My captain is kind

Chapter 92
"Xixi, are you going with mom, or who are you going with?"

"I'm not leaving." Bai Yanxi said word by word without looking up.

In the end they followed her, and Bai Yanxi still lived here. She gave them both a card, saying that they would just send their living expenses on time every month, and they would have no other contact in the future. They agreed, and then left without any memory , leaving Bai Yanxi alone.

Gone, all gone, those who should go will go sooner or later, from now on, she will be left alone in her world, without any worries.

Life is like a journey, at the beginning there will be a car full of people to accompany you.Because of different dreams and different choices, some people got off the car halfway, and some people got on the car on the way.

At every fork in the road, there will always be some people met and missed, but in the end, there are only a few people left in the car.

In a person's life, there are only a few people who can accompany you to the end.

However, how many people can let go of some things, those beliefs, those distant places, those dreams, those passions?

If you haven't picked it up, how can you talk about putting it down.Don't forget the original intention, forge ahead.

In the pure white and clean living room, the curtains were drawn, and the slightly scorching sun slanted in through the window, making the whole room clear and bright.

When the two of them had left, Bai Yanxi suddenly put down the phone, curled up in a corner of the sofa, curled up her legs, and pressed them against the tip of her nose, trying to suppress that uncomfortable feeling.

Maybe it was because she forced herself to calm down for too long, she could no longer maintain the calm and indifferent expression on her face, the tears in her eyes poured out like rivers and lakes, she couldn't control it anymore, and burst into tears.

It took a long time for Bai Yanxi to restrain her crying a little bit. She raised her head, her bright red eyes choked up, and said, "Grandpa, will you always watch me in the sky from now on?" Her voice trembled.

Seeing her in the abyss, walking alone.

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On the sixth day, it was sunny.

In the spotless room, white bookcase, white computer desk, light blue wallpaper, the whole room is blue and white.

On the blue and white bed, Bai Yanxi lifted the quilt, got out of bed, walked barefoot to the window, and opened the blue curtains.

In an instant, the bright sunshine in the morning shines directly on the whole room, making the originally blue and white bedroom look warmer and brighter.

When she first moved here, it was the room chosen by her grandfather. It is warm in winter and cool in summer, and it is the place where the sun shines most.

Bai Yanxi returned to the bed and took out her phone.The sun shone on her face, refracting colorful light.

The already good-looking eyebrows and eyes, the exquisite and three-dimensional facial features, and the fair skin look even more exquisite and translucent.

The room is pure and clear, and the sun is bright and moving, but this light can't shine into Bai Yanxi's heart, can't illuminate her world, can't warm her heart.

Bai Yanxi raised her hand and clicked into Weibo, opened the homepage, and flipped through the Weibo updates. She hasn't touched her phone for a long time, especially when the college entrance examination is approaching, she hasn't opened Weibo much.

Her last post was in the freshman year of high school, after she represented the school in the National Computer Programming Contest for High School Students and won the prize.

There were no extra words in that post, only two photos.The first one is a group photo of the top three in the competition. She is the third runner-up, standing next to the champion with the runner-up. The young man in the middle has wide eyebrows, dark eyes like ink, and a delicate and beautiful face.

The second one is a photo of her holding a trophy with her grandfather.At that time, she learned programming by herself after taking classes. Although it took her a lot of time and energy, she fell in love with programming.

The girl in the photo is wearing a school uniform, smiling openly, with a beautiful smile on her lips, which is touching.Maybe it's because of the people next to her, her bright and moving smile is full of peace of mind.

Bai Yanxi tapped the screen, and then posted a new post, only a short sentence: light is gone, hope is gone, and only darkness is left as a companion.

Brightness, in the past ten years or so, Bai Yanxi's parents didn't love her, and they never cared about her.

She used to think that it was because she was not good enough, not perfect enough, and not as proud as other children's children, that's why parents didn't love her and didn't come back to see her.

So she studied hard and desperately wanted to be the pride of her parents, but later she discovered that it was only her own thinking before.

Ever since Bai Yanxi was born, that father wanted to be a different person, no longer as considerate, gentle, and progressive as before.Instead, he has contracted a bunch of bad habits. He is addicted to alcohol and gambling, and he gambles every day.

It’s okay if you win the bet, but if you lose the bet, you like to drink, and when you’ve had enough, you go home.

As soon as he got home, he asked his mother for money. At first, he would give him as much as he wanted. Later, the number of times increased, and the amount became larger and larger. His mother's day and night shifts couldn't meet his needs.Until one time when she and her mother were so hungry that they had hypoglycemia, her father didn't give him a penny.

Since then, his mother never gave him any money, and he beat his mother. Belts, wooden sticks, chairs, etc., everything at hand can be used as a tool for domestic violence.

At first she just cried on the sidelines, but later he got tired of listening, so he beat her together until she and her mother were covered in bruises, and there were countless bruises all over her body.

After that, day after day, year after year, she was also beaten up by him. When she was seven years old, in the domestic violence that happened almost every day, courage from nowhere filled her whole body. She dragged her mother to run away. out.

As a result, after going out, her mother yelled at her, saying why she couldn't be a boy.

Talk about why she is so worthless, why she is so bad, so bad that she can't even keep her father's heart.

Facing her mother's stern questioning, she was filled with all the courage and strength just now, as if being emptied in an instant, she fell to the ground in embarrassment.

But Mom turned and left, never looking back, until finally, it was Grandpa with a flashlight who found her curled up in a dark corner.Grandpa reached out to her and said to her, "Xixi, come, grandpa will take you home."

She just finished crying, raised her bright red eyes to look at him, and asked: "Grandpa, do you also think Xixi is the worst child in the world?"

"No, Xixi is the best child in the world."

These words are her dawn and her salvation.

After that, she followed her grandfather back to the countryside, and met her grandmother who spoiled her like life.

Maybe from the day grandma left, her sun has been slowly dying out, until now, returning to dust and disappearing without a trace.

Bai Yanxi spent two days in a daze, and the things in the room were in a mess.

She didn't care, she just sat there like a statue.

The spiritual pillar that she had been living on suddenly disappeared, and she would never come back again. She really became an orphan.

She was restless, but there was still no change in her brows.

(End of this chapter)