Marriage is too late

Chapter 75

Lin Xuxing's expression fell into deep thought, and then he showed a smile: "In retrospect, that was almost the most carefree period of my life. The family's business has nothing to do with me, and the family's farce will not hurt me. Apart from studying, I almost Don’t worry about anything I can’t wish for. And reading is just one of the things I’m good at and like best.”

"Your academic bully's remarks are really not ordinary annoying." Ji Jin also joked together, seeing Lin Xuxing's relief, she felt the same way.

"No, it's not because I'm a top student, but because after so many years in life, sometimes I even miss the simple time of reading. Every exercise has a standard answer, and every step of solving a problem has a Corresponding scores. Everyone makes a paper, and there is only one judging standard, how simple and pure." Lin Xuxing rubbed Ji Jin's hair and smiled.

Ji Jin had no choice but to agree with his argument. In less than a year after graduation, she had grown a lot, and gradually understood that the society evaluates a person's standards are so complicated, black and white, good and evil, success and failure, The line between right and wrong has never been so blurred and fluid.Looking back at the time of reading, it is indeed rare and clear.

"What you said is so reasonable, I'm speechless." Ji Jin could only agree, but, "Mr. Lin, let me, a simple ordinary person, interview you, a social elite, and ask how you grew into what you are today. Like this? The family is broken, neglecting real love, and being at a loss in a wealthy family. To be honest, I was also like this back then, but I am far less wise and calm than you."

Lin Xuxing laughed: "I'm not as good as you said."

Ji Jin looked serious: "I admire you very much, really."

This is probably the best encouragement and praise I have ever heard as a man.Lin Xuxing couldn't help kissing her lips. The mango-flavored lipstick still had a sweet fragrance, soft and moist, and seemed to soothe all the pain in his heart.

It took a long time before Lin Xuxing separated from her. He pressed his forehead against hers. The distance was so close that she could clearly see his light brown pupils, reflecting a small self.

Lin Xuxing hugged her into his arms, played with her long, fragrant hair, and said softly, "I was lost once too."

"Really?!" Ji Jin was very curious. Lin Xuxing had been strong and calm in front of her for a long time, and seemed to have no weakness. "Hurry up, tell me."

Lin Xuxing smiled and raised his head: "Aren't those things that waste your life time?" With the financial resources and status of the Lin family, coupled with Lin Xuxing's special status, for Lin Xuxing, no matter whether it is money or resources, as long as he He thought, what is not called immediately?
He tried smoking, drinking, drag racing, one or two times of drugs, marijuana, endless parties of various themes...

"I can understand that these behaviors are great adjustments and refuges for people who need to escape from their problems." Lin Xuxing raised his head, "But at the moment of waking up, the emptiness in my heart can almost swallow people. More importantly What's more, I really don't understand, it's obviously the mistakes of others and the injustice of fate, why should I give my whole life to be buried with these mistakes?"

Ji Jin nodded, why should he punish himself with other people's mistakes?

"So I think the reason why I didn't go further down the road of degeneration is because I think it's boring." Lin Xuxing spread his hands.The life of a party animal has never been suitable for Lin Xuxing, and even necessary business occasions, Lin Xuxing rarely attends.He held Ji Jin's finger and kissed it lightly, "So Mrs. Lin, will you regret it? I'm not as perfect as you think."

Ji Jin kissed him back and smiled: "Your imperfection makes you appear more perfect."

The most beautiful love words are always only told to each other.It doesn't matter if it's perfect or not in anyone else's arms or eyes, the most important thing is that everything is the most perfect in each other's eyes.

Lin Xuxing calmed down, calmed down the momentary turmoil in his heart, then gently rubbed her hair in his arms, and continued: "During the years of living in school, my life was really boring, you must not think that Interesting, it’s the daily life of a nerd.” After thinking for a while, he added, “But during that time, I traveled a lot.”

Ji Jin looked up at him in confusion, why does it feel like everyone is in high school, but their lives are completely different?So he asked, "What does it mean to have traveled a lot? I remember my high school, it was endless reading, exams, quizzes, exercises, papers..."

"Maybe, this is the advantage of being a top student." Lin Xuxing nodded with a serious expression, without showing off, as if he was just stating an obvious fact, "It seems to me that getting high marks in exams is always easy .On the one hand, because of my grades, on the other hand, because of my family background, I have a lot of time to do what I am interested in." Lin Xuxing's expression fell into deep thought again, and he suddenly asked an irrelevant question, "You Have you ever written a composition with a topic like "My Dream" in elementary school?"

"Of course." Ji Jin nodded, who hasn't written since childhood, and some people still write once a year.

"I wrote that the dream is that the whole family will be together forever, happy and happy, and then this dream has obviously been shattered. So I envied several of my classmates at that time. Their dreams were clearly visible. They seemed to have known since birth. What exactly do I want? Some want to be a surgeon, and some want to be a diplomat. Dreams were a very distant vocabulary for me at the time. So, I devoted all my spare time to It was spent on finding my dream." Lin Xuxing paused, "Because I don't know what else I want? So I chose a very stupid way - trial and error."

Ji Jin thought about Lin Xuxing before, standing in the middle of his youth, although he was young, he already possessed almost everything that his peers, even those beyond his age, could dream of.Money, family background, status, these secular standards of success have been easily owned by Lin Xuxing.But the lonely Lin Xuxing was alone, looking for the meaning of his existence. He was far precocious and far-sighted than his peers.Thinking of this, Ji Jin felt a sense of pride in her heart, this is her man, with a high vision, he has been outstanding since he was a teenager.So she asked, "What have you tried?"

"A lot, during the semester, I can't go too far, but I have a lot of free time. I have read a lot of books, participated in many sports, student unions, clubs, painting, gardening, piano, practice..." Lin Xuxing said lightly keep talking.

Ji Jin nodded, he sounded like a high school student with a rich life after school.

"Horse riding, archery, windsurfing, sea fishing, mountain climbing, helicopter flying, surfing..." Lin Xuxing continued without changing his expression.

Ji Jin clicked his tongue secretly, it sounded like the life of a rich man.

"However, I am most interested in emerging technology-related industries, programming, and finance. Since then, I have been interested in how to generate value from the latest technology, researching the economic and social value of technology in the history of human development, and changing human I have interests and goals in my lifestyle." Lin Xuxing finally made a conclusion.

Ji Jin could only shake his head: "No, Mr. Lin, you are not a top student at all, you are a god of learning!" In the high school she went to, boys were still attracting girls' attention because they were good at a sport or playing a musical instrument And complacent, and Lin Xuxing has made his own life a benchmark in capital letters.

"Later, because of a small accident, I started to like to travel during the holidays." Lin Xuxing continued, "That time I liked to hang out on a programmer's forum, and I was also young and fearless. I wrote a program that predicted the next few Monthly U.S. stock market trend.”

"And then?" Ji Jin looked at Lin Xuxing with reverence, "God foretold?"

"No, the error was terrible." Lin Xuxing smiled, as if he didn't care, "At that time, there was a kind of youthful dissatisfaction. I thought that all my big data tests were correct, so why were they wrong? Then I I received a very important email, discussing my software with me. It was an elusive and famous id on a forum. He said that my idea was correct and the method was scientific, but I forgot one thing, the economy The biggest paradox of learning is that 'people are rational', because I don't understand people, so my calculations will never be correct. But at the same time, he and I discussed that he and his company wanted to acquire my software, and the price was huge. We passed A few emails, let’s put it this way, I think I beat him [-] times in programming and logical thinking, and he beat me [-] times in understanding US stocks and economic data research.”

Ji Jin nodded, it felt as if Lin Xuxing was teaching her another course, which was wonderful and interesting.

"I was so unconvinced, so I booked a plane ticket that summer vacation, and went abroad to have a deep chat with him." Lin Xuxing put his head in his hands and lay flat in the middle of the bed, "Only when I was young He would do such a reckless thing, and I later found out his identity, he is the number one assistant next to the stock god, and only I dared to break into his office without making an appointment, relying on Lin's relationship, they are in a meeting, I used my laptop to demonstrate my modified software to them, the accuracy rate is still not high, but there is progress, I just don’t believe it, and tell them that I will correct this software to the extreme within six months.”

Lin Xuxing looked nostalgic: "That was really the best summer vacation I ever had."

(End of this chapter)