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Chapter 34 The Past
Chapter 30 The Past
Feeling the temperature coming from his chest, Su Xiaomu lowered her eyes in embarrassment, shook her calf a few times and said softly, "You put me down first."

Jing Yan naturally ignored her, and while carrying her upstairs, he lowered his head and sniffed at her neck, with a faint smile on his lips: "Huh? Have you taken a bath?" The deep voice is especially deceptive in this ambiguous midnight.

It made Su Xiaomu's heart itch, and her skin also faded red. She buried herself in his arms and answered vaguely, letting him carry her up to the second floor.But in the next second, she couldn't help raising her head again, looking all the way up from his deep chin to his eyes, which were as bright as obsidian, mysterious and radiant.

She couldn't help swallowing, her face was bright red, and her heart was beating extremely fast.

Jing Yan put her on the bed, stretched out his hand to touch her head and smiled, "Okay, if you've seen enough, go to bed quickly, don't just teach Xiaoyao to go to bed early and get up early, and become a child by yourself."

Su Xiaomu nodded slowly, but held his hand and refused to let go, then pulled him to sit down with a little force, and turned his head to tease him with a slight smile: "What should I do, I just I can't see enough, why don't you let me take a good look?"

Jing Yan chuckled again, but he didn't stop her childish behavior, and let her watch it openly.

She knelt and sat behind him, her slender hands moved forward, slowly slid up his temples, and pressed and rubbed them lightly and softly, with moderate strength, then the center of the brows, the side of the head, and then the neck, shoulders and Waist, the skillful and comfortable technique seems to be able to push away all troubles.

"Here?" Hearing he sighed and relieved, she increased her strength a little.Looking down from her angle, his eyes are slightly closed, his face is obviously very pleasing, but there is a sharp sense of distance, and it is rare for her to see fatigue from his expression.

Jing Yan let out a lazy "hmm", feeling very comfortable and satisfied.

She didn't stop moving her hands, and asked him again: "Are you tired? You didn't sleep last night, why don't I put hot water for you, and you can take a bath later before going to bed."

Jing Yan didn't speak for a long time, her question was new to him, it seemed that no one had ever paid attention to whether he was tired, only thought that he stood at the highest place as a matter of course, dominated everything by life and death, and could do anything, You won't be tired or tired.His body leaned back slightly, slowly leaning against her arms, the tip of his nose could smell the very elegant smell of shower gel, perhaps it was because of this feeling, the comfort that no one else had, that made him feel natural wanted to get close to her.

Su Xiaomu was stunned for a moment, then smiled, and hugged him from behind, the heartbeats of the two overlapped and alternated, she didn't need to do anything more at this moment, this kind of company was enough.

Su Xiaomu's sleep quality was surprisingly good that night, and he woke up naturally.After waking up, she rang the clock beside the bed, and then gave a big "Yeah", unexpectedly, it was 09:30, and Xiaoyao was going to be late for school!Now she was almost jumping up. It happened that Jing Yan opened the door and came in. It was rare to see her in such a dazed state. A smile appeared from the corner of her mouth. With a pampering that he didn't even notice, she smiled lightly. Said: "Don't worry, I sent Xiaoyao to school just now."

Su Xiaomu breathed a sigh of relief, got up while arranging her messy hair and said to him, "Then I'll make breakfast."

Jing Yan held her down and shook her head. She met his eyes suspiciously, and then heard him say: "Go out to eat, I have no other plans today, I can walk around with you."

Su Xiaomu was stunned for a long time, and couldn't even finish her sentence: "What, what are you talking about?"

"Don't you want to go out with me? Forget it, I'll go back to the company." Jing Yan's tone was helpless and regretful, and he turned around as he spoke, hiding the smile on his lips.

Su Xiaomu pulled him hastily: "Hey, you have to keep what you say, wait for me for 5 minutes, and it will be ready soon!" Then she rushed into the bathroom with bare feet to wash up.

Listening to the sound of running water inside, Jing Yan remembered how excited she was just now, and was so happy just to go out with her, which made him feel inexplicably good.

Their breakfast is settled in a time-honored restaurant not far from the apartment. Wontons, steamed buns, tofu nao, fried dough sticks, very simple and unpretentious style.

Every time Su Xiaomu took a bite of tofu nao, he quietly glanced at Jing Yan. He was well-trained, even though there was a lot of noise around him, he still savored it slowly and quietly, as if what was in front of him was not tofu nao, but a top-level delicacy.

She hesitated and asked, "I remember, didn't you dislike eating this before?"

At that time, her father was still there, and she had to be on duty at night. In the next morning, he came to visit the doctor, and then they went to have breakfast together. It was also such a traditional breakfast, but he admitted that he didn't like it. In the end, she took care of everything by herself. lasted all day.Now when he is at home, she will cook a Western-style breakfast, so she was surprised when he proposed to eat something that only she likes.

Unexpectedly, Jing Yan just glanced at her indifferently: "Well, I didn't like it before, but it doesn't mean I don't like it now." Then he ate a spoonful slowly.

Su Xiaomu's heart skipped a beat, and she didn't know if it was her own illusion. Why did she feel that what he said meant something?But she knew that he didn't like to talk when he ate, so she didn't say anything more. In the lively environment around, the two quietly enjoyed the morning when there were only two of them.

Eat and drink well.

Jing Yan raised his wrist to check the time on his watch, and asked her, "Where do you want to go shopping later? Do you want to buy something?"

Su Xiaomu nodded and then shook her head contradictoryly. She thought about it seriously. In the beginning, she really had a lot of arrangements. She wanted to climb mountains with him to watch the sunrise, go shopping and eat, watch movies and night scenes with him like ordinary couples, but she really had such an opportunity. Only then did I realize that as long as I stay with him, it doesn't matter where I go or what I do. I don't have to fall into a pattern, which changes my taste instead.

Jing Yan stretched his brows, smiled and said, "You have no idea, I have a place to take you."

Su Xiaomu didn't ask him where he was taking him, knowing that if he asked, he would say nastyly, "You'll know when you go." Forget it, it's good to keep a sense of mystery once in a while.

Perhaps because of her good mood, the weather in the imperial capital is particularly good today. The autumn sun shines brightly on the skin but does not burn people. The car left the congested driveway and arrived at Jing Yan's villa in Chaoyang District.He parked the car at the door but didn't go in, and was habitually looking for cigarettes, only to realize that since he was with her, he no longer had the habit of keeping cigarettes by his side, and began to tighten his fists, controlling his emotions.

Su Xiaomu watched him silently like a statue, and vaguely guessed where this place was.

After a long time, I heard him whispering: "From the time I was born until my mother passed away, we have been living here, and she has been stuck here all her life."

The air seemed to be a little stalemate with his emotions, which made people uncomfortable.

"Jing Yan..." Su Xiaomu held his hand tightly, as if it could give him strength.

In fact, her hands were not warm because of her physique, but Jing Yan felt surprisingly warm. He quickly relaxed his tense jaw and said softly: "I'm fine, don't worry. Let's get out of the car, I'll take Go in and have a look, but no one has lived there for a long time.”

They got out of the car, opened the retro carved iron gate, and followed the garden path all the way to the inner house, as if walking into a time-space tunnel, Jing Yan began to recall every detail of his life here.Most of his memories were of him being with his mother, and his father's appearance was very vague. If he hadn't just met yesterday, maybe he couldn't even remember that person's appearance.

The garden of the villa is regularly tidied up by a gardener, so it is still full of vitality and does not look decadent, but it is not popular, and the deserted feeling is a bit bleak.Seeing the European-style bench in the garden, the corners of Jing Yan's lips couldn't help curling up, and he pulled her to sit down together, recalling: "Mum, she likes to sit here and bask in the sun, and also likes to take care of flowers and plants. You see, there's a little rose garden over there, all planted by her."

Su Xiaomu looked at his expression, and felt relieved when he saw that his expression was not bad. She turned her head and looked back, holding his hand without letting go, and said slowly: "It must be very beautiful, right? You take me there take a look?"

Jing Yan patted the back of her hand: "No, there is a lot of pollen over there, you will be allergic, and you can see the panorama when you go upstairs later."

They entered the living room one after the other. It was decorated in a European style. Because no one lived in it for a long time, the furniture was covered with dust jackets. It was whitewashed, but the original exquisite appearance could still be vaguely seen.The dust in the room made Su Xiaomu unconsciously cover her nose and cough twice, Jing Yan frowned, and took her directly to the second floor, his mother's bedroom.

He stood in front of the retro big bed, bent over as if searching for something, Su Xiaomu was a little curious: "What are you looking for? Do you want me to help?"

"There's a lot of dust here, don't come here, just wait for me." Jing Yan shook his head, and finally found a small key from the bedside table, and then opened a makeup box of a slightly older age. He took out a wooden box from his pocket, and he couldn't help smiling: "So it's really here."

His back was facing Su Xiaomu, so she didn't know what he had found. Just as she was about to take a look, he turned around and said directly, "Come on, quickly stretch out your hand."

Su Xiaomu was only stunned for a few seconds, a watch was already on her hand, the cold touch of the dial made her tremble uncontrollably, and brought her back to her senses.

I heard Jing Yan talking about the origin of the watch: "Although the style of this watch is a bit old, it is a pair with me. It is my mother's favorite. At that time, she said that this watch should be reserved for her daughter-in-law. , I think since there are ready-made ones, you don’t need to bother to buy them again, what do you think?”

The watch left by the mother-in-law to her daughter-in-law is naturally incomparable, and this is another way to express her affirmation to Su Xiaomu.

Su Xiaomu couldn't help being startled, she lowered her head to prevent him from seeing her expression, and asked in a nasal voice, "You... have you seen what I wrote?"

"Yeah." Jing Yan carefully helped her put the watch on, and said with a retreat, "I was wrong this time, and I made you sad." He accidentally found the plan full of plans in the trash can in the living room. The letter paper was crumpled into a ball, as if he could see her tightened heart, and only then did he truly feel that he had hurt her again, but according to her character, even if she felt wronged, she would just endure it, making people feel distressed, It is also frustrating.

"I'm also wrong." Su Xiaomu just shook his head.

No wonder he put down his work, said those words, and brought himself here to give her her mother's treasures. In fact, he wanted to reassure her, right?But there are conflicts between them, and the responsibility is not only on him, but also on her. She doesn't trust his feelings enough, and she doesn't have enough confidence in herself. Make her mess up?
As for sending the watch, it was part of her little plan.

Regardless of men and women, as long as they really like each other, they can't help but have a desire for monopoly, especially for women, giving things to men to carry close to their bodies will feel like declaring ownership to other women.

And Su Xiaomu especially loves watches. She thinks men wearing watches are very attractive. She thinks that this kind of man is punctual and rigorous, especially the moment when he lowers his head and raises his wrist to see the time is really pleasing to the eye. Jing Yan is exactly that. This type of people.But she also knows that she can't control herself, even if she spends all her savings over the years, she may not be able to afford the watch he often wears.

And the one in his hand just matched his.

The priest's cross knight's sword is a symbol of bravery and dignity.

It is also his mother's favorite thing, she couldn't help rubbing it with her fingertips, how could the male model that was supposed to be worn by his father be in his hands, and the female model in her own hand, Although it is an old model, the body of the watch is brand new, and it has not been worn for a few days. It is estimated that the original owners of the two watches missed each other for some reason.

Although she didn't know everything about his parents, she could roughly guess everything.

Lifting his eyes slightly, he saw his gaze fell on the delicate dial, pursed his lips in silence, and his face was tense, wondering if he remembered some unpleasant past, she also felt uncomfortable, and suddenly remembered the advertisement of this brand Language - no one can own Patek Philippe, just keep it for the next generation.

She said irrelevantly: "Well, we can pass on this pair of watches to Xiaoyao and his wife in the future."

Jing Yan's originally stiff face was amused by her, knowing that she wanted to change the boring topic, he followed her words: "The painter's imagination is really rich, how many years will it be after he gets married? And this I'm afraid he won't like it if he grows an antique that has been around for half a century."

Su Xiaomu curled her lips and said, "This watch is like wine. It tastes better with age. How can you not like it?"

"Let's talk about it later." He squeezed her palm, stared at her and asked, "Would you like...to visit my room?"

"Is it possible?" Su Xiaomu blurted out, her eyes lit up instantly, and her mood also jumped up. She wanted to know everything about him, and wanted to know.

Jing Yan immediately said, "Why not? Come, it's just opposite."

Compared with the gentle style of his mother's room, his room is more masculine, but there are many photos hanging on the wall, most of them are photos of him and his mother, or photos of classmates when he was studying, but none of them have his father of.

Perhaps because he noticed Su Xiaomu's gaze, Jing Yan himself looked at the photos that were too familiar, and then slowly explained: "I am not close to my father. He is often not at home, and my mother has always been with me. I don’t understand, I’ll realize when I’m older that his heart is somewhere else.”

"If you feel uncomfortable, don't say it?" Painful memories are like scratching your heart, and she can understand his feelings.

"I am a person who never looks back. The past is the past, and it is impossible to change it, so I don't want to mention it. After all, it is not a good memory. I just want to tell you that since I was young, my personality is difficult to follow. When others are close, Zhenzhen is an anomaly to me, she is very good to me, and I have liked her." He obviously felt her body become stiff, but he held her hand firmly, and continued, " She and I only learned about the relationship between her mother and my father later, and then she gave up on me first, and now you are by my side, you just need to remember this."

"I can't leave her alone because of emotion and reason, so I hope you will give me enough time and trust to let me deal with this matter, and don't think about it, it's not good for your health, it's not good for us, and even more Not good." He stood upright, the gray wool vest made him look tall and straight, and holding her hand was strong and warm.

This man has always been aloof, and she also knows his character. No matter what he does, even if he is criticized, he never explains it to others, but now he is willing to spend his time and patience to untie her knot and tell her with actions. , She is not the only one who is working hard between them.

She was so touched that her nose was slightly sore, and she wanted to cry and laugh a little foolishly, afraid of being laughed at by him, so she buried her face in his arms and hugged him tightly, whispering softly: "Then we have agreed, Don't make me wait too long."

(End of this chapter)