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Chapter 32
Chapter 29: The Past (1)
The body seems to have a memory, Jing Yan unconsciously took a step towards Qin Zhen, but soon he restrained himself, he could help her, but he couldn't sympathize with her, she had to stand up on her own, just As Dr. Lu said, once she becomes dependent on others, she will never get better.

So he clenched his fists and asked expressionlessly: "Zhenzhen, tell me what happened, okay?"

But Qin Zhen shook his head in great resistance, just kept crying, like a small animal that was ruthlessly abandoned, so pitiful that it pulled people's hearts.

Jing Yan's face became even darker, with suppressed anger, outsiders said that he was almost omnipotent, but at this moment he found that he could do nothing but accompany him in silence He watched her until she was tired from crying and fell asleep again.

His cold brows and eyes were tightened little by little, as if he had gone back to the past far, far away through his eyes.

At the beginning, he didn't know that his father liked another woman, but occasionally when he took him out, he would meet a girl who looked like a doll. Although his father told him to take care of her like a brother, he was not a passionate person. She doesn't want to talk to her, but she has been persistently inviting him to play together, sharing all the benefits with him, maybe it's her father's deliberate arrangement, they have always been in the same school, gradually getting acquainted and getting close.

It was a long time later when he knew that Zhenzhen's mother was his father's love. At that time, his relationship with Zhenzhen was already very good.

It was his birthday that day, and he took Zhenzhen home. Although they were not together, he wanted her and his mother to be closer, they were very important to him.The mother not only kicked her out, but also got angry with him for the first time: Your father likes that woman, I can bear it, but I can't bear that even my son likes the child born by that woman, Ayan, are you going to let Can't mom survive?
Yes, in fact, his mother knew everything, but she always used her meager efforts to whitewash the peace in exchange for the so-called peace of this "home".

Looking at his mother's distorted face due to the long-term suppression of pain, he felt very powerless and tired. He had no position to judge right or wrong about the love-hate entanglement of the previous generation, but it was not fair for him and Zhenzhen to bear the consequences.But what can I do?That's the mother who loves him and protects him as the only one he can rely on. He doesn't want to make her sad.So the idea of ​​being with Zhenzhen as soon as she entered college was delayed like this, and then his mother's illness worsened and passed away, Zhenzhen went abroad suddenly, and when she fell in love and got married, they gradually lost contact.

He stood in front of the sofa and looked at her for a while, then slowly stretched out his hand and gently hugged her into the room.

He no longer has feelings for her, he just loves her. Maybe they would have been together long ago without those entanglements, and she would not be unkind to others, let alone be in such a mess. Of course, everything is just a possibility, like her As I said, no one can go back to the past, they missed it after all.

But even as an elder brother, he couldn't leave her alone, it was a relationship formed when he was young.

Fang Minzhi arrived after seven o'clock in the evening, but he didn't expect that Jing Yan's father, Jing Yue, was also with him.Because Fang Minzhi was worried about his daughter, he couldn't care about anything. As soon as he arrived at the hotel, he rushed into Qin Zhen's room. He didn't know what he talked about, and he didn't come out. He stayed there for a long time. , but remained silent.The last time they met was two years ago, when Qianyan's mother died. The father and son had very similar personalities, both reserved and reticent, and no one stepped forward to reconcile conflicts. Therefore, although they were connected by blood, their relationship was more distant than that of strangers.

When it was supposed to be a reunion, Jing Yue pursed his lips and sat down opposite Jing Yan, and asked his son abruptly: "A Yan, what are you going to do about Zhenzhen?"

Jing Yan sneered, played with the cigarette case in his hand, and answered casually: "What I do is my business, it doesn't seem to have anything to do with you, does it?"

In fact, he likes to smoke, and the unique smell can make him sober and calm, but he has quit this habit unknowingly.

His sarcastic attitude displeased Jing Yue, and he scolded in a cold voice: "A Yan, I am your father, can't you talk to me well?" In the silence of the night, if you look carefully, the outlines of their father and son are very similar, both of them are deep and indifferent like an axe. One can imagine that Jing Yue was also a pleasing handsome man when he was young, but now he has deep wrinkles on his forehead and brow , gray temples, in the end years are not forgiving.

"That's good." Jing Yan leaned back lazily, but looked at his father sharply, and asked with understanding, "Let's not talk about what I plan to do first? Why don't you just go ahead and directly Tell me what you want me to do?"

Jing Yue was stunned, feeling the embarrassment of being seen through, he frowned and paused for a moment before saying: "You should also know that Zhenzhen's condition is very bad, your Auntie Fang is very ill, if you can, you Try to take care of them as much as possible, it is best to..."

"What's the best way?" He was interrupted by Jing Yan's cold voice before he finished speaking, his tone was absolutely tough, "Don't worry, I will definitely help with Zhenzhen's affairs, but in my way My approach. Although you may already know it, I still solemnly tell you once again that I am married, I have a wife and son, I am not you, my wife is not my mother, and Zhenzhen, let alone Ms. Fang."

"You!" Jing Yue stood up suddenly in anger, staring at his son, pointing his fingers tremblingly at him, but couldn't speak anymore.

The atmosphere was a bit tense. Since knowing that Jing Yue often didn't go home because he had another love, Jing Yan's admiration and awe for his father had gradually faded over the years, and then disappeared in his mother's tears. Either they don't speak, or they confront each other sarcastically.

Many years later, Jing Yan suddenly found that he could understand why his mother hated Fang Minzhi and Zhenzhen, because Fang Minzhi took her husband's love, and Zhenzhen also got the father's love that should belong to her son. .It's really ironic, when Fang Minzhi wanted to stop him from being with Zhenzhen until Zhenzhen got married, his father didn't ask anything, but asked him to back down and let him give up, as long as Fang Minzhi was happy, as long as Zhenzhen was happy. How he is doing as a son doesn't seem to be in his consideration.Now that something happened, his father's first consideration was their feelings about their situation, and hoped that he would take care of them more. Maybe even as he guessed, his father hoped that he would accept Zhenzhen again.

But anyway, he is no longer who he was back then.

"Don't worry, there won't be such a thing." The door of the room was pushed open, and Fang Minzhi walked out from inside. Although her brows and eyes were already showing signs of fatigue, she managed to keep up her spirits, her eyes rested on Jing Yue's body dimly. For a few seconds, "Can I speak to him alone?"

Jing Yue hesitated for a moment, then nodded after meeting her gaze, and said, "I'll wait for you at the restaurant downstairs first, you... let's finish talking and have something to eat."

Fang Minzhi was fascinated by looking at Jing Yue's back, but he was almost 60 years old, but he didn't feel stooped at all. He was as tall and calm as when he was young. by her side.But she and Jing Yue, Jing Yue and Chen Huiyuan, her daughter and his son, seem to be connected but fragmented.

Back then, she and Jing Yue were both studying abroad when they were young, like meeting an old friend in another country, with a somewhat pity feeling, and Jing Yue was two years older than her, and took good care of her, and they quickly established a romantic relationship.

(End of this chapter)