Marriage Beloved in Troubled Times: Madam Wants to Run Away from Marriage

Chapter 117 Is That... Love?
Gu Wan lowered her eyelids, subconsciously avoiding Huo Xizhou's bright eyes that seemed to be able to reflect the shadow in her heart.

What Huo Xizhou said is correct. This man has always been thoughtful. She thought she had done enough, but she didn't expect him to find out so soon.

Yes, from the moment she was reborn, she began to act in front of him, but until now, will this play continue?
What was he thinking about her?

Her liking is not real, what about his liking?is that true?
"Wanwan, what are you thinking?" Huo Xizhou asked: "Are you thinking about continuing to act in front of me? Or re-determining your feelings for me?"

Gu Wan's body trembled uncontrollably.

He guessed right.

But his tone was calm, and he still called her Wanwan, just... he didn't mean to be too angry, did he?

Gritting her teeth, she confessed: "Yes, my liking for you was not true at first. When I first saw you, I felt not joy but fear for you. I was so afraid that I wanted to avoid you immediately. But I know who you are, what kind of person you will become, the key is-know that I will come to you no matter what, and become your woman, and you are my only safe haven, so I suppressed my heart The panic and fear, acting in front of you. Said that I have admired you since I was a child."

"Is this taking advantage of me?" Huo Xizhou stepped back a little, distanced himself from Gu Wan, and looked at Gu Wan calmly, without any emotion on his face.

But because of this little distance, Gu Wan's heart suddenly became empty and her body froze.

"I... I didn't (want to use you)... Yes, I used you as my backer." Gu Wan said, "No matter what it is for, it's because I just started getting close to you." The purpose is indeed not simple, I admit, what do you want."

"You said you were afraid of me, but you were so afraid of me, why did you have to choose me?" Huo Xizhou asked, "Obviously, if all your experiences are true, then the former you would eat with me." I have suffered so much, I can't even protect my own wife and children, I must be a useless man, so why do you still have to choose me?"

"Because I only care about you." Gu Wan said, "I only care about things and people related to you."

"Caring?" Huo Xizhou didn't quite understand what kind of emotion it was. She cared about him, but didn't really like him?

What a contradiction.

"I care about you because you treated me badly in some ways before, but you were the only one who was willing to protect me. Moreover, I didn't treat you very well..." Gu Wan's voice weakened at this point : "I was not... not your wife, I was just a woman you rescued by accident, and I was your... concubine."

Huo Xizhou froze for a moment, then said with certainty: "This is impossible!"

"I, Huo Xizhou, will never want a woman I don't care about. If I care about it, I will never let her be a concubine!"

His choice has always been either not to choose, if he chooses, he will never regret it!
In addition, since he was a child, he hated the open and secret fights in the family, and hated why he had several aunts besides his mother, so he made up his mind early on that he would only marry one wife and never provoke any aunts.

"Is that so?" Gu Wan was also a little shocked.

So, even in his last life, he wanted to marry her and let her be his concubine, just because he knew that her heart was for Meng Shuheng. Was he angry with her? ——It can only be explained in this way, otherwise, why she has been with him for many years, but he has never married a wife, except... being intimate with An Ruyi.

But even though An Ruyi was so liked by everyone in the Huo Mansion, she didn't become the eldest wife who weighed on her head.

Until his death, Huo Xizhou did not marry a regular wife.

Was it because she was his wife in his heart from the very beginning?
Thinking of this, Gu Wan's eyes suddenly turned red. As a concubine, she has suffered so much, but it turned out that she didn't see clearly the deep love of this man...

The woman suddenly burst into tears, which panicked Huo Xizhou who wanted to ask a few more questions. He admitted that he had fallen on this woman, and always wanted to seize every opportunity he could to get to know her better. But if it made her sad.

He stretched out his hand unnaturally, and touched Gu Wan's face: "You... I won't ask any more, stop crying."

"I didn't cry!" Gu Wan raised her eyes to look at him, but found that her eyes were blurred, and only his vague outline and his frowning seemed so unreal. The distance made her feel so uneasy.

She suddenly stretched out her hand, hugged his medicine tightly, and buried her face in his arms.

"I think, I must have been the silliest and stupidest woman in the world before, and you must also be the silliest and most stupid man in the world!"

Horsey State: ...

How did he become so stupid?

But he still put his hands on her back and wrapped her in his arms.

"I remember..." Gu Wan choked up and said, "You were drunk once, you whipped me with the belt on your uniform, called me blind, called me stupid, despised me for being ugly, despised me for being dirty, and said you were really crazy Only then would I fall in love with a woman like me, I thought you were crazy, I ran desperately, trying to avoid you, the faster I ran, the harder you beat me, and when the beating was over, you dragged me to the bed ..."

This was the most frightening time for Gu Wan in her previous life.

In fact, although Huo Xizhou was a tyrant when facing the incident at night, he never tortured her physically, and never actually beat her. That was the only time.

He took her off the bed, strangled her neck, made her unable to breathe, pressed her wounds, made her remember what pain is, and warned him coldly, must remember clearly, who is her man, You must see clearly what the real devil in this world looks like...

At that moment, she really felt that the devil was just like him, and there was a sharp hatred in her heart.

Even so, when she woke up again, she found that all the injured parts had been smeared with ointment.

Until, a few months later, the traces of her skin that had recovered a long time ago were gone. When Huo Xizhou came back from the outside, when she was forced to bathe him, she found out where she had been injured. He has the same scars on his body.

It must not be drawn with a belt, the belt can only pull out a little bruise and a layer of blood, but his body is full of scratches, as if scratched with a sharp knife, even if it is healed, it will form a scar. Can't get rid of it either.

That night, he knew she was pregnant, and he never touched her until the baby was born.

She also met him before, but later she was imprisoned in the dungeon by Meng Shuheng and Gu Yuting, but Gu Yuting said with jealousy that in fact, every time she and Meng Shuheng met during that time, Huo Xizhou watched from a place not far away. The more I don't understand, why did he indulge her even though he was watching?
Now, she lived a new life, and approached him with a trembling heart, and her heart ached so badly—so, is that... love?
(End of this chapter)