goodbye, childhood
Chapter 2 Daisy
Chapter 2 Daisy
01
"Shi Nian, I won't go to the Internet cafe with you guys tonight, Mu Beiyue, I'll go ice skating." In the evening, a few of us gathered at the door of Tang Xiaowan's bedroom. .
Yang Fan sneered, and teased the blushing Tang Xiaowan: "It's different when you have a man. You have done such things as seeing sex and forgetting friends. She just broke up in Shi Nian, and now you are dating someone sweetly, you Don't be afraid of hurting our sister's heart!"
"Well, don't press me with Shi Nian, she broke up with Ji Yu, she is not worthy of pity at all. Look at her, she looks like a broken love! She also ate two bowls of pork dumplings from me tonight !" Tang Xiaowan smiled while pointing at me who was biting candy.
I gave her a blank look, stuffed the lollipop I had in my mouth into Tang Xiaowan's bright red mouth, raised my eyebrows and said, "I'll pay you for the pork dumplings!"
Tang Xiaowan pretended to reach out to hit me, but was stopped by Jia Liang who came out of the dormitory.
"Ah! Tang Xiaowan, is it necessary for you? Isn't it just two bowls of pork dumplings, you can't bear to play Shi Nian! Haha! People are turning grief into appetite, so don't worry about it!"
Tang Xiaowan struggled, took out the lollipop from her mouth, turned her head and stuffed it into Jia Liang's mouth, and said bitterly: "Ah bah! Sister, I don't care about dumplings! That bastard An Shinian actually let me eat her saliva! "
"Get lost! You both swallowed this lollipop and you stuffed it into my mouth! Tang Xiaowan, you are so vicious!" Jia Liang cursed with a bitter face.
The people in the building were almost gone, and the gate of the dormitory building would be locked if the noise continued, and we would not be able to get out.
I grabbed Jia Liang who was about to pounce on Tang Xiaowan, and winked at Tang Xiaowan: "Aren't you going on a date? Hurry up, it's past ten o'clock! It's cold outside, how long do you want people to wait for you?" .”
Tang Xiaowan rolled her winking eyes and said indifferently, "He can wait as long as he likes. You know, waiting is often a kind of happiness!"
"Ah bah! You've got goosebumps! If you don't leave, we're still in a hurry! Tonight, Shi Nian invites us to play in the Internet cafe! Ha, it's not for you!"
Yang Fan spat at Tang Xiaowan shamelessly, then dragged me to the stairs, holding Jialiang biting a lollipop in my hand.Tang Xiaowan was not angry either, she glared at us, then rushed down with a smile on her face, and the four of them quickly got into trouble again.
Tang Xiaowan's boyfriend is from the TV University next door. Xiaowan met him on the Internet. The two of them talked for a short time. We don't know exactly what that person looks like. Tang Xiaowan didn't show him to us. We asked her jokingly I asked for a photo, but the phone shot was blurry, and I couldn't see it clearly.I just remembered that the boy was dyed with red ghost hair like Tang Xiaowan. At first glance, Tang Xiaowan's looked like a cockscomb, and the one called Mu Bei was a big cockscomb, which matched well.
Although universities generally don't care much about students' dress, our school is rather conservative, so Tang Xiaowan and the others have been warned countless times by the school because of hair dyeing, but they still go their own way, especially Tang Xiaowan's hair color is The most exaggerated, but because her family has quite a background, because of Tang Xiaowan's relationship with her family, the school just turned a blind eye after several warnings.
When we got off the stairs, we separated. Tang Xiaowan went to meet Mu Bei at the back door of the school, while Yang Fan, Jia Liang, and I climbed over the school wall and slipped out to a nearby Internet cafe to surf the Internet.
Coming to Jingfeng to go to university is a big failure in my life. I always thought that after I went to university, the school should be less strict, and I would be free. Unexpectedly, Jingfeng University is more strict than when I was in middle school. .We are about to graduate from senior year, and we don't have the privilege of freedom, and everything has to abide by school rules.
Therefore, even when we went out to surf the Internet, we had to quietly climb over the wall.
It's been a long night, and today I want to indulge for some reason.As a result, the way to indulge is to go out and surf the Internet, which can only be said to be "weak".But apart from surfing the Internet, we really can't think of where to play.
Jialiang is the shortest of the four of us, and the one with the worst physical fitness. Every time we climb the wall, two of us will first climb to the wall and pull her, and then the remaining one will push her ass. She pushed it up.Now that Tang Xiaowan is not here, Yang Fan can only pull her by himself, while I push her underneath.
Fortunately, Jia Liang was thin and light, so I lifted her up as soon as I lifted her.
Yang Fan jumped off the top of the wall first, Jia Liang was still lying on the top of the wall, looking down, as if seeing Yang Fan following her below, he took a breath and jumped down with his eyes closed.
Seeing that they all jumped down, I tightened my sleeves and was about to crawl over, when I heard Jia Liang's cry of pain from outside, followed by cursing.
"Ah! Yang Fan, I asked you to catch me, why didn't you catch me! My head hit the wall, it hurts me to death!"
When I jumped off the wall, Jia Liang was squatting on the ground holding his head and crying, Yang Fan stood beside him with a sorry face and helped Jia Liang rub his head.
"I'm sorry! You also know that the lights are dim at night, so you can't see clearly! I didn't know that I grabbed your lower body instead of your upper body! How are you now? Is it still hurting? Do you want to go to the hospital? Hitting your head is a big deal. Big or small!"
Yang Fan said to Jia Liang with a bitter face.
Jia Liang stood up from the ground, still covering his head with his hands, wiped away his tears, and said in a low voice, "Go to the hospital! What can happen! Just bump into it and you can't die! Go away! If you don't go away, it will be dawn Already!"
Jia Liang waved at us impatiently, shaking a little.I hurried forward, supported her, stared at her face and frowned, and said, "Are you okay? I think you should go to the hospital to have a look! Your face is blue! You can't even stand on your feet!"
"What could be the matter! It's not that I was frightened just now! I just squatted for a long time and felt a little dizzy, and I'm fine after walking! Let me tell you, although I'm not as strong as you, I'm not so weak. Hit it and get into trouble! Let's go! Don't be like Tang Xiaowan, talking bad things."
Jia Liang kept saying that she was fine, and Yang Fan and I saw that her complexion had begun to improve, and she was able to leave by herself, so we didn't say anything more, and the three of us walked shoulder to shoulder towards the Internet cafe closest to the school.
On the way, I received a call from Jiyu, who asked me why I didn't go back to the dormitory.Dare to feel that he was waiting in my dormitory after class in the evening, otherwise how would he know that I didn't return.
I smiled and said that I went to the Internet cafe to play, and asked him why he came to see me.
Cum rain said, didn't I ask you to give me the dirty clothes?I will help you wash at night.
I let go of Jia Liang's hands, and stopped alone to listen to Ji Yu chattering on the phone, saying "Why did you sneak out to play at night again", "It's very chaotic outside at night, which Internet cafe are you at, I Go find you" and a series of things he shouldn't have said at the moment.
For some reason, I suddenly found his voice disturbing.Didn't we quarrel?What are you talking about when both of them are finished!
"It's not that I told you not to bother me! We broke up, why do you wash my clothes for me? You are not an old woman, what kind of clothes do old men wash for girls? Did Tong Ruting get used to calling you around? , or you are used to people, let me say it again, you, classmate Ji Yu, please don't bother me An Shinian anymore, we have nothing to do with each other. You continue to be your good boy, and I will be my bad boy Girl, are you done?"
The voice on the other end of the phone suddenly stopped, and after waiting for a while, I didn't hear anyone speak, I was so upset that I was about to hang up, when I heard Ji Yu say with difficulty: "An Shinian, I don't want to break up with you. "
With such a short sentence, my heart was beating wildly in an instant, and I hung up the phone all of a sudden, only to find that my fingers were trembling.
"Shi Nian, who is calling? Is it Jiyu? What did he tell you?" Yang Fan and the others turned to me and asked.
I numbly followed, turned off the phone and put it in my pocket, and said in a stiff tone: "It's nothing, he just said he didn't want to break up with me."
Both Jia Liang and Yang Fan stared at me with wide eyes, and then exclaimed: "Really, Ji Yu doesn't want to break up with you yet! Then what do you say, are you getting back together with him?"
"Get back together! I just had a fight with him, and I didn't overdo it!" I came back to my senses, gave Jia Liang and Yang Fan a shudder, and said angrily.
My heart was still beating faster, I touched my restless heart, looked at the sky blankly, and didn't know who to tell, the voice just floated out of my mouth.
"Actually, I don't want him! I'm afraid!"
"What are you afraid of?" Jia Liang and Yang Fan leaned their heads together and asked me.
I looked at them with serious expressions.
"Fear is gone!"
There was a burst of laughter in my ears, and I was knocked on the head a few times.
"An Shinian, just pretend! You're still acting literary! Let's go! Go online!"
I stood there in a daze, looking at the two girls who walked into the Internet cafe, a wry smile rose from the corner of my mouth.
Look, no one knows me, how afraid I am of unreal feelings, how afraid I am of getting hurt more than anyone else.
02
Jia Liang and Yang Fan were playing a dazzling dance, and I was sitting by myself looking at the web on QQ in boredom.I took a look at Weibo and took a look at the campus. There was nothing to do, and I didn’t want to watch a movie, so I could only search through the QQ list to find someone to chat with.
I didn't add many people on QQ, and I didn't add people I didn't know. Once I opened it, it was black. There were not many online, and there were only a few junior high school students who didn't communicate often.When the mouse clicked on the column of relatives, when I saw An Zhimo's bright QQ, I was a little dazed for a moment.
An Zhimo has been a good boy in the eyes of everyone since he was a child, and he never does anything that violates school rules and disciplines.But what do I see now?He is using the computer to surf the Internet!
Our university is no different from a high school. It is a semi-closed teaching system. At night, the lights are turned off and the electricity is turned off, but that guy is surfing the Internet!There is only one thought in my mind at the moment, An Zhimo is like me, escaped from school in an Internet cafe, I don't know which Internet cafe he is in.
"Which Internet cafe are you in?" Without thinking, I tapped the keyboard and sent the message to An Zhimo.
The Dazzling Dance Game icon on An Zhimo's QQ page disappeared, making me even more sure that someone was on that Q, and my heart was on fire. Seeing that there was no reply, I sent a series of messages.
"Where are you? Are you dead or disabled, can't speak?"
"An Zhimo, what are you playing? Aren't you a good boy? What kind of Internet cafe are you running to in the middle of the night?"
"Aren't you going to answer? Are you still playing stubborn with me? If you don't answer, believe it or not, I'll find you at your school tomorrow?"
"An Zhimo!"
……
With a "bang", I slammed my fist on the keyboard, attracting frequent glances from the people around me.
Looking at An Zhimo's dimmed head of the penguin, my heart was full of fire, and I had nowhere to vent it.
Wings grow hard!This kid actually played a cold war with me.
Did he click the icon of "cloak him online" to hide from me directly, or did the kid ignore me and just go offline?
Why, don't you beg me for mercy now?Stop pleading?
"Shi Nian, are you okay! What's the matter! Why are you so angry?" Yang Fan, who was sitting near me, came over and patted my shoulder and asked.
I took a breath, closed the dialogue page with An Zhimo, and said to Yang Fan in frustration: "It's okay, just a little kid! You can play with you! It's past two o'clock, and we will leave at dawn people."
"An Shinian, there is only one kid who can make your face so stinky, right? An Zhimo? What's the matter, what trouble did your brother cause?"
"What else can he do, isn't it because of that girl's confrontation with me! Don't worry about it, go and play! If you are tired, just sleep like Jia Liang. Anyway, it's all night, and it's a waste if you don't play. "
I glanced at Jia Liang who was sleeping on the table a few seats away, and said to Yang Fan.
Seeing that I really don’t want to say it, Yang Fan didn’t bother, put a bottle of coffee on my table, spread his hands and said, “What are you sleeping for? You just spend money to play! I don’t sleep! You don’t sleep either! Go online and play with me.” game!"
"playing what?"
"Hyun dance!"
"Don't play, my reaction is slow! You go and play by yourself! I'd better watch a movie!" I shook my head at Yang Fan and said, searching for a Korean horror movie to watch.
Although Yang Fan is usually careless, he is actually very timid and hates scary things the most. Seeing that I want to watch a horror movie, he shivered and ran back to his seat with her coffee in his arms.
I didn't really want to watch horror movies either. As soon as Yang Fan left, I turned off the movie and clicked on An Zhimo's QQ again.
"You are limited to three seconds, An Zhimo, come out! Don't pretend to be dead! If you don't come out again, I will call you!"
Three seconds later, there was still no reply. I took a sip of coffee and continued typing on the keyboard.
"An Zhimo, you can do it! How dare you confront your sister like this, want to fly without even growing your feathers? I can't fix you, it's really not your sister!"
The sound of "Didi" sounded, and the dialogue with An Zhimo finally responded.
He returned me a string of ellipses.
I got angry, and before I slapped the table for the second time, there were a few more replies in the dialog box.
"Bitch!"
"Death Ann Poetry Year!"
"Bitch!"
"A bitch who snatches someone's boyfriend!"
My hand holding the coffee bottle trembled a little. Looking at the dazzling curses in the dialogue window, I felt as if I had been slapped in the face, and I couldn't breathe for a while.
"Aren't you An Zhimo? Which dead man are you!"
As soon as I finished posting, An Zhimo's QQ went dark again.
Leaning heavily on the back of the chair, I gulped down my coffee, my eyes fixed on the computer screen.
Just because I brought up An Zhimo alone, I'm sure that the person who just came back to me is definitely not my younger brother.
Even if An Zhimo gets angry with me again, he doesn't dare to call his sister a "slut".
My head seemed to have been slashed, I put the coffee can on the table, and hit the keyboard again with a straight face.
"You are Tong Jianing, right? Don't deny it, sister, I'm not a fool, I know it's you without even thinking about it! Who else would An Zhimo give his QQ password to? You are so capable! You can pretend to be pitiful and lie, and now you dare to challenge me as An Zhimo! Whose boyfriend did I, An Shinian, steal? Go back and ask your sister, Ji Yu and I When were you together? It was after your sister kicked him. Last time I didn’t make you suffer, you really don’t know that I, An Shinian, are not easy to mess with. Let me tell you, if you play this game with me again, I will make you look good I'll say it again, stay away from my brother! Get out of here!"
Just after posting this string of words, my anger was too high, and my throat felt very dry.I stood up from my seat and went outside to buy a bottle of mineral water. When I came back, the dialog box was full of words.
"Sister, it's really me! I'm An Zhimo! Your brother!"
"I'm not Tong Jianing!"
"Sister! Don't guess! I'm wrong, okay? Don't hurt other people!"
"sister!"
Sister, you big-headed ghost, this girl probably knows that she has caused trouble, and she is pretending for me again.She really didn't understand An Zhimo. An Zhimo had never been good at explaining. He would only cry when he did something wrong, and he wouldn't talk so much nonsense.
So, that person is her, Tong Jianing!
Fight with me, she is still tender!
03
Some people, if you don't slap her twice, she will never know how much you "like" her.You are too polite to her, she will never know where your untouchable bottom line is.
I found that I was too polite to Tong Jianing.
I set the status of QQ to busy, and the dialog box with An Zhimo was always open, and the other party kept sending messages to beg for mercy. I leaned on the back of the chair and looked at the sentences with many typos because of panic, imagining Looking at the panicked girl behind a certain computer, I don't know why, but I feel very happy.
I'm having a hard time, and the people who offend me shouldn't think about it either.
This is my An Shinian principle.
If people don't attack me, I will not attack others. If people attack me, I will attack them.
After calling An Zhimo's QQ for a while, it finally fell silent. It seems that Tong Jianing gave up.I drank the last sip of water in the bottle with a smile, went to the toilet and came back, but didn’t see any more activity on QQ, so I simply turned it off and went to watch variety shows.
When the sky turns pale, a new day has arrived.
Yang Fan was having fun playing the game, and when I told her to go, she was still a little bit reluctant.
"Come again next time!"
I patted her on the shoulder to comfort her, and Yang Fan turned off the phone and walked out with me.Jia Liang was still sleeping, and when we walked to her side, she was still lying motionless on the table and fell asleep. We called her several times, but she still didn't respond.
Yang Fan stretched out his hand and pushed Jialiang, Jialiang's body slid off the chair and fell to the ground, motionless.Both Yang Fan and I stared at the people on the ground in horror, our faces turned pale.
Jia Liang just lay at our feet, his nose was still bleeding, and everyone around him was screaming in panic.Yang Fan fell on the ground and hugged Jia Liang's head, I felt the blood in my whole body cool down, my body knelt on the ground stiffly, and stretched out my hand to Jia Liang's nose.
There was no breath at all.
When will a person have no breath at all?
"Did you die? An Shinian, what's your expression? What's wrong with Jialiang? Is she angry? Tell me if you are angry!" Yang Fan pushed me and cried at me.
I fell to the ground unsteadily, staring blankly at the black and blue color in Yang Fan's arms, my mind was blank.
"It's dead, how could it be? Why... it's out of breath! It was fine when it came here, why did it die suddenly. Why did Jia Liang die?"
I asked Yang Fan incoherently.Yang Fan seemed to have lost his soul, he didn't dare to move while holding Jia Liang.
In the Internet cafe, someone shouted "dead", "someone died suddenly", whatever, and then I seemed to hear the boss call the police station while scolding bad luck.
I don't know how long it took before Yang Fan and I were pulled up from the ground, and Jia Liang was carried onto a stretcher. Countless people walked up and down in front of me, but all I could see was Jia Liang's bloody nostrils and expression. stiff face.
When I regained my consciousness, Yang Fan and I had been taken to the police station for questioning.The police told me that Jia Liang died of a cerebral hemorrhage and excessive energy consumption. He died suddenly and could not be revived.
The police asked us if Jia Liang had been hit on the head.Yang Fan was so frightened that he couldn't speak, and shrank in the corner shaking.I folded my arms and told the police that when Jia Liang came out with us, he accidentally hit his head on the wall.
The police said you children!I didn't look at the wall when I hit it, and I surfed the net all night. It's no wonder that nothing happened.The hit on the head can be big or small, and now even the gods can't save it.We have notified the girl's parents to go to the hospital to pick up the body. After finishing this record, you two can also be taken back by the parents.
I couldn't say anything, but felt my body was so cold, I tightly held the hand of the interrogating policeman, looked at him with sore eyes, and asked unwillingly.
"Is Jia Liang really dead?"
"It's really dead! Look, this is the autopsy report from the hospital! Why did you lie to you?"
A report was placed in my hand, and all I could see was the word "death" written in a certain column on it. In an instant, my strength seemed to be completely drained, and my whole body was powerless. Slumped on the ground, unable to get up again.
You say, how can people die so easily?
Obviously not long ago, Jia Liang was still playing with us, why can't he wake up now?
Is life really so fragile?Can a person really do this, say leave and leave?
Forgive us for really being unable to bear this sudden blow.That is our best friend, no matter whether she is ugly or beautiful in the eyes of others, for us, An Shinian, Yang Fan, Tang Xiaowan, and Jia Liang have always been best friends.
It has been more than three years, the four of us have spent more than three years since the beginning of school, and suddenly one person is missing and no longer walks with us. My heart is so uncomfortable, so painful, so regretful, why do I have to come out tonight? ?Why climb the fence?Why do you have to stay online all night?
Carnival, indulgence, youthful and frivolous, but also brighten a young life.
That day, Jia Liang left this world without warning.
Yang Fan and I, as well as Tang Xiaowan who arrived later, began to understand the lightness of life, the heaviness of life, and the pain of life.
04
We entered the police station at about five or six in the morning. After finishing the record, the big wall clock in the police station had already pointed to seven.Yang Fan was picked up by her grandfather. When she was about to leave, Yang Fan hadn't recovered yet. Her grandfather was very angry and kept beating her on the head to scold her for not learning well.Yang Fan didn't argue, and accepted all these accusations calmly, and followed her grandfather without saying a word.
Before leaving, she looked back at me, with tears still shining in those big blank eyes.
I sat on the bench in the house, waved to her, motioned her to go, and tried hard to squeeze out a smile, but I couldn't.
Yang Fan had been gone for nearly half an hour, and I sat motionless in my seat, inhaling and exhaling continuously, but my heart was still beating very fast, and it was throbbing with pain.
The police uncle who just took the record for us passed by me with breakfast, stopped and asked me why I was still sitting here, no one came to pick me up?
I struggled to squeeze out my voice, and answered honestly that my parents are abroad, and my grandparents who take care of me are in the county, and they are cultural people, and they care about saving face. I don’t want to trouble them. Just go away by yourself.
The policeman was an enthusiastic person, and gave me some of his own breakfast.I waved my hand and refused, how could I have the appetite to eat at this time?
I asked them for a cup of hot tea, sat for a while, and felt that my body was no longer so cold, I put down the cup, silently bowed to the seat of the police uncle, regardless of whether he saw it or not, then He turned around and left the police station with his head down.
I feel like I'm sober now and know what to do.
I hailed a taxi and took it to the city hospital. I didn't know whether Jia Liang's body had been brought back by her family. I just instinctively wanted to come to this place to take a look. Not anymore.
Thinking of this, my nose started to pantothenic acid again.When I stood at the door of the hospital, I couldn't hold back the tears that flowed down my face.Many people think that my heart, An Shinian, is made of iron, cold-blooded and ruthless. In fact, I know that I have never had a heart made of iron. My heart is very fragile. The most unbearable thing is to see my dear ones leave suddenly.
The waiting hall of the hospital was full of people, most of them were young people, with panic expressions on their faces. When they saw the doctor, they stopped and asked incoherently: "Doctor, I heard that there is a girl from Jingfeng University. Sudden death, is her name Yang Qi?"
"Doctor, my classmate also went out to surf the Internet last night, and she hasn't come back yet. Let's see if that dead girl is her! She has long hair, is chubby, and her name is Liu Enfei."
"Doctor, where did you put the body? Tell us! Let us see! Everyone is worried! What about our friends?"
……
"Don't make noise, if you want to ask, go to the service desk, we are very busy! There are so many accidents and injuries today, I don't have time to tell you!"
"Son, don't catch me, I'm not in charge of that, I don't know! I just came to work!"
"What the hell happened! What's wrong with these children? Why don't they leave here! They won't be allowed to work!"
……
The entangled doctors were helpless, complaining and struggling in the hands of the group of worried boys and girls.
I stood at the end of the crowd, my legs were weak, and I could no longer walk forward. I sat slumped on the ground, holding my head with my hands.
It's brightening!It's highlighting!The dead person is Jia Liang!Is my friend!
I shouted from the bottom of my heart, I wanted to shout to those anxious students, let them stop worrying, the person who died was neither Yang Qi nor Liu Enfei, but my friend of An Shinian - Jia Liang.
But no sound came out of my throat.
"Isn't this An Shinian? Why is she crying like this?"
"What? An Shinian is here too, why is she crying?"
Someone discovered me and made a sound of surprise, which attracted more people's attention to me.
I didn't hide, just let myself be exposed to everyone's eyes, crying wantonly.
See, An Shinian will be sad, and An Shinian will cry, because An Shinian lost her good friend.
"An Shi Nian! An Shi Nian! Shi Nian!"
Someone yelled my name and ran towards me, and crying bitterly, I was pulled into an embrace mixed with morning dew.
Ji Yu's face was blurred in my sight, but his voice was so clear.
"An Shinian, luckily it's not you! It's fine if it's not you!"
"What the hell! It wasn't me who died, but...it was Jialiang! What the hell!"
I finally roared out in Jiyu's arms. This was the word I managed to squeeze out after several hours of silence.I wanted to break free from that person's arms, but I didn't have the strength.
Then I heard the man say hoarsely, "For me, as long as it's not you."
A boy rushed into the crowd and shouted joyfully to the crowd: "I got it, it was Jia Liang from Jingfeng University who died! Everyone can rest assured! Let's go, let's go!"
"It really highlights! No wonder An Shinian is crying here!"
"Isn't Jia Liang the little yellow-haired girl in the next class?"
"No, it's the one that I didn't learn well from An Shinian and the others."
"It's a pity to die suddenly."
"Let's go! Why bother so much!"
……
"Stop, stop for me!"
I wanted to get up from the ground and stop that group of people, to stop them, to question why they were so happy, why they said such things.
However, I found that I was really useless. Not only did I have no energy to get up, but my voice of shouting was very weak.No one looked back, no one answered me, no one felt sorry.
"An Shinian, don't do this! Let go, let go, don't bite yourself!"
The rain of cum slapped my face non-stop, and my hands squeezed my mouth hard, trying to keep my teeth from biting my lip, but it was useless, I didn't let go, it was so numb from the pain, I no longer knew how to let go.
We haven't done anything harmful, why do everyone spurn us.Bullying others, being cruel and domineering, is because someone bullied us first, and we fought back to protect ourselves.Over time, everyone thinks we are bad children, but never investigates the reason why we have become bad.But so what if she's a bad girl?Does the bad girl deserve it when she dies?Isn't it worthy of sympathy?
Jiyu couldn't make me let go, he suddenly bent his head and blocked my mouth with his own mouth, my brain went blank for a moment, my teeth loosened numbly, and Jiyu's tongue immediately drilled in.
This is the first time cum rain kissed me, and also my first kiss, not romantic at all, but with a mouth full of blood and tears I swallowed.
It's a sad kiss.
05
I ended up not being able to see the bright side again.
On the day I, Yang Fan, and Tang Xiaowan carried Jia Liang’s favorite white daisy to the funeral home to see her off for the last time, it was drizzling, and we were holding flowers in our hands. We didn’t have any spare hands to hold umbrellas. Cool and cold, just like the tears I shed a few days ago.
The four of us used to talk to each other about our families.Jia Liang told us that her mother was a widow, her biological father died of stomach cancer when she was in her third year of junior high school, and her mother remarried a year later to a gas station owner.Her stepfather was fat and big-eared, as if he could bleed oil all over his body, and her mother was a flower in the county after all, just soaked in the oil tank.
Jia Liang's mother and her new husband soon gave birth to a boy.Because they have to manage the gas station business and take care of their youngest son at the same time, they have no time to take care of Jia Liang, so when Jia Liang went to college, it seemed like she had severed ties with her family, and kept hanging out with us, and rarely saw her Mom and Dad came to see her.Jia Liang is the weakest and most timid of the four of us, but also the most thoughtless and funniest.
I still remember the first time I met Jia Liang. At that time, Yang Fan and Tang Xiaowan hadn't mixed with me, and my reputation hadn't been spread so badly.
It was when the university just started, the first day of boarding, Jia Liang had no one to deliver, and he tidied up things by himself.Because of his small size and rough hands and feet, when he went downstairs to turn on the water to wipe the bed, he was knocked down by someone, and some boiling water accidentally spilled on a girl's feet.The girl cried and cursed in pain, and attracted the parents who sent her to school.The middle-aged couple protected their daughter and scolded Jia Liang who was alone for a long time, and finally scooped up a bowl of hot water and poured it on Jia Liang's face.At that time, I was standing on the balcony of the dormitory drying things, and happened to see Jia Liang being bullied.I don't know why I had to wade into that muddy water, but I just felt that Jia Liang held back his tears and didn't cry at that time, which made people feel distressed.
When I rushed down, Jia Liang was blocking the water with his hands, most of the water splashed on her hands, and she screamed in pain.I hurriedly applied cold water to her hand, the boiling water was very hot, and a layer of skin was scalded off Jialiang's left hand, which left a scar. Her left hand is still ugly, with a layer of dead skin pulled together, like Elderly people have a lot of dehydrated skin.And the girl whose feet were splashed with water was wearing sneakers at the time, and the burn was not serious.The girl and her parents were stopped by Yang Fan and Tang Xiaowan who were turning on the water. We all accused them of intentionally hurting others, and finally made a fuss with the principal, but the principal only made them pay money, and Jia Liang's hand just did that. There is no way to restore it except for a new skin graft.
When Jia Liang had an accident, her parents didn't come to see her, they just said on the phone that they were busy with business and her brother was noisy, and asked her to take good care of herself and listen to the doctor's advice to recuperate.From then on, Jia Liang's daily life was almost all taken care of by me, Yang Fan and Tang Xiaowan.The four of us got together like this.Anyone who is bullied, everyone will stand up and help.When people bully us, we will fight back with an eye and never show mercy.Because you are soft, others will only think that you are easy to bully, and they will find trouble with you more and more unscrupulously.Over time, we became the four worst girls in the school. Everyone feared us, hated us, and blamed us, but no one thought about the reason why we became like this.
We came to the funeral home in the rain, and as soon as we got to the door, Jia Liang's mother led a group of people and beat us out.
The flowers in my hands fell to the ground, and the adults stepped on them. The white daisies were dirty from being stepped on. Those flowers must be very painful.
The adults pulled our hair, and Jialiang's mother cried and yelled at us.
"It was you bad girls who brought my daughter down! You killed her! You bad girls, why don't you die? Why is it my daughter who died!"
None of us refuted or fought back, not even Tang Xiaowan, who has always been the most irritable and can't stand wronged, said a word.The three of us were beaten and lying in the rain, looking at the white daisies scattered all over the ground, our faces were wet, and we couldn't tell whether it was rain or tears.
Jia Liang's joyful and mournful voice seemed to be echoing in his ears.
"What flower do you like best? I like daisies more. The flower language of daisies is joy, happiness, purity, childishness, and innocence. What a beautiful word! Just like youth."
With scars all over our bodies, the three of us stood up without saying a word, and looked up at the sky in the rain.
Happy, happy, pure, childish, innocent...
Gain, you did it all.
You who stay at the age of 21, please continue to be happy and happy in heaven!No one can pollute your purity, laugh at your childishness, or denigrate your innocence.
And the three of us lost your most beautiful daisy after all.
06
"Sorry, the phone you dialed has been switched off."
I hung up the phone, put the phone in my pocket, and sat back in my seat.
"The phone didn't get through? The cum rain didn't answer?"
Yang Fan leaned on his seat and asked me, Tang Xiaowan who was on the side snorted coldly and said, "It's your birthday today, he didn't even show his face, so he thinks he's your boyfriend!"
"It's just that the mobile phone is turned off. I guess I'm busy with something. Their class is always full of things. Isn't there extracurricular training or something? Whether it's a birthday or not, just have a meal together and make sense. Jialiang has been gone for almost a month. Well, we haven’t had a gathering during this time, let’s treat it as a gathering for everyone this time!”
Speaking of brightening, my throat was choked and I coughed.Yang Fan and Tang Xiaowan lowered their heads and remained silent without speaking.
I didn't eat at the food stall today. Yang Fan and the others said that it was a birthday anyway, and everyone was looking for a place with an atmosphere, so they chose a well-decorated "Ajisen Ramen Restaurant" in the city center.
In the end, there were only three of us who came, originally there would have been four at worst, but since Jia Liang was gone, we would always be three and one missing.
I was used to the freedom and unrestrainedness at the food stall, but suddenly changed to a quiet place, and everyone was a little restrained.
"Shi Nian, isn't your brother coming too? Today is Sunday, do they still have classes?" Tang Xiaowan handed me the cake-cutting knife when the cake came, and asked with raised eyebrows.
I didn't take the knife, and waved directly at them.
"I asked him yesterday, and he said that there is some competition training today, and he can't come. Anyway, it's just a meal, and it's fine if he doesn't come. I don't care if I don't see it. You can cut which piece you want to eat, and you can eat it yourself. The three of us, cut whatever you want!"
"An Shinian, you've been too good-tempered lately! Your birthday is only once a year. If you don't train sooner or later, you have to wait for this day to train. It's clear that you don't want to celebrate your birthday. You didn't even find that girl Trouble, it's too outrageous for him to treat you like this!" Yang Fan patted the table angrily and said.
She knows that Tong Jianing scolded me on An Zhimo QQ.One day I went to QQ to browse the chat records with An Zhimo and she happened to see it and kept asking me what was going on. I thought it was annoying for her to keep asking, so I told the truth.Yang Fan immediately said that he wanted to trouble Tong Jianing, a little girl, but I stopped him.After Jia Liang's accident, we have rarely caused troubles, and it's not that we are afraid of troubles, it's just that we suddenly feel that the things we did in the past don't make much sense.
"Let's change the place in a while! When you sit here with your legs crossed, there are many people looking at you. It's strange. Neither Ji Yu nor An Zhimo will come. Anyway, it's just the three of us. We should change the big one if we restrain ourselves. The food stalls are better." Tang Xiaowan directly grabbed a piece of cake and stuffed it into her mouth, saying vaguely.
My heart seemed to be stabbed by something sharp, and it hurt a little.I looked at the soft and warm tones and the people at the table who were talking and laughing, took a deep breath, picked up the cake box lid on the side and put it on the untouched chocolate cake, then looked up Looking at the two people with gloomy expressions on the opposite side, they smiled and said, "Let's go! Let's go to the food stall!"
My face was reflected in the glass window beside me, and my smile was very bitter.
"What about the cake? Do you want to take it with you?" Yang Fan asked me while carrying the bag.
"Does anyone want to eat? If you want to eat, take it away!" I answered, lowering my head and taking money in my pocket.
"The three of us don't like sweets. We thought we bought it just to celebrate your birthday, but no one else came. It's chocolate. My family, Mu Bei, doesn't like this flavor. Just your cum rain I love to eat with your brother, otherwise I can pack it back and give it to Mu Bei, so as not to waste it, and I spent money to buy it." Tang Xiaowan glanced at the cake box on the table and read.
"Just throw it here! Everyone doesn't like to eat, so there's no need to force yourself."
After paying the money, the chocolate cake that only moved a bite was thrown on the table. None of us looked back, and went out the door with our bags on our backs.
On the way to the food stall, I passed a gift shop.Yang Fan and Tang Xiaowan suddenly held my hand at the same time, looking at the small shop on the left side of the street.
"An Shinian, what gift do you want? Choose it yourself, no matter how expensive it is, Tang Xiaowan and I will buy it for you today." Yang Fan said to me, while Tang Xiaowan played with her finger painted with red cardamom and pointed at me. I smile.
"What are you doing? Didn't we agree that everyone will not give gifts on birthdays? Last year, everyone didn't give gifts. Why should you give me gifts this year?"
I asked them both puzzled, but Yang Fan turned to look at Tang Xiaowan without speaking.Tang Xiaowan didn't say anything, but pulled me into the exquisitely decorated gift shop without saying a word.
"We didn't give it last year, but your brother An Zhimo gave you a cartoon hair clip. You never want to wear it. You hide it in your wallet, take it out from time to time, and smile at the clip. We all know How happy you are in your heart. I thought you had a boyfriend this year, and it didn’t matter whether we gave gifts or not if Jiyu loved you. But I didn’t expect that Jiyu didn’t come, and even your brother didn’t come. So, we just I hope this small gift can bring you more happiness. Alas, Shi Nian, in fact, if you are not happy, just say it. No one of us will laugh at you. You don’t have to force a smile. Look at your face, that smile How ugly."
Tang Xiaowan turned my face to the mirror in the jewelry area and said, then reached out and pulled a pair of earrings aside and put them next to my ears.
I looked at myself in the mirror, stretched out my hand stiffly to caress the curvature of the corner of my mouth, my dry smile was really ugly.
"Even if you want to make me happy, there's no need to try on earrings for me! I don't have pierced ears, and you still get such expensive ones, change them! Pick me an ordinary headband." I pushed Tang Xiaowan away and took it said the hand with the earring.
Tang Xiaowan gave me a blank look, scolded me, "I don't know what is good and what is bad", and resolutely put the earrings next to my ears to compare them. After feeling that they really didn't fit, she reluctantly put them back on the counter and turned to them. He stood up and went to the side to pick out a headband.
I watched her leaving back, slowly put away my smile, and my eyes fell on the dazzling array of exquisite ornaments.
In the mirror, I was standing in a narrow aisle dressed up in all kinds of strange things in a fat dress, so out of place and a bit dazzling.
Before I could find out the sudden embarrassment and inferiority complex, Yang Fan's scream and Tang Xiaowan's scolding had already attracted all my attention.
Everything I saw afterwards made my heart ache.
I thought, An Shinian was really hurt this time.
07
"An Zhimo, are you doing this to your sister? Your sister said you have some competition training, are you training? No one came to the gift shop for training. What? Forgot to kiss when you have a girlfriend Sister? Accompany your girlfriend so much that you don't even care about your own sister's birthday!"
When Tang Xiaowan's sharp mocking voice reached my ears, my body trembled slightly, and I turned around stiffly, and saw the boy with his head bowed opposite him through the lattice gap of the accessories column.In an instant, my heart seemed to be blocked by something, and it was very uncomfortable.
"Hey! Why are you this girl again? I said how old are you, what kind of high heels are you wearing? I just stepped on my foot, it hurts!" Yang Fan beside Tang Xiaowan stomped his feet and gritted his teeth, holding his head stubbornly in front of him girl shouting angrily.
Seeing that Tong Jianing didn't look sorry at all, Yang Fan became even more angry, and stretched out his hand to pull Tong Jianing's hair.An Zhimo wanted to stop him nervously, but Tang Xiaowan blocked him. No matter how he pushed Tang Xiaowan, Tang Xiaowan refused to let him go.
"Smelly girl! You haven't settled the matter with you on QQ last time! Do you really think it's all right? Didn't we tell you not to be with that kid An Zhimo? You're still pestering me! Why? You won't get rid of the coffin if you don't see it Tears? This time, I will settle the old and new debts with you for Shi Nian! Let's see if you still dare to look at me like this in the future!"
While cursing, Yang Fan squeezed Tong Jianing's cheek with his hands, and knocked her on the head from time to time.An Zhimo, who was blocked by Tang Xiaowan, was like a mad leopard, howling incessantly.The other customers in the gift shop were frightened and hid away. The boss should be a timid master, and he didn't dare to come out to stop Tang Xiaowan and Yang Fan when they were dressed as rogue girls.And I stood alone in another aisle and watched with cold eyes.
An Zhimo struggled under Tang Xiaowan's hands, angrily kicked the shelf between the two aisles, and shouted with a ferocious expression: "Sister, come out! Stop them quickly! Please let them stop beating Tong Jianing !sister!"
I looked at the boy shouting at the top of his voice, and suddenly felt very strange.
Is this the younger brother An Zhimo I watched growing up?Isn't An Zhimo always so cowardly that he doesn't know how to resist?Why did he become so crazy at this time.
"An Shinian, come out! An Shinian, don't you want to hit me? Why don't you hit me yourself! What is it to let others bully me?"
Yang Fan slapped Tong Jianing's face with a crisp sound.Tong Jianing covered his face and cried to me, and then I heard my younger brother An Zhimo's angry roar.
"An Shinian, if you still want my younger brother, tell them to stop and let Tong Jianing go!"
I walked over and stood in front of everyone, my expressionless face was reflected in the mirror on the other side.I didn't tell Yang Fan and the others to stop, but everyone stopped.Yang Fan let go of Tong Jianing, whose face was full of tears, and Tang Xiaowan let go of An Zhimo.An Zhimo glared at us fiercely, and rushed towards Tong Jianing who was squatting on the ground crying loudly. He hugged the girl tightly and wiped her tears with distress.
I suddenly recalled that when I was Tong Jianing's age, I was often beaten for standing out for An Zhimo. At that time, An Zhimo didn't hug me like I do now, except squatting beside me and crying louder than me. The wounded girl comforted softly.
Is the little boy grown up?I have someone I want to protect, so I don't need my sister...
"An Zhimo." I stood aside and said sadly, my voice was a little sour.
"It's you who keeps saying that you don't want my sister! An Zhimo, it's because you don't want to recognize me as a sister, not because I don't want you as a brother! You challenge me for an outsider, I don't care, but When did you learn to lie to me? You can't spend my birthday with me, it's okay. You want to date this girl, that's fine, but why are you lying to me? Why are you lying to me that you want training? What competition training , It’s all bullshit! Ever since I was a child, you said, sister, I’m sorry for you, why did you lie to me?” Suppressing the sour tears in my eyes, I stubbornly looked at the man squatting on the ground holding Tong Jianing who dared not look up. child, asked.
I don't know why I was so excited, I just felt stabbed in the heart by the person closest to me, and the pain made me growl.
An Zhimo lowered his head, wrapped his arms around the girl in his arms even tighter, and retorted angrily: "If I'm not lying, you know I'm with Tong Jianing, so it's no wonder you don't get angry! If you don't hate Tong Jianing, Don't let us be together, why should I lie?"
"Ha!" Hearing An Zhimo's accusation, I couldn't help but sneer, reached out to wipe my eyes, bit my lip and smiled bitterly, "So, it's all my fault that you lied? Let me ask you An Zhimo , What on earth do you want Tong Jianing? What do you like about her? Is she innocent? Is she beautiful? Smart? Your sister, let me tell you, this girl is not innocent at all. Would you like me to show you what she scolded me on your QQ a while ago? She scolded your sister! An Zhimo! Ask yourself, where is your sister and I? Or do you think the same as her, thinking that your sister and I are a bitch? Do you want to be with her? Well, I don’t care now, I don’t care what you like, I don’t care about you! You are about to have an accident, you are wronged, you can find your parents, grandparents or grandparents, just don’t come here Me! I can't stand it!"
No matter how much I wiped my eyes, tears finally flowed out, I said to An Zhimo with red eyes.
Hearing that I was crying, An Zhimo raised his head and looked at me with a surprised expression on his face. He wanted to say something, but in the end he didn't speak.But Tong Jianing in his arms couldn't hold back anymore, covered his face swollen by Yang Fan, pushed An Zhimo away, stood up from the ground, walked in front of me proudly, stared at me and shouted.
"I'm not wrong! You are a bitch! You stole brother Jiyu! Brother Jiyu was originally a couple with my sister! If it weren't for you, my sister would not be alone! But now it seems that you didn't rob Brother Jiyu’s heart, otherwise he wouldn’t have left you to pick up my sister today! Don’t you know? Do you think Brother Jiyu is busy and that’s why he didn’t spend your birthday with you? He’s looking for my sister Yes! An Shinian, how pitiful you are? No one likes you! Listen up! Ji Yu, he is with my sister Tong Ruting now!"
Tong Jianing had just finished speaking, before she had time to smile, she was slapped on the face again, this time it was Tang Xiaowan who did it.
"Why does a pretty girl put on such a disgusting face? Just looking at it makes me want to fight! Shi Nian, let's go, ignore them! They are all wolves in sheep's clothing!"
Tang Xiaowan shook her hand, and stretched out her hand to pull me away as she spoke, but as soon as her hand touched my clothes, I avoided it.
I indifferently took out my mobile phone from my pocket and handed it to Tong Jianing, looked at her coldly and said, "Dial your sister's number, call your sister, and ask her, is your brother Ji Yu still with her now?" ?”
"Shi Nian, what do you want to do?" Everyone was stunned, and Yang Fan was the first to ask me in surprise.
"Why don't you! I just want to figure things out! I'm tired! I don't want to guess!"
I replied coldly, and the phone was directly stuffed into Tong Jianing's stiff hands.
"Hit it! Why don't you dare to hit it? That means you are lying! Is Ji Yu not with your sister?" I looked at Tong Jianing sneeringly.
Tong Jianing wiped away tears, covered her face with one hand and proudly picked up the phone.
"Who says I dare not! I'll let you see how failed you are!"
The phone was quickly connected, and Tong Jianing's voice suddenly became cheerful and soft. It's not hard to imagine how much she likes the person on the other end of the phone.
"Sister, you must be very tired just after being discharged from the hospital! Have you eaten yet?"
"Ah! Mobile phone! I borrowed it from a friend! Hehe!"
"Is brother Jiyu still with you? Can I talk to him? I want to ask if he takes good care of you!"
"Oh, wait a minute? Then tell him to pick it up quickly!"
Tong Jianing winked at me triumphantly while talking, while Yang Fan and Tang Xiaowan stood aside with cold eyes and disgusted faces.Before the two of them could make a move this time, I had already snatched the phone from Tong Jianing's hand and put it to my ear.
My heart beat fast, my breathing became heavy, there was a rustle on the phone, and then a familiar and crisp voice came over with a smile.At this moment, I felt as if my throat was being choked, and I was so uncomfortable that I couldn't speak, almost suffocating.
"Carrian? What do you want to tell me?" The man asked with a smile.
My hand holding the mobile phone began to tremble, and gradually clenched it tightly. My heart was panicked and I wanted to cry, but I felt it was ridiculous.
"Jia Ning?" Ji Yu called out again, with a worried voice.
I took a breath and spoke hoarsely.
"Didn't you see that this is my phone number?"
Ji Yu's breathing became heavy and her voice became flustered.
"An Shinian?" He asked, seeming to be panicking, scared, and worried.
I didn't answer, just hung up the phone directly, stood where I was and took a few deep breaths.
In fact, I really want to ask, Ji Yu, what do you think of me?I, An Shinian, what on earth is this?
But, I can't ask, if I'm hurt, I'm hurt.I am really sad at this moment, and my heart really hurts.I was hurt by two people who cared one after another. I need time to recover, and I don't want to ask any more questions.
I calmly looked at Tong Jianing with a sarcastic expression, and then my younger brother An Zhimo who made me feel strange.
"You've won! You've all won! Go celebrate! Yang Fan, Xiaowan, let's go! Go eat!"
I just escaped from the gift shop in embarrassment under the gaze of everyone.Running like headless chickens all the way, the curses of Yang Fan and Tang Xiaowan were still echoing behind me.
"An Shinian! Why are you running away! You are a coward!"
That's right!An Shinian is very cowardly, such a small matter hurts her heart.
(End of this chapter)
01
"Shi Nian, I won't go to the Internet cafe with you guys tonight, Mu Beiyue, I'll go ice skating." In the evening, a few of us gathered at the door of Tang Xiaowan's bedroom. .
Yang Fan sneered, and teased the blushing Tang Xiaowan: "It's different when you have a man. You have done such things as seeing sex and forgetting friends. She just broke up in Shi Nian, and now you are dating someone sweetly, you Don't be afraid of hurting our sister's heart!"
"Well, don't press me with Shi Nian, she broke up with Ji Yu, she is not worthy of pity at all. Look at her, she looks like a broken love! She also ate two bowls of pork dumplings from me tonight !" Tang Xiaowan smiled while pointing at me who was biting candy.
I gave her a blank look, stuffed the lollipop I had in my mouth into Tang Xiaowan's bright red mouth, raised my eyebrows and said, "I'll pay you for the pork dumplings!"
Tang Xiaowan pretended to reach out to hit me, but was stopped by Jia Liang who came out of the dormitory.
"Ah! Tang Xiaowan, is it necessary for you? Isn't it just two bowls of pork dumplings, you can't bear to play Shi Nian! Haha! People are turning grief into appetite, so don't worry about it!"
Tang Xiaowan struggled, took out the lollipop from her mouth, turned her head and stuffed it into Jia Liang's mouth, and said bitterly: "Ah bah! Sister, I don't care about dumplings! That bastard An Shinian actually let me eat her saliva! "
"Get lost! You both swallowed this lollipop and you stuffed it into my mouth! Tang Xiaowan, you are so vicious!" Jia Liang cursed with a bitter face.
The people in the building were almost gone, and the gate of the dormitory building would be locked if the noise continued, and we would not be able to get out.
I grabbed Jia Liang who was about to pounce on Tang Xiaowan, and winked at Tang Xiaowan: "Aren't you going on a date? Hurry up, it's past ten o'clock! It's cold outside, how long do you want people to wait for you?" .”
Tang Xiaowan rolled her winking eyes and said indifferently, "He can wait as long as he likes. You know, waiting is often a kind of happiness!"
"Ah bah! You've got goosebumps! If you don't leave, we're still in a hurry! Tonight, Shi Nian invites us to play in the Internet cafe! Ha, it's not for you!"
Yang Fan spat at Tang Xiaowan shamelessly, then dragged me to the stairs, holding Jialiang biting a lollipop in my hand.Tang Xiaowan was not angry either, she glared at us, then rushed down with a smile on her face, and the four of them quickly got into trouble again.
Tang Xiaowan's boyfriend is from the TV University next door. Xiaowan met him on the Internet. The two of them talked for a short time. We don't know exactly what that person looks like. Tang Xiaowan didn't show him to us. We asked her jokingly I asked for a photo, but the phone shot was blurry, and I couldn't see it clearly.I just remembered that the boy was dyed with red ghost hair like Tang Xiaowan. At first glance, Tang Xiaowan's looked like a cockscomb, and the one called Mu Bei was a big cockscomb, which matched well.
Although universities generally don't care much about students' dress, our school is rather conservative, so Tang Xiaowan and the others have been warned countless times by the school because of hair dyeing, but they still go their own way, especially Tang Xiaowan's hair color is The most exaggerated, but because her family has quite a background, because of Tang Xiaowan's relationship with her family, the school just turned a blind eye after several warnings.
When we got off the stairs, we separated. Tang Xiaowan went to meet Mu Bei at the back door of the school, while Yang Fan, Jia Liang, and I climbed over the school wall and slipped out to a nearby Internet cafe to surf the Internet.
Coming to Jingfeng to go to university is a big failure in my life. I always thought that after I went to university, the school should be less strict, and I would be free. Unexpectedly, Jingfeng University is more strict than when I was in middle school. .We are about to graduate from senior year, and we don't have the privilege of freedom, and everything has to abide by school rules.
Therefore, even when we went out to surf the Internet, we had to quietly climb over the wall.
It's been a long night, and today I want to indulge for some reason.As a result, the way to indulge is to go out and surf the Internet, which can only be said to be "weak".But apart from surfing the Internet, we really can't think of where to play.
Jialiang is the shortest of the four of us, and the one with the worst physical fitness. Every time we climb the wall, two of us will first climb to the wall and pull her, and then the remaining one will push her ass. She pushed it up.Now that Tang Xiaowan is not here, Yang Fan can only pull her by himself, while I push her underneath.
Fortunately, Jia Liang was thin and light, so I lifted her up as soon as I lifted her.
Yang Fan jumped off the top of the wall first, Jia Liang was still lying on the top of the wall, looking down, as if seeing Yang Fan following her below, he took a breath and jumped down with his eyes closed.
Seeing that they all jumped down, I tightened my sleeves and was about to crawl over, when I heard Jia Liang's cry of pain from outside, followed by cursing.
"Ah! Yang Fan, I asked you to catch me, why didn't you catch me! My head hit the wall, it hurts me to death!"
When I jumped off the wall, Jia Liang was squatting on the ground holding his head and crying, Yang Fan stood beside him with a sorry face and helped Jia Liang rub his head.
"I'm sorry! You also know that the lights are dim at night, so you can't see clearly! I didn't know that I grabbed your lower body instead of your upper body! How are you now? Is it still hurting? Do you want to go to the hospital? Hitting your head is a big deal. Big or small!"
Yang Fan said to Jia Liang with a bitter face.
Jia Liang stood up from the ground, still covering his head with his hands, wiped away his tears, and said in a low voice, "Go to the hospital! What can happen! Just bump into it and you can't die! Go away! If you don't go away, it will be dawn Already!"
Jia Liang waved at us impatiently, shaking a little.I hurried forward, supported her, stared at her face and frowned, and said, "Are you okay? I think you should go to the hospital to have a look! Your face is blue! You can't even stand on your feet!"
"What could be the matter! It's not that I was frightened just now! I just squatted for a long time and felt a little dizzy, and I'm fine after walking! Let me tell you, although I'm not as strong as you, I'm not so weak. Hit it and get into trouble! Let's go! Don't be like Tang Xiaowan, talking bad things."
Jia Liang kept saying that she was fine, and Yang Fan and I saw that her complexion had begun to improve, and she was able to leave by herself, so we didn't say anything more, and the three of us walked shoulder to shoulder towards the Internet cafe closest to the school.
On the way, I received a call from Jiyu, who asked me why I didn't go back to the dormitory.Dare to feel that he was waiting in my dormitory after class in the evening, otherwise how would he know that I didn't return.
I smiled and said that I went to the Internet cafe to play, and asked him why he came to see me.
Cum rain said, didn't I ask you to give me the dirty clothes?I will help you wash at night.
I let go of Jia Liang's hands, and stopped alone to listen to Ji Yu chattering on the phone, saying "Why did you sneak out to play at night again", "It's very chaotic outside at night, which Internet cafe are you at, I Go find you" and a series of things he shouldn't have said at the moment.
For some reason, I suddenly found his voice disturbing.Didn't we quarrel?What are you talking about when both of them are finished!
"It's not that I told you not to bother me! We broke up, why do you wash my clothes for me? You are not an old woman, what kind of clothes do old men wash for girls? Did Tong Ruting get used to calling you around? , or you are used to people, let me say it again, you, classmate Ji Yu, please don't bother me An Shinian anymore, we have nothing to do with each other. You continue to be your good boy, and I will be my bad boy Girl, are you done?"
The voice on the other end of the phone suddenly stopped, and after waiting for a while, I didn't hear anyone speak, I was so upset that I was about to hang up, when I heard Ji Yu say with difficulty: "An Shinian, I don't want to break up with you. "
With such a short sentence, my heart was beating wildly in an instant, and I hung up the phone all of a sudden, only to find that my fingers were trembling.
"Shi Nian, who is calling? Is it Jiyu? What did he tell you?" Yang Fan and the others turned to me and asked.
I numbly followed, turned off the phone and put it in my pocket, and said in a stiff tone: "It's nothing, he just said he didn't want to break up with me."
Both Jia Liang and Yang Fan stared at me with wide eyes, and then exclaimed: "Really, Ji Yu doesn't want to break up with you yet! Then what do you say, are you getting back together with him?"
"Get back together! I just had a fight with him, and I didn't overdo it!" I came back to my senses, gave Jia Liang and Yang Fan a shudder, and said angrily.
My heart was still beating faster, I touched my restless heart, looked at the sky blankly, and didn't know who to tell, the voice just floated out of my mouth.
"Actually, I don't want him! I'm afraid!"
"What are you afraid of?" Jia Liang and Yang Fan leaned their heads together and asked me.
I looked at them with serious expressions.
"Fear is gone!"
There was a burst of laughter in my ears, and I was knocked on the head a few times.
"An Shinian, just pretend! You're still acting literary! Let's go! Go online!"
I stood there in a daze, looking at the two girls who walked into the Internet cafe, a wry smile rose from the corner of my mouth.
Look, no one knows me, how afraid I am of unreal feelings, how afraid I am of getting hurt more than anyone else.
02
Jia Liang and Yang Fan were playing a dazzling dance, and I was sitting by myself looking at the web on QQ in boredom.I took a look at Weibo and took a look at the campus. There was nothing to do, and I didn’t want to watch a movie, so I could only search through the QQ list to find someone to chat with.
I didn't add many people on QQ, and I didn't add people I didn't know. Once I opened it, it was black. There were not many online, and there were only a few junior high school students who didn't communicate often.When the mouse clicked on the column of relatives, when I saw An Zhimo's bright QQ, I was a little dazed for a moment.
An Zhimo has been a good boy in the eyes of everyone since he was a child, and he never does anything that violates school rules and disciplines.But what do I see now?He is using the computer to surf the Internet!
Our university is no different from a high school. It is a semi-closed teaching system. At night, the lights are turned off and the electricity is turned off, but that guy is surfing the Internet!There is only one thought in my mind at the moment, An Zhimo is like me, escaped from school in an Internet cafe, I don't know which Internet cafe he is in.
"Which Internet cafe are you in?" Without thinking, I tapped the keyboard and sent the message to An Zhimo.
The Dazzling Dance Game icon on An Zhimo's QQ page disappeared, making me even more sure that someone was on that Q, and my heart was on fire. Seeing that there was no reply, I sent a series of messages.
"Where are you? Are you dead or disabled, can't speak?"
"An Zhimo, what are you playing? Aren't you a good boy? What kind of Internet cafe are you running to in the middle of the night?"
"Aren't you going to answer? Are you still playing stubborn with me? If you don't answer, believe it or not, I'll find you at your school tomorrow?"
"An Zhimo!"
……
With a "bang", I slammed my fist on the keyboard, attracting frequent glances from the people around me.
Looking at An Zhimo's dimmed head of the penguin, my heart was full of fire, and I had nowhere to vent it.
Wings grow hard!This kid actually played a cold war with me.
Did he click the icon of "cloak him online" to hide from me directly, or did the kid ignore me and just go offline?
Why, don't you beg me for mercy now?Stop pleading?
"Shi Nian, are you okay! What's the matter! Why are you so angry?" Yang Fan, who was sitting near me, came over and patted my shoulder and asked.
I took a breath, closed the dialogue page with An Zhimo, and said to Yang Fan in frustration: "It's okay, just a little kid! You can play with you! It's past two o'clock, and we will leave at dawn people."
"An Shinian, there is only one kid who can make your face so stinky, right? An Zhimo? What's the matter, what trouble did your brother cause?"
"What else can he do, isn't it because of that girl's confrontation with me! Don't worry about it, go and play! If you are tired, just sleep like Jia Liang. Anyway, it's all night, and it's a waste if you don't play. "
I glanced at Jia Liang who was sleeping on the table a few seats away, and said to Yang Fan.
Seeing that I really don’t want to say it, Yang Fan didn’t bother, put a bottle of coffee on my table, spread his hands and said, “What are you sleeping for? You just spend money to play! I don’t sleep! You don’t sleep either! Go online and play with me.” game!"
"playing what?"
"Hyun dance!"
"Don't play, my reaction is slow! You go and play by yourself! I'd better watch a movie!" I shook my head at Yang Fan and said, searching for a Korean horror movie to watch.
Although Yang Fan is usually careless, he is actually very timid and hates scary things the most. Seeing that I want to watch a horror movie, he shivered and ran back to his seat with her coffee in his arms.
I didn't really want to watch horror movies either. As soon as Yang Fan left, I turned off the movie and clicked on An Zhimo's QQ again.
"You are limited to three seconds, An Zhimo, come out! Don't pretend to be dead! If you don't come out again, I will call you!"
Three seconds later, there was still no reply. I took a sip of coffee and continued typing on the keyboard.
"An Zhimo, you can do it! How dare you confront your sister like this, want to fly without even growing your feathers? I can't fix you, it's really not your sister!"
The sound of "Didi" sounded, and the dialogue with An Zhimo finally responded.
He returned me a string of ellipses.
I got angry, and before I slapped the table for the second time, there were a few more replies in the dialog box.
"Bitch!"
"Death Ann Poetry Year!"
"Bitch!"
"A bitch who snatches someone's boyfriend!"
My hand holding the coffee bottle trembled a little. Looking at the dazzling curses in the dialogue window, I felt as if I had been slapped in the face, and I couldn't breathe for a while.
"Aren't you An Zhimo? Which dead man are you!"
As soon as I finished posting, An Zhimo's QQ went dark again.
Leaning heavily on the back of the chair, I gulped down my coffee, my eyes fixed on the computer screen.
Just because I brought up An Zhimo alone, I'm sure that the person who just came back to me is definitely not my younger brother.
Even if An Zhimo gets angry with me again, he doesn't dare to call his sister a "slut".
My head seemed to have been slashed, I put the coffee can on the table, and hit the keyboard again with a straight face.
"You are Tong Jianing, right? Don't deny it, sister, I'm not a fool, I know it's you without even thinking about it! Who else would An Zhimo give his QQ password to? You are so capable! You can pretend to be pitiful and lie, and now you dare to challenge me as An Zhimo! Whose boyfriend did I, An Shinian, steal? Go back and ask your sister, Ji Yu and I When were you together? It was after your sister kicked him. Last time I didn’t make you suffer, you really don’t know that I, An Shinian, are not easy to mess with. Let me tell you, if you play this game with me again, I will make you look good I'll say it again, stay away from my brother! Get out of here!"
Just after posting this string of words, my anger was too high, and my throat felt very dry.I stood up from my seat and went outside to buy a bottle of mineral water. When I came back, the dialog box was full of words.
"Sister, it's really me! I'm An Zhimo! Your brother!"
"I'm not Tong Jianing!"
"Sister! Don't guess! I'm wrong, okay? Don't hurt other people!"
"sister!"
Sister, you big-headed ghost, this girl probably knows that she has caused trouble, and she is pretending for me again.She really didn't understand An Zhimo. An Zhimo had never been good at explaining. He would only cry when he did something wrong, and he wouldn't talk so much nonsense.
So, that person is her, Tong Jianing!
Fight with me, she is still tender!
03
Some people, if you don't slap her twice, she will never know how much you "like" her.You are too polite to her, she will never know where your untouchable bottom line is.
I found that I was too polite to Tong Jianing.
I set the status of QQ to busy, and the dialog box with An Zhimo was always open, and the other party kept sending messages to beg for mercy. I leaned on the back of the chair and looked at the sentences with many typos because of panic, imagining Looking at the panicked girl behind a certain computer, I don't know why, but I feel very happy.
I'm having a hard time, and the people who offend me shouldn't think about it either.
This is my An Shinian principle.
If people don't attack me, I will not attack others. If people attack me, I will attack them.
After calling An Zhimo's QQ for a while, it finally fell silent. It seems that Tong Jianing gave up.I drank the last sip of water in the bottle with a smile, went to the toilet and came back, but didn’t see any more activity on QQ, so I simply turned it off and went to watch variety shows.
When the sky turns pale, a new day has arrived.
Yang Fan was having fun playing the game, and when I told her to go, she was still a little bit reluctant.
"Come again next time!"
I patted her on the shoulder to comfort her, and Yang Fan turned off the phone and walked out with me.Jia Liang was still sleeping, and when we walked to her side, she was still lying motionless on the table and fell asleep. We called her several times, but she still didn't respond.
Yang Fan stretched out his hand and pushed Jialiang, Jialiang's body slid off the chair and fell to the ground, motionless.Both Yang Fan and I stared at the people on the ground in horror, our faces turned pale.
Jia Liang just lay at our feet, his nose was still bleeding, and everyone around him was screaming in panic.Yang Fan fell on the ground and hugged Jia Liang's head, I felt the blood in my whole body cool down, my body knelt on the ground stiffly, and stretched out my hand to Jia Liang's nose.
There was no breath at all.
When will a person have no breath at all?
"Did you die? An Shinian, what's your expression? What's wrong with Jialiang? Is she angry? Tell me if you are angry!" Yang Fan pushed me and cried at me.
I fell to the ground unsteadily, staring blankly at the black and blue color in Yang Fan's arms, my mind was blank.
"It's dead, how could it be? Why... it's out of breath! It was fine when it came here, why did it die suddenly. Why did Jia Liang die?"
I asked Yang Fan incoherently.Yang Fan seemed to have lost his soul, he didn't dare to move while holding Jia Liang.
In the Internet cafe, someone shouted "dead", "someone died suddenly", whatever, and then I seemed to hear the boss call the police station while scolding bad luck.
I don't know how long it took before Yang Fan and I were pulled up from the ground, and Jia Liang was carried onto a stretcher. Countless people walked up and down in front of me, but all I could see was Jia Liang's bloody nostrils and expression. stiff face.
When I regained my consciousness, Yang Fan and I had been taken to the police station for questioning.The police told me that Jia Liang died of a cerebral hemorrhage and excessive energy consumption. He died suddenly and could not be revived.
The police asked us if Jia Liang had been hit on the head.Yang Fan was so frightened that he couldn't speak, and shrank in the corner shaking.I folded my arms and told the police that when Jia Liang came out with us, he accidentally hit his head on the wall.
The police said you children!I didn't look at the wall when I hit it, and I surfed the net all night. It's no wonder that nothing happened.The hit on the head can be big or small, and now even the gods can't save it.We have notified the girl's parents to go to the hospital to pick up the body. After finishing this record, you two can also be taken back by the parents.
I couldn't say anything, but felt my body was so cold, I tightly held the hand of the interrogating policeman, looked at him with sore eyes, and asked unwillingly.
"Is Jia Liang really dead?"
"It's really dead! Look, this is the autopsy report from the hospital! Why did you lie to you?"
A report was placed in my hand, and all I could see was the word "death" written in a certain column on it. In an instant, my strength seemed to be completely drained, and my whole body was powerless. Slumped on the ground, unable to get up again.
You say, how can people die so easily?
Obviously not long ago, Jia Liang was still playing with us, why can't he wake up now?
Is life really so fragile?Can a person really do this, say leave and leave?
Forgive us for really being unable to bear this sudden blow.That is our best friend, no matter whether she is ugly or beautiful in the eyes of others, for us, An Shinian, Yang Fan, Tang Xiaowan, and Jia Liang have always been best friends.
It has been more than three years, the four of us have spent more than three years since the beginning of school, and suddenly one person is missing and no longer walks with us. My heart is so uncomfortable, so painful, so regretful, why do I have to come out tonight? ?Why climb the fence?Why do you have to stay online all night?
Carnival, indulgence, youthful and frivolous, but also brighten a young life.
That day, Jia Liang left this world without warning.
Yang Fan and I, as well as Tang Xiaowan who arrived later, began to understand the lightness of life, the heaviness of life, and the pain of life.
04
We entered the police station at about five or six in the morning. After finishing the record, the big wall clock in the police station had already pointed to seven.Yang Fan was picked up by her grandfather. When she was about to leave, Yang Fan hadn't recovered yet. Her grandfather was very angry and kept beating her on the head to scold her for not learning well.Yang Fan didn't argue, and accepted all these accusations calmly, and followed her grandfather without saying a word.
Before leaving, she looked back at me, with tears still shining in those big blank eyes.
I sat on the bench in the house, waved to her, motioned her to go, and tried hard to squeeze out a smile, but I couldn't.
Yang Fan had been gone for nearly half an hour, and I sat motionless in my seat, inhaling and exhaling continuously, but my heart was still beating very fast, and it was throbbing with pain.
The police uncle who just took the record for us passed by me with breakfast, stopped and asked me why I was still sitting here, no one came to pick me up?
I struggled to squeeze out my voice, and answered honestly that my parents are abroad, and my grandparents who take care of me are in the county, and they are cultural people, and they care about saving face. I don’t want to trouble them. Just go away by yourself.
The policeman was an enthusiastic person, and gave me some of his own breakfast.I waved my hand and refused, how could I have the appetite to eat at this time?
I asked them for a cup of hot tea, sat for a while, and felt that my body was no longer so cold, I put down the cup, silently bowed to the seat of the police uncle, regardless of whether he saw it or not, then He turned around and left the police station with his head down.
I feel like I'm sober now and know what to do.
I hailed a taxi and took it to the city hospital. I didn't know whether Jia Liang's body had been brought back by her family. I just instinctively wanted to come to this place to take a look. Not anymore.
Thinking of this, my nose started to pantothenic acid again.When I stood at the door of the hospital, I couldn't hold back the tears that flowed down my face.Many people think that my heart, An Shinian, is made of iron, cold-blooded and ruthless. In fact, I know that I have never had a heart made of iron. My heart is very fragile. The most unbearable thing is to see my dear ones leave suddenly.
The waiting hall of the hospital was full of people, most of them were young people, with panic expressions on their faces. When they saw the doctor, they stopped and asked incoherently: "Doctor, I heard that there is a girl from Jingfeng University. Sudden death, is her name Yang Qi?"
"Doctor, my classmate also went out to surf the Internet last night, and she hasn't come back yet. Let's see if that dead girl is her! She has long hair, is chubby, and her name is Liu Enfei."
"Doctor, where did you put the body? Tell us! Let us see! Everyone is worried! What about our friends?"
……
"Don't make noise, if you want to ask, go to the service desk, we are very busy! There are so many accidents and injuries today, I don't have time to tell you!"
"Son, don't catch me, I'm not in charge of that, I don't know! I just came to work!"
"What the hell happened! What's wrong with these children? Why don't they leave here! They won't be allowed to work!"
……
The entangled doctors were helpless, complaining and struggling in the hands of the group of worried boys and girls.
I stood at the end of the crowd, my legs were weak, and I could no longer walk forward. I sat slumped on the ground, holding my head with my hands.
It's brightening!It's highlighting!The dead person is Jia Liang!Is my friend!
I shouted from the bottom of my heart, I wanted to shout to those anxious students, let them stop worrying, the person who died was neither Yang Qi nor Liu Enfei, but my friend of An Shinian - Jia Liang.
But no sound came out of my throat.
"Isn't this An Shinian? Why is she crying like this?"
"What? An Shinian is here too, why is she crying?"
Someone discovered me and made a sound of surprise, which attracted more people's attention to me.
I didn't hide, just let myself be exposed to everyone's eyes, crying wantonly.
See, An Shinian will be sad, and An Shinian will cry, because An Shinian lost her good friend.
"An Shi Nian! An Shi Nian! Shi Nian!"
Someone yelled my name and ran towards me, and crying bitterly, I was pulled into an embrace mixed with morning dew.
Ji Yu's face was blurred in my sight, but his voice was so clear.
"An Shinian, luckily it's not you! It's fine if it's not you!"
"What the hell! It wasn't me who died, but...it was Jialiang! What the hell!"
I finally roared out in Jiyu's arms. This was the word I managed to squeeze out after several hours of silence.I wanted to break free from that person's arms, but I didn't have the strength.
Then I heard the man say hoarsely, "For me, as long as it's not you."
A boy rushed into the crowd and shouted joyfully to the crowd: "I got it, it was Jia Liang from Jingfeng University who died! Everyone can rest assured! Let's go, let's go!"
"It really highlights! No wonder An Shinian is crying here!"
"Isn't Jia Liang the little yellow-haired girl in the next class?"
"No, it's the one that I didn't learn well from An Shinian and the others."
"It's a pity to die suddenly."
"Let's go! Why bother so much!"
……
"Stop, stop for me!"
I wanted to get up from the ground and stop that group of people, to stop them, to question why they were so happy, why they said such things.
However, I found that I was really useless. Not only did I have no energy to get up, but my voice of shouting was very weak.No one looked back, no one answered me, no one felt sorry.
"An Shinian, don't do this! Let go, let go, don't bite yourself!"
The rain of cum slapped my face non-stop, and my hands squeezed my mouth hard, trying to keep my teeth from biting my lip, but it was useless, I didn't let go, it was so numb from the pain, I no longer knew how to let go.
We haven't done anything harmful, why do everyone spurn us.Bullying others, being cruel and domineering, is because someone bullied us first, and we fought back to protect ourselves.Over time, everyone thinks we are bad children, but never investigates the reason why we have become bad.But so what if she's a bad girl?Does the bad girl deserve it when she dies?Isn't it worthy of sympathy?
Jiyu couldn't make me let go, he suddenly bent his head and blocked my mouth with his own mouth, my brain went blank for a moment, my teeth loosened numbly, and Jiyu's tongue immediately drilled in.
This is the first time cum rain kissed me, and also my first kiss, not romantic at all, but with a mouth full of blood and tears I swallowed.
It's a sad kiss.
05
I ended up not being able to see the bright side again.
On the day I, Yang Fan, and Tang Xiaowan carried Jia Liang’s favorite white daisy to the funeral home to see her off for the last time, it was drizzling, and we were holding flowers in our hands. We didn’t have any spare hands to hold umbrellas. Cool and cold, just like the tears I shed a few days ago.
The four of us used to talk to each other about our families.Jia Liang told us that her mother was a widow, her biological father died of stomach cancer when she was in her third year of junior high school, and her mother remarried a year later to a gas station owner.Her stepfather was fat and big-eared, as if he could bleed oil all over his body, and her mother was a flower in the county after all, just soaked in the oil tank.
Jia Liang's mother and her new husband soon gave birth to a boy.Because they have to manage the gas station business and take care of their youngest son at the same time, they have no time to take care of Jia Liang, so when Jia Liang went to college, it seemed like she had severed ties with her family, and kept hanging out with us, and rarely saw her Mom and Dad came to see her.Jia Liang is the weakest and most timid of the four of us, but also the most thoughtless and funniest.
I still remember the first time I met Jia Liang. At that time, Yang Fan and Tang Xiaowan hadn't mixed with me, and my reputation hadn't been spread so badly.
It was when the university just started, the first day of boarding, Jia Liang had no one to deliver, and he tidied up things by himself.Because of his small size and rough hands and feet, when he went downstairs to turn on the water to wipe the bed, he was knocked down by someone, and some boiling water accidentally spilled on a girl's feet.The girl cried and cursed in pain, and attracted the parents who sent her to school.The middle-aged couple protected their daughter and scolded Jia Liang who was alone for a long time, and finally scooped up a bowl of hot water and poured it on Jia Liang's face.At that time, I was standing on the balcony of the dormitory drying things, and happened to see Jia Liang being bullied.I don't know why I had to wade into that muddy water, but I just felt that Jia Liang held back his tears and didn't cry at that time, which made people feel distressed.
When I rushed down, Jia Liang was blocking the water with his hands, most of the water splashed on her hands, and she screamed in pain.I hurriedly applied cold water to her hand, the boiling water was very hot, and a layer of skin was scalded off Jialiang's left hand, which left a scar. Her left hand is still ugly, with a layer of dead skin pulled together, like Elderly people have a lot of dehydrated skin.And the girl whose feet were splashed with water was wearing sneakers at the time, and the burn was not serious.The girl and her parents were stopped by Yang Fan and Tang Xiaowan who were turning on the water. We all accused them of intentionally hurting others, and finally made a fuss with the principal, but the principal only made them pay money, and Jia Liang's hand just did that. There is no way to restore it except for a new skin graft.
When Jia Liang had an accident, her parents didn't come to see her, they just said on the phone that they were busy with business and her brother was noisy, and asked her to take good care of herself and listen to the doctor's advice to recuperate.From then on, Jia Liang's daily life was almost all taken care of by me, Yang Fan and Tang Xiaowan.The four of us got together like this.Anyone who is bullied, everyone will stand up and help.When people bully us, we will fight back with an eye and never show mercy.Because you are soft, others will only think that you are easy to bully, and they will find trouble with you more and more unscrupulously.Over time, we became the four worst girls in the school. Everyone feared us, hated us, and blamed us, but no one thought about the reason why we became like this.
We came to the funeral home in the rain, and as soon as we got to the door, Jia Liang's mother led a group of people and beat us out.
The flowers in my hands fell to the ground, and the adults stepped on them. The white daisies were dirty from being stepped on. Those flowers must be very painful.
The adults pulled our hair, and Jialiang's mother cried and yelled at us.
"It was you bad girls who brought my daughter down! You killed her! You bad girls, why don't you die? Why is it my daughter who died!"
None of us refuted or fought back, not even Tang Xiaowan, who has always been the most irritable and can't stand wronged, said a word.The three of us were beaten and lying in the rain, looking at the white daisies scattered all over the ground, our faces were wet, and we couldn't tell whether it was rain or tears.
Jia Liang's joyful and mournful voice seemed to be echoing in his ears.
"What flower do you like best? I like daisies more. The flower language of daisies is joy, happiness, purity, childishness, and innocence. What a beautiful word! Just like youth."
With scars all over our bodies, the three of us stood up without saying a word, and looked up at the sky in the rain.
Happy, happy, pure, childish, innocent...
Gain, you did it all.
You who stay at the age of 21, please continue to be happy and happy in heaven!No one can pollute your purity, laugh at your childishness, or denigrate your innocence.
And the three of us lost your most beautiful daisy after all.
06
"Sorry, the phone you dialed has been switched off."
I hung up the phone, put the phone in my pocket, and sat back in my seat.
"The phone didn't get through? The cum rain didn't answer?"
Yang Fan leaned on his seat and asked me, Tang Xiaowan who was on the side snorted coldly and said, "It's your birthday today, he didn't even show his face, so he thinks he's your boyfriend!"
"It's just that the mobile phone is turned off. I guess I'm busy with something. Their class is always full of things. Isn't there extracurricular training or something? Whether it's a birthday or not, just have a meal together and make sense. Jialiang has been gone for almost a month. Well, we haven’t had a gathering during this time, let’s treat it as a gathering for everyone this time!”
Speaking of brightening, my throat was choked and I coughed.Yang Fan and Tang Xiaowan lowered their heads and remained silent without speaking.
I didn't eat at the food stall today. Yang Fan and the others said that it was a birthday anyway, and everyone was looking for a place with an atmosphere, so they chose a well-decorated "Ajisen Ramen Restaurant" in the city center.
In the end, there were only three of us who came, originally there would have been four at worst, but since Jia Liang was gone, we would always be three and one missing.
I was used to the freedom and unrestrainedness at the food stall, but suddenly changed to a quiet place, and everyone was a little restrained.
"Shi Nian, isn't your brother coming too? Today is Sunday, do they still have classes?" Tang Xiaowan handed me the cake-cutting knife when the cake came, and asked with raised eyebrows.
I didn't take the knife, and waved directly at them.
"I asked him yesterday, and he said that there is some competition training today, and he can't come. Anyway, it's just a meal, and it's fine if he doesn't come. I don't care if I don't see it. You can cut which piece you want to eat, and you can eat it yourself. The three of us, cut whatever you want!"
"An Shinian, you've been too good-tempered lately! Your birthday is only once a year. If you don't train sooner or later, you have to wait for this day to train. It's clear that you don't want to celebrate your birthday. You didn't even find that girl Trouble, it's too outrageous for him to treat you like this!" Yang Fan patted the table angrily and said.
She knows that Tong Jianing scolded me on An Zhimo QQ.One day I went to QQ to browse the chat records with An Zhimo and she happened to see it and kept asking me what was going on. I thought it was annoying for her to keep asking, so I told the truth.Yang Fan immediately said that he wanted to trouble Tong Jianing, a little girl, but I stopped him.After Jia Liang's accident, we have rarely caused troubles, and it's not that we are afraid of troubles, it's just that we suddenly feel that the things we did in the past don't make much sense.
"Let's change the place in a while! When you sit here with your legs crossed, there are many people looking at you. It's strange. Neither Ji Yu nor An Zhimo will come. Anyway, it's just the three of us. We should change the big one if we restrain ourselves. The food stalls are better." Tang Xiaowan directly grabbed a piece of cake and stuffed it into her mouth, saying vaguely.
My heart seemed to be stabbed by something sharp, and it hurt a little.I looked at the soft and warm tones and the people at the table who were talking and laughing, took a deep breath, picked up the cake box lid on the side and put it on the untouched chocolate cake, then looked up Looking at the two people with gloomy expressions on the opposite side, they smiled and said, "Let's go! Let's go to the food stall!"
My face was reflected in the glass window beside me, and my smile was very bitter.
"What about the cake? Do you want to take it with you?" Yang Fan asked me while carrying the bag.
"Does anyone want to eat? If you want to eat, take it away!" I answered, lowering my head and taking money in my pocket.
"The three of us don't like sweets. We thought we bought it just to celebrate your birthday, but no one else came. It's chocolate. My family, Mu Bei, doesn't like this flavor. Just your cum rain I love to eat with your brother, otherwise I can pack it back and give it to Mu Bei, so as not to waste it, and I spent money to buy it." Tang Xiaowan glanced at the cake box on the table and read.
"Just throw it here! Everyone doesn't like to eat, so there's no need to force yourself."
After paying the money, the chocolate cake that only moved a bite was thrown on the table. None of us looked back, and went out the door with our bags on our backs.
On the way to the food stall, I passed a gift shop.Yang Fan and Tang Xiaowan suddenly held my hand at the same time, looking at the small shop on the left side of the street.
"An Shinian, what gift do you want? Choose it yourself, no matter how expensive it is, Tang Xiaowan and I will buy it for you today." Yang Fan said to me, while Tang Xiaowan played with her finger painted with red cardamom and pointed at me. I smile.
"What are you doing? Didn't we agree that everyone will not give gifts on birthdays? Last year, everyone didn't give gifts. Why should you give me gifts this year?"
I asked them both puzzled, but Yang Fan turned to look at Tang Xiaowan without speaking.Tang Xiaowan didn't say anything, but pulled me into the exquisitely decorated gift shop without saying a word.
"We didn't give it last year, but your brother An Zhimo gave you a cartoon hair clip. You never want to wear it. You hide it in your wallet, take it out from time to time, and smile at the clip. We all know How happy you are in your heart. I thought you had a boyfriend this year, and it didn’t matter whether we gave gifts or not if Jiyu loved you. But I didn’t expect that Jiyu didn’t come, and even your brother didn’t come. So, we just I hope this small gift can bring you more happiness. Alas, Shi Nian, in fact, if you are not happy, just say it. No one of us will laugh at you. You don’t have to force a smile. Look at your face, that smile How ugly."
Tang Xiaowan turned my face to the mirror in the jewelry area and said, then reached out and pulled a pair of earrings aside and put them next to my ears.
I looked at myself in the mirror, stretched out my hand stiffly to caress the curvature of the corner of my mouth, my dry smile was really ugly.
"Even if you want to make me happy, there's no need to try on earrings for me! I don't have pierced ears, and you still get such expensive ones, change them! Pick me an ordinary headband." I pushed Tang Xiaowan away and took it said the hand with the earring.
Tang Xiaowan gave me a blank look, scolded me, "I don't know what is good and what is bad", and resolutely put the earrings next to my ears to compare them. After feeling that they really didn't fit, she reluctantly put them back on the counter and turned to them. He stood up and went to the side to pick out a headband.
I watched her leaving back, slowly put away my smile, and my eyes fell on the dazzling array of exquisite ornaments.
In the mirror, I was standing in a narrow aisle dressed up in all kinds of strange things in a fat dress, so out of place and a bit dazzling.
Before I could find out the sudden embarrassment and inferiority complex, Yang Fan's scream and Tang Xiaowan's scolding had already attracted all my attention.
Everything I saw afterwards made my heart ache.
I thought, An Shinian was really hurt this time.
07
"An Zhimo, are you doing this to your sister? Your sister said you have some competition training, are you training? No one came to the gift shop for training. What? Forgot to kiss when you have a girlfriend Sister? Accompany your girlfriend so much that you don't even care about your own sister's birthday!"
When Tang Xiaowan's sharp mocking voice reached my ears, my body trembled slightly, and I turned around stiffly, and saw the boy with his head bowed opposite him through the lattice gap of the accessories column.In an instant, my heart seemed to be blocked by something, and it was very uncomfortable.
"Hey! Why are you this girl again? I said how old are you, what kind of high heels are you wearing? I just stepped on my foot, it hurts!" Yang Fan beside Tang Xiaowan stomped his feet and gritted his teeth, holding his head stubbornly in front of him girl shouting angrily.
Seeing that Tong Jianing didn't look sorry at all, Yang Fan became even more angry, and stretched out his hand to pull Tong Jianing's hair.An Zhimo wanted to stop him nervously, but Tang Xiaowan blocked him. No matter how he pushed Tang Xiaowan, Tang Xiaowan refused to let him go.
"Smelly girl! You haven't settled the matter with you on QQ last time! Do you really think it's all right? Didn't we tell you not to be with that kid An Zhimo? You're still pestering me! Why? You won't get rid of the coffin if you don't see it Tears? This time, I will settle the old and new debts with you for Shi Nian! Let's see if you still dare to look at me like this in the future!"
While cursing, Yang Fan squeezed Tong Jianing's cheek with his hands, and knocked her on the head from time to time.An Zhimo, who was blocked by Tang Xiaowan, was like a mad leopard, howling incessantly.The other customers in the gift shop were frightened and hid away. The boss should be a timid master, and he didn't dare to come out to stop Tang Xiaowan and Yang Fan when they were dressed as rogue girls.And I stood alone in another aisle and watched with cold eyes.
An Zhimo struggled under Tang Xiaowan's hands, angrily kicked the shelf between the two aisles, and shouted with a ferocious expression: "Sister, come out! Stop them quickly! Please let them stop beating Tong Jianing !sister!"
I looked at the boy shouting at the top of his voice, and suddenly felt very strange.
Is this the younger brother An Zhimo I watched growing up?Isn't An Zhimo always so cowardly that he doesn't know how to resist?Why did he become so crazy at this time.
"An Shinian, come out! An Shinian, don't you want to hit me? Why don't you hit me yourself! What is it to let others bully me?"
Yang Fan slapped Tong Jianing's face with a crisp sound.Tong Jianing covered his face and cried to me, and then I heard my younger brother An Zhimo's angry roar.
"An Shinian, if you still want my younger brother, tell them to stop and let Tong Jianing go!"
I walked over and stood in front of everyone, my expressionless face was reflected in the mirror on the other side.I didn't tell Yang Fan and the others to stop, but everyone stopped.Yang Fan let go of Tong Jianing, whose face was full of tears, and Tang Xiaowan let go of An Zhimo.An Zhimo glared at us fiercely, and rushed towards Tong Jianing who was squatting on the ground crying loudly. He hugged the girl tightly and wiped her tears with distress.
I suddenly recalled that when I was Tong Jianing's age, I was often beaten for standing out for An Zhimo. At that time, An Zhimo didn't hug me like I do now, except squatting beside me and crying louder than me. The wounded girl comforted softly.
Is the little boy grown up?I have someone I want to protect, so I don't need my sister...
"An Zhimo." I stood aside and said sadly, my voice was a little sour.
"It's you who keeps saying that you don't want my sister! An Zhimo, it's because you don't want to recognize me as a sister, not because I don't want you as a brother! You challenge me for an outsider, I don't care, but When did you learn to lie to me? You can't spend my birthday with me, it's okay. You want to date this girl, that's fine, but why are you lying to me? Why are you lying to me that you want training? What competition training , It’s all bullshit! Ever since I was a child, you said, sister, I’m sorry for you, why did you lie to me?” Suppressing the sour tears in my eyes, I stubbornly looked at the man squatting on the ground holding Tong Jianing who dared not look up. child, asked.
I don't know why I was so excited, I just felt stabbed in the heart by the person closest to me, and the pain made me growl.
An Zhimo lowered his head, wrapped his arms around the girl in his arms even tighter, and retorted angrily: "If I'm not lying, you know I'm with Tong Jianing, so it's no wonder you don't get angry! If you don't hate Tong Jianing, Don't let us be together, why should I lie?"
"Ha!" Hearing An Zhimo's accusation, I couldn't help but sneer, reached out to wipe my eyes, bit my lip and smiled bitterly, "So, it's all my fault that you lied? Let me ask you An Zhimo , What on earth do you want Tong Jianing? What do you like about her? Is she innocent? Is she beautiful? Smart? Your sister, let me tell you, this girl is not innocent at all. Would you like me to show you what she scolded me on your QQ a while ago? She scolded your sister! An Zhimo! Ask yourself, where is your sister and I? Or do you think the same as her, thinking that your sister and I are a bitch? Do you want to be with her? Well, I don’t care now, I don’t care what you like, I don’t care about you! You are about to have an accident, you are wronged, you can find your parents, grandparents or grandparents, just don’t come here Me! I can't stand it!"
No matter how much I wiped my eyes, tears finally flowed out, I said to An Zhimo with red eyes.
Hearing that I was crying, An Zhimo raised his head and looked at me with a surprised expression on his face. He wanted to say something, but in the end he didn't speak.But Tong Jianing in his arms couldn't hold back anymore, covered his face swollen by Yang Fan, pushed An Zhimo away, stood up from the ground, walked in front of me proudly, stared at me and shouted.
"I'm not wrong! You are a bitch! You stole brother Jiyu! Brother Jiyu was originally a couple with my sister! If it weren't for you, my sister would not be alone! But now it seems that you didn't rob Brother Jiyu’s heart, otherwise he wouldn’t have left you to pick up my sister today! Don’t you know? Do you think Brother Jiyu is busy and that’s why he didn’t spend your birthday with you? He’s looking for my sister Yes! An Shinian, how pitiful you are? No one likes you! Listen up! Ji Yu, he is with my sister Tong Ruting now!"
Tong Jianing had just finished speaking, before she had time to smile, she was slapped on the face again, this time it was Tang Xiaowan who did it.
"Why does a pretty girl put on such a disgusting face? Just looking at it makes me want to fight! Shi Nian, let's go, ignore them! They are all wolves in sheep's clothing!"
Tang Xiaowan shook her hand, and stretched out her hand to pull me away as she spoke, but as soon as her hand touched my clothes, I avoided it.
I indifferently took out my mobile phone from my pocket and handed it to Tong Jianing, looked at her coldly and said, "Dial your sister's number, call your sister, and ask her, is your brother Ji Yu still with her now?" ?”
"Shi Nian, what do you want to do?" Everyone was stunned, and Yang Fan was the first to ask me in surprise.
"Why don't you! I just want to figure things out! I'm tired! I don't want to guess!"
I replied coldly, and the phone was directly stuffed into Tong Jianing's stiff hands.
"Hit it! Why don't you dare to hit it? That means you are lying! Is Ji Yu not with your sister?" I looked at Tong Jianing sneeringly.
Tong Jianing wiped away tears, covered her face with one hand and proudly picked up the phone.
"Who says I dare not! I'll let you see how failed you are!"
The phone was quickly connected, and Tong Jianing's voice suddenly became cheerful and soft. It's not hard to imagine how much she likes the person on the other end of the phone.
"Sister, you must be very tired just after being discharged from the hospital! Have you eaten yet?"
"Ah! Mobile phone! I borrowed it from a friend! Hehe!"
"Is brother Jiyu still with you? Can I talk to him? I want to ask if he takes good care of you!"
"Oh, wait a minute? Then tell him to pick it up quickly!"
Tong Jianing winked at me triumphantly while talking, while Yang Fan and Tang Xiaowan stood aside with cold eyes and disgusted faces.Before the two of them could make a move this time, I had already snatched the phone from Tong Jianing's hand and put it to my ear.
My heart beat fast, my breathing became heavy, there was a rustle on the phone, and then a familiar and crisp voice came over with a smile.At this moment, I felt as if my throat was being choked, and I was so uncomfortable that I couldn't speak, almost suffocating.
"Carrian? What do you want to tell me?" The man asked with a smile.
My hand holding the mobile phone began to tremble, and gradually clenched it tightly. My heart was panicked and I wanted to cry, but I felt it was ridiculous.
"Jia Ning?" Ji Yu called out again, with a worried voice.
I took a breath and spoke hoarsely.
"Didn't you see that this is my phone number?"
Ji Yu's breathing became heavy and her voice became flustered.
"An Shinian?" He asked, seeming to be panicking, scared, and worried.
I didn't answer, just hung up the phone directly, stood where I was and took a few deep breaths.
In fact, I really want to ask, Ji Yu, what do you think of me?I, An Shinian, what on earth is this?
But, I can't ask, if I'm hurt, I'm hurt.I am really sad at this moment, and my heart really hurts.I was hurt by two people who cared one after another. I need time to recover, and I don't want to ask any more questions.
I calmly looked at Tong Jianing with a sarcastic expression, and then my younger brother An Zhimo who made me feel strange.
"You've won! You've all won! Go celebrate! Yang Fan, Xiaowan, let's go! Go eat!"
I just escaped from the gift shop in embarrassment under the gaze of everyone.Running like headless chickens all the way, the curses of Yang Fan and Tang Xiaowan were still echoing behind me.
"An Shinian! Why are you running away! You are a coward!"
That's right!An Shinian is very cowardly, such a small matter hurts her heart.
(End of this chapter)
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