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Chapter 44
Chapter 38 Love (1)
Qin Zhen lowered his eyebrows, refused to look at Jing Yan, and said slowly: "I don't understand what you are talking about."

"You really don't understand?" Jing Yan stood straight in front of her, pursed her thin lips, and said in a cold tone, "Forget it, Wang Hao is still waiting downstairs, I asked her to take you back, here you Don't come here again, Xiaomu is not used to it."

In fact, he has been seeing her less recently. Today she was discharged from the hospital and only asked Wang Hao to pick her up, but he received a call from Wang Hao in the middle of the company meeting. Qin Zhen asked Wang Hao why he didn't pick her up. Today is Xiaoyao's birthday, so Qin Zhen insisted on going to his new home to take a look, and he refused to give up, making Wang Hao in a dilemma, so he could only stall for time and wait for him to make up his mind.

He immediately suspended the meeting and rushed back. At that time, they had already arrived downstairs. It would be fine if Qin Zhen was crying and fussing. He could block her back when she was sick, but she just smiled and said to him as before: " Brother Jing Yan, remember that we used to think about what your future child will look like, I want to meet him, is that okay? You see, I bought a gift specially, and I am very sincere." Afraid that he would not believe it, he raised the gift box in his hand.

She used "before" to hold onto his weakness, and since he had just been discharged from the hospital and couldn't be stimulated, he still couldn't be cruel to her.Now it seems that I shouldn't be soft-hearted. This "seeing and seeing" really went wrong.Just now Xiaomu rushed out alone like that, wondering if something would happen, and her hand...Jing Yan found that he could not concentrate at all.

Qin Zhen's body was a little stiff, and she became depressed, and said in a low voice: "She's not happy? What about me? It hurts me, now that I am like this, even you want to leave me?" She tried her best to adjust her expression, and looked at Jing Yan with tears in her eyes.

Jing Yan's deep voice was like an ancient lake, and he said lightly: "Zhenzhen, after so many years, who hasn't changed?" She treated him well, and he also liked her, so he cherishes everything in the past and will not erase it. , even connivance, but he will not let her go on like this endlessly, he also has a bottom line.

I didn't expect him to admit it so bluntly, and I couldn't understand the pun in his words. Qin Zhen was just sitting there stupidly, and didn't recover for a moment. She thought she still had a chance, and that his marriage was just a passing , Could it be her illusion?
At this moment, a small figure flashed into the kitchen and asked carelessly: "Dad, where is my mother? Isn't she going to make pudding for us?" He paused and then looked behind Jing Yan. Come out, puzzled, "Hey, are there any guests?"

"This is Aunt Qin, who brought you a birthday present, and put it in the living room." Jing Yan patted his head, nodded and said, "Your mother has something to go out."

"Oh, hello, Aunt Qin." Xiao Yao greeted politely.

Qin Zhen just responded indifferently: "Yes." Bringing gifts to Xiaoyao was an excuse, and children were the most sensitive topic for her, especially Jing Yan and other people's children.

Jing Yan pursed his lips and said to Xiaoyao: "You go upstairs to play with Xiaoyu for a while, and after I send you off to Aunt Qin, I will go find your mother for dinner with you."

"Okay!" Xiao Yao nodded with a smile, "Goodbye, Aunt Qin." Said and jumped upstairs again.

Qin Zhen's fingers gripped her dress tightly, as if controlling her emotions, Jing Yan put his hand on her shoulder and patted her: "Let's go, I'll take you back first, you're tired today."

Until he left, Qin Zhen's face was still gloomy,

After she left, Jing Yan immediately called Su Xiaomu, but no one answered the dial all the time, and even turned off the phone in the end, obviously because he didn't want to listen to his call, he thought about it, and then dialed another number of his subordinates to find someone .

In fact, Su Xiaomu didn't go anywhere, because after leaving the apartment in a daze, she found that she had nowhere to go. The huge city lost her direction for her. She sat in the park opposite the community for a while, as if she had figured out something , it seemed to be more chaotic, and finally bought a dozen beers and took a taxi to the studio.

The empty studio was dim and dark, as if she was in a bad mood at this moment, she didn't turn on the light, just flung her shoes on the sofa, opened the beer and drank it without thinking.One bottle after another, the number of empty jars gradually increased, but she didn't get the relief of being drunk and relieved her sorrows. Instead, she became more and more sober, her mind was full of Jing Yan, only Jing Yan.

The mobile phone on the coffee table rang again and again, she squinted her eyes and looked down, the name kept flashing on the screen, she desperately pressed the hang up button as if venting, cursing with a drunken crying voice: "Jing Yan, You bastard! You are a big bastard!" How could you treat her like that and hurt her like that?

Su Xiaomu felt so sad that she wanted to die. She clutched her phone and flipped through the pages of her address book. She didn't know who to call to complain. She desperately needed an outlet to vent her anger. She wanted to find someone to lean on and talk to. For so long, she felt like she was going crazy.Ziqi's name slid across the screen, and she was stunned for a while, but knew that she could not find him at this time, and finally, she dialed Xia Xiaoran's number.

In fact, she knows that Xiao Ran has been troubled by many things recently, and her life is not much better than hers. Ordinary people always have annoying moments.But she had no choice but to ask in a weak tone: "Xiao Ran...can you, can you come to the studio to accompany me?"

Xia Xiaoran heard the inappropriateness in her tone, and was a little worried, so she agreed without saying a word: "Okay, I'll come right away, you wait for me."

Good friends are not fake.

As soon as Xia Xiaoran stepped into the studio, she could smell the strong smell of alcohol. The light in the room was very dim. She tentatively called out: "Xiao Mu?" Hurry up, turn on the light quickly, only to see Su Xiaomu curled up on the sofa, with long hair scattered on his thin shoulders, empty beer cans all over the ground, his embarrassed appearance is not like the usual cheerful Su Xiaomu.

Xia Xiaoran was very worried, so she went to wring out a hot towel to clean her up.

"Don't worry, I'm fine, and I'm not drunk." Su Xiaomu raised her eyes and murmured expressionlessly: "I thought that as long as I love him, I don't care if he loves me or not. But I forgot I'm not a saint, I also have selfishness, seeing how kind he is to her, I'm jealous, I'm going crazy with jealousy. My ten years can't compare with their ten years, I can never win... But in fact, I don't have many demands Ah..." Her voice was dead silent with despair.

Xia Xiaoran knew that she must be talking about Jing Yan, the man Su Xiaomu loved for ten years, and even desperately gave birth to a child for him out of wedlock.At this time, she really didn't know what to say, so she could only hug her tightly and give her strength.

Su Xiaomu took advantage of the situation and buried herself on Xiao Ran's shoulder, mocking herself awkwardly: "But even if he is so bad and doesn't care about me, I still love him, Xiao Ran, do you think I'm hopeless?"

In fact, what hurt the most was not that he didn't love her, but that when he gave her hope, he made her fall into the abyss of disappointment.

Then she murmured for a while, and gradually fell asleep with the feeling of alcohol. Even in her sleep, the tears still couldn't stop falling down, which made Xia Xiaoran feel very sad, and hated herself for being helpless.

Love does not mean forgetting can be forgotten; injury does not mean repairing can be remedied.

As a friend, she can only accompany her so quietly and give her support. All the comforts are nothing but illusions.

Su Xiaomu didn't sleep for too long, and when she woke up, her head still hurt a little, and she felt a little embarrassed when she remembered what happened before when she regained consciousness.

Xia Xiaoran didn't care, just worried about her: "Xiao Mu, are you okay?"

(End of this chapter)