I met you in my life

Chapter 19, How many unknowns are you? (2)
"Who! Who told you to go to the bar again! Who told you to abuse yourself like this!" The veins on the father's face suddenly bulged, and the palm that slapped Qiu Subai was trembling with anger, and the mother protected Qiu Subai , did not let him continue to fight cruelly.

"Son, we have heard the whole thing from the police. Thank you, thank you for saving our family Su Bai." The mother looked at Ma Yuan gratefully, took out an envelope stuffed with money from her bag and pushed it to Ma Yuan. In front of him, said: "This, please accept."

"Auntie, I can't take it." Ma Yuan stood up and said, "I should go."

When he got to the door, Ma Yuan turned his head and said to Qiu Subai, "You should have a good rest at home today, and I will ask for leave for you."

"Thank you..." Qiu Subai said softly.

【3】

Qiu Subai was brought home by her parents. She never dared to talk to her father, nor did she dare to look at him. She knew that she really did something wrong this time, which is why she provoked so much anger from her father.

After arriving home, her mother comforted Qiu Subai to go to bed, but she insisted on taking a bath first.Although she was not successfully raped by the man with the scar, Qiu Subai felt that the body touched by them was extremely dirty. She wished to peel off a layer of her skin and return her clean body.

She lay down in the bathtub full of water, covered her body with shower gel, and rubbed every part of her body vigorously.

She understood that this experience had completely disappointed her family who loved her deeply.

Sadness soaked her whole body like bath water up to her neck. She was so sad, so sad, but she couldn't blame anyone.Qiu Weiwei is not wrong, there should be no connection between the two after breaking up, his life has nothing to do with her, so even if he is with Feng Nan, no matter who, it has nothing to do with her up.The sadness she felt was just the evidence that she couldn't let go.

"Starting today, completely forget about Qiu Weiwei!" Qiu Subai said to herself, and she poured a puddle of water on her face to calm herself down.

At this time, the sound of arguments outside the bathroom was not covered by the sound of rushing water.

"How can you beat Su Bai like this!" The woman glared at the absent-minded man sitting on the sofa in puzzlement, and seeing that the man didn't respond, the woman continued: "Su Bai is also our child, as a parent, how can she be treated by her daughter? Hurt, when you need comfort the most, hit her!"

"I slapped her just because I regarded her as my daughter! I slapped her just because I regarded her as important as He Na!" the man said excitedly, "15 years ago, From the day we brought home Su Bai who was not long ago, we have been loving her like this, taking care of her, never hitting her, saying loudly that it is because we dote on her too much, that's why she changed. This is what it is now! Do you know that?"

The woman looked at her husband in a daze, and choked up, "I know... I know that you should be the one who cares more about Su Bai than me... Although Yan Ying is dead, she has always lived in your heart... "

"Enough! Don't talk about Yan Ying anymore! That's all in the past! I just want to raise Su Bai well for her, and make her a good woman like her mother... Unfortunately, hey... I'm sorry for Yan Ying... I'm sorry for her..." Tears flashed in the man's eyes, and he opened them wide, trying not to let the tears flow out.

Woman sobbing and sitting on sofa.

The man turned to face his wife, patted her on the shoulder, rubbed her into his arms, and said, "From now on, don't say anything like this... Su Bai has been our daughter since she entered our Qiu family, We all love her like our own daughter and she will be fine."

Seeing the scene in front of him, Qiu Subai, who had been eavesdropping through the gap in the bathroom door for a long time, had to believe that what he just heard was not a joke, but the truth.

"I... am I really not the daughter of my parents..." Qiu Subai standing at the door of the bathroom was trembling slightly, "...I am not your daughter, I am just a child adopted by you..."

Men and women immersed in grief were so scared that their backs were straightened by Qiu Subai's sudden voice, and the secret that had been concealed for 14 years was exposed without warning.

"Su Bai..." The father and mother in Qiu Su Bai's eyes became very strange, and without listening to any explanation from them, Qiu Su Bai ran back to the room crying, his cold lips trembling uncontrollably.

She lay on the bed, buried her face in the quilt, and wept sadly. She had never longed for it like this moment. She longed for what she had personally experienced, witnessed, and heard for nearly a year. Yes, she didn't cross the boundaries of friends with Qiu Weiwei, she didn't recognize her feelings for Su Yi, she didn't rely on smoking and drinking to numb her nerves, she was still the well-behaved child who didn't have very good grades, Parents love her and protect her...

"If that's the case, they wouldn't say such things...that I'm not their child...Impossible, impossible to say such things! They must hate me so much now, so they said such an angry Words! It must be like this!" Qiu Subai thought so stubbornly, no matter how her parents knocked on the door, she would not open it, she felt that life seemed to have become extremely cruel overnight, her lover betrayed her, and the filth eroded her. she.She only knows how to cry, and she can only cry to make herself fall asleep unconsciously.

In the evening, after Qiu Hena came home from school, her parents wanted to hide everything, because they were worried that Qiu Subai would do something stupid in the room, telling what happened to Qiu Subai last night, and whether she was Qiu Hena She told Qiu Hena all the facts about her own sister, and hoped that Qiu Hena could find a way to get Qiu Subai to come out of the room and have a good talk with them.

Even after hearing these words, Qiu Hena couldn't accept the facts of the sky, but she still obeyed her parents and persuaded Qiu Subai to open the door, but Qiu Subai still wouldn't open, she didn't eat, drink, talk, She didn't show her face, insisted on her "four no's" principle, refused family affection, and refused the truth. She lay in bed for two consecutive days, woke up crying, and fell asleep again after crying dizzily.

On the third day, the parents didn't hear the crying from outside Qiu Subai's door. They were afraid that Qiu Subai might faint from exhaustion in the room, so they asked someone to pry open the door.Sure enough, she passed out from dehydration, and her father drove her to the emergency room of the hospital. After several bottles of salt water, she slowly regained consciousness.

However, after waking up, she remained silent except for eating and drinking. Whenever she saw her family members, she would turn her back and deliberately ignore their existence.While she hurt herself, she also hurt the family who loved her deeply.

【4】

Qiu Subai, who stayed at home without going to school for a week, maintained her indifferent attitude until Ma Yuan and the policeman in charge of their case came to the door, and Qiu Subai, who was always in the room, appeared in front of everyone. She was thinner than before, sitting there silently without saying a word, it was only a few days, but she seemed to be a different person.

She is no longer immersed in the pain of broken love, but for her own life experience that has been buried for nearly 16 years-this is something she can't bear more than love.

"According to the investigation, the criminal suspect this time is involved in multiple cases of rape of underage girls, so he has been detained according to the law and is waiting for the court's judgment. When it is appropriate, if classmate Qiu Subai is needed to testify, please..." The police looked at Qiu Su Bai, her slack eyes seem to have lost focus.

In order not to spoil the atmosphere, Qiu Su Bai's father hurriedly said, "Don't worry, Su Bai will cooperate with the work."

"Su Bai?" Sitting near Qiu Su Bai, Ma Yuan thought she was still immersed in the nightmare of being raped, looked at Qiu Su Bai worriedly, and called her name softly.

Qiu Subai regained his composure, looked at Ma Yuan, and asked as if waking up from a dream, "What's wrong?"

The police enlightened Qiu Subai, saying: "Although this was not a pleasant experience, it was also a profound lesson. For girls, you must pay attention to safety when you go out."

Qiu Subai nodded, looked around everyone sitting in the living room with weak eyes, and said: "Thank you...you."

Outsiders didn't find it strange when they heard these words, but Qiu Subai's family could understand that she was not simply thanking the police and Ma Yuan for what she said, but she seemed to be grateful for her parents' kindness in nurturing her over the years.

"Hehe, okay, then I should go too." The policeman said, picked up the briefcase, stood up, and asked Ma Yuan if he wanted to go with him.

Ma Yuan thought for a while, looked at Qiu Su Bai, and then asked her parents, "Uncle and aunt, can I talk to Su Bai?"

They couldn't find a reason to refuse, and they really hoped that someone could talk to Qiu Subai, thinking that if they could communicate with others, maybe Qiu Subai's knot in his heart during this period would be slowly untied.So, he agreed.

Ma Yuan and Qiu Subai walked slowly in the community, when they passed a small supermarket, Qiu Subai stopped and said, "Have you brought any money?"

Ma Yuan nodded and said, "How much do you need?"

"Ten yuan, ten yuan is enough." Qiu Subai said weakly.

Ma Yuan took out ten yuan from his pocket and handed it to Qiu Subai, saying, "Here."

"Then wait for me at the door."

After finishing speaking, Qiu Subai turned around and walked into the supermarket, and she came out not long after. She quickly opened the cigarette case, took out a cigarette and lit it, put the cigarette in her mouth, took a deep breath, and exhaled a light smoke After walking a few steps, she asked Ma Yuan, "Do you want it?"

Ma Yuan shook his head, smiled awkwardly and said, "Su Bai, you are really different from what I imagined."

"What do you imagine?" Qiu Subai stopped under a tree, pointed to a bench beside him, and said, "Sit down for a while!"

So, the two sat down on the bench, and Ma Yuan continued the topic just now, saying, "Su Bai, you don't look like this kind of girl who can smoke and drink, and none of these seem suitable for you."

Qiu Subai remained silent, and Ma Yuan continued: "Although that kind of thing is terrible, since it has already happened, you must cheer up, don't always be depressed, and start tomorrow... Go back to school, the final exam is coming soon .”

Qiu Subai took a deep breath of the cigarette and said, exhaling the smoke from her mouth, she said: "Ma Yuan, thank you for saving me... But this does not mean that you can make unreasonable comments on what happened to me!"

Ma Yuan looked at Qiu Subai in surprise, although the two of them didn't have any intersection before, he didn't expect her to say these words.

Qiu Subai raised his head, exhaled deeply towards the blue sky, and said slowly like a raving: "You can understand that you have lived in the same family for more than ten years, you are loved and loved by everyone So, suddenly one day, you found out that you have nothing to do with this family at all... How ridiculous is this feeling?"

The corners of Qiu Subai's eyes flashed with tears, and he said with a wry smile: "Compared to this kind of pain... what is love... what is the insult to the body..."

Ma Yuan couldn't understand Qiu Subai's words, so he sat beside her and listened.

Qiu Subai stomped out the unfinished cigarette, and continued to say, "No one will understand... How confused I feel now that I don't know anything about myself, I don't know my biological parents Where is it, I don’t know if they don’t want me, or they are no longer in this world... I am a child that no one wants, maybe it was because I was too pitiful in the eyes of others that I was taken home for adoption..."

There was a trace of helplessness in Qiu Subai's gloomy eyes. Even though her heart was so fragile that it might break at the moment, she still tried her best not to let herself cry so embarrassingly. After experiencing betrayal and almost being raped... , Qiu Subai became stronger instead, but she never imagined that the strength she grew up with would be the first experimental hurdle she had to deal with, which was the secret of her life experience that was about to be revealed.

"...this world is so cruel!" Qiu Subai was trembling, and Ma Yuan gazed tenderly at her face, which was holding back tears, and opened his heart to Qiu Subai with uncontrollable compassion. He took her into his arms, and gently pressed her face on his shoulders. He didn't look at her in embarrassment, but looked straight ahead. He said, "If you want to cry, just cry!"

Qiu Subai straightened up, distanced himself from him, and said in a panic, "Thank you... I'm fine, you... go back, the No. 174 bus at the gate of the community..."

Qiu Subai couldn't help talking about the No. 174 car. The three numbers "174", like the incomparable sharp blade of the memory incarnation, pierced Qiu Subai's chest. She remembered that Qiu Weiwei said that the No. 174 car represented Her birthday—April [-]th, because of this coincidence, their love had a beginning, and because of the opportunities of fate, their love did not stand the test, and then she turned bad, learned She stopped smoking and started drinking again, which almost ruined her innocence... Because of these, her life experience was exposed in the disappointed sighs of her parents.

The more Qiu Subai thought about it, the more sad he became. All kinds of memory fragments that had been closed in his mind during this period were instantly connected together.She wanted to escape, just to avoid such a miserable self.

"Su Bai!"

Ma Yuan wanted to call her to stop, but Qiu Subai had already run away, leaving behind a thin figure, who gradually moved away among the small villas, he withdrew his hand stretched far away, hesitating to speak, "Su Bai!"

But in fact, Qiu Subai was not running in the direction of her home. She ran all the way, ran out of the community, and crossed the pedestrian crossing. Her fair face was covered with sweat. She didn't know that her brain was Thinking of something, he stopped, panted half-bent, put his hands on his knees, and looked up at the apartment building in front of him.

The seventh floor is where Qiu Weiwei lives.

When Qiu Subai was most sad, the person Qiu Subai couldn't help but want to rely on was Qiu Weiwei.

But she no longer had the courage to walk into the door of the apartment. She turned around in frustration, and walked step by step on the busy street. She was accidentally knocked out of the sidewalk by a peddler pushing a cart, and her strange movements were caught by a taxi. The driver misunderstood that she was calling for a taxi and stopped in front of her, but Qiu Subai did not respond.

"Don't get in the car, you're crazy!" the taxi driver said sternly. Qiusu walked along the road expressionlessly, not even knowing the intersection she was at. Zhu Zhu was constantly grieving, but the tears she had endured for too long had already wet her face uncontrollably.

Ever since she was a child, she never felt that she was not a child of her parents. When she was a child, Qiu Hena even cried and said why her parents treated her younger sister better and left her with all good things. Parents will satisfy her.

The more he couldn't find any clues that he was not a child loved by his parents, the more confused Qiu Subai felt.What is in front of her is not the constant flow of vehicles on the road, but the fact that her parents have treated her well since she was a child.

For so many days, she has been hiding at home and dare not face the reality, but the truth is like a time bomb lurking in her heart, if she doesn't touch it, it will be cleared automatically, and the sadness she suppressed detonated at this moment .

Qiu Subai stopped in her tracks, her paper-like dry lips opened and closed, and the noise of the road covered her voice.She stared at the cars passing by, as if waiting for something, but also as if she was about to choose something.

In the sky, which was dyed red by clouds, the sun quietly approached the western horizon.

"It's so beautiful!" Feng Nan took Qiu Weiwei's hand, leaned his head on his broad shoulders intoxicated, and admired the red clouds in the sky. Qiu Weiwei grabbed the bus near the rear door expressionlessly. handrail, and ignored Feng Nan.

Suddenly, the driver slammed on the brakes.The people in the car were frightened by the unexpected brake, and slapped their chests a few times, blaming the driver for driving.Only Feng Nan buried herself in Qiu Weiwei's arms and laughed secretly after the fright came over. She thanked the driver in her heart for braking in time, which shortened the distance between her and Qiu Weiwei.

However, Qiu Weiwei quickly pushed her away and said, "Stand still."

Feng Nan pursed her mouth unhappily.

The driver pushed the window angrily, and yelled at Qiu Subai who was passing by, "You don't have eyes!"

Qiu Subai ignored those angry voices and continued to walk forward.

(End of this chapter)