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Chapter 58
Chapter 48 Holding Hands
Fate likes to go round and round.

She thought that letting go was the right decision, but in the end she found that it was nothing. She had been living under his protective wings, quietly enjoying his care, and was tied down by him from beginning to end. own heart.He suddenly agreed to the divorce, asked the lawyer to negotiate the conditions, and actively found her a house, knowing that she would not accept it, so he spent a lot of time and money to arrange everything secretly, and even persuaded Ziqi to lie to her together. She said that raising royalties to make a bestseller must have something to do with him.

So how should she react?Angry, elated, or indifferent?It seems that it is too late.

Jing Yan's face was still very pale, and he lay sideways on the hospital bed and looked at her intently, and said slowly: "It seems that you know everything... Actually, I don't want to do anything to you, I just want to arrange the meeting like this It's more appropriate, it's better for you and Xiaoyao." He closed his eyes as he said, as if he was still a little uncomfortable, and he spoke again after a while, "I'm not by your side anymore, I always feel worried."

Su Xiaomu was taken aback, then calmed down, and smiled self-deprecatingly: "Are you trying to make it up to me?"

Jing Yan shook his head, and said lightly: "It's not to compensate you, but I want to do this. I've been looking for that place for a long time. The courtyard with east and west entrances has grape vines, ancient locust trees, flower stands, stone tables... I Don't forget, I promised you."

Su Xiaomu was shocked.

At that time, she was rushing to draft, and her inspiration was very erratic. It was common for her to stay up late when she was alone, but later when he was by his side, his introverted temperament carried a strong factor. Also knock on her on time.

On the day when the draft was finished, he hugged her behind him and smiled: "What are you drawing?"

"The final chapter." She held his hand and leaned into his arms again, "In a while, the painting is almost finished."

He squinted, and with the popularity of retro, this album of hers has also incorporated elements of old Beijing, alleys, alleys, drum towers... Finally, it was fixed on a quaint courtyard, with the face of the girl who is the protagonist. calm.

She smiled and added a line of words: If you have a family and love, life is enough.

He kissed her hairline: "Is it so easy to satisfy?"

"My Mr. Jing, isn't the old-style courtyard house cheap now?" She looked helpless at that time.

Unexpectedly, he remembered everything she said.

It's a pity that she has become too fragile and still can't let go, so she runs away and runs away.

On the way back, Jing Yan called her once, but she hung up without answering, and then simply turned off the phone, went home and fell asleep, but actually didn't fall asleep, just tossed and turned, as if there were countless clues Intertwined in my heart, I can't make sense of it.

In the afternoon, Su Xiaomu restarted the machine. There were two missed call reminders, one was from Jing Yan and the other was from Wang Hao. He also received a text message, which was sent by Jing Yan, and he hardly sent text messages, and the content was in line with his requirements. A very short sentence: I will let Qian Xiaoxiao move away.

She squeezed the phone, subconsciously stroking the words on the screen with her fingers.

Before she had a chance to think about it, the phone rang again, she thought it was Jing Yan's again, but after seeing it clearly, she realized it was Xia Xiaoran, Su Xiaomu hadn't heard from her for a long time, so she quickly picked it up Telephone.

She called softly: "Xiao Ran?"

There was silence for a while before Xia Xiaoran said softly, "Xiaomu, it's me. I decided to go back to my hometown with my parents, just in these two days."

Su Xiaomu opened his eyes wide in surprise, and asked, "Why so suddenly?"

"You also know what's going on. It's meaningless for me to stay here any longer. It's better to go home." Xia Xiaoran smiled wryly.

After hesitating for a while, Su Xiaomu still asked, "What about the child in my belly? What are you going to do?" She is also a mother, and with those experiences, she understands Xia Xiaoran's struggle better than others.

"I haven't figured it out yet, let's take it one step at a time." Xia Xiaoran sighed, "Xiaomu, sometimes I really admire you. How did you have the courage to give birth to Xiaoyao alone?"

"You ask me now, and I can't answer it. It seems that I didn't think much about it, so I just did it."

"I heard Xiaoxi talk about your divorce, so now it's my turn to ask you, do you really plan to separate from him like this?"

"I don't know, everyone and everything told me that he loves me, and I should give him a chance." She briefly told Xiao Ran about her troubles these days, and murmured in a low voice, " But I'm really scared."

After Xiaoran heard this, she was silent for a long time, so long that Su Xiaomu thought she would not speak again, and then she slowly said: "You see many issues more thoroughly than I do, but the so-called authorities are obsessed, so I don't need to persuade you. I already have the answer in my heart. To be honest, feelings are two-sided. Of course he is at fault when you have come to this point. The fault is that he did not communicate with you in time, which made the distance between you wider and wider, but have you ever thought about it? , In fact, you are also at fault, your fault is that you have no confidence in yourself, even if you keep persuading yourself to believe in this person, you still have doubts about his feelings in your heart, right?"

Su Xiaomu choked for words, because Xiao Ran had seen through her heart.

Xia Xiaoran continued: "I'm in a mess myself, so I don't have the ability to give you any advice, but I just remember that there is a saying that says, if you can find someone you love, then you are lucky, if the person you love You happen to love you too, so you are happy. Since two people have each other in their hearts, why bother? After all, there are many people who love each other, but can't love." She paused with emotion, "Think carefully, I believe You know which direction your heart is opening."

Su Xiaomu was stunned, and some thoughts that she deliberately hid gradually became clear. As Xiao Ran said, she still loves him.

But she hesitated to take that step again.

Wang Hao's call came in at this time.

"Thank God, I finally got through to your phone..." Wang Hao sighed with emotion.

Su Xiaomu frowned slightly in doubt, and asked in a low voice, "What? Do you need me?"

"The doctor said that the boss is still weak and has mild ulcers, but he insisted on leaving the hospital in the afternoon, and he is going to take the flight at [-]:[-] p.m. to go abroad to sign a contract. I don't know if he can handle the ten-hour journey. .”

"Ah? Are you with him now? Why don't you persuade him?" Thinking of Jing Yan's vomiting last night, Su Xiaomu stood up excitedly.

"I..." Wang Hao said helplessly, "The boss didn't let me follow, and he is not someone we can persuade."

Su Xiaomu wrote down the flight and time, and rushed to the airport without thinking.

It coincided with the New Year's Day holiday, and the roads in the urban area were very congested. Su Xiaomu called Jing Yan again, but this time it was his turn not to answer. She looked forward frequently, and the traffic queue was moving little by little.

capital Airport.

As the flight takes off, there is an endless stream of passengers, dragging their suitcases and rushing to different directions.

Su Xiaomu quickly found the boarding gate, but the staff told her that the plane had already taken off.

She was in a daze, unable to concentrate, and didn't know what her haste to come meant. She just thought that his body was not fully recovered, Xiao Ran's persuasion, and the text message. He was conveying a message to her. He asked Xiaoxiao to move away, which also meant that he was going to let go.

She buried herself in the sea of ​​people, motionless.

After a long time.

"Xiao Mu?" It was a voice she was all too familiar with.

Su Xiaomu's figure froze slightly without looking back.

Jing Yan didn't allow her to escape, walked up quickly, stood in front of her, and looked down at her for a moment: "Why did you come here? You are looking for me?"

But Su Xiaomu didn't want to look up at him, so she asked sullenly, "Didn't Wang Hao say you were going abroad? But did the doctor tell you to leave the hospital? Why didn't you answer my phone?"

Jing Yan was startled at first, and then caught a glimpse of Wang Hao who was shivering not far away, and immediately understood what was going on, and didn't know how to react for a while, so he just sighed: "My mobile phone is with Wang Hao, and I also I won’t let anything happen to me if I haven’t been discharged from the hospital.” Seeing that Su Xiaomu finally met his eyes, he smiled, “Mr. Smith came to Beijing to discuss the contract in person, but he was delayed for some time because of my problem. He has something urgent to rush back to China. , I should come to see you off, and I will go back to the hospital later.”

Su Xiaomu snorted and gritted her teeth secretly, okay, you Wang Hao, you dare to lie to me, just wait and see!
"Xiaomu, I'm very happy, you care about me." This sentence is an affirmative sentence, said without hesitation.

However, Su Xiaomu's determined tone sounded a bit unbearable. She said in a muffled voice, "Why are you happy? I only made this trip for the sake of you being Xiaoyao's father."

"Yes, I know." Even so, his smile became more and more handsome.

Suddenly, Su Xiaomu looked at him seriously, and finally couldn't help asking: "If I keep ignoring you, what will you do?"

"Then I..." Jing Yan grabbed her shoulders, put away his smile, and answered her seriously, "I'll just keep waiting."

In fact, Su Xiaomu was already moved, but he forced himself to calm down and continued to ask, "How long?"

"When I made a promise to you, I said to myself, you have waited for me for ten years, and I will give you every ten years in my future."

Su Xiaomu pulled his hand down and buried her whole body in his arms: "You have to remember what you said."

He smiled and hugged her tightly: "I will never forget."

——He is not a person who promises easily, when he says it, he will do it.

When walking out of the airport, Jing Yan suddenly stopped and said to her, "I remember the first time I saw you, it was here?"

Surprisingly, Su Xiaomu shook his head: "No, in fact, we met before that." That sunny afternoon, that passing by, made everything that happened afterwards.

These words aroused Jing Yan's curiosity, so he asked, "Where is that?"

"Secret." She smiled without answering.

Suddenly seeing the girl passing by holding a painting album in her hand, she smiled joyfully, tugged at his sleeve and said, "Look, that's my newly published painting album."

Jing Yan followed her eyes and smiled gently: "Yes, I see."

"I put a lot of thought into designing the cover."

"I know, two... little sea otters? What do you mean?"

Su Xiaomu looked at him seriously, and said, "Did you know? Because sea otters are afraid of being washed away by the sea, they even hold hands when they sleep. I also found out about it by accident. I was very moved and inspired me. "

When husband and wife hold hands, they should be in love with each other.

"So that's it, I understand." He said and squeezed her hand again.

But she broke away from him, met his slightly suspicious black eyes, raised her eyebrows and said, "Hey, Mr. Jing, it's not impossible to hold my hand, but you have to... pursue me again."

Then hold my hand and never leave, forever.

(End of this chapter)