i hate i love you

Chapter 37 March 2003 Years

Chapter 35 January 2003

Six months after Xing Kai escaped the "SARS" wave, he formally filed for divorce from An Yao in the same year.

The main reason is not because of Xing Yu, but when Xing Kai told his wife that he decided to go to the Chinese embassy in South Korea, An Yao questioned Xing Kai without even thinking about it—do you just want to be with that beautiful woman? Does your Korean teacher live and fly together?
Why would a man want a home?Because home is warm and a habitat for men to relax physically and mentally.

It would be an absolute lie to say that he was not sad. When he married An Yao, it was precisely because she had advantages worthy of being loved, such as being lively and smiling, for example, she was willing to change her lazy habits for her husband, for example, she was always in front of him. Say "I love you" in your ear.

However, when the former comfort turned into chattering quarrels, Xing Kai was convinced that this marriage had lost its original meaning.Of course, he doesn't think he is a good man, he can only be classified as a responsible husband in married life.

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On the other hand, An Yao vowed to die. Although she had foreseen that this marriage would not last long, no woman was willing to face the fact that she was abandoned by her husband.

During the days when the seventh aunt and the eighth aunt of the An family came to visit, Xing Kai had to take the grade exam and at the same time had to deal with the "wild bombing" by An's relatives and friends.But Xing Kai didn't pour bitterness on anyone. After all, he didn't ask anyone for advice when he got married, so he didn't need the support of his family when he divorced.It's just that after the past half month, his whole body has been exhausted, and his face has obviously lost a lot of weight.

What's more, what Xing Kai doesn't know is that Xing Yu also lives in discrimination and ridicule.It was An Yao who bombarded her.An Yao wantonly spread Xing Yu's life style problems in the school.Speaking of places like campus, pretty girls who are not gregarious are mostly rejected by the same sex.And An Yao just helped everyone to open up the chatterbox, and spread rumors like this, Xing Yu soon became a notorious "social butterfly" on campus.

Every day Xing Yu would receive pornographic letters from anonymous boys stuffed into her desk, most of which would ask her if she would like to have a one-night stand, and those filthy words made her feel sick and ridiculous.

Xing Yu often reflects on herself. Not only does Xing Kai think about marriage simply, but she also thinks very poorly, thinking that a man and a woman can live in peace for the rest of their lives after obtaining a marriage certificate.Now it turns out that they were all too young to realize the absurdity of their behavior.Only, take quotations as a warning.

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After school

Xing Yu was walking home alone when she saw three or five elders with familiar faces approaching the compound of the military area. She ran a few steps and blocked the way of the group.

"Uncles and aunts, please go back first, please? This is Xing Kai and An Yao's own business. And Xing Kai is not at home."

"We're going to get divorced before we have the wedding wine? The children of high-ranking cadres can bully us ordinary people casually, right? We're not here to quarrel, we just want an explanation. My Yaoyao family has both talent and looks, so what's not good enough for me?" Is your family Xing Kai? Besides, the husband and wife quarrel at the end of the bed, so I wonder why they have to go to the road of divorce?" An Yao's third aunt was the first to ask.

"I have no right to speak about the reasons for the divorce. I can only answer one of the auntie's questions. If Xing Kai uses his status as a high-ranking disciple to suppress the elders, he really doesn't need to come forward to solve it himself." Xing Yu pointed to the army Peugeot standing in front of the courtyard, He said politely: "I definitely don't intend to anger the elders by saying this. I don't need to say more about where this place is. I just want to discuss with the elders. There should be a limit to everything you do. Even if you don't look at Xing Kai's face, you should save some face for Xing's parents." After she finished speaking, she bowed deeply and apologized.

An Yao's third aunt just wanted to refute, but she was pulled away by her husband. Men who understand the national conditions can naturally hear that these words are not alarmist.To be honest, it's good to stay inseparable, but no one can stop you if you insist on leaving.

"Since you are also from the Xing family, then you can give me an idea. My Yaoyao is looking for life and death all day long, and Xing Kai refuses to see her. We are just worried that our children will not think about it. How about you make an appointment in person and let the young couple Let's have a good talk calmly?" Third Uncle An Yao asked, her attitude was neither humble nor overbearing.

"That's right, if Xing Kai refuses to see my family Yaoyao, we can only wait at the gate of Xing Kai's school. Don't worry, little girl, we are a high-quality family with a higher education, so it's okay to wait for him to come out without shouting or making trouble?" An Yao's fifth aunt said slowly.

Xing Yu let out a long breath. It's not that she couldn't see Xing Kai's haggard these days, she felt sorry for him, and hated herself even more.

"If the elders insist on bringing the family matter to Xing Kai's school, I have nothing to say. I just hope that An Yao can sign the divorce agreement as soon as possible, otherwise the Xing family will take legal measures to resolve it."

"Your Xing family is really ruthless! Your name is Xing Yu, right? I don't want to quarrel with you, so I'll ask you, do you dare to let Xing Kai stand in front of us and say this again?" An Yao The third aunt said angrily.

"There is nothing to dare, I have decided to divorce An Yao, there is no need to discuss this matter."

Standing behind the group of people, Xing Kai pulled Xing Yu up to the gate of the courtyard. The relatives of An's family chased after him, but were stopped by soldiers with rifles.

Xing Kai didn't want to bring the divorce to court, so he always took the attitude of letting things go. He naively thought that marriage could be reunited and separated, but the facts proved that his tolerance and avoidance would only make the whole matter worse. confusion.He even thought he was ridiculous, and he was not too young, so how dare he think about marriage and divorce so simply?Why didn't you think about the attention of so many relatives and friends behind the marriage?
In response to the old saying: Marriage is a matter for two people; once you want to divorce, it is a matter for two families.

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"Am I useless? I really want to leave but I dare not face An Yao..." Xing Kai asked desolately.

"Of course not. This is a common problem of all men. Subconsciously, I'm still afraid that I will soften my heart, not to mention that you are more or less guilty of An Yao." Xing Yu poured him a glass of juice. Help him rub his shoulders behind him: "Brother, stick to your idea, no matter what the result is, I will never interfere with your decision again."

"..." Xing Kai raised his head slowly: "Say it again? Are you really willing to stand by my side?"

Was he wrong again?He returned to his room as soon as he entered the house recently, because he was afraid that Xing Yu would try his best to persuade him, because Xing Yu's words were always the most capable of destroying his willpower.As long as she nags him three or five times, he must be "bewitched".

"It's very selfish to say that, but I really only care about your feelings. No matter if you want to get back together, I will definitely stand by your side." Xing Yu said firmly.

Xing Kai's gaze was blank for a long time, and finally a relieved smile appeared.

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2004 years 1 months,
After three months of cold war, Xing Kai and An Yao officially divorced.

Xing Kai compensated An Yao for 50 yuan for the loss of her youth.An Yao did not propose this item, but Xing Kai paid for it on his own initiative.After all, as a husband and wife, it's hard for anyone to come to this point.

When the husband and wife became strangers, he had completed the most important part of his life ahead of schedule when he was approaching the age of 24.Xing Kaiyao thought about the past, impulsively proposed marriage, but ended the marriage in desperation.Now, he had to face reality, he was still that immature, frizzy, silly kid.

His waywardness alone caused three or more people to be injured. It's too late to regret, isn't it?
For marriage, he no longer has vision.

It was confirmed once again that no matter how hard he tried and how he persuaded himself to change his emotions, he still couldn't put his whole heart in the hands of any woman except Xing Yu.

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the other side.

Xing Yu didn't know where he got the courage to ask An Yao to go home, but An Yao didn't refuse.

The two sat in the garden in the middle of the street, Xing Yu looked at An Yao with a haggard face, but couldn't say a word to comfort her.

An Yao actually took the initiative to speak, "Xing Yu, I won't embarrass you today, let's talk like before, shall we?"

"Forget An Yao, we can't go back to the past. To be honest, I don't feel good." Xing Yu closed his eyes.

"I... I was in a daze at the beginning, and I shouldn't have vented my anger on you." An Yao looked calm, and said, "Now that I think back on my performance back then, I am quite shocked by myself."

Divorce incidents have been turmoil for so long, and An Yao also feels very tired, and when everything calms down, she will wake up to how many stupid things she has done.What's more, Xing Yu didn't show off his power as a winner, obviously she wronged Xing Yu.However, there is no "knowing" about everything, and what should be experienced must be experienced.

"You misunderstood. It wasn't me who was hurt, but the man who originally planned to accompany you hand in hand." Xing Yu breathed a sigh of relief and said, "I admit that I am a selfish woman, and your accusations against me are not unreasonable. Looking back, Your cheerful personality once infected me, I like your outgoing and lively, I really like it. So, I pretended to be smart and entrusted that man to your care, so that even if I leave, I will feel at ease..." She sipped her lips Lips, and said: "In a word, I am the one who should apologize. I was the one who got you involved in an unharmonious marriage. Goodbye." After she finished speaking, she got up and left.

After listening, An Yao looked at her back and sighed.Up to now, she no longer cares about the cause and effect of this marriage.Even though Xing Yu repeatedly reiterated that she was responsible for their marriage, only she knew that when she first met Xing Kai, she fell in love with him at first sight.And it is undeniable that if Xing Kai wasn't Xing Kai, would she still notice him?

So she doesn't blame anyone, she chose this road by herself, even without anyone's help, she will pursue it without hesitation, and even make the worst plan for herself-even if Xing Kai never loves her in her life She, or if she is indifferent to her, she also admits it willingly.

However, she overestimated her emotional intelligence, loved a little, and wanted more. When the desired effect was not achieved, she made herself an enemy of everyone, and unknowingly, she lost her once lovely self.

An Yao sniffed, then smiled bitterly. She had indeed learned a lesson from her failed marriage.Married life is like a rubber band. Both husband and wife stand at one end of the rubber band. If they are pulled too close or too loose, they will lose their hands.

At this moment, An Yao suddenly thought of something, froze for a moment, and murmured: "Entrust? Wait for Xing Yu!" She hurriedly caught up with Xing Yu's pace, and anxiously asked: "What do you mean by that?" What do you mean, where are you going? Does Xing Kai know?"

Without showing a smile, Xing Yuhan answered the wrong question: "Fortunately, you are still young. I wish you a happy and happy next marriage. An Yao, forget all the unpleasant things and only capture the good parts. If you have regretted it .okay?"

An Yao nodded silently, staring at the direction where Xing Yu was gradually going away, unable to understand the meaning of her smile.It seemed to reveal a little sadness.

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Since Xing Kai resumed his single life, the Xing family also slowly resumed their previous pace.Xing Yu went home on time every day. During the days when Xing Kai was passive and reticent, she gave Xing Kai meticulous care, so that he quickly walked out of the shadow of the previous marriage.

Xing Kai deeply appreciates the warmth and tolerance bestowed by his family.He seems to understand that family affection is the most reliable emotion in the world, no matter how hateful you are, the only one who will never leave you is your family.They opened their arms and were our safe haven from beginning to end.

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Mid-May 2004

at dinner

"Xiaoyu, have you decided what I told you?" Xing Kai urged.He will leave for the Chinese embassy in South Korea next month, and the number of family members is still on hold.

"I'm not going, and I don't speak Korean. Besides, I haven't graduated yet."

"What's wrong with temporarily suspending school? I didn't let you go there to meet handsome Korean guys, so what if you don't know Korean? And the internal structure of the embassy is similar to that of a villa. It's not that you are going to suffer there, and you can eat and play. Almost, my colleagues are all Chinese. Besides, I’m by your side.”

"I've been there for at least two years, and it depends on your performance to decide when to return. I won't go." Xing Yu returned casually while watching TV.

Xing Kai smashed his mouth, moved his chair and squeezed to Xing Yu's side, and said pitifully, "Are you really willing to let me work outside alone?"

"It is said that South Korea is full of beauties, you will not be alone."

"Diplomats are not allowed to engage in exotic relationships."

Xing Yu slowly raised his eyes: "...Really?"

"Do you think I'm talking nonsense? In order to ensure that diplomats enforce the law impartially, there are clear regulations. If you don't believe me, go to the documents. I have a copy on my desk."

"Then... what should we do?" Xing Yu frowned.

"What should I do? With you by my side, of course I don't need other women. Besides, I'm so busy there, I don't have time to find a partner..." He paused, seeing that Xing Yu was still indifferent. He just played the sympathy card and said with a smirk: "And you should be very clear as a medical student, is it bad for a man to abstain from sex for too long? Even if you don't want to take care of the eldest, you should take care of the second..."

His original intention never changed.The best thing to do is to accept the fact that she doesn't love him, but he will never allow her to leave his nose.Because, he couldn't do without this woman, ever since she broke into his life when she was 15 years old.

She never announced that she would be stationed permanently, but she had already snatched his soul away.

(End of this chapter)