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Chapter 46 Mistake 1
Chapter 39 Mistake 1
At night, the capital blooms with radiant prosperity.

Jing Yan stood outside the balcony of the suite, leaning on the railing with both hands and overlooking the whole city. The shadows of passing cars and lights intertwined with dazzling light and shadow, which was very charming and seductive.But he has been silent all the time, his bright black eyes are thoughtful in the night, with an impenetrable depth.

When Qin Zhen pushed open the door, he saw Jing Yan like this, with a straight back, and his open black windbreaker was raised in a cool arc by the night wind.She was startled, and spoke softly to break the silence: "Brother Jing Yan, why don't you have dinner with us when you're here? Uncle Jing didn't say anything on the face, but he's always thinking about you."

Jing Yan tightened his grip on the railing, and then turned around, only seeing his side face, which was tense, when his phone vibrated suddenly, and he quickly picked it up, but he didn't know what the other party said He said something, and within a few seconds, his already stern face suddenly became a little colder, and finally he only heard him slightly lift his lips, and said in a calm tone: "Well, I see." When he spoke, his eyes were Looking deeply through the silence, she couldn't help shrinking her neck.

The atmosphere is cold.

Jing Yan put the phone back into his pocket, stared at her and said lightly, "Why don't you want to go back?"

Only then did Qin Zhen suddenly realize that not only did Jing Yan lose his smile, but he also lost his usual gentle tone towards her. He only had cold eyes towards her.

She couldn't accept his indifference, and said stubbornly: "No reason, I just want to stay here, you are here!" She clenched her fists and summoned up the courage to ask, "Didn't you dislike me going to the United States before? Okay? I'm back, why did you suddenly ask me to leave? Is it because Su Xiaomu doesn't want to see me?"

In the afternoon, when Wang Hao came with the ticket, she tore it up in front of everyone, why let her go?

"Zhenzhen, one thing is one thing, don't bring the problem to Xiao Mu." Jing Yan frowned and interrupted her, "I have already arranged it for you. When you get there, you can continue if necessary." For treatment, you can go back to the original place to work. If you don’t want to, it doesn’t matter, I will deposit a sum of money in your account, and you can live a good life even if you don’t work in the future.”

Qin Zhen opened his eyes wide in disbelief, pinched the hem of his skirt tightly and asked, "You... Are you giving me alms?"

Jing Yan shook his head, walked up to her slowly, and sighed slightly: "I'm not giving you alms, what I've always wanted to do is help you, help you change back to the old Qin Zhen, but I can help you for a while, help you It won’t last your life. You’ve been absurd and self-willed, and then you should think about how to live your life in the future.”

"Consider?" Qin Zhen didn't seem to understand the meaning of his words, her voice was empty as if she had escaped from her soul, "What if I just don't leave?" The flames of jealousy rose to the tip of her heart, she was not convinced or reconciled , why did they leave her one by one?
Jing Yan was stunned for a moment, lowered his eyebrows, glanced across her pale face, and replied slowly: "Then I will never see you again in the future."

"No...Brother Jing Yan, you obviously still care about me. You were the first to defend me when I was burned that day..." Qin Zhen was stunned, and his voice raised an octave.

"I defend you because I am afraid that you will hurt her if you are stimulated. I will not allow what happened to Cheng Yu's wife to happen to Xiaomu. Just because he is thinking about old love and not suing you does not mean that you are not wrong. Maybe I will also Wrong, I shouldn't have indulged you in the first place, you are no longer the Zhenzhen I know, but I thought you were just confused for a while, now it seems that if I indulge you again, I will harm you."

Hearing this, Qin Zhen's body trembled like the fallen leaves blown by the autumn wind, but his mouth was stubborn: "I don't know what you are talking about."

"I don't know? Do you think you can escape everything by saying that you don't know? How long do you want to hide? Can you pretend to be sick for the rest of your life?" Jing Yan finally couldn't hold back, and pulled her arm to look at the mirror on the wall , the wide lotus leaf sleeves of the skirt slipped off, revealing traces of being slid by the blade, some deep and some light, and the faint pink intertwined abruptly, "Look, who is in the mirror? Is it you Qin Zhen? Self-abuse, maliciousness Hurting people, cheating, nothing that Qin Zhen I know can do! Maybe you are really sick, suffering from paranoid disease, let us who care about you be willing to be used by you to worry about you. Today, You actually told me you didn't know?" She put on powder and blush, but her face was still as pale as a ghost, and her wrist was so thin that only bones remained.

After hearing his words, her tears fell down, and her voice trembled: "When did you...know this?"

Jing Yan let go of her hand, let her fall to the ground weakly, calmed himself down and said lightly: "Not long after you came back, Cheng Yu and I talked on the phone, as for what he said, you should know better than me , Dr. Lu has been telling me that there are many doubts about your condition. At first, I didn't want to believe it, but later, I had to believe it. "

"He actually called you? Obviously he changed his mind, he abandoned me, and now he still slanders me in front of you?" Qin Zhen cried out uncontrollably.

Jing Yan stared at her disapprovingly, as if looking at a stranger: "You are wrong. It is because he really loved you that he tolerated you all the time. What do you think you are hiding? Cheng Yu knows everything, I just didn’t want to embarrass you, so I kept silent. He divorced you not because he changed his mind, let alone because you were barren, but because he accidentally discovered that the only child you had with him was not his. He couldn’t accept this. In fact, what have you done during these years abroad?"

"And I'm not a spare tire waiting in place after you regret it. You showed off your capital to declare war on your ex-husband."

Qin Zhen has never felt such despair: "Since you know, why don't you expose me? You are still so kind to me?"

"Because I am the same as Cheng Yu. Even if the relationship is gone, I still try my best to help you. I hope you can return to your former self, the Qin Zhen we knew. If you can't, then I will be kind to you and have no regrets." It’s gone.” Jing Yan paused, looked at her with pity, and gently wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes with his fingers, and said word by word, “Only when all this is over, can I unravel this invisible bond. Shackles, to love her again with a complete self, do you understand?"

He patted her on the shoulder and said softly: "Zhenzhen, you'd better go, I'll let Wang Hao prepare again, if you don't want to go to the United States, I can arrange for you to go anywhere else. You have been to your own New life, stop entanglement and stop doing stupid things. I don't want to be too unfeeling to you. "

"No, it's not..." Seeing Jing Yan wanted to leave, Qin Zhen hugged his leg crazily and shouted: "Brother Jing Yan, the person in your heart is still me, and you only gave birth to you because of Su Xiaomu." You will treat me like this when you have a child, right?" What he said back then would make her happy for the rest of her life, so even if Cheng Yu doesn't want her, she is still not a loser, and there is him, he will treat her better than Cheng Yu Ten thousand times better.But now that she's back, how could he let her go so cruelly?

Jing Yan knew that Qin Zhen had stepped into an emotional dead end.

"Zhenzhen, do you know that there are two things you did wrong the most? That is, you shouldn't have left ten years ago, and you shouldn't have come back ten years later, so you have to be responsible for your own choices."

"Because now, the person I love is no longer you."

(End of this chapter)