The rest of your life is long, you are the most unforgettable

Chapter 6 You Look Like a Friend of mine

1
Luoluo and Amei met in a certain WeChat group. Both of them like to study constellations, and they always chat in full swing in the group chat.

"Luoluo, let's make an appointment this weekend, and let you meet a new friend by the way." There was excitement in Ami's voice that couldn't be concealed.

"Okay, okay, it's time for us to meet, okay?" Luoluo responded affectionately.

The two girls chatted High again in WeChat.

When they met for the first time, they met at the door of a big shopping mall.It was originally for a better meeting, but unexpectedly the shopping mall is too big, and Luoluo is a big road idiot, she can't tell the difference between east, west and north, finally Luoluo landed at the west gate, but Ah Mei waited for a long time at the east gate.

"Ah, you idiot, stay where you are and don't move, I'll come find you." Amei muttered.

Every time Lu Chiluoluo hears "Stay where you are and don't move, I'll come to you", I feel super safe, and I really just stay where I am, waiting for the other party to claim it, like a cat in a lost and found office .

Just as Luo Luo looked around, guessing from which direction A Mei would appear, suddenly, she saw an extremely familiar face.

In an instant, the whole person stood still, and the voices of the whole world slowly dissipated. The face was so clear, and it came slowly from the memory.

In a hurry, the poem by Byron came to Luoluo's mind: "If we meet again someday, how will I congratulate you? With tears and silence." Luoluo's body softened, and she almost couldn't stand still.Thinking about whether his expression would be too stiff at this moment, he stretched out his hand and rubbed it, pretending to be calm.

"Hi, baby, are you Luoluo? I'm Ami."

All the dissipated voices returned to their original positions little by little, and Luo Luo took a closer look, yes, that familiar face was still there, but when he got closer and looked again, he realized that it was not him. some.

There was a beautiful young girl standing beside the man, she was waving to him.

As if waking up from a dream, Luoluo, who had recovered from a dream, quickly squeezed out a smile: "Yes, yes, I am Luoluo, come and give me a hug." Nowadays, the meeting rituals of girls have evolved into hugging, pouting, and kissing. , and then took out his mobile phone to take a self-portrait intimate photo, and then beautified and retouched the picture, uploaded to the circle of friends, accompanied by the text: "Successful face-to-face!"

After completing this series of actions, Amei seemed to remember something, and pushed the boy beside her to Luoluo: "This is Xi Yang, I'm a kid, and I just came back from England."

"Hi, I'm Luoluo."

"Hi, I'm Xi Yang."

This is Xi Yang, but it really isn't him.

As if she had been reconfirmed, Luoluo let out a long breath in her heart, but the next second, she felt a little lost again.She stared at the boy named Xi Yang, and couldn't help sighing, it was so similar.

So much so that when she met Xi Yang's eyes, Luoluo's heart still felt a little nervous, and then her forehead began to sweat finely.

The faces alone are more than [-]% similar, plus they are about the same height, wear the same inner-frame glasses, and have similar dressing styles... When standing on the escalator, Luo Luo still couldn't get rid of his figure in his mind.

It seems to be the plot in many novels and literary films, so similar, I almost thought it was him.

2
After they were seated and the tea was served, the foodie A Mei looked through the menu happily, with a posture of sharpening her sword, Luo Luo and Xi Yang simply gave her the battlefield and let her enjoy herself.

Not knowing what to say, Luoluo still couldn't help it, and said to Xi Yang with a smile: "You look like one of my friends, really very similar."

Or maybe I feel that I am sorry for God's secret arrangement if I don't tell about such a wonderful fate.

"You look like one of my friends", it sounds like a very common greeting when meeting for the first time.

So when Luo Luo plucked up the courage to say this to Xi Yang, he didn't take it seriously, as if he fit in well with the greetings, he pretended to be surprised and asked politely, "Is it really similar?"

Luoluo suddenly realizes sensitively that it is not convenient to get involved in too many intimate personal emotions when meeting for the first time. Adults’ social interactions are always calm and gradual. Private treasures.

"If you look carefully, there is still a difference. You are much more handsome than my friend." Luoluo complimented with a smile.

"That's right, Xi Yang was the school girl in our class, and many girls have a crush on him." A Mei suddenly broke in a sentence, which just broke the embarrassment that flitted through Luo Luo's heart.

"How is the order, don't order too much, be careful if you eat too much, you will be killed!" Xi Yang laughed and teased her, taking it as a small retaliation.

After eating, the three of them took a walk in the summer night wind.

The bright lights are overflowing everywhere, the vehicles on the road are constantly flowing, there are tall buildings on both sides, and neon lights are flashing.The dazzling world made Luo Luo feel a little dazed, and during the meal just now, A Mei, who was very excited, ordered a bottle of whiskey. Luo Luo, who usually doesn't drink at all, didn't want to disappoint her, so she drank some.At this moment, the alcohol is still there, my feet feel like I'm stepping on cotton candy, and my cheeks are hot.

Amei and Xi Yang were chatting, and Xi Yang was telling Amei interesting stories about him in England all night. Amei listened attentively, staring at him with glowing eyes, wishing to suck him into his pupils.

It seems that sensitive women are born with a special function, and they can accurately judge who the girlfriends around them like just by simply observing.The accuracy rate is [-]%.

A Mei likes Xi Yang, there is no suspense.

So during the whole process Luoluo talked to Xi Yang, she was very cautious. She might be too cautious, but she would rather think too much than A Mei.This is a very important one in the code of self-cultivation of a good girlfriend.

Suddenly Amei's cell phone rang, and she walked away to answer the call.

Xi Yang turned around, glanced at Luoluo, and said, "You seem a little silent today."

Luoluo took a sip of the ice water in her hand, sobered up a little, and said, "I'm sorry, I was out of shape after drinking at night. Besides, Meimei and you chatted so happily, and I am happy to be an audience."

"Your face is really red, we will take you home first." Xi Yang said very gentlemanly.

"Okay, I'm sorry." Luoluo didn't try to be brave, and agreed.

"It's dead, my roommate just called and said that the water pipe at home has burst, and I have to go back quickly." A Mei hung up the phone, walked over anxiously, looked at Xi Yang and said.

"Then I'll take you back first, and then Luoluo." Xi Yang put his hand on Amei's shoulder, signaling her not to worry.

Amy smiled reassuringly.

3
Xi Yang's car passed through the third ring road and headed north.

A Mei sat in the co-pilot and made a few more phone calls, looking for a property owner and a plumber.

Lying in the back seat in a daze, Luoluo looked up at Xi Yang's side face, a smile appeared on the corner of his mouth, and a familiar voice came from his ear:
"You look like a friend of mine."

It was an ordinary afternoon.

After finishing her tutoring work, Luoluo rushed back to school. She remembered that there was a lecture in the evening, and the speaker was a writer she had always liked.

After digging out her bag for a long time, Luoluo realized that she forgot to take her student ID card when she went out.The school has a perverted rule that students must show their student ID cards when entering and leaving the school on weekends.

Looking at the security guard on duty in the reception room, Luoluo called out "bad luck" in her heart. The serious older security guard was on duty in the reception room. If it was another young security guard, she might be able to get away with it. After all, young people are easy to talk to. Some.Right now it's the same thing, Luoluo is lying on the window of the reception room, pleading with the old man.

"Master, I'm really a student of this school. I'm already a sophomore. I'm from the management department..."

No matter what Luoluo said, the stubborn uncle always had a cold look.

At this moment, a voice sounded from behind: "Master, this is my classmate, we are in the same class, can I take her in..."

Hearing this, Luoluo was overjoyed, there is no limit to the road, and when she turned her head, she realized that she didn't know the boy in front of her at all.

When the boy saw Luo Luo, he lost his mind for a second or two, and then he winked at her, Luo Luo immediately understood.

After entering the school gate, Luoluo quickly thanked her.

The boy stared at Luoluo's face, let out a long breath, and said, "You look like one of my friends."

Luoluo covered her mouth and smiled. At that time, she didn't know what kind of story was hidden in the boy's heart. She just thought he was naughty, and because he saved her, she turned to strike up a conversation.

Luoluo teased unceremoniously: "Why don't you follow Baoyu's example, I seem to have seen this younger sister somewhere?"

The boy seemed to realize that he was misunderstood, but he didn't try to defend himself. He smiled and said, "I picked up a younger sister for nothing, and I'm very happy."

Luoluo blushed, and the boy had the upper hand for no reason.

But he didn't seem to want to continue pestering, he waved his hand and said, "Goodbye, classmate." Leaving Luoluo standing where she was, she was a little confused.

All the encounters, at that moment, we didn't know the mystery of them. We just felt that those ordinary encounters would eventually become countless passing bys, nothing special.After all, in the vast sea of ​​people, we have to meet so many people every day, even if we occasionally meet people who look similar, it is extremely common.

But the subtlety of fate lies in that it is neither a step early nor a step late. Fate is actually hidden in those ordinary things, as if a lot of ups and downs have been laid in advance to create this mysterious encounter.

While listening to the lecture at night, Luoluo unexpectedly ran into the boy who rescued her again. The boy joked with her: "Hey, isn't this my sister Lin?"

After sitting down and chatting for a while, Luoluo learned that the boy's name was Daxiong, and he was one level higher than her, from the English department.And both of them liked the author who came to share that night very much, and the two of them had a congenial exchange about his works.

At the end of the show, Daxiong asked Luoluo for a phone number and WeChat, and Luoluo no longer held back, and exchanged contact information generously.Walking on the campus at night, the cool breeze was blowing, the two of them had nothing to say for a while, just walked silently.Out of the corner of her eye, Luoluo noticed that Big Bear had been observing her, so she took the initiative to break the silence: "Do I really look like that friend of yours?"

Big Bear smiled innocently and said, "It's a bit similar, but you are you after all. I'm glad to meet you."

Later, Luoluo found out that the friend Daxiong was talking about was actually his deskmate whom he had a crush on in high school, a very powerful academic master who was sent to the United States by his parents when he didn't take the college entrance examination.

Before he had time to confess, those heart-pounding feelings became a secret in one's heart.Occasionally thinking about it, occasionally thinking about it, is like starting a locomotive motor, it starts up suddenly, but soon dies down, and the locomotive can only be parked at the seaside of missing.It wasn't until another person appeared in his life that the motor was successfully started, and he drove away from the sea of ​​longing to start a new journey.

Who would have thought that another person would come with a similar face, this is probably destined.

4
But how can fate easily go as one wishes.

Luoluo once thought, if there were no mushrooms, would she be with Big Bear?It should be, even though she was someone's shadow at the beginning, but she knew that when he liked her, he never used her as a substitute.

He really likes her, this is what she is most grateful for, and it is also the place where she can't face mushrooms the most.

But she still hurt him after all, and she pushed him away with her own hands, even though she loved him.She is just an ordinary girl. In front of her best friend Mushroom, she lacks self-confidence deep in her heart.

Mushroom looks sweet, and she is bound to appear in every entertainment party of the school. Mushroom has also participated in various singing and dancing competitions on behalf of the school many times.If she was just a beautiful vase, maybe Luoluo wouldn't be so inferior, but Mushroom has a good academic performance, knows calligraphy, loves British and American culture, and has a good writing style. She has published many articles, and most importantly, she has always maintained Kindness and humility.

In front of a perfect person, you take what she wants for granted, and you will consciously shy away from what she wants, because what she likes will make you feel unworthy.

Luoluo can never forget that one afternoon, Mushroom excitedly pushed open the dormitory door, pulled Luoluo's hand, and said excitedly that she met a boy in the English corner of the school and fell in love with him at first sight. I couldn't help being shy and excited.At that moment, Luoluo was extremely curious, what a wonderful person it would be to be in love with a perfect person.

No one realized that the thread of fate entangled them so easily.

She also couldn't forget that in order to inquire about the boy's information, Mushroom pretended to meet him again and again, and devised some tricks to get close to him.And then jumping for joy at the success of the trick, that's what every girl who falls in love has.

For the first time, she felt that love is really magical. No matter how perfect you are, once you fall in love with someone, you will unconsciously become humble, but that humbleness makes mushrooms more attractive, and sincere love will make a person exude charm The brilliance, that is the strength and courage given by love.

"Luoluo, I finally know his major. He is one year older than us, majoring in English. No wonder he is so good at English.

"Luoluo, I want to sign up for the school speaking competition, so I can find an excuse to approach him.

"Luoluo, I'm so happy, he finally agreed to me, he is willing to be my instructor during the whole competition!

"Luoluo, I asked him out for dinner as a way of thanking him, can you come too? It's the first time I'm alone with you, I'm so nervous, I'll feel at ease when you're here, okay?"

Of course she agreed immediately, firstly, she wanted to see who Shen Sheng had captured her goddess so easily; secondly, she knew that this was a kind of trust that Mushroom had placed in her, and a woman would be unguarded only if the relationship was extremely close. Introduce your favorite opposite sex to each other.For this, she was extremely moved.Women's friendship is sometimes a mysterious thing.

Everything changed the moment Big Bear sat down.At that moment, Luoluo felt a certain kind of sudden stop deep in her heart, replaced by another kind of turmoil.If there were three cameras that could record the expressions of the three of them, it must be very interesting. This may be a trick that God used to play.

Mushroom is happy, she is immersed in the joy of Big Bear coming to the appointment, thinking that this is a heralding starting point, about love.

Big Bear was the most relaxed, he only thought it was an ordinary meal, because Mushroom said it was to thank him, so he really didn't think much about it, even after seeing Luoluo, he was surprised and delighted.

Luoluo was probably the most tormented of the three. She never expected that Mushroom liked Daxiong. At that time, she and Daxiong had known each other for several months. Because they often ran into each other on campus, chatting on WeChat gradually increased, and Daxiong has repeatedly found various reasons to ask her to participate in activities... She has noticed something subtly, but she still dare not confirm it, and the confirmation is only a matter of time, the distance between them is getting smaller and smaller, only waiting for a certain time across.

And the uncertainty in my heart was confirmed the moment I saw the happy smiles on the faces of Big Bear and Mushroom.She liked him, but from the next second, she told herself that she couldn't.

Naturally, during the dinner, Da Xiong said that he knew Luo Luo, but he only briefly described the process of the acquaintance, and did not mention other details.Mushroom listened, exclaimed Fate, then moved close to Luoluo's ear, and whispered: "If I knew you two knew each other earlier, I wouldn't have to work so hard."

Luo Luomiao understood what she was referring to, but for some reason, she nervously added: "But Daxiong and I are just ordinary friends, we are not familiar at all."

After the dinner that day, Mushroom went to look for Big Bear more and more frequently on the pretext of participating in the competition.Luoluo deliberately avoided the big bear, but Mushroom talked about the big bear in front of her every day, and she had to listen. She didn't want to know his recent situation and daily whereabouts, so she borrowed Mushroom's mouth to let her know everything. .

In addition, Mushroom continued to create various opportunities to maintain close interaction with Big Bear. Big Bear even came to their dormitory, because Mushroom's computer was broken, and she asked Big Bear to fix it.Luoluo happened to be there at the time, but she hurriedly found an excuse to slip out, creating a chance for Mushroom and Big Bear to get along alone...

Luoluo's several deliberate evasions finally caught Big Bear's attention.

"I've been wanting to ask a question. You seem to be avoiding me on purpose recently?"

"Nothing, why should I avoid you?"

"I don't know, did I do something wrong? I remembered that you had promised to borrow books with me in the first map, but then you said you were busy and didn't go; it seems that after that, you deliberately alienated me .”

Yes, after the meal that time, she pushed back the invitation that she had promised to Daxiong.Luoluo was surprised that he was so meticulous, but still pretended to be calm: "I'm really busy recently, preparing for the English test."

These words are very effective, and Big Bear really thinks that she is just busy, and the so-called alienation is because he thinks too much.After all, he would rather just think too much.

5
Unknowingly, time went to a few days before New Year's Day of that year. Mushroom was briefly entangled in why Big Bear didn't take any further action, so he planned to confess his love on the night before New Year's Day.What she didn't know was that Da Xiong also planned to confess his love that day, but the person he confessed to was Luo Luo.

Thinking about it now, that day was supposed to be full of festive joy, but under the impetus of fate, accidents and mistakes were staged.

Big Bear sent a text message to Luoluo: "Can you come down for a while? I have a gift for you."

Mushroom was not in the dormitory at the time. Seeing the word "you", Luoluo's first reaction was to take the gift from Daxiong for Mushroom. What she didn't expect was that after Daxiong gave the gift, he confessed his love without warning. :

"Luoluo, I like you, can you be my girlfriend?"

Luoluo was stunned, she looked up at Big Bear dumbly, met his sincere eyes, and said: "No." Just after she said these two words, she suddenly felt the pain from the bottom of her heart. Sad and heartbroken.At that moment, she realized that for so long, her deliberate avoidance was completely ineffective. Deep in her heart, she was afraid that he liked her, and she was afraid that it was just her own passion, and his confession confirmed that she was not self-made. She magnified the secret entanglement in her heart, and the source of this entanglement was that she had unknowingly deepened her liking for him.

Maybe it's because Mushroom's daily nagging has helped her understand him better; maybe it's because she has witnessed Mushroom's growing love for him.

As long as you don't like it, you can alienate and escape more simply and neatly.In a dilemma, someone always needs to be hurt, and the two evils are the lesser of two evils. When choosing between hurting mushrooms and herself, she chose the latter without hesitation.

She really hoped that the mushroom would come true.

"But I don't like you, the person who really likes you is a mushroom."

Big Bear was confused for a moment, but after two or three seconds, he suddenly understood something. He is a smart person, and he can't be fooled easily: "So, you hide from me because Mushroom likes me? But I only treat Mushroom as an ordinary friend. Before, it was because she asked me to tutor her in the speaking competition. Later, I learned that you are roommates. It was because of you that I would not refuse her repeated requests. Because I thought I could get closer to you through her. Couldn't she have misunderstood?"

"Mushroom is so beautiful, she is so kind, she is good at studying, she is good at everything, why don't you like her?" Luoluo didn't understand, she really felt sorry for Mushroom.

"Because I liked you first, there is no way I can like others." Daxiong put his hands on Luoluo's shoulders, and embraced the weak girl in his arms.

Lying on the big bear's shoulder, she couldn't hold back her tears, but she couldn't tell what she was crying for. She seemed to have everything and nothing at all. She cried for the mushrooms, she cried for herself, and she also cried for the big bear ...Thinking that she is such a contradictory person, maybe she will not get love, and she is destined to lose her best friend. Thinking of this, she cried even more sadly.

"She planned to confess to you today, I just beg you, try not to hurt her. If possible, I hope you like her." Luoluo cried out of breath.

That night, Mushroom confessed to Daxiong, and Daxiong declined Mushroom on the grounds that he already had someone he liked, but he didn't immediately say that the person was Luoluo.He promised Luoluo not to hurt the mushroom directly, thinking that this was the best way.

When we were young, we took detours to protect the people we wanted to protect in the way we thought. As we all know, sometimes direct confession can cut the mess quickly and minimize the damage. The longer the delay, the greater the damage.

After Mushroom was rejected, she was very depressed for a while, Luoluo took care of her and enlightened her all the time.

Would the ending have been different if there hadn't been a scene of encountering the truth later?
Mushroom walked through the school's grove that day, and heard a familiar voice: "The person I like is you, not her. She is very good, but it has nothing to do with me. Why do you force me to like her? Can feelings be compromised? "

"She's so nice, why can't you like her? What do you like about me? Because I look like your crush, you just take me as a substitute, don't you?"

"Qin Luoluo, do you want to hurt people like this? I admit that I thought you were similar at first, but I like you only because you are you. Do you know what liking is? You don't understand, you have never liked anyone!"

"It doesn't matter whether I like you or not, how I wish I didn't like you..."

……

Mushroom stood in a daze for a long time before straightening out the cause and effect, the ins and outs.Tears filled her eyes, and then overflowed: "Stop arguing, you two, I don't need any mercy and charity. Why didn't you tell me the truth in the first place? I don't need your sympathy! Qin Luoluo, we have known each other for so long, I Taking you as my girlfriend is not to let you give me a man, I am willing to compete fairly, and I can afford to lose."

To offer sympathy to a proud man is to insult.

Later, Mushroom took a break from school for a year, and then went abroad to study, and had no contact with Luoluo, and never said a word.Luoluo was not with Daxiong either, the two of them rarely met each other in school, and when they met, they were like strangers.Big Bear graduated the following year.After graduation, he approached Luoluo again, trying to ask for forgiveness.Perhaps because of social experience, everyone gradually understands some ways of the world, so they are particularly nostalgic for the pure love on campus.

Based on this reasoning, he should have gone looking for mushrooms too. As for the result, Luoluo doesn't want to know.It might be good not to contact each other, but she couldn't imagine how to face it. That bizarre love triangle was like a huge hole in her campus youth.

When we were young, we always let ourselves fall into heart-wrenching emotional entanglements because of our clumsiness and naivety; but when we grow up, we only yearn for crisp love and hate, express what we like, and let go of what we can’t get , those who miss it will also miss it, there is no need to look back.

6
The farther you go to the north, the fewer lights, and the night gradually gathers.

Luoluo fell asleep, the alcohol dissipated, and she slowly woke up.Press the window, there are speeding vehicles outside the window, the evening wind whistling in my ears, and the stars that seem to be absent in the sky.

I thought of a saying I heard many years ago: "The law of energy conservation is also obeyed in the arena of emotion. If you lose here, there will be another person to make up for you; if you apologize there, there will always be someone in the future." let you relax."

Luoluo had thought countless times, if Big Bear hadn't met her first, if she hadn't looked like the girl he had a crush on, he would definitely have fallen in love with Mushroom.

But what did she do wrong?If there were no mushrooms, she and Daxiong would be nothing more than ordinary couples on campus in the end, falling in love, or breaking up in the end.

Sitting in the back seat, looking at Xi Yang's profile, she suddenly missed Mushroom and Big Bear terribly. She really loved them both, but she couldn't have both.

Seeing the falling tears in the mirror, Xi Yang just silently handed over the tissue box.

"Do I really look like that friend of yours?" Xi Yang asked.

"Well, very similar."

"It sounds like there are many stories. But don't be too sad, there will definitely be regrets in life." Xi Yang comforted her.

Yes, there are bound to be regrets in life.

Tired all day, working overtime until late, almost jogging to catch the last train, but missed it, you stand numbly on the platform, tears can't stop falling down;

After staying up for several nights and researching a lot of information, the plan you tried your best to do well, but in the end it went wrong;

Carefully typed a lot of words, deleted them one by one, and then typed out each word carefully. After brewing for a long time, the greeting still hasn't been sent out;
And, people who want to see but dare not see, love who want to talk but can't say it.

Therefore, in the "New Friends" column of the WeChat address book, the "Accept" next to Daxiong's name has never been clicked.

Have you ever met a person who is similar to an old friend in your life, not only in appearance?Especially the one who wasn't together, the one who loved without a happy ending.

They may be the same constellation;
They may come from the same place;
They may have similar dietary preferences;
They may have similar life experiences...

We are like failed students who fail a class and retake that credit.In that similar person, we mistakenly think that we can practice a perfection.Sadly, most just repeat the same mistakes.Because those similarities, in all fairness, are really common.You think it is an unusual arrangement of fate, but in fact, it is just a secret "can't let go" in your heart.

They are not the same person after all.

We may all meet someone who looks a lot like him again, but we don’t have to go back and chat with the old person; we don’t have to be grateful for this strange fate and what happened to the new person.Sometimes the cycle of fate plays out similar plots, just to let us understand some truths in our own stories.

7
"Here we go, rest early."

"Well, thank you. You know, Amy likes you."

"I know, I like her too."

"very nice."

Fate is ingeniously arranged, but it can also go with the flow.

(End of this chapter)