I met you in my life

Chapter 21 Violence—the most failed expression in love (1)
When love is expressed with punches and kicks,
When trust becomes the mantra between you and me,
Our world is blocked by doubt,
Such love,

Is there any point in continuing?

【1】

The high school entrance examination ended amid the cheers of everyone. When I went to the school to register and saw the list of freshmen, when the word "Qiu Weiwei" came into view, Qiu Subai couldn't imagine that even high school had to be in the same class. When she met Qiu Weiwei on campus, what kind of embarrassment would she feel in her heart.

Everything was really as Ma Yuan imagined, both he and Qiu Subai were admitted to the high school of the school, and Qiu Weiwei was recommended to be admitted to the high school because he was always a math genius who was not given up by the school. Chance.In contrast, Ai Xi was not so lucky. It was as difficult as heaven for her to take the entrance examination for the school headquarters. Her high school entrance examination scores missed the admission scores of ordinary high schools, so she simply applied for the vocational high school entrance examination.

Without Aixi's high school life, Qiu Subai always felt that something was missing.

The first year of high school military training just started, Qiu Subai was put aside to rest because of lack of energy, Ma Yuan saw Qiu Subai sitting there silently, took advantage of the short rest time, ran to her side, trying to tease her happy.However, Qiu Subai didn't smile, even if the joke he said was cold enough, and how funny his facial expression was, Qiu Subai's brows would be furrowed.

"It's all about you... who made me a bad person who is obsessed with sex. After only a few days of school, Aixi stopped contacting me." Qiu Subai said sadly.

Ma Yuan doesn't know enough about the relationship between Qiu Subai and Aixi, and he doesn't understand that girls are naturally emotional. He is used to Qiu Subai who is chattering with Aixi by his side. Qiu Subai, who was training together in the military, not only felt that the scorching sun above her head made her feel out of shape, but the most important thing was that Aixi was in vocational school. When she thought of the teacher who said in the third year of junior high school that high school and vocational school were like In the Chu River and Han Realm, no matter which side you are on, you will eventually lose contact with the people on the other side.

When Qiu Subai thought that he and Ai Xi might be people from two worlds in the future, he felt so sad that he would die.She once complained to Ma Yuan that if she ignored him, she would be able to apply for a high school that was closer to Aixi's, so that they could at least see each other as often as before, but after hearing this, Ma Yuan , so he scolded Qiu Subai and told her to stop saying these useless words, he was also doing it for her own good.

Qiu Subai felt that this love made her feel more and more tired, and she listlessly turned her head to the other side, deliberately not looking at Ma Yuan's face.

"What did you just say? Is it important for Essie or me! I'm your boyfriend! You're always thinking about what she does! It doesn't matter if anyone else, you and me! Everyone in the world is dead It doesn't matter if it's all gone, as long as there is me, what are you afraid of!"

"Crazy." Qiu Subai didn't want to hear Ma Yuan say these strange words again, she couldn't understand why only the two of them were always considered in Ma Yuan's world, as if the existence of others was superfluous.After falling in love with Ma Yuan, she felt more and more that her freedom was shrinking. She couldn't remember the last time she went shopping with Aixi.

Seeing Qiu Subai like this, Ma Yuan felt an inexplicable flame rising in his heart, so he finally couldn't hide his bad temper again and broke out.

Regardless of the instructor's "stop rest" command, Ma Yuan roughly took Qiu Subai's hand and pulled it into the health room where no one was there.

"Let me go! I feel bad! It's so bad!" Qiu Subai resisted and wanted to break free from Ma Yuan's hand, but she didn't have enough strength to fight Ma Yuan. beside the bed.

Miao Huo seemed to be on Ma Yuan's brow, he stared at Qiu Subai, and said angrily: "Didn't you see that I was trying to tell you a joke just now, trying to make you happy? Why are you still posing Show me the expression of the deputy dead man, what exactly do you want?"

Qiu Subai looked at Ma Yuan in a daze, and said to him in a ridiculous tone: "What do I want? Shouldn't I be the one to ask you this? Why do I laugh at the jokes you tell me?" , I’m not happy! I’m in a bad mood! I don’t want to laugh! Don’t I even have the right to express my emotions?”

Ma Yuan was going mad at Qiu Subai's words, he grabbed her collar with his strong hand, and the excessive force made Qiu Subai a little difficult to breathe, Qiu Subai said palely: "Ma Yuan! You What do you want to do! Let me go! Are you crazy!"

For a moment, Ma Yuan seemed to be a different person. There was a huge contrast between the past and the present.This contrast made Qiu Subai almost unbearable, and she kicked Ma Yuan hard.

Ma Yuan twisted her collar, grasping it tighter and tighter like crazy, Qiu Subai was made to breathe more and more quickly by him, she felt a huge stone on her chest that made her almost breathless , She wanted to expel those pressures from her body in one go, so she vomited hard, and all the breakfast that the general had eaten before the exercise was vomited out, and she vomited on Ma Yuan's hand.

He quickly withdrew his hand, the vomit seemed to wake up his almost lost self, he looked at Qiu Su Bai with a painful face in panic, patted her on the back with concern, and said, "Su Bai, what are you doing?" gone?"

Seeing that Qiu Subai vomited and almost fell to the ground, Ma Yuan hastily laid Qiu Subai flat on the bed, and then quickly ran out of the health room to find the health worker who was taking care of the heatstroke student in the training ground. She pulls back to check on Qiu Subai's condition.

As a result, it was a false alarm, and Qiu Subai was diagnosed by the health worker as having severe heatstroke. She was quickly sent to the 120 parked in the school and taken to the hospital for infusion.Ma Yuan also followed. He stood by Qiu Subai's hospital bed, blaming himself and suffering in his heart. He held Qiu Subai's hand tightly and shed tears of repentance.

"Su Bai...I'm sorry...I shouldn't have treated you like that...You are obviously uncomfortable, but I treated you like that..."

Qiu Subai, who had regained some consciousness, heard Ma Yuan's apology, withdrew his hand, turned his head to the other side of the hospital bed, suppressed the pain in his heart, and said, "Go! I don't want to see your turn!"

Ma Yuan hugged Qiu Su Bai's curled body tightly, and said: "Su Bai, I know you are very angry, and I also know that I did something wrong again. I didn't worry about the relationship between you and Ai Xi. I should compare Anyone know what a friend Essie means to you... I'm sorry I made you feel bad again, I'm damned..."

Qiu Subai struggled to break away from Ma Yuan's hand, hid in the corner of the bed, hugged her knees, sobbed softly without saying a word.

Seeing Qiu Subai's resistance, Ma Yuan was so sad that he didn't know what to do. He looked desperately at Su Bai's indifferent appearance, and suddenly, he knelt down in front of her and said, "Su Bai, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Wrong...sorry..."

Qiu Subai raised his head and looked at Ma Yuan in surprise, tears streaming down Ma Yuan's face uncontrollably.

"Hey! Get up! Get up!" Qiu Subai shouted at Ma Yuan.

"Su Bai, then forgive me, forgive me, okay..."

"You stand up for me first!"

"I don't want it!" Ma Yuan lowered his head stubbornly and said, "Unless you forgive me!"

"Ma Yuan! Are you crazy! Get up!" Qiu Subai went to pull Ma Yuan's thick arm, but he couldn't pull him. Ma Yuan roared, "I love you! I love you, why not!"

Qiu Subai was stunned by Ma Yuan's voice, and the hand holding his sleeve stopped.

Except for Qiu Weiwei, she never said the words "I love you" to anyone else... Back then, she never thought that besides Qiu Weiwei, there would be other people in this world who could be with her. She is in love.

"Woooooo..." Qiu Subai sobbed, unable to speak.Although she couldn't tell who she shed tears for at this moment, she felt a pain in her chest, and the past came to her mind. Every detail of the love she had with Qiu Weiwei was so profound, and she had experienced many things in her life with him. the first time.

The first time to kiss, the first time to feel the importance of oneself, the first time to be needed by someone, the first time to have sex, the first time to want to be in love forever...

"Forgive me! Su Bai! I beg you not to cry anymore! Don't be sad anymore, okay!" Ma Yuan, who really existed in Qiu Su Bai's hazy tearful eyes, stretched out his hand and held her trembling hand tightly. arms.

Qiu Subai closed her eyes silently, and once again compromised to herself, she nodded, her face was also wet with tears.She didn't know what Ma Yuan would beat her for next time, and she didn't know what reason she would use to get her forgiveness, and she didn't know why she herself had to compromise in this gradually distorted love, but, see Seeing Ma Yuan's sad appearance, the anger accumulated in her heart is always so easily moved by the sincere tears flowing from his eyes.

She would blame herself why she couldn't focus all her attention on Ma Yuan like Qiu Weiwei did.She will also review herself, since to Ma Yuan, she is more important than anything else, so there is nothing she can't sacrifice.

"Thank you... Su Bai!" Ma Yuan hugged her body tightly and kissed the tears on her face.It was not until today that Ma Yuan kissed Qiu Subai for the first time. Even from the beginning to the end, she was just like a robot at the mercy of others.

【2】

Not long after that day, after the military training ended, Qiu Subai met Aixi.

Ai Xi asks Qiu Subai to go shopping. In Qiu Subai's eyes, Ai Xi is still so beautiful and special. She wears heavy makeup and is very conspicuous in the crowd.

The two still like to go shopping as before, buying cute trinkets, and lingering in front of beautiful clothes stores, imagining how big their eyes will be when they stand in front of their boyfriends after wearing them, and how much they will praise them. What an exaggeration.The two found each other's imaginary faces and burst out laughing.

The intimacy remained the same, and Qiu Subai realized that she was too sensitive, and the relationship between her and Ai Xi was not that bad at all.Therefore, after Qiu Subai went back to see Ma Yuan, she no longer sulked at him, and treated him much better than before. The two of them gradually smelled the happiness of love in their unstressed freshman life.

However, the good times don't last long. On the day when Ma Yuan was too busy with the inter-school competition between the basketball teams and had no time to send Qiu Subai home, their love faced another severe test...

After starting dating with Ma Yuan, Qiu Subai has never tried to go home alone, but when she heard the news that Ma Yuan was going to participate in training, she was not unhappy at all. Instead, she encouraged Ma Yuan to practice hard and naughtily gave gave Ma Yuan a cheering kiss and said, "I will always support you!"

"Is it really okay for you to go home alone?" Ma Yuan looked worriedly at Qiu Subai's bright smiling face, thinking that it was a smile she had faked to keep him from worrying.

"It's really fine, you go to the training, otherwise everyone will wait for you." Qiu Subai and Ma Yuan waved their hands, half pushed Ma Yuan into the school gate, walked backwards to the school gate, smiled at Ma Yuan who was still worried , Said: "See you tomorrow, come on!"

"Well, goodbye." Ma Yuan stopped on the spot and waved to Qiu Subai.Then, he was dragged to the basketball court by his teammates.

After Qiu Subai stepped out of the school gate, he immediately felt relaxed, and turned around half a circle in a childish manner, thinking, it's great, today I don't have to be supervised by Ma Yuan, and I can play with Ai Xi.

However, on the way to the station, she unexpectedly saw Qiu Weiwei and Feng Nan.The smile on Qiu Subai's face froze immediately, she tried her best to pull out a smile, and said to Feng Nan, "Long time no see."

Feng Nan originally wanted to take the entrance examination of the school, but her grades were not stable, and she did not perform exceptionally well in the senior high school entrance examination, so she could only go to another relatively average high school.Qiu Su Bai originally thought that Feng Nan and Qiu Weiwei would break up after they entered high school, but unexpectedly they were still together, she felt an inexplicable disappointment in her heart.

"Heh... why didn't anyone take you home today?" Feng Nan still couldn't get rid of her hostility towards Qiu Subai. She looked at Qiu Subai unfriendlyly, no matter the answer or the expression on her face, she was telling Qiusu Bai: It's not been a long time since we met, but you didn't notice it, but I saw that you made a boyfriend and sent you home every day.

Qiu Subai didn't want to answer, and she didn't dare to look at Qiu Weiwei's face. She really regretted that she didn't avoid them just now. She held her breath, deliberately avoided Feng Nan's question, and said, "I'll go first."

After all, Qiu Subai deliberately quickened his pace, left here one step ahead of them, and walked around the alley.

However, before she arrived at the station, a group of menacing-looking people suddenly appeared on the way and stopped Qiu Subai. At first she thought they were blackmailing social youths, but a girl walked out from behind them. Someone in the middle asked the girl, "Is that her?"

"Well, she is Essie's friend." The girl said with certainty.

Qiu Subai suddenly realized that this group of people came not because of the little money in her wallet, but because of Aixi. She insisted on walking through them and shouted at them: "Get out of the way!"

(End of this chapter)