Marriage is too late

Chapter 74

Ji Jin suddenly understood why Lin Xuxing always treated Xie Yingying so coldly, and why he treated his father even more decisively.

Because I had expected so much, I was so disappointed.

"You mean, the father-in-law has been with the stepmother?" Ji Jin even found this question very difficult.

Lin Xuxing nodded: "Yes, during the period of my parents' marriage, Aunt Xie and my father..." He paused, it seemed that it was still difficult for him to talk about this relationship even today.

Ji Jin nodded and just patted his hand to show that she understood.Lin Xuxing smiled at her, covering up the emotional fluctuation deep in his eyes.Years of independent life and responsibilities alone, he has already learned to suppress and restrain his emotions, and only show the appearance that the outside world needs him to present in front of everyone.But in front of Ji Jin, he knew that he didn't need to pretend.

Ji Jin wrapped his hands around his neck and kissed his cheek.She hugged him tightly, as if it could convey some warmth and strength.

Lin Xuxing rubbed her forehead: "It's all over, time is the best healer. For the little boy Lin Xuxing, he lost his mother, and his father soon had a new family. It seemed very miserable. In fact, it is precisely because of this that I have such a close relationship with my grandparents."

Listening to his gentle and gentle voice, Ji Jin no longer felt any pain or tension. He knew that Lin Xuxing had a tough heart and would not be easily overwhelmed by the past, so he was slightly relieved, and said in response: "I guess it's the same, the relationship between you and grandpa There is a special tacit understanding. Grandpa talked to me several times, in fact, because he loves you deeply."

Lin Xuxing smiled, his attachment to his grandparents was not unreasonable.

At that time, Xie Yingying had just started, and Lin Ren in her arms had only been in trouble for a few months. Lin Yiran got rid of his sick wife for many years.The lonely Lin Xuxing is already in elementary school.

Unfortunately, that year was an eventful year for the Lin family. Lin Xuxing's mother died and his father remarried; The Lin family; the little uncle was playing with a motorcycle, and had a minor car accident on the mountain road. The entire Lin family has been slowly wasting time on various things.So busy that no one has the energy to pay attention to a little Lin Xuxing.

"That's a huge gap." Lin Xuxing explained, "Because I had a sick mother, everyone felt sorry for me and cared for me more. But after that, my father paid more attention to Lin Ren, That baby who is younger and needs more care." Ji Jin deeply understands the feeling of being robbed of all attention overnight, and she was the same in the year her brother was born, a beautiful baby robbed everyone's love .

Lin Xuxing has always been a worry-free child. The teenager who lost his mother maintained restrained grief and loss, and was surprisingly silent in the days when the whole family was busy.

"Until something happened to me." Lin Xuxing lowered his eyelids.

That day was a very normal weekend afternoon, Lin Xuxing was doing his homework in the room, his door was pushed open, and Lin Ren stumbled in, the young Lin Ren was still walking unsteadily, giggling, holding his little hands straight He rushed towards Lin Xuxing with a cheerful and lively smile, and Lin Xuxing froze on the spot.

"He didn't walk steadily and fell down." Lin Xuxing shook his head, with a gentle look on his face.

Lin Ren, who didn't get the expected hug from his brother, lay on the wooden floor and cried so loudly.Lin Xuxing could only jump off his chair in a hurry, trying to pick up this meaty little brother.

"Lin Ren was a fat boy when he was a child, full of flesh and chubby." Lin Xuxing recalled, "He woke up from a nap that day, and Aunt Xie was too tired to accompany him, so he fell asleep and didn't notice it. Lin Ren climbed out of bed and came to find him. Me." As a result, no matter how hard Lin Xuxing tried, he couldn't pick up Lin Ren, so he could only call Xie Yingying for help at the stairs, but Xie Yingying, who didn't know what to do, was awakened by her son's crying and stepson's call, thinking that Lin Xuxing was bullying her. Lin Ren.

When Xie Yingying was in a hurry to hug her son Lin Ren, she accidentally knocked Lin Xuxing down by the stairs. Lin Xuxing pushed his hair back and showed her, "Look, here is the scar." Indelible trauma.

"She told everyone that it was an accident." Lin Xuxing looked very cold, "Although I am not ten years old, I am not stupid. I told my father and grandpa about this, and my father accused me of lying."

Ji Jin stroked Lin Xuxing's hair distressedly. For a young child, this meant accusation, betrayal and endless harm.

In the end, Mr. Lin's son, Lin Ju'an, personally made the arrangements. On the grounds that Lin Ren was still young and needed to be taken care of by his parents, and that Lin Xuxing happened to be placed under their old couple's knees to have fun, Lin Juan and his wife were fully responsible for Lin Xuxing's daily life.When Lin Xuxing needed care and care the most, his grandparents took him into their wings.

Grandma was knowledgeable, kind and gentle, and tried her best to teach him. Grandpa was serious and difficult to get close to, but in front of Lin Xuxing, he was always the elder with a smile on his face.

"Speaking of which, when I was a child, I was a very caring child." Lin Xuxing smiled, "At the beginning, it was because my mother was sick, and people in the family inevitably paid more attention to me. The child should be precocious, knowing what to do and what not to do, and when I was compared with Lin Ren, the demon king of the world, everyone preferred me even more."

Ji Jin can almost imagine that Lin Xuxing, who has been handsome since he was a child, joked softly with him: "I think you rely entirely on your appearance. I have seen the photos that Aunt Chen found for me. Your eyes are round, two big Double eyelids, so cute. Aunt Chen said that even servants should treat you with compassion, you are obedient and sensible, a heart-warming little angel in the servant world."

Lin Xuxing was taken aback for a moment, then smiled: "It's also a possibility. You know, attention is a good thing, it can get me almost everything I want, but it's also a double-edged sword. Looking back now, Lin Ren has changed Being so extreme may have something to do with how much my family pays attention to me."

Lin Xuxing's childhood may not have been perfect, but it was still happy.The incomplete love with the father is made up for with the grandparents.Although it cannot be replaced, it is better than nothing. He has always known how to be content.

"At that time, my father often traveled on business. Every time he came back from overseas, he would bring back all kinds of toys and snacks. On the surface, it seemed that Lin Ren and I had the same things. In fact, if you look closely, those things are only suitable for children. Lin Ren." Lin Xuxing smiled wryly, "I don't think any boy who has entered junior high school will need crayons anymore, you understand."

Ji Jin nodded, she understood.Maybe it's not that Lin Yiran doesn't love Lin Xuxing, the eldest son, but because of his long-term indifference to Lin Ren, the youngest son who grew up beside him, gets his attention even more.

"Actually, I don't care. When I'm used to being disappointed for a long time, I won't have expectations for my father anymore." Lin Xuxing nodded. He even watched his father and him all the way, and the relationship gradually became indifferent. The person who paid attention to him was his mother, and later his grandparents. His father missed his childhood in meetings and entertainment, hurt his childhood in company and alienation, and finally, in indifference and neglect, he could no longer participate in his adulthood. .

"But I don't care. It doesn't mean that the people who love me don't care." Lin Xuxing felt helpless, "Whether it's grandpa, grandma, aunt, or even uncle and uncle, they have some preferences and tendencies towards me. Especially grandpa , I can't see that I am wronged, every time the presents brought to me are always bigger and more suitable for me, and Lin Ren is like a little follower, wanting to play behind my ass.

I remember once, my little uncle brought me a pair of roller skates from abroad. Lin Ren was only five years old, and he cried for it. The shoes needed to be customized a week in advance, and my English name was on them. Lin Ren was only five years old, so I must To be exactly the same, Aunt Xie took Lin Renfei directly to buy those shoes that day. "Lin Xuxing rubbed his temples. This kind of thing happened repeatedly during the long years of growing up with Lin Ren, so much that he felt tired of it.

"It sounds like Aunt Xie dotes on Lin Ren very much?" Ji Jin tried to express his judgment.

"Doting? I think the weight of this word is a bit light." Lin Xuxing smiled bitterly, "That is an unprincipled obsession. That's why Lin Ren became the little devil in the family, what he wanted , will rarely get rejected.

He thought the gifts I got, the attention I got, he wanted too, and all I wanted was a simple family with both parents and love. Lin Xuxing's smile contained indescribable bitterness, "People are always pursuing what they can't get, and they don't cherish what they can get at their fingertips.Both Lin Ren and I are repeating the same tragedy of "I can't get what I want". "

Ji Jin held his cheeks with both hands, looked at the face between his palms that was mixed with self-mockery and emotion, and said to him seriously: "No, what you want is the true love in life, what he wants is to compare and show off." , you can’t confuse it. We want our parents to love us, and there’s nothing wrong with it.” She also struggled in the quagmire of not being able to ask for it, but in fact, this appeal is not a crime.

Ji Jin spoke so well that he was speechless.

He smiled and suddenly realized: "Yes, there is nothing wrong with it."

"What happened next?" Ji Jin then asked.

"Later in high school, I insisted on going to a boarding school." Lin Xuxing said lightly, "Actually, I just wanted to be quiet."

(End of this chapter)