The rest of your life is long, you are the most unforgettable

Chapter 8 I still like you, longer than love

1
A WeChat message is displayed on the phone.

Chunxia glanced at it, it was Anan who sent it: "The restaurant is busy, come quickly, we are waiting for you at the school gate."

Afterwards, Chun Xia lightly packed up the textbooks and put them in her bag, slipped out of the study room, trotted all the way down the stairs, pushed open the glass door of the library, and glaring sunlight shone down on her head.

In autumn in the north, the sky is high and blue.

As for the autumn in the south, Chunxia almost couldn't remember clearly.

She is a senior, and has been in Beijing for three years without knowing it.She didn't go home for three consecutive summer vacations. In other words, she had lost her home a long time ago. Her father remarried and her mother traveled with a group. They all let go of their grievances and started a new life.On the contrary, she seemed to be particularly concerned and rarely reunited with them.Perhaps it was because she was always brooding.

In the summer after the college entrance examination, on the day Chunxia received the admission notice, she was extremely happy, her life was about to open a new chapter, she was looking forward to it, eager to try. "From now on, you are an adult, you must be independent and have your own opinions." Dad said meaningfully.But what caught her off guard was that next, her father told her personally that he and her mother had divorced when she was a sophomore in high school.In order not to affect her studies, they pretended to be a family and lived under the same roof.

After listening to her father's words, her brain was buzzing, and she suddenly remembered those rumors that her father had a mistress outside, and remembered that her mother's eyes were red and swollen all day long, and it turned out that the rumors were true.

Faced with the sudden change, Chun Xia who was standing still could only choke out one sentence in the end: "Did the mistress force you to divorce, or did your mother voluntarily divorce?"

Before Dad could answer, Mom answered for him first: "It doesn't matter who mentioned it, what matters is that you have grown up."

what is love?No matter how sweet and eternal love is, it cannot last long, nor can it escape the fickle heart.

That summer, Chunxia was completely reborn, and she really became an adult: makeup, drinking, part-time job, and went to Beijing ahead of schedule with her luggage... In fact, even if her parents divorced, they can no longer rely on their parents' Take care of her in name. "Take care of yourselves first, don't restrain me."

Others thought that the upcoming college life had changed her, even her parents thought so.Only she knows that it is the loss of a home that forces her to grow up quickly, and it is the disappointment in love that makes her understand that there is no one in this world she can rely on, and that she should never rely on a man in the name of love.

Thinking of this, I arrived at the school gate before I knew it.

Anan was waiting for her on a motorcycle under the shade of a tree.

Anan is the uncle's son.My uncle's family opened a restaurant in Beijing a few years ago. My uncle's youngest daughter has a heart problem and has been seeking medical treatment. My uncle's idea is very simple. There may be a possibility of a cure in Beijing. Even if the cost is high, he doesn't care.Chunxia was very moved by the decision of her uncle and aunt. A family is a family when they are together like this.

When my uncle learned that Chunxia was admitted to Beijing to study at a university, and the lease of the restaurant expired, he quickly changed a restaurant not far from Chunxia's university.Get closer, at least I can take care of this niece.

Chunxia didn't go home during the summer vacation, so she stayed at her uncle's house and helped out in restaurants, ordering, serving, washing dishes, selling beer, grilling skewers...she knew everything.She doesn't hide anything from her classmates, everyone knows that her uncle owns this restaurant, and if you come here for dinner, you can get a discount as long as you declare Chunxia's name and show your student ID.

But most of the people who came were boys, and there were also some who misheard the rumors and made troubles. Fortunately, they were all resolved by Chunxia in the end.

2
This table tonight obviously has ulterior motives.

Just as Chunxia was about to bring the draft beer to the table, one hand beside her touched her hand holding the plate maliciously, her center of gravity was unsteady, and she focused on the draft beer on the plate, while the glass in the other hand Lost balance, spilled beer. "Oh, oh, oh, oh." A fat boy screamed strangely.

Chunxia hurriedly put down the plate, pretending to be in a hurry to wipe off the boy's wet clothes: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry."

"This is the new clothes I bought today, you just say sorry and you're done?" The boy raised his big greasy face and asked in a loud voice.

There was too much movement, and the people at the surrounding tables all looked sideways.

Chunxia smiled: "I'm sorry, I really didn't mean it. Do you think this is okay? I will punish myself with three cups."

"Three cups of draft beer? Are all draft beers mixed with water, okay?" The others booed.

"Then three glasses of red wine, the three glasses of this glass are almost a whole bottle." Chunxia looked pitiful and begging for mercy, but in fact she had already snorted a sneer in her heart: "Young lady, you still blackmailed my sister and me!" I'll let you see how powerful my sister is in a while!"

"It's not good for so many of you to bully a girl." A male voice came from behind.Chunxia turned her head, and saw a handsome boy, the childishness on his face had not faded, about 1.8 meters tall, thin and white.Chun Xia thought to herself, with your "little boy", you still want to be a hero to save the beauty?Don't piss off the people at this table, I will save you in the end.

Chunxia smiled lightly and said: "You misunderstood, they didn't bully me, I accidentally spilled wine on someone's clothes, it was my fault. Thank you for seeing the injustice." Then, he turned to the bar and shouted, "Anan , bring a bottle of red wine."

In front of everyone, Chunxia drank the red wine in one go, her face was not red, she was not confused, she seemed to be okay. "Alcohol, I'm done drinking, I've disturbed everyone's pleasure, please continue to use it slowly." The fat boy and the young boys at the table were shocked, knowing that they had met a master of drinking, they looked at each other embarrassingly give up.

The "little boy" was also taken aback, and he felt embarrassed before he realized that the girl didn't want him to be a hero to save the beauty, so she went back to her seat embarrassingly.

"Hahaha, it's so embarrassing, you freshmen, have you seen the charm of your sister Chunxia?" The boy who had dinner with "Little White Face" laughed.

"Sister Chunxia? Is that the girl just now?"

"Have no one told you yet? The beautiful girl just now is called Chunxia. This restaurant is opened by her uncle, and she often helps out here. Many boys in our school come here to eat because of the reputation. I came to see the beauty of the senior sister. Also, the senior sister is a senior, and most of the time is busy with internships and writing papers, so it is difficult to meet in school. Let me tell you, the first time I met Chunxia senior sister..."

The boy's noisy chatter stopped instantly, and changed to a stunned and surprised expression.

"Thank you for seeing the injustice on the road just now. This is a fruit plate for you to express your heart." Chun Xia had a polite smile on his face.

"Hi, senior. I'm Mu Yunfan, a freshman. I just heard about your introduction from the senior. I didn't expect to meet a beautiful senior in this way. It's a great honor to meet you." Mu Yunfan stood up and stretched his arms. shot.

Chun Xia didn't reach out, but smiled politely, nodded and said: "If you like the taste of the food here, you are welcome to come here often." Then she turned and left.

Looking at that figure from behind, Mu Yunfan felt for a moment that his "retribution" was coming.

In the past 18 years, although Mu Yunfan has had many girlfriends, without exception, he got them easily. He has also broken the hearts of many girls, but he has always defended himself: "It can't be blamed. Who, it's not that I begged her to love me, she loved me voluntarily; if you want to blame, blame God for giving me a good skin, who says women are not lustful, give them an ugly man, you see they will not Will jump up..."

Furthermore, he also knew that the status of his parents in the local area also gave him a layer of gold on Mu Shao.

He knew from a very young age that what others loved and feared was the him in people's eyes, not the real him. Would anyone want to know the real him?But his skin and fame are obviously more alluring.Even if you are not like that, but people around you think that you should be like that, then you are like that, and you must be like that, otherwise you will have to spend a lot of time explaining.However, what is the point of explaining to preconceived people?Simply misunderstand each other, people are self-righteous anyway.After all, this is the normal state of our lives.

After regaining his senses, Yunfan realized that the feeling of "retribution" was actually love at first sight.There has never been a woman he can't hold, Chunxia may be the first.He felt faintly in his heart.

3
After returning to school, Mu Yunfan paid attention to her for several days, but she did not see Chunxia.

He inquired about the girls' dormitory where Chunxia lived, and went to the dormitory every morning and evening, hoping to have a chance encounter, but the plan fell through. "That's right, the sophomore senior said that Chunxia has already done an internship in her senior year, and she might be living off-campus." Thinking of this, Mu Yunfan felt extremely depressed.

"Send flowers every day? To a small restaurant? No, it's too vulgar.

"Buy a bunch of balloons, tie a huge banner, say 'I like you, Chunxia'? No, no, it's too public and high-profile, it doesn't feel like Chunxia's style.

"Are you going to work in Uncle Chunxia's small restaurant and find an excuse that you want to increase your social experience to get close to Chunxia? No, no, what can a person who can't even wash a bowl do?"

……

Mu Yunfan's mind was in chaos. He thought of many ways to pursue and get close to Chunxia, ​​but he denied them all. Those tricks might work on other girls, but he didn't have any confidence in Chunxia. Those little tricks and tricks are quickly seen through by her, and her eyes are so beautiful that they seem to see through all attempts.

Extremely dejected, Mu Yunfan, who was haggard because of Yixiao, wandered around the campus anxiously... It turns out that liking someone is like this, like taking a stimulant, the whole person is energetic, thinking about her all the time; However, apart from her, he was not interested in anything.

For some reason, Mu Yunfan finally slipped into the library. He wandered around, picked the one with the fewest people, and sat down by the window.He put on headphones to listen to music, opened a diary he carried with him, and started writing.This has been his habit for many years. He will record the boring, happy, sad, and unexpected people and things in his life. This is probably a kind of loneliness.No one knows his secret of keeping a diary, just as no one would believe that he, Mu Yunfan, has so many friends and can't find anyone who can speak his mind.

In fact, there is nothing to be hypocritical and sad. He must not be the only one who is lonely in this world.Perhaps, loneliness is the true meaning of life.Mu Yunfan shrugged, and suddenly he saw a familiar figure. At that moment, he changed his mind again: "When two lonely people are together, maybe they won't be so lonely."

"Hey, senior sister, why are you here?" Yun Fan went up to say hello.

"Hi, it's you." Chunxia immediately recognized him as the "little boy" who was going to help her in the restaurant that day, but she had forgotten his name long ago.

"I'm Mu Yunfan, the 'Yunfan' in 'Hanging on the Clouds to Help the Canghai'. My parents have placed too high hopes on me, and I'm afraid they will be disappointed in the future." Xia had forgotten his name, so he introduced himself again calmly.

"Mu Yunfan... I remember you. Today we had a dissertation guidance meeting, so I asked for leave to come to school. Just after the meeting, I had nowhere to go, so I came to the library to kill time. I didn't expect to meet you, but you also Doesn't it look like someone who will appear here?" Chun Xia joked.

"It seems that I'm really famous. Even the senior sister who doesn't hear anything about the school has heard rumors about me." Mu Yunfan's playful smile came again, "What kind of person does the senior sister think I am?" Woolen cloth?"

"The rumors are all fueled, some say that you are a rich second generation, spend money like water, and spend money and wine; others say that you used your good looks to go and hook up with the girlfriend of the sophomore student union president. You are really daring. That girl came to you after breaking up, but you refused to admit it, saying that you never liked her at all, and that you liked a foreign language teacher who stayed at the graduate school..." Chunxia looked for books on the bookshelf, and said indifferently Tell Mu Yunfan all the gossip you hear.

"Then what does senior sister think?" Mu Yunfan stared at Chunxia's face intently, trying to capture the subtle changes.

"What I think is not important at all, what you are has nothing to do with me." Chun Xia glanced at Mu Yunfan, then took a book from the shelf, and returned to his seat.

Mu Yunfan pursed his lips, pretended to be angry and sat across from Chunxia, ​​spread out his notebook and continued to write in his diary.

Chunxia raised her head to see how he was concentrating on writing, and suddenly she missed Lotte in the south a little bit, and remembered how they were in their third year of high school, sitting by the window to read books and do homework together like this.

In fact, they have had some conflicts recently. She wants him to come to Beijing to develop, and he wants her to go to Shanghai. The more similar the two people are, the more they know each other's weakness, and they are deadlocked like this.Chun Xia doesn't know who will compromise in the end, in fact, it doesn't matter who compromises, meeting opponents is the mode they have been getting along with for so many years, and it is almost a love mode.Because I love someone, I never relax, take the other person as my goal, follow closely, and grow and move forward together.

Yes, Chunxia always firmly believed that if her mother hadn't put away her gorgeous wings, given up her career, and willingly became a full-time wife for love, she and her father would not have drifted away and let others have a future. Take this opportunity to steal their love.The stupidity of a woman is that she gives up herself for love, and in the end she is looked down upon by men and loses love completely.

Therefore, she will not compromise easily, and she wants the other party to understand: We are always evenly matched, even if we lose love in the end, we must not lose our self-esteem.

Anan once questioned her distorted view of love: "Sister, aren't you tired of loving so much?"

"An excellent person chose me out of the sea of ​​people, which means that there is something in me that attracts him, and he is willing to love me; but I recognize his excellence, and feel that a relationship with him can benefit from it even if we break up in the end It’s very shallow, so I accept his love. This is the contract we reached from the beginning, the love between masters is destined to be a war without gunpowder. You won’t understand.” Chunxia didn’t intend to continue explaining, She knew Anan couldn't understand.

4
It was getting dark, and after reading about half of the book, Chun Xia looked up and found that Mu Yunfan, who was opposite him, had fallen asleep at some point.

Look at the time, 06:30, it's almost time for dinner.Chun Xia got up and walked around to Yun Fan's side, just about to wake him up, when she suddenly saw a portrait drawn in the lower right corner of his notebook, carefully identified it, it turned out that it was herself.She was hesitating how to wake up Mu Yunfan, but he woke up in a daze.

"Are you awake? It's time for dinner, it's time to eat." Chun Xia hurriedly moved away, pretending not to see the portrait to avoid embarrassment.

Yun Fan also hurriedly closed the diary, his confused expression was actually worried, whether Chun Xia saw him drooling in sleep, and the saliva flowed onto the diary in embarrassment.

After dinner, Yunfan proposed to go for a walk on the playground, Chunxia thought that he would have nothing to do at night, so he agreed.The two of them didn't chat any more, they seemed to have something on their minds, Yunfan's cell phone was beeping non-stop, it was WeChat and calling again, Yunfan looked at it once or twice at first, then turned the phone to silent, and never heard from it again. read.

Chunxia smiled and said: "The girls will not be able to find you, you should go back quickly, I will be almost done walking around by myself."

"They're all irrelevant people, don't worry about it." Yunfan looked at the gradually falling night and the abandoned railroad track behind the grove in the distance. "Senior sister, in your eyes, am I a person who is idle and doing nothing?" Yun Fan asked in a low voice.

"The impression you have given me so far is indeed like this, but it is not useless, after all, you are sincere. But if you want to ask, would I like someone like you, frankly speaking, I would not." Chun Xia Leaning side by side with Yunfan on the railing, she paused after speaking, looked at Yunfan, then turned her head and continued, "There is no love for no reason in this world. Who do we like, most of the time it comes down to various psychological factors. The needs are mixed, but in the end whether we will be with the person we like depends on internal and external factors. Of course, the internal cause is the persistence and hard work of two people; the external cause is much more complicated, consisting of many conditions and factors Decision. For example, you have never been short of girls to like since you were a child, so the person you will like must be someone who is completely different from you. This is because of your psychological needs for complementarity or rebellion. But in the end, You will still be with a girl who is in the same world as you, because when we mature, we will all understand that it is more time-saving and labor-saving to go with someone who is in the same direction than to go against the current alone. live a happier life.”

"I like you very much now, I think you are different from the girls I met before." Mu Yunfan looked at Chunxia and said, "But I know what you mean, you mean I like you, but in the end We will definitely not be together. But why, how do you know what the result will be if you don’t try it?”

"This is a ridiculous misunderstanding. In fact, there are many things in this world that you don't need to try one by one to know the result. You say you like me, but you don't like me, but I don't care about your arrogance. When you grow up, you have more maturity and experience, but these are not irreplaceable, when you grow up slowly, meet more people, and have rich experience, you will naturally lose your childishness and become mature and stable." Finished speaking Chun Xia fell silent.She suddenly realized that she had talked too much tonight.

Yun Fan looked anxious, he really wanted to refute her, but he couldn't find any strong evidence, so he finally opened his mouth but didn't say anything.

The two of them were silent for a long time, listening to the night breeze, looking at the stars in the night, and Chunxia looking around the playground, thinking that they were about to leave here and start a new journey in life, they felt sad again.

In just over three years, she has already clearly felt the changes in herself. What about the three, five, or ten years after graduation?She didn't dare to think about it, and suddenly felt that such a fleeting life was really scary.

But Yunfan is different, he is probably lonely, but he has not yet experienced the desolation of life, he is well protected, has not experienced the world, is still young, and is still playing games ignorantly.A lover is a toy, and so are friends. It takes a moment of growth before the fog can be cleared and everything in the world has its own responsibilities.

"It's getting late, let's go back." Chun Xia suggested.

Yun Fan nodded, and the two walked back together.As soon as they walked to the gate of the playground, a person ran towards them raising his hand from a distance: "Mu Yunfan, why are you here? It's easy to find me!"

"Meng Fan, why did you come to our school? Even if our school is close, it's dangerous for a girl like you to run around so late at night!" Mu Yunfan grabbed the girl named Meng Fan, and sternly taught her a lesson. she.

"Who told you not to reply to WeChat or answer the phone? I came here just to confirm, when will you go home tomorrow Saturday? When you leave, you pass by our school and pick me up. By the way, there is a dinner party for Uncle Qin tomorrow night. Let's go together, what color suit do you want to wear? My clothes have to match you..." Meng Fan stopped in the middle of speaking, walked up to Chunxia, ​​and said with a smile, "Sorry, I'm in a hurry , When I saw Yunfan, I told him about the matter, but I didn’t see anyone behind him, no, she is still a beautiful woman, Yunfan, why don’t you introduce me?”

"Hello, I'm Chunxia, ​​and I'm about to graduate in my senior year. I'm sorry, because I have something to discuss with Mu Yunfan, which has delayed his time and made you worry, so come to the school to find him." Chunxia generously said to Meng Fan He introduced himself, turned to look at Yunfan, and said, "It's getting late, it's really not safe for the girl to be outside alone, you can send her back safely later, I'll go first."

"I'm Meng Fan, Yunfan's childhood sweetheart. It's getting late, see you senior, bye, we'll play together again when we have a chance." My sister almost became her rival in love.

5
Ever since I ran into Chunxia-senpai in the library last time, I haven't met her at school for a long time.

Mu Yunfan's life is still the same, but from the bottom of his heart, he doesn't want to be a person who "does nothing and has nothing to do".Although Chunxia didn't say it outright that night, his dignity as a man was still a little stung. She didn't like herself. To put it bluntly, it was because she was not good enough. Apart from the label of "rich second generation", there was nothing else in her body. of.

He actually took the initiative to ask his father to arrange some part-time jobs and internships for him, starting from the most basic work.At first my father thought he was doing it for a little pocket money, but when he saw how serious he was, he felt relieved.

In a blink of an eye, the new semester is coming, and the senior graduates only have to submit their thesis and graduation defense.

Mu Yunfan walked on the campus, and occasionally thought of Chun Xia senior sister. He went to a small restaurant a few times later, and met Chun Xia a few times there, but they only met each other in a hurry, and the two didn't talk much.

In fact, he wanted to tell her that he was in love. He was a girl from the Art Department who studied painting and was born in an ordinary family.After the parents found out, they were really opposed, but they also said: "We don't care about dating in college, but getting married as a daughter-in-law is absolutely impossible." At first, the two were still affectionate. Over time, because they knew what the outcome would be, they simply became indifferent to each other and got along with each other in a neither salty nor indifferent manner.But without the motivation to persist, love is not love.

Everything is going as Chunxia predicted.

Mu Yunfan even thought in his heart that he didn't get Chunxia, ​​but he followed the gourd painting and found a girl who was very similar to Chunxia, ​​and experienced the procedure of love again.But he also knew very well in his heart that that girl was still not Chunxia, ​​and in the end, he was even a little ashamed: it was ridiculous to find a substitute and try to experience love because he didn't get it.

When they were in love, Meng Fan rarely came to him.Mu Yunfan doesn't care about her, every time he falls in love, she disappears automatically, until he returns to single, she appears out of nowhere again, heartless, as if all the harm has never happened like that.

He knows that Meng Fan likes him. From childhood to adulthood, he was his follower when he was young. When he grows up, she wants to be his girlfriend. A woman's mind is nothing more than this, not to mention that the innocent Meng Fan has everything written in his eyes. , In the expression.

Mu Yunfan also asked himself: Why don't you like Meng Fan?

The answer is: he is more afraid of hurting her than whether he likes her or not.He treats her like a younger sister, except that he pretends to be deaf and dumb in terms of feelings, and he wants her to be well.From childhood to adulthood, apart from his parents, she was his only little friend who hadn't changed.He knew that he was immature, and he didn't have the courage to touch such a heavy relationship. He didn't know what the future would hold, but at least for now, he would not allow himself to destroy the pure friendship between them like a crystal ball.

Well, one-sided pure friendship.Yun Fan scratched his head, admitting this in his heart.

6
One day near the end of the semester, Mu Yunfan received a WeChat message from Chunxia. He was taken aback. He looked closely and found that it was a message from Senior Chunxia: "I'm in a bad mood, drink with me, the ×× store at the east gate of the school."

After Mu Yunfan arrived at the place, Chunxia had already ordered a lot of beer, and also served side dishes and skewers.In order to adjust the atmosphere, he smiled again: "Senior Chunxia, ​​long time no see, are you ready to drink a case? I have seen your drinking capacity, you have never been drunk before, right?"

"Alcohol is not intoxicating and everyone is intoxicating." Chunxia looked up and saw Yunfan, waved his hand, and motioned for him to sit down, "The amount of alcohol was practiced in the summer when I graduated from high school. My parents divorced for more than a year. I didn't know until My dad announced it the day I got my acceptance letter to college. They wouldn't put up with it for another day, and for so long, I was the reason they put up with each other, but I thought they were still in love. Isn't it funny? "

"The adults' world is like this. Do you want to listen to our family's gossip? My dad must have women outside, and my mother must know it too. She doesn't care about it. There must have been trouble at first, but after all, she couldn't control it. So she Just grab my dad's property, and probably have three chapters with my dad, such as not being able to have children with women outside, and major traditional festivals must be celebrated at home... To put it bluntly, it is bound by various factors such as face, identity, and me That's why there is no divorce, and the superficial peace is maintained." Mu Yunfan looked calm and calm.

Looking at him, Chun Xia felt a little distressed suddenly, he was definitely not like this in the beginning, but after a long time, he accepted the reality.

"Didn't I tell you, I have a boyfriend, a high school classmate, and he's in Shanghai now. A few months ago we discussed for a long time whether we should stay together in Beijing or Shanghai, and we both gave each other many reasons ..." Perhaps with the help of Jiu Jin, Chun Xia chattered about her love to Yun Fan.

She knew that he couldn't give her any advice, but this night, she needed to talk, she wanted to talk to someone, it was not important, she just wanted to get rid of such confusing emotions, she needed an outlet to vent.

"We are about to graduate, and we are almost ready for a long-distance relationship in a short time. However, a foreign study tour project he applied for with the mood of giving it a try was actually approved. He wanted to go, but he knew that I would not go with him. We were all in trouble, and in the end he gave up the choice that if I went to Shanghai, he would give up going abroad; if I didn’t go to Shanghai, he would go abroad with peace of mind. When we broke up, it was a concession to each other." Chun Xia drank a glass of beer in one breath, and fell silent.

Mu Yunfan didn't know what to say for a while, only then did he realize that there were so many things hidden in Chunxia's heart. The huge blow her parents' divorce brought to her turned into her future bravado and guard against love. Such a sweet person, but Be strong like a man.But in the face of love, no matter how brave a woman is, she still has a weak side.He suddenly thought of that innocent girl, Meng Fan, who looked weak.But now that she's in love, he doesn't know if she really loves that person, or if it's just an immature act of pique and bravado.She shows her affection in the circle of friends every day. That person really treats her well and holds her in the palm of his hand, but why is she not happy?

After drinking a few glasses of wine, Mu Yunfan said boldly, "Actually, I also have emotional problems. Would you like to analyze it for me, Chunxia? You are more mature than me and know more than me. Meng Fan, you see The girl I used to be, the girl who grew up with me, I have always regarded her as my younger sister, she fell in love recently..."

"Don't talk, let me guess." Chun Xia, whose face was already flushed, stretched out her hand to interrupt Yun Fan, "She is in a relationship, you are not happy, you start to miss her, don't you? And I don’t hide it at all. You show it generously in all the places you can see. You call her and send her a text message to ask her out. It’s more difficult than before, isn’t it? You didn’t need to make an appointment before, and she took the initiative to come to the door Come on, now you have to make an appointment two or three times before she agrees to come out to see you once..."

"You're so accurate, that's it, how do you know?" Mu Yunfan suddenly became anxious.

"She likes you, you have known this for a long time, but you are not sure if you like her. You are also not sure if she still likes you in the current situation, whether you should take the initiative to confess..." Chunxia suddenly Laughing loudly, "You said that you came to accompany me to get drunk and relieved me. How come I relieved you?"

……

Mu Yunfan gradually became drunk. He had never been so drunk before, and he had never trusted anyone so much. He held Chunxia's hand and talked a lot, including embarrassing things when he was a child, and when he was with Meng Fan. Those childhood fun...

In the end, he only remembered that it was Chunxia who sent him back to the boys' dormitory downstairs, and then his roommate came down to pick him up.I don't remember anything else.

7
When I woke up, my mouth was dry and dizzy, I looked at my phone, it was already noon.There are several Wechat messages of Chun Xia senior sister in the phone.

"When you're drinking, you have to call Meng Fan, but I stopped you. What you say while drunk doesn't count. Think about what you want to say to her when you wake up. What girls want is formality and sincerity.

"I decided to go to Shanghai. In fact, there is no such precise balance of power in the relationship. We are all willing to compromise for each other. I believe we are more mature. Love has many forms. As long as you don’t regret it right now, it’s worth it. I have some I understand that my mother's choice back then, and her clean departure later, were all because of love.

"Yunfan, thank you for getting drunk with me. I wish you happiness. Forever senior, Chunxia."

Looking at Chunxia's WeChat, Mu Yunfan felt an indescribable warmth in his heart.

He wanted to say, thank you, Junxia, ​​thank you for not letting me fall in love with you, so we can be friends so sincerely.I still like you, longer than love.Thank you for teaching me so much, although we are not in love, but you have taught me how to love.

He wanted to say, I still don't know whether to confess to Meng Fan, but luckily you blocked my reckless drunk phone call last night, thank you for your consideration.But I know there will be a moment when I clearly know what I want for her, and at that moment I will definitely not hesitate.And other emotions mixed in before that, I don't allow them to interfere with my judgment.

He wanted to say that we still don't understand love, but luckily we never lost the courage to explore love.There will be a person who understands all our loneliness and patience, all our strength and weakness in the past. After he understands, he will love us more.

There must be such a person.

(End of this chapter)