The happy life of living with the best school girl

Chapter 187

"." I didn't dare to look at her, I kept my head down, and I didn't even have the courage to look up.But I can feel that Chu Chu has been looking at me, she must really hope that I can look up at her at this time.But I can't do it, really, I can't even imagine what I should say if I look up, how to face her.

"But you are still that Su Tong, the Su Tong who makes me feel bad!" Chu Chu choked up, her voice was very soft, "You will habitually lower your head when encountering things you don't know, and blushing with fear."

"Chuchu, I'm really sorry." I finally raised my head to look at her, and then I saw that tears had scratched Chuchu's beautiful face.This girl who made me feel guilty all my life was looking at me sadly, and the tears on her face told me how uncomfortable she was.I really wanted to reach out and rub her soft hair like before and joked: My wife, I know my mistake, please calm down.Then Chu Chu would smile all over her face, breaking her tears into a smile.But I can't, we can't go back to the past.In the end, I could only take out the tissue and hand it to her, and said softly, "You, don't cry, okay?"

Chuchu didn't take the tissue I handed over, she lowered her head and cried softly.Hair fell from her face, covering her face.I couldn't see her expression clearly, but I knew she must be trying not to cry, and her petite shoulders kept shrugging because of sobbing.I hate myself for seeing it, I'm sitting in front of her right now, but I can't help her in anything.The guilt in my heart was overwhelmed, like sharp thorns stabbing hard at the softest part of my heart.For a moment, I couldn't help stretching out my hand in the air, wanting to put it on Chuchu's head.But in the end I gave up, and I said to myself: Su Tong, today you are here to make it clear to Chu Chu, what you want is to cut off all ties with her, and you can only be ordinary friends, so you can no longer give her hope , you should cut off your relationship with her once and for all, the long-term pain is worse than the short-term pain.In the end, I just sat there quietly and waited for Chuchu to calm down by herself.

After a long time, Chu Chu finally stopped crying.She took out a tissue to wipe off the tears on her face, then raised her head, forced a smile and said, "Look at me, I told myself not to cry before I came here, but I still couldn't help crying."

I looked at her with a gentle smile. "It's okay, don't be bored when you have emotions, it will feel better to cry."

"Yeah." She nodded and lowered her head to sip the orange juice in the glass.

I see that the time is almost here, and I want to clarify what needs to be said once, otherwise I don't know what will happen later.

"Chuchu." I said, and she looked up at me. "I want to tell you something." Before I could say the following words, Chu Chu's tears came out again.

"Su Tong, can you not say it?" She looked at me with pleading eyes, and I couldn't help but feel the pain in my heart.Chuchu, the girl I once loved the most, today, I want to hurt you so deeply, I'm really sorry!Really sorry!I meditated in my heart, finally made up my mind and shook my head.

"Perhaps, you already know. I'm already in a relationship with Zhuo Ying." It was very difficult to say these two words, and seeing Chu Chu's painful expression, my tears were almost uncontrollable.

"Is this true?" Chu Chu looked at me in disbelief, and then begged me desperately, "Su Tong, I beg you, can you lie to me, don't tell me the truth, okay?"

My heart is already bleeding, and now I can't turn back, since I said it, let me tell it all.Chu Chu, good girl, once you get enough pain, you will never feel any pain again.We always have to face the fact that we cannot be deserters.I owe you this time, and I will definitely find a chance to make it up to you in the future!
"Actually, what you saw in the room that day was the same." In order to stop the tears from coming out, I blinked desperately, then turned my head to the side, not daring to look at Chu Chu. "Actually, Zhuo Ying and I have been dating for a while. It's just that I haven't told anyone about it."

"Su Tong, don't, I don't want to hear what you said." Chu Chu desperately covered her ears, her hair was messy and tears stuck to her beautiful face, her whole body was trembling, and she kept screaming "Don't" , other people in Blue Moon looked at us strangely, I could only comfort her constantly: "Chuchu, calm down, calm down." At this time, the waiter also came over and asked what happened ,Do you need help?I said it's okay, but some emotions are out of control.The waiter politely said that if you have any questions, you can call him, but please be quiet, other guests have complaints.I waved my hand to signal him to go away.

"Chuchu." I couldn't speak, "You have to take good care of yourself"

"Su Tong, can you forgive me? I know I was wrong, I was wrong, I shouldn't treat you that way" Chu Chu didn't listen to me at all, she just cried and begged me, repeating these words over and over again.She wanted to hold back crying, she tried to show me a smile, but her tears kept flowing down.My tears finally flowed down silently.

Chuchu, I'm sorry!I'm really sorry, I can't hurt Zhuo Ying again for you.She is also an innocent child, a child who is not as strong as you.If she gets hurt, she will just like me, quietly hide and cry while looking at the wound.You are different from her, I believe you will be able to stand up again.Didn't you say before that even if the sky falls, I will stand up for it?Because I am taller than you.You are so optimistic, you will be able to find a better man than me, you will.You are so cute and beautiful, you have to take good care of yourself!I will bless you!

"Chuchu. I'm sorry!" I finally could only say these three words.At this time Long Lei came over and asked me what was wrong.I smiled wryly, nothing, I told her the truth.Looking at Chu Chu who was crying on the table, Long Lei sighed deeply and shook his head.

"How about this?" he asked.

"Send her back to the dormitory after she calms down." After I finished speaking, I suddenly thought of someone, "It's better to call Lu Qinghua and ask him to come and take her back."

"En." Long Lei nodded.

Soon, Lu Qinghua came.He also looked haggard, with stubble on his chin like weeds on the ground.

"You can send her back later." I looked at Chuchu, and finally said cruelly, "Long Lei and I have to leave beforehand."

Lu Qinghua looked at Chu Chu worriedly, and immediately ran to help her, but was thrown away by Chu Chu.He pulled me and asked, "What's wrong with her? What's wrong with her? Why is she crying so sadly?"

I looked at the man in front of me, and suddenly felt relieved, all the hatred I had towards him had vanished.I know that he loves Chuchu, and loves Chuchu very seriously.And I am no longer worthy of loving her.

"It's nothing, I just told her that I already have a girlfriend." I said this sentence again cruelly, thinking I was very chic, but in fact, only I knew that my heart was bleeding now.Ever since I finished Lu Qinghua's phone call, I kept putting my hand in my pocket and pinching myself through my pants. I told myself that this was my punishment, but the pain had already numb my nerves, and I couldn't even feel the slightest pain. less than. "Send her back, let's go." After I finished speaking, I walked out of the blue moon quickly, and Long Lei immediately followed.The heart, inexplicably flustered at the moment of stepping out of the door, is like a kite with a broken string, falling and falling.

"Su Tong, is it wrong for us to do this?" Long Lei asked me.

"I don't know." I just want to find something to do now, and then immerse myself in it, forgetting everything, including myself.

"Chuchu, we are really sorry for her." Long Lei said hesitantly.

"I know, but I can't find any other way to solve this matter at all." I smiled wryly and looked at the cars passing by the street. The earth is still turning, and people's lives are still going on. My business stops.Everything, everyone, is to some degree alone, they don't rejoice because of your sadness, but some people do because of you.This is the world!

"Where are we going next? Shall we have a few drinks?" Long Lei asked me.Before I could answer, my back was dragged backward by a force, and I staggered for several steps before stopping.

"Damn looking for death." I was upset, and when I encountered this kind of thing, I burst out of anger.But when I turned my head, it was Lu Qinghua who I saw, "How could it be you?"

"It's me." After Lu Qinghua finished speaking, he gave me an uppercut on the chin, and the pain made my eyes shine golden.After taking a few steps back, he couldn't stand still, and fell down on the fence beside the road.Long Lei saw it and wanted to go up and beat Lu Qinghua.

"Long Lei, don't hit me." I got up, and there was a fishy-sweet taste in my mouth, probably bleeding.I walked up to Lu Qinghua and smiled helplessly. "Did Chu Chu call you here?"

"No. It's me. I hit you." After speaking, he punched me in the face again.I'm so fucking stupid. I knew that Lu Qinghua was going to hit me, but I didn't even think about avoiding it, so I just got punched again.At this moment, Long Lei couldn't stand it any longer. He ran over and pushed Lu Qinghua away, cursing, "You fucking never finish!"

I touched the face that was swollen immediately, and blood overflowed from the corner of my mouth.Damn, this time I lost my appearance. Fortunately, I already have a girlfriend, otherwise I will be single for the rest of my life.

"Is the fight over?" I smiled at Lu Qinghua, "I'll leave after the beating, and tell Chu Chu that I don't blame her at all for the two punches I received."

"You're not a fucking human, so you wouldn't lie to her?" Lu Qinghua suddenly choked up and roared, "Do you know how much she hopes to break up with me and come back to you? If you don’t go home and work here, you will give you a birthday present in order to make money. Do you know that she doesn’t want anything but just wants to see your smile? Do you know that she feels uncomfortable when she sees you with other girls? It’s so uncomfortable but I don’t blame you at all, you can only tell me your sadness.” Lu Qinghua cried, and he yelled until he squatted there and buried his head in tears like a child.

I stopped the steps I was about to go, and stood there like a piece of unconscious wood.Hehe. Why is this world always so sudden?Why do I know nothing about this?Why am I always the last to know about Chu Chu?My tears fall!
"Why can't you even lie to her? Why don't you even give her the chance to live in fantasy? You are so cruel!" Lu Qinghua was still talking.

I slowly walked up to Lu Qinghua and looked at this crying man.I think I should laugh, why should I cry?I am so happy to have such a good woman who loves me like this, but why do I still cry?I don't want to cry, I want to smile happily, but I can't laugh at anything.

Chuchu, you are a fool, a big fool, why do you always secretly do these things for me?Why did you also learn to suffer alone?Why?It's a pity that it was too late, and I didn't even give her the last chance to make up for it.I always thought that even if I tell her that I have a girlfriend again after breaking up, she will only be in temporary pain for a while, and she will get better after a while, and I always thought that doing something for her can make up for my pain mistake.But I was wrong, so wrong that I didn't even want to tell her a white lie.I was so cruel, I raised my knife to slash at her knowing that it would bring pain to her, I knew it was unfair to her, but I believed that time would heal everything. I am the fool!We two fools!

"You, why didn't you tell me earlier?" Tears flowed down my face and into my mouth, it was bitter, but my heart was even more bitter. "Why didn't you tell me everything earlier? Why am I always the last to know the news?" I don't care if this is the side of the street or not, anyway, I don't care about the image today, so just yell.

"Because, she always hopes to surprise you, but you miss her so much every time." Lu Qinghua raised his head, with tears in his eyes and snot dripping from his nose.

I suddenly remembered a song by Zhou Xun - "Too Wronged", but I don't know who is wronged in our group?it's me?neat?Zhuo Ying?Or Lu Qinghua?No one told me.

"You know, when she wanted to break up with me, and I didn't agree, she threatened me to commit suicide. She said she still wanted to come back to you, and she said you would forgive her because you loved her so much. But she Forget that people will change, forget that there will be other women around you." Lu Qinghua looked at me sadly, and shook his head helplessly, "She has always been sweetly looking forward to building everything about you and her future, but not Knowing that the only thing waiting for her is the cliff, and you're the one pushing her down."

(End of this chapter)