uncle don't kiss me

Chapter 160 Love Him Forever 1
At any time, he always controlled his emotions mechanically.

"I'm going back." Cheng Younan looked at me and Lixi.

At this moment, he is more like an outsider between me and Li Xi, after all, from his standpoint, it is impossible for him to say: "Thank you for sending Luo Luo back so late." Something like that.But Lixi and I look more like a family.

Looking at his back, thinking of what he said today, I always feel so sad.

I adjusted my mentality, changed my expression, smiled and looked at Li Xi beside me, "Why did you come here suddenly?"

At this time, I should not feel sad because of the departure of my old lover, on the contrary, I should be a woman who is happy to see her fiance suddenly appear.

He looked in the direction Cheng Younan left just now, "Have you seen enough? Do you want to see again?"

Although the tone was joking, there was no smile in his eyes.

So, when he opened the door, he should have seen me hugging Cheng Younan.

I looked down at him anxiously, "I'm sorry Lixi, I just..."

"Just what?" He asked indifferently, let go of my arm, and walked into the house without waiting for my answer.I followed him into the living room, and found that the cake I just bought was still on the table in the living room—he came here specially to help me celebrate my birthday, right?

I was silent, and suddenly felt that after he saw such a scene, the explanation I gave would look ridiculous.

He walked into the living room, turned his back and didn't look into my eyes, and asked in a cold voice, "Actually, you really want to go back to Younan, don't you?"

My heart froze for a moment, I looked at him uneasily, then moved to the sofa next to him, carefully opened the box containing the cake, "Thank you for coming here for me."

"Really?" He chuckled, "but I can't see that you are happy. Maybe, for you, you should blame me for interrupting the intimacy between you and him. Tell me you I came here to forget him, but it turned out that it was to be with him better, right?"

"I haven't." I can understand his anger, but I'm not used to Lixi who has never said harsh words to me before.

"What's that like?" He looked at me, with anger and pain intertwined in his eyes, "You can't forget him, it's not that you love him too much, it's that you never thought of forgetting him at all, right? No matter how much you have done, no matter how sorry or hurt you, as long as he says a word, you want to give up on me and go back to him, is that so? I have always been a backup between you and him, no matter how much I do, Nothing can change his position in your heart. I came here from BJ to help you celebrate your birthday just to see you with him!"

I listened to his accusations, and my heart ached uncontrollably, but I still wanted to explain clearly to him, "I didn't know he would come here, but I just happened to meet him, so..."

"So, the two of you spent the night together and only come back now?" He looked at me, his sharp eyes mixed with sarcasm.

I bit my lip, not daring to look into his eyes, "I said, I wanted to say goodbye to my past, I went out with him, but that was just to make it clear, now, I have nothing to do with him It matters."

"No relationship at all?" He stood up and looked down at me, "So reluctantly hugging each other, you told me that you have nothing to do with me? Are you regretting and heartbroken for choosing to be with me now? Are you Don't you think that I prevented you from being happy with him?"

The aggressive words made me anxious, and I looked at him helplessly, "How do you want me to explain it? I have already said that the relationship between me and him is over. Who am I trying so hard to forget him for? No, or for Are you? The Lixi I know is not so narrow-minded, what happened to you today?"

The first time I saw him like this, I really didn't know how to face him.Where are his gentleness and tolerance?
After hearing what I said, he just smiled indifferently, "Do I need to quit silently like before, and continue to fulfill the happiness between you? Is that the only way you want to see Lixi? I ​​want forever Stand between you and him like a saint, and fulfill you one after another!"

"Yes! I love him to death. Did you know it until today? Why have you been able to bear it so many times, but today it's like taking the wrong medicine?"

He froze for a moment, looked at the things on the table, and smiled wryly, "Yes, I took the wrong medicine. You will think that I am a good person only if I let you go back to him. But after all these years, I have been enough. Good man, I chose to quit to make you happy, but are you happy? I really have had enough of this repeated fulfillment, this time, even if you hate me, I will not let go again. "

He spoke very firmly, I never thought that one day the Lixi I knew would say such a thing.

Every time I want to be with Cheng Younan, he always chooses to fulfill or quit.

Maybe what happened today made him too angry?
After he went upstairs angrily, I sat alone on the sofa, looked at the flowers and cakes he bought, and remembered that he ran all the way here, but I let him see me with Cheng Younan.Coupled with the fact that I said that when I was excited just now, I always feel that I am sorry for him.

Walking upstairs with guilt, the entire second floor was quiet. Although the house would be cleaned regularly, because no one lived here for a long time, the whole floor was shrouded in a deserted feeling.

Lixi was not in the room, when I found him he was on the top floor, the wind was blowing kissing his hair and scarf, he was standing there, indifferent and isolated.

I walked up to him, lowered my head, not daring to look into his eyes, "I'm sorry."

This is what I owe him, seven years have passed, and I have always owed him this sentence.

He raised his hand and gently placed it on my head, "It's because I'm too out of control. Lolo, if you love him, go with him! I...it's okay."

He hesitated obviously, but was forcing himself to make a decision.How does this look like it doesn't matter?
He has always been used to hiding his pain, just like his reaction when he stood in front of Luoluo when she got married, even if he was sad to death, he didn't want her to feel sorry for him.And the ones downstairs just now are his sincere words.

I looked into his eyes, my heart sank, and I thought of Cheng Younan who had just left, so I said to him: "Since you want to let me go, then I will go. Goodbye!"

After finishing speaking, I reluctantly let go of his hand, turned around and wanted to leave.

"Luo Luo." His hand was grabbed by him. He probably didn't expect that I would leave just like that. He raised his eyebrows and looked a little disappointed, "Are you really going?"

"Didn't you let me go?" I turned around and raised my eyebrows at him, tears were about to fall from my bright eyes.

You know he is reluctant, right?How dare you try your best!

He grabbed my hand and pulled me into his arms domineeringly, "No, I regret it. If I can, I hope to keep you by my side and never let you go for the rest of my life."

It's rare to hear Li Xi say such words, I broke free from his arms and looked into his eyes, "Will you be too greedy for the rest of your life?"

He lowered his eyelids, thick eyelashes blocked his eyes, "In your heart, am I really worse than Younan?"

"I said you are worse than him?" I looked at him in disbelief, "No? Lixi, you are very good, really, you are much, much better than Cheng Younan." If he was not like this Well, I won't be so entangled.

"That means men are not bad and women don't love?" He looked at me curiously.

I avoided his eyes in shame, "I don't know either."

If before I fell in love with Cheng Younan, I knew that the person he liked was me instead of Luoluo, then I would definitely fall in love with him, the deep, deep kind, but sometimes in love, a step late is equivalent to a lifetime late .

"So you still love him?" He forced me to look into his eyes.

Only then did I realize my slip of the tongue just now, and quickly explained, "Lixi, I'm done with him, trust me, okay?"

"But I'm afraid you won't be happy with me." He looked at me and said lightly.

I shook my head, "We are going to get married, I am really happy to be with you, really. Lixi, I will engrave everything you have done for me in my heart. When I was most helpless, Who is by my side? It's you. When I was sad about Lin Qiao, you were the one who came to me by my side. Do you remember that time? When Yan Jia came back, Lin Qiao left with her, and I will give you It was you who brought me back on the phone. It was here that you said a lot to me. From Lin Qiao to Cheng Younan, you have always been thinking about my happiness! You have done so many things for me, I'm not a hard-hearted person."

I love him, but this love is more touching than passionate. He is so good, a perfect existence like a god, so sometimes I want to talk to him harshly, quarrel, or act like a baby because I am afraid of offending myself. over him.

But with Cheng Younan, from the very beginning, he was used to the feeling of playing around and despising him from time to time.

It's just that there are no absolutes in this world.Being with Lixi won't quarrel, but it's not necessarily a bad thing, Cheng Younan is so playful and so sentimental, who knows what he will become after a long time?Maybe at that time there were only endless quarrels, what's the point of life?
So being with Lixi is the best choice, at least he is considerate and considers others in everything, this is really much better than Cheng Younan.

At this time, I really wanted to be with Lixi wholeheartedly, so I found so many reasons and so many excuses for myself,

I love Cheng Younan, but I am no longer the one who fell in love with Lin Qiao in the early morning. I will not foolishly think that love is the whole world. After walking so many roads and seeing so many people and things, I gradually understand that love and Marriage cannot be generalized.

During those days, I kept telling myself that I was constantly looking for reasons for myself—to find someone to spend my whole life with Li Xi, to find some reasons to forget Cheng Younan.

(End of this chapter)