regardless of costs

Chapter 42 Ostrich (1)
Chapter 37 Ostrich (1)
divorce--

I thought these were the most difficult words to say in the world, but when I finally said them, Su Xiaomu was greatly relieved.She clasped the ring finger of her left hand and wanted to pull out the wedding ring, as if doing so would get rid of the spell that Jing Yan had been holding on to her all along.

But when the ring slid to the edge of the nail, she was stopped by a bigger and warmer hand. She raised her chin in astonishment, only to realize that Jing Yan was also looking at her for a moment, with black eyes like ink It was so deep that it was breathless.

Being looked at by him very disturbed, Su Xiaomu shrank her arms and tried to break away from his hand. He was always very gentle, but this time it was different. He even used a lot of strength to forcefully put the ring back on her finger, with a slightly It was cold, and after a long time, he slowly said: "Xiaomu, I am not the kind of person who plays with emotions. Marriage is not a child's play for me, especially for you and me now, so divorce...don't say it again. , I don't like to hear it."

"You don't like to hear it?" Su Xiaomu laughed at herself, then quickly scratched his palm with her nails, then took her hand back when he was in pain, and clasped her hands tightly, thinking In order to calm myself down, I also want to give myself the strength to face him.

The air gradually cooled down, and no one spoke.

She lowered her head, and saw that clear but blood-stained scratch across his open palm. She was stunned for a moment, she didn't expect that she could be so cruel to him, and he didn't even blink his eyes .

Yes, his patience has always been good.

"Sometimes I really don't understand, what is it that you really love? Is it Qin Zhen? If that's the case, what am I to you? You see, you are always like this, always indifferent It's not too hot or too slow, we're talking about such a big thing as divorce, and you just say "I don't like to hear it" indifferently, as if you are so confident that everything is under your control, including my emotions You are also tight-fisted. But Jing Yan, let me tell you, no matter how strong I am, how much I believe in you and how much I love you, I will not be able to withstand the injuries again and again. As you said, enough is enough! After ten years of waiting, everything is enough .”

"I'm sorry." Jing Yan's voice was a little tired, and he wanted to get close to her, but she avoided him, his eyes slipped weakly, "It's because I didn't do well that I made you sad."

Su Xiaomu shook his head, met his jade-like eyes, and murmured softly: "I read a book in the past, saying that there is a kind of feeling in the world called 'ostrich love', and I thought it would be fine to just pretend not to know, pretend to be very happy If I keep falling in love, what I want to say is me. But I can't do anything about it. If we continue to be entangled like this, even if Qin Zhen is not crazy, I should be crazy. Breaking up may not be a good thing for you and me. Breaking up , with the distance we will understand better what we need.”

Tired, but also relieved, ten years ago he was the one who said to break up, so please allow her to say this first ten years later, even though she had a thousand and ten thousand reluctances in her heart, she had to do so.

She no longer has the courage to entangle.

The demeanor of letting go, she must have.

Jing Yan frowned slightly, and looked back at her fixedly: "Xiaoyao's birthday will be in a few days, you must tell me this at this time? We are all a little restless today, and we will talk about this later. In short, I don't Agree to divorce." He stood up and walked towards the door, then stopped suddenly, with his resolute figure turned his back to her, she couldn't see the expression on his face at this time, and finally he just said softly: "Xiaomu, You are not me..." It seemed that there was something in the words, and it was all.

With a "click", the door closed, his aura in the air slowly dissipated with the night wind, and by the way, the other self, the Su Xiaomu who loved him desperately, was stripped from his soul, the bloodless wound was utterly painful heart.

It was hard for her to finally take this step, but she couldn't regret it.

She clutched the blanket in her hand tightly, her whole body was shaking with pain, and the tears she had held back for a long time fell on the blanket bit by bit, dizzying with splashes of water.

Jing Yan stood outside the door and did not leave for a long time.

The dark brown sweater fit his tall and straight figure, and he was clean and tough.He lowered his eyebrows and saw the scar of blood running across his fate line, suddenly and eye-catching, just like her, who came into his life unexpectedly, wanted to ignore and stay away, but he couldn't stop her from going into their own world.

Hearing her suppressed cry, he felt a twinge in his heart.It was the first time he was so indecisive, but he didn't expect it to be emotional.He knew that this would be harmful to Xiaomu, himself, and Zhenzhen, but there were some things he had to do. No matter how much she loved herself, she might not be able to fully understand his mind, right?What he needs is time.

He said silently, Xiao Mu, wait for me a little longer.

This night is destined to be cold.

Jing Yan stayed in the room, sitting stiff and straight until late at night. Su Xiaomu didn't go back to the room. He went to the closet to get pajamas under the dim light, trying to wash off his exhaustion.When the cabinet was opened, he was slightly taken aback. The parent-child clothes bought in the small shop in the morning were neatly folded there, hers and Xiaoyao's were put together, while his was on the other side alone.He pursed his lips tightly, stretched out his hands and stacked his own on top of hers, as if guarding her and Xiaoyao.

When he woke up the next day, Jing Yan found that his wife and son were not at home.

There is a note on the dining table: There is preserved egg and lean meat porridge warm in the Xishi pot. I will take Xiaoyao to the Great Wall. If you have anything to do, just do it and leave us alone.

Xiaoyao wanted to write a weekly diary for the family day, and yesterday they agreed that the family would go to Badaling Great Wall.His hand holding the note tightened suddenly, the feeling of being rejected by her made him feel very bad, very bad.

But he did have something to do, Wang Hao was very efficient, and there was an information feedback in the morning, and the matter of the photo was almost checked.It was actually a follow-up to the merger case a month ago.There was an editor of a small magazine who was playing tricks behind his back. This man had lived in a basement and endured cold steamed buns for several years. He finally made some achievements and took the position of editor-in-chief. The big news in the business world became famous overnight, but he didn't expect that Jing Yan's background was deeper than he imagined, and he lost his job because of it. This kind of drama of abandoning one person for the sake of the overall benefit is not new in the workplace. There is no place for him.

He was desperate and resentful towards Jing Yan, so he secretly photographed his every move and wanted to sell it to other media, so as to damage his reputation and exchange some money by the way. Unexpectedly, newspapers and magazines with a little discernment knew that although the news was tempting. It is impossible for people to burst out, he is a lesson from the past.After being rejected several times, he began to divert his attention. He heard that Jing Yan cherished his wife and children very much, so he sharpened his head and thought about this bad move. Discord in his family.

There was only a weak current on the phone, and Wang Hao even lowered his breath, holding his breath and waiting for Jing Yan's instructions, but he remained silent. He bit the bullet and asked anxiously: "Boss, what do you want...how?" Everyone knows that if you offend anyone, you can't offend Jing Yan, otherwise the consequences will be unforgettable for a lifetime.

Don't forget, although his boss is a decent businessman, he takes black and white.

Jing Yan ordered in a low voice: "Tell him to leave Beijing. I don't want to see him again. All the negatives of the photos must be taken back. Give him a warning. If he has other thoughts, you can do it yourself and don't need to return to me."

"I understand."

In fact, Jing Yan's mood is very complicated, because the moment he heard Wang Hao say that Qin Zhen did not do this, he actually felt relieved. Thinking of this, he suddenly stood up again, could it be that even he himself Have doubts about Zhenzhen?Xiaomu's words played a role in his heart. She said that Zhenzhen might be pretending to be sick.But the Qin Zhen he knew was not that kind of person, no matter how much she was stimulated, he didn't want her to become that kind of person.

This worked out great.

But there are some things that he still needs to confirm.

Su Xiaomu didn't come back with her son until evening. After entering the door, she saw Jing Yan sitting on the sofa in the living room watching the news. She was taken aback and asked subconsciously, "You didn't go out? Have you eaten? We ate outside... ..."

Jing Yan raised his head and smiled: "Auntie cooked the meal after eating, but it's so late, why didn't someone send a car to take you back?"

"It's okay, Uncle Ling sent us back!" Before she could answer, Xiao Yao had already rushed to his side, showing off excitedly: "Father, it's a pity you didn't go today, I climbed the Great Wall today, I climbed It’s so tall, so tall, and I even took pictures!” He proudly turned on his digital camera to show his father.

Hearing Ling Ziqi's name, Jing Yan narrowed his eyes slightly, stroking his son's head while looking at the photos, but there were only Xiao Mu and Xiao Yao, mother and son, one big and one small, smiling happily in front of the camera.

That person, just send them back?
Thinking about it this way, he let go of his tense heart, and also focused on the photos and looked at them carefully. Xiaoyao's outline resembled him, but his personality and smile were very similar to his mother. He looked at them one by one, Suddenly remembered something, raised his head and asked Su Xiaomu: "Climbing the Great Wall, can your body bear it? Yesterday..."

(End of this chapter)