he still wants to be with Tong Ruting, why do you want to provoke Shi Nian? "

"Hey! Yang Fan, are you playing 'One Hundred Thousand Whys'? I'm not the roundworm in the stomach of that surnamed Ji, how do I know why he is so mean to Shi Nian? Hey! Don't drag me, I don't really want to kick She, those few kicks don't hurt her, I just want her not to be sad for that heartless man."

Tang Xiaowan was pushed back again and again by Yang Fan, her face flushed, and she growled.

I held on to the electric pole by the side of the road, stood up from the ground unsteadily, rubbed my numb legs, watched them blink their sore eyes, and then smiled.

"Stop arguing, both of you! I'm fine! Who hasn't been cheated after growing up so big! It's good to understand now, anyway, he and I are not the same kind of people, and we are destined to have a bad ending. After a meal, it's so messed up. It’s been a long time, I haven’t eaten yet! Do you have any good suggestions? I’m so hungry that my stomach hurts, so I’ll think about where to eat it! It doesn’t matter if it’s expensive or not, as long as it’s delicious.”

The two people who were arguing far away finally stopped fighting and walked towards me.

"Are you all right?" Tang Xiaowan blinked her big eyes with smoky makeup, leaned her face towards me and said.

"What could be the matter?" I laughed, but my voice was dry.

"It's best to be fine! Then go eat! Mu Bei said last time that he was working in a nearby bar, why don't we go there to eat?" Tang Xiaowan suggested.

Yang Fan poked Tang Xiaowan's melon-seeded face with his finger, and said teasingly, "Is the food there delicious? Don't bother to solicit business for your boyfriend, let us waste money!"

"Go! It's not that you spend the money. Didn't Shi Nian tell her to invite her? Why are you in a hurry!"

Tang Xiaowan reached out and knocked Yang Fan's hand away, and spat.

I laughed, turned my back, and waved my hands at the two people behind: "Then let's go there! We haven't been to a bar yet! It's good to go and have fun this time! Tang Xiaowan, call your Mu Bei later I have a discount! I'm afraid I didn't bring enough money!"

"Okay, if it's not enough, I'll mortgage myself there and promise to let you two go!"

Tang Xiaowan replied with a smile from behind, causing Yang Fan to "vomit" again.

"I think you wish we could mortgage you there, right? You can still monitor Mu Bei to see if he is also cheating on you with other women..."

Before Yang Fan finished speaking, Tang Xiaowan had already punched him with a fist, and I walked in front and heard Yang Fan's cry of pain.

"Which pot is not open and which pot is lifted!" Tang Xiaowan yelled at Yang Fan, Yang Fan shrugged, stuck out his tongue and lowered his head, only looking at me secretly.

I smiled bitterly at them: "Don't look at me like that! I'm fine! You can say whatever you want! Don't look after me! I'm not as weak as you think!"

The two people behind sniffed disdainfully at the same time, and neither of them continued the topic just now.

As Tang Xiaowan said, it's easy to tell if I'm unhappy.Is there anything wrong with me? Anyone who cares can see that Yang Fan and Xiaowan are not careless people.

Even if I refuse to admit it, the facts are unquestionable. It is a lie to say that I don't feel uncomfortable.I, An Shinian, have never been deceived since I was a child. This time, I was deceived twice in a row in less than a day, and each time it hurt my heart.

Yang Fan and Tang Xiaowan, who knew me well, couldn't see my bravado, but none of them chose to expose me, because they all knew that the less the wound was touched, the faster it would heal.

02
The bar where Mu Bei worked turned out to be the most expensive "Broadway" in the city center.

A building with a strong European style stands on the busiest commercial street in the city, standing at a crowded intersection, looking at the sexy and beautiful woman on the huge poster on the wall outside "Broadway", my The scalp is a little numb.

"'Crap'! Tang Xiaowan, are you out of your mind? I thought it was the bourgeoisie Xiaoqing, but I didn't expect it to be here? Can we afford the food in it? It must be too expensive." Yang Fan looked up Cursed at Tang Xiaowan, who was putting on makeup in the mirror.

Tang Xiaowan rolled her eyes at her and snorted coldly: "You, Yang Fan, are the one who is out of your mind. The youngest of us is the youngest. Today she just celebrates her 22nd birthday. We are all adults. Why can't we go in? Money is not a problem, the big deal is this." Let me invite you. Now that you are an adult, you must choose a place for adults to go to play, right? Let’s go, take advantage of the few people in the afternoon, or there will be more people in the evening, and there will be all kinds of ghosts and monsters. I’m afraid I won’t be able to resist.”

After Tang Xiaowan finished speaking, she stuffed the small mirror in her hand into her bag, stretched out two hands, grabbed me and Yang Fan with each hand, and walked across the road towards "Broadway".

Yang Fan said: "Shi Nian, do you really want to go? People say this place is very messy."

I smiled at Yang Fan and said, "It's okay, let's go in and have a look and eat something, no matter how messy it is, we shouldn't get it on us. Besides, isn't there Xiaowan's family, Mu Bei? We There is still care."

Seeing that I didn't refuse, Yang Fan didn't continue talking, but looked at the door curiously, with a pleasant expression on his face.

The entrance is very quiet. After passing through the European-style lobby and entering the bar in the inner room, the deafening sound instantly penetrated our eardrums.

One entrance separates two worlds, one holy and the other chaotic.

The boy with the fiery red "cockscomb head" stood at the door, and when he saw us, he greeted us with a smile.

"This is Mu Bei!" Tang Xiaowan introduced to us, holding the boy's arm, with an unusual blush on her face.

I think, at this moment, Tang Xiaowan is just a little girl.

I nodded and said hello. Before I could get used to the hustle and bustle, I was dragged into the chaotic world by Yang Fan.

"An Shinian! Come on! Welcome your 22 years old!"

Under the dim light of the bar, Tang Xiaowan stood on the sofa in the corner, waving at me and shouting.

The music was too loud, and the carnival crowd screamed constantly.The strange world I suddenly broke into made me feel powerless for a moment.I kind of want to back off, but also kind of desperate to indulge.

The second I was dragged by Yang Fan to sit on the sofa, I looked at the people having fun in front of me, sipping the cocktail Tang Xiaowan handed me, the cool and astringent feeling made my confused mind gradually clear.

Mu Bei said that a friend is here and he wants to take Xiaowan to meet him.Tang Xiaowan smiled shyly and walked away, leaving only Yang Fan and I drinking the signature cocktail of this bar recommended by Mu Bei.

After sitting for a while, the two of us ate up a plate of strange-flavored peanuts on the table, feeling quite bored.Yang Fan couldn't sit still anymore, stood up and drank the half glass of wine left on the table in one gulp, wiped his mouth, waved to me with a flushed face, and said that she was going to dance.

Before I could stand up and stop her, she was already on the crowded dance floor.I was left alone in a daze, in a daze.

Obviously everyone has fallen into a state of confusion, but I am the only one who is getting more and more awake in this grotesque place.

I haven't seen Xiaowan and Yang Fan coming back for a long time. I was a little bored. I took out my mobile phone from my pocket to play, but found that the mobile phone was turned off. Then I remembered that after I made the call at the jewelry store, I was afraid that Jiyu would call back. Don't let yourself get hurt again, shut down in a hurry.

Thinking about it now, the behavior at that time was really ridiculous.Things have been picked apart, and no matter how you escape, you can't pretend that it doesn't exist.

The reason for avoiding it like this can't explain anything other than proving that I fell into that relationship and lost my heart.

Yes, I like Cum Rain, that's why I care about him, and that's why I'm hurt by his cheating.As for what I like about him, I can't tell. Maybe it's because I'm used to him being kind to me and caring for me in every possible way, so one day when I suddenly feel that kind of care is about to disappear, my heart will feel numb.

Just because I'm afraid of getting hurt doesn't mean I'm a coward.Like is like, I don't need to deny it, but I don't want to continue to stick to this kind of like.

Some things, no matter what, cannot be forced.

I turned on the phone, but there was no notification of incoming calls or text messages.Something seemed to sink heavily in my chest, and I laughed at myself, my pale face was reflected in the wine glass, and my expression was very strange.

It turned out that everything I did was a one-man show that I directed and acted on my own. That person didn't seem to care about my misunderstanding, my sorrow, and my heartbreak that he would never know.

03
When Tang Xiaowan came back, I had just ordered another cocktail, and before I could drink it, Xiaowan snatched it away.Tang Xiaowan's expression was completely opposite to that before she left. She had a very bad expression. She didn't even sit down, but took my wine glass and poured the whole glass into her stomach while standing, and then angrily put the wine glass on the table.

"What happened?" I faintly sensed something was wrong, stopped Tang Xiaowan who was about to call the waiter, and asked.

Xiaowan was pulled onto the sofa by me, her face still stern: "Isn't that the dead man Mu Bei? He himself said that he wanted to take me to meet his friend, but after sitting at his friend's table for a while, someone said they saw him Old Diao, they left me and stood up in a swarm and chased them out."

Tang Xiaowan leaned on the back of the sofa angrily and said with her mouth curled up.I was a little confused after listening to her words, and asked, "Who is Lao Diao?"

As soon as the words came out, Xiao Wan rolled her eyes.

"An Shinian, do you hang out with that good boy Ji Yu too much and don't know anything? Lao Diao is quite famous in the bar street. Mu Bei and the others only want to do things with him. Now they see Lao Diao himself, probably chased after him to beg Lao Diao to give him a job."

Although Tang Xiaowan spoke in a flat tone, I could see that she was very nervous. When she was nervous, she would habitually rub her hands together. Her hands hadn't stopped since she started talking.

"You have to worry, why didn't you stop him just now?"

"It's no wonder if you can stop it! From the first day he worked in the bar, Mu Bei has been thinking about getting along with Lao Diao. It's not like you don't know their school. After graduation, they only have a diploma. It's not good for finding a job. Any use. It looks like he is about to graduate, if he doesn't get along with a capable boss, it will be difficult for him to get along in the future. But, is Lao Diao so easy to follow?" Tang Xiaowan yelled at me violently.

My ears hurt from being yelled at by her, and I was a little angry, but seeing that she was in a bad mood, she didn't have an attack. She just wiped the saliva off her face and continued to speak in a cold voice.

"What's the use of you just getting angry at me here? Think about where the crux of the problem lies before making plans!"

"Lao Diao's background is quite complicated, and he seems to be doing some unclean business now. I heard that the police have been investigating him. If Mu Bei really followed Lao Diao, he might have to drag Lao Diao down someday. Besides The police are not vegetarian, and they will be brought to justice sooner or later. At that time, I will break up with him. But what can I do now? It’s not that he treats me badly. It's absolutely impossible to let him go, but if I don't break up with him now, what will I do in the future! If he really follows Lao Diao, wouldn't I have to live in fear every day?"

As Tang Xiaowan spoke, her body began to tremble.She was afraid, working with a ruthless role like Lao Diao was no different than others, she really couldn't tell when something would happen suddenly.

Tang Xiaowan has always been a bold person, but I can clearly feel her fear at this moment.I think she is so nervous because she really fell in love with Mu Bei.

"If you are really worried, then no matter what method you use now, you have to stop Mu Bei. Your nagging here is not the way to solve the problem at all." I said seriously.

Xiaowan looked at me, her eyes were a little red, and she said shyly, "Then shall I stop him now?"

"Otherwise? When do you want to go?" I sneered and patted Tang Xiaowan on the shoulder to signal her to leave quickly.

"Then I'm going! To be honest, I'm a little scared! What if Mu Bei has already contacted Lao Diao? He is the big boss, so I told Mu Bei not to follow him in front of him, won't he be beaten?" Tang Xiaowan walked a few steps, then turned around and said worriedly.

"Let's go see it first and then talk about it! If you continue to dawdle like this, then you really can't stop it even if you want to!"

"Forget it! Never mind! I'm going! You also hurry to find Yang Fan. If you fall out with Lao Diao, I will drag Mu Bei and run away!" Xiaowan took a breath and said with her fists clenched.

I patted her on the shoulder, trying to make her relax: "If you're really scared, I'll go with you. After all, that old eagle is also a big boss, so there's no need to argue with our students! Nothing will happen!"

"Don't! I can go alone! You and Yang Fan can go straight away later! Don't wait for us, even if Lao Diao's place is fine, Mu Bei and I will inevitably have a quarrel. This time it's my fault, I can’t enjoy your birthday, so I’ll make it up for you tomorrow! You guys leave early, I’ll call you when I’m fine!”

Xiaowan pushed my hand away and said haha, before I could chase after her, she had already rushed into the crowded dance floor, moving in one direction.All I could see was her long fiery red hair, looming in the crowd like a flame.

04
The closer it gets to the night, the more people there are in the bar.I was submerged in the crowded dance floor looking for Yang Fan's figure, but in vain.

Anxiety ran through my heart like a toxin. It was very hot in the bar, but my body was getting colder and colder.

"Excuse me, may I ask, have you seen a girl with a ponytail, an oval face, and a butterfly tattoo on her neck?"

I couldn't find Yang Fan, so I was so flustered that I could only catch people and ask.However, everyone was immersed in dancing and cheering, and no one paid any attention to my anxiety. My voice was drowned out by waves of screams until finally, my voice trembled so much that even I felt pathetic.

I was squeezed out of the dance floor, and I stood there blankly, my eyes still looking around.An inexplicable panic seized me, I was suddenly very afraid, very afraid that something would happen to Yang Fan, very afraid that she would disappear into my life without warning like Jia Liang.

Maybe she went to the toilet, maybe she thought it was stuffy and went out to breathe alone, I don't need to worry so much, but my heart is uncontrollably cold.

At this time, there was a sudden scream in the middle of the dance floor, not from fear but from surprise.The crowd dispersed, receded in all directions, and whistled presumptuously into the center of the dance floor.

Looking at the elevated platform slowly rising from the vacant space of the dance floor, I felt that the blood in my whole body froze instantly.Yang Fan was half lying on the elevated platform, her eyes were blurred and charming, her face was flushed abnormally, when she heard the shouts from the audience, she stood up with a coquettish smile and danced unsteadily on the stage.

Yang Fan on the stage was already drunk and unconscious. I don't know who got her so drunk, let alone who got her on the stage.All I know is that everyone here, male and female, who are in high spirits is a pack of lustful wolves.

Amid the howls of the crowd, I rushed onto the stage without any hesitation, held down Yang Fan's twitching hand, hugged Yang Fan who was writhing indiscriminately, and stared straight at the roaring people in the audience .

"Is this person crazy? Do you want to let him play?"

"Yeah! Others are dancing on it, what's your business? Get off!"

"Where is the boss? Who is the boss! Do you want to do business?"

……

The angry people shouted and cursed. I stood on the high stage with Yang Fan in my arms, and looked down at the disgusting faces of the audience. I was no longer afraid, and even my trembling body calmed down.I can see the whole bar very clearly, I can't see Tang Xiaowan's figure, I think she has chased Mu Bei out.I immediately breathed a sigh of relief. In this case, the fewer people who suffer, the better.

After shouting, several bar security guards in black came over to protect a fat middle-aged man.The man stopped in front of the elevated platform and nodded towards the security guards beside him, who were about to rush up to the stage.

I think we have offended someone who shouldn't be offended this time.

"I've already called the police!"

The security guards hadn't stepped onto the stage yet, so I tightly hugged Yang Fan, who was shaking in my arms, and shouted to the audience without trembling in my voice.

The crowd was in an uproar, and the faces of the people waiting to watch the show were panicked. No matter whether they were entertaining normally or not, whether they had done any prohibited things in this bar, but once the police came to check, they might not be able to find out some Things that can't be seen.

People are afraid of things. As soon as I said something, many people fell silent, and then walked out in twos and threes.

Only the middle-aged man who looked like a bar manager was still standing there, looking at me calmly, and the group of security guards had already stood on the stage, and it seemed that they would rush towards us with just one order from him.

"Let us go, or I will sue you for forcibly intoxicating the female guests and operating illegally." Seeing that the man had no intention of letting us leave, I emphasized again, but my voice became a little trembling.

"Your name is An Shinian, right?"

The man spoke suddenly, I looked at him in horror, and asked in a daze, "How do you know?"

"There is nothing in this city that I don't know! I didn't expect An Guodong's daughter to appear here. Your father and I are old friends. Don't worry, I won't do you any harm. If you have a chance to see your father, help uncle Send a message that Li Chensen greets him!"

The man named Li Chensen smiled at me, but that smile made people feel a little sinister.

"As for your friend's matter, uncle is here to say sorry to you. However, uncle still has something to tell you. It's good to be a little clever, but it depends on the situation. Since we dare to do business in public, there is nothing wrong with it." So scary. Did any of you see us getting your friend drunk? Why are we operating illegally? You don’t have evidence, you better keep your mouth shut! But you don’t seem to have time to call the police, because you are in a hurry to help your friend, go away When the phone dropped."

While talking, Li Chensen took out a mobile phone from his suit pocket and shook it at me.

I took a deep breath, pursed my lips and looked at the mobile phone in Li Chensen's hand. I didn't speak, and there was only one thought in my mind - I met the old fox.

Li Chensen really didn't stop us, and let me go away with the drunk Yang Fan.When I left, I still looked into the bar suspiciously. Li Chensen and the group of black-clothed security guards were still standing there. When I turned around, the deep man smiled kindly at me. I can't feel the slightest warmth.

When I came out, because I was dragging Yang Fan, I accidentally bumped into the door, but was stopped by a person in time.I looked up, only to be shocked to find that in the bar where almost all the customers had dispersed, not only me and the fainted Yang Fan, but also Li Chensen and his group, there was a boy about our age standing there.

The boy looked at me with a cold expression, and my stomach was on his lap, making me feel a little uncomfortable.That's right, the boy stopped me from walking towards the door with his leg.

I wanted to take Yang Fan away, but the boy suddenly leaned against the wall and raised his leg to block the exit, then raised his head slightly, and glanced at me indifferently.I took a breath and stabilized my body, only then did I see the boy's appearance clearly. He looks very clean, with delicate features, but his expression is cold and hard.

"Drill through!"

The boy suddenly said to me, his voice was as indifferent as his own.

I looked up at him in astonishment, wondering inside.

I've never met this man, and I don't remember where I offended him, so I don't understand why he's here and blocking my way.

"Qixuan, put your legs down and let her pass!"

There was a growl from behind, from Li Chensen. The tone was different from the tone when he spoke to me. Li Chensen was obviously angry at the moment.

However, this is not important. What is important is that this inexplicable boy is in the same group as that equally strange middle-aged man.Moreover, that boy has a strong hostility towards me.

As if he didn't hear Li Chensen's roar, the boy folded his arms, looking condescending, and looked at me contemptuously.

"Drill or not?" He asked me again, this time there was a smile on his lips, but the smile was colder than no smile.

"Slap!" Before I could react from the daze, a person rushed up from behind and slapped the boy on the face.

The boy Qixuan in front of me fell to the ground, covered his face with his hands, and glared fiercely at Li Chensen beside me.

"Dad! You hit me because of her? You're crazy!" The boy didn't yell, but said in a flat tone.

I felt as if my head had been slashed, and I couldn't react for a while.

Are they father and son?
This strange pair of father and son made my heart flustered.

I couldn't ignore the boy's hostility towards me just now, I couldn't ignore the hatred for me in his eyes, and I couldn't ignore Li Chensen's distorted expression when he mentioned my dad earlier.

At that moment, I was like a beast lost in the dark, smelling danger.

Li Qixuan didn't stop me anymore, and no one stopped me from leaving along the way, but I always felt as if someone was following behind me, supporting Yang Fan who was pressing on my shoulder, and ran out of "Broadway" as if fleeing, Before he even had time to catch his breath, he hailed a taxi by the side of the road and got into it.

I don’t know if it’s because the cocktail I drank before is getting stronger, or because the night is approaching, and the cool wind is blowing on my body, I feel a little cold. I just feel that I am sitting in the car, hugging the sleepy Yang Fan, and my body is shaking .

Li Chensen and Li Qixuan, these two people who are completely unfamiliar to me broke into my world on my 22nd birthday.

05
The school stipulates that boarding students have to report to school on Sunday night.There is no class that night, but you have to study by yourself, and every student has to sign in.After the self-study class is over, you must go back to the dormitory, and there will be a dormitory inspection.Students who did not show up, except for those who asked for leave for business, will be strictly investigated.

A few of us came out at noon. When I got back to school, it was already past eight o'clock in the evening. I don't know how the time passed so fast. It felt like I didn't do anything in the bar, and several hours passed. .

The self-study class ends after nine o'clock. According to the past, the people in the teaching office usually go to the class to sign in at the first class. It is too late for me to rush to the classroom now, not to mention that I am still dragging Yang Fan who is drunk and unconscious.

While in the taxi, Tang Xiaowan sent me a text message, saying that she stopped Mu Bei, and nothing happened, but Mu Bei was angry with her, saying that she was in his way, and the two were arguing .I asked her what method she used to stop Mu Bei, but she didn't reply, and asked when she would be back tonight, she didn't say anything, just told me she was fine, so don't worry.

But judging from this, the three of us are unable to sign in again. This matter is not a big deal to us, but when we think that our three names will be criticized on the school radio tomorrow, it feels a little bit Terrified.

Yang Fan was drunk, I couldn't bring her over the wall to enter the school, so I could only be cheeky, and under the helpless eyes of the guard, I held Yang Fan's waist and helped her walk in from the main gate of the school openly.

"An Shinian, are you going out to play again, girl? You'll be graduating in a few months, so don't make troubles that affect your graduation certificate!" Uncle Li, the janitor, and I are old acquaintances. A few of us slipped out to play, but we were often caught by him.Now when he saw me, he teased me jokingly.

I smiled and didn't argue, just gestured "go first" to him, and then continued to drag Yang Fan in.

After walking for a while, I could still hear Uncle Li sigh with emotion: "The child of today!"

I stuck out my tongue, turned around and was about to walk towards the girls' dormitory, when I suddenly caught a glimpse of a familiar and thin figure, standing not far from me, blocking my way, as if waiting for someone.Seeing me, the man's eyes flickered for a moment, and he didn't move. He continued to block my way, looking at me with a hesitant expression.

I didn't expect that Ji Yu, who was supposed to be in self-study class, would guard me at the school gate.But we do need to have a good talk, and it is better to say something clearly.

Taking a deep breath, I supported Yang Fan and walked towards Jiyu with a calm expression. I couldn't see any emotional fluctuations, so I just asked him flatly: "How long have you been waiting?"

Ji Yu didn't answer, just stood aside and looked at me quietly, then his eyes fell on the drunken Yang Fan who was leaning on my shoulder.

His good-looking brow furrowed again, and he blamed me in his usual caring and exasperated tone, ridiculously.

"you've been drinking?"

I immediately felt that the question he asked was ridiculous.What does it matter to him whether I drink or not?

"Just drink a little, that's not the point. In fact, you don't need to wait for me here, just call me if you want to say something. If I don't come back tonight, why don't you wait all night?" I said sarcastically Said.

Before I could finish speaking, the cum rain had interrupted my words.He didn't seem to understand the situation at all, and everything he said was out of context, making people laugh.

"Why did you go drinking?" he said.

I smiled, bit my lips, looked at him with a serious face with some contempt, and said, "Hehe, it's my birthday today, everyone just drinks it if you're happy! What else could be the reason? Hey, stop talking nonsense. Since you don't want to make a phone call, you can also have a face-to-face interview. Anyway, I have nothing to say. I don't want to ask you what you think of me, and what is the relationship between you and Tong Ruting now. Let's be the same as when we started. Let's be more straightforward. Let’s break up! We’ll go our separate ways in the future. Don’t bother me, and I won’t bother you. Just say hello if you want to meet! Okay, I’ve made it clear, please make way, I’m going to send Yang Fan to Go back to the dormitory."

After finishing speaking, before Jiyu could speak, I stretched out my hand and pushed him away, and supported Yang Fan to continue walking.

After walking a few steps, Ji Yu chased after me, took my arm, and looked at me with a cold face.

To be honest, it's rare for me to see Jiyu angry, and I've been talking to him for more than half a year, and in my impression, he doesn't seem to be serious with me yet.Now I don't understand, everything is clear, I don't pursue anything, why is he angry with me?

"An Shinian, what else do you do besides cold war, ignoring people, and breaking up every time? Why don't you ask me what I think? Why do you sentence people to death every time without giving people a chance to explain? ? You...you..." Ji Yu yelled at me with a blushing face.

Seeing him gasping for breath, his chest heaving violently, holding my hand, "you" didn't say anything for a long time, I became impatient, so I simply helped him continue: "Do you want to say that I don't Reasonable? Actually, I think you still don't understand what I mean. I mean, no matter what your reason is, whether it is forced or voluntary, I just want to break up and stop talking to you. I don't want you anymore, understand ?"

Ji Yu let go of his hand, and stood there looking at me with an unbelievable expression and an inexplicable injury.

"Break up if you say break up, don't if you don't want to, An Shinian, do you like me or not?" He asked.

look!Every time this person diverts from the current topic and asks irrelevant questions.

"So what if you like it? So what if you don't like it? Did you let me go after I said it? Okay! Then I said I don't like it, are you satisfied?"

After saying the last ruthless words, I didn't look at Jiyu's expression, turned around and dragged Yang Fan away without looking back.

The steps are easy, but the heart is very heavy, and my eyes are a little acidic. I took a few breaths of the cold night air hard to keep the tears from falling.

In fact, breaking up is also very simple. If love comes from one side, either you hurt me or I hurt you.If the love comes from both sides, then hurt each other. Anyway, once the pain is over, it's just like that, and life has to go on.In a person's life, there are many things waiting to be experienced besides love.

What's more, our life has just begun, and we will meet many people in the future, maybe we will meet someone who is more suitable for you than the person who made you love, hurt, and hurt.

Why bother?It's just a matter of feeling.What's more, it was still a very weak relationship mixed with deception.

However, no matter how chic the words were, my heart still hurt uncontrollably.

Because, after all, I still like it!

06
Send Yang Fan to her dormitory.I went back to my dormitory, before the others came back from class, I took a shower first, came out in my pajamas, squatted on the balcony in a daze.

My mind was rather chaotic today, a lot of inexplicable things happened in one day, I was too tired to think about why, I just wanted to "empty" my mind.

Taking a deep breath, I actually choked.

After a violent cough, tears fell uncontrollably.

I wiped my eyes in pain, cursed angrily a few times, then walked into the dormitory, climbed into bed, closed my eyes and prepared to sleep.

Yet no matter how much I tried to fall asleep, things in my head were in a mess.

Anyway, I couldn't fall asleep, so I simply sat up and made a phone call. Without even thinking about it, I just dialed my dad's cell phone number.

The strange pair of father and son in "Broadway" has always been a knot in my heart.

My parents have been on a business trip in the United States recently. Usually, I think it is a waste of money to make international calls, so I have been waiting for them to call me.

And they are busy, so they seldom contact An Zhimo and me.The number of times I took the initiative to fight in the past is really very few.

Mom answered Dad's call, and Mom said on the phone that Dad forgot to bring his mobile phone when he went out.

After chatting with my mother for a while, I started to get back to the topic.

Since Li Chensen knew my dad, my mom should know him too.My mother has always been well aware of my father's affairs, and it's the same when asking her who Li Chensen is.

Facts have proved that everything is accidental. When I said the name Li Chensen, my mother was at a loss.

She didn't know Li Chensen at all.

I think my father and mother are not [-]% honest, and my father still has his own secrets.

My mother asked me who Li Chensen was on the phone. I lied and said that I met someone I didn't know on the road. He said his name was Li Chensen, and he mistook me for the daughter of his acquaintance.

Some things, since Dad chose not to tell Mom, there must be his reasons.

My mother has always been a sensitive and suspicious person. I don't need to make my mother doubt my father's honesty to her because of a man who appeared in my life out of nowhere.

I turned a few corners, and the topic about Li Chensen and his son was finally bypassed.My mother talked nonsense with me, and finally asked about An Zhimo.

I'm not a hypocritical person, but today I really don't want to hear the name An Zhimo.

He is my younger brother, young and ignorant. As an older sister, I shouldn't be angry with him, but does he still treat me as an older sister?
I made an excuse to say that long-distance calls are expensive, so I hung up the phone, and my mother's nagging about An Zhimo was interrupted by me.

Sitting on the bed and looking at the mobile phone for a while, there was a lot of noise in the corridor outside the door.The evening self-study is over, and everyone is back.

The door was pushed open, and the three girls in the same room as me came in talking and laughing, their eyes touched me who was half lying on the bed, and they all fell silent.

They are strangers to me. First, like everyone else, they are more afraid of dealing with "bad girls" like me who everyone despises, so they try to avoid contact with me every time; second, I usually talk to Yang Fan and Tang Xiaowan There is also Jia Liang who has already left and hangs out with them, and rarely takes the initiative to get close to them.

So, even though we have lived in the same dormitory for almost two years, there are only a handful of words between us.

These three girls did not silently do their own thing after seeing me as usual - go to bed after washing, but a few of them stood at the door, pushed each other, and finally pushed out a representative, stiffly came towards me.

"An Shinian, um, you didn't come to the self-study tonight, and you were checked by the dean of inspection. He wrote your name on the notebook, and asked us to tell you to prepare tomorrow. He will report to the principal. Inform those who did not come today in front of the whole school at the school assembly."

The girl who spoke, if I remember correctly, she should be the study committee member of our class, named Liu Shan.

I usually see her as a lively and eloquent girl, but when she sent a message to me now, she hesitated for a long time before saying a word.

Sometimes, I wonder, am I, An Shinian, really scary?Why is everyone so afraid of me?

"Is there going to be a school meeting tomorrow?" I looked up at Liu Shan.

Surprised by my question, Liu Shan nodded in a daze, and said, "We have a school meeting every Monday morning. You won't..."

Catching my gaze, Liu Shan didn't continue talking.

In fact, I know what she wants to say.

"You don't even know that, do you?"

If she guessed right, she should have wanted to say that, but she seemed to be afraid of me to a certain extent, and she was frightened by my look.

Then the conversation came to this point, and I stopped talking.

I can't take the initiative to tell them that I seldom participate in activities organized by the school!
Liu Shan and the others didn't talk anymore, they just took the washbasin and prepared to wash up.

I habitually closed the blackout curtains I bought to sleep, but after so much trouble, I still couldn’t fall asleep.

I don't know how long it took, the headlights outside were turned off, and it was pitch black.

It seemed to be raining, and the sound of pattering rain hit the closed glass window of the balcony, ding ding dong dong, very crisp.

The spring rain is continuous, whose thoughts are lingering, and whose fleeting years have been vicissitudes?

It was late at night, and the first day of my 22-year-old life was coming to an end.

But tonight, I have insomnia, just because I heard the girl who also didn't go to sign in tonight, and came back late after playing crazy outside, shouting loudly: "Guess who I met at the gate? The cum rain from Class [-] It's raining outside, and he's standing alone next to the banyan tree at the school gate to soak in the rain!"

I don't want to explore the reasons for his obsession, and I don't want to think that Ji Yu really likes An Shinian.If you don't expect extravagantly, you won't get hurt.

I told myself that I have broken up with cum rain.What he does has nothing to do with me.

However, listening to the louder and louder rain outside, I became more and more awake, and my heart was very tangled.

Tossing and turning on the bed, I finally got up, grabbed the coat at the head of the bed and put it on, opened the door and rushed out.

While running, I said to myself in my heart: "An Shinian, it seems that you are really in love with Ji Yu, and that's why you give him the chance to hurt you again and again."

(End of this chapter)