i hate i love you

Chapter 38 March 2004 Years

Chapter 36 January 2004

Xing Kai will go to the embassy of the Chinese People's Republic of China in South Korea.The ambassador is the first level of leadership in the diplomat series, and in the diplomat series, there are many levels of officials below the ambassador.They are minister, minister-counselor, counselor, first secretary, second secretary, third secretary, and attache in order of rank.In addition, there are military officers and other officials.

Xing Kai's position is third-class secretary, and he is assigned to the Political Department according to his personal ability.It should be pointed out that the first, second, and third secretaries are not arranged in ranks.In actual work, the responsibilities and status of the first, second, and third secretaries are determined due to different locations, different work needs, and different personal abilities.It is said that Xing Kai, a fledgling fresh graduate, was lucky to get this position, and Xing Fuguo obviously worked hard.

……

"Xiao Yu, you really don't want to come with me?" Xing Kai was quite dissatisfied, Xing Yu gave this answer after thinking about it all night.In fact, he did not plan to work in the South Korean embassy for too long. To put it bluntly, he was nothing more than mixing experience and qualifications, so as to serve as an indispensable stepping stone in the process of returning to China.

"Go early and come back early, I'll wait for your triumphant return." Xing Yu smiled.

Suddenly, Xing Kai hugged her from behind, and said persistently: "I was teasing you yesterday, and I definitely wouldn't harass you."

"Xing Kai, I want to ask you a question, how did you live before I lived in Xing's house?"

"Drinking, smoking, fighting, playing games to pick up girls, that's about it, what's wrong?"

Xing Yu touched his cheek, she was worried that the change of the environment would affect Xing Kai's physical condition, but Xing Kai was born to be a kind of person with strong dependence, not that he was timid and shy, but that he lacked a sense of security, So the family has virtually become his most desired pastoral.For this matter, Xing Fuguo has an unshirkable responsibility. He did not leave his son a complete and beautiful childhood, which caused Xing Kai to be in a state of confusion for a long time.

Back then, when Xing Yu was helping him pack his comic books, he saw this sentence. Judging from the handwriting, it was probably written by him when he was in junior high school——Why should people live?Who knows if he's dead?
Since then, Xing Yu knew how much Xing Kai needed a warm home.

Xing Yu turned around, looked directly into Xing Kai's eyes, and said quietly: "Everyone becomes more aware of themselves after going through some things, but don't despair about certain things just because you failed."

"You mean marriage?" Xing Kai glanced at him, she had always understood all his emotions.

Xing Yu didn't answer, and squatted aside to help him undress him. Humans live in groups. Once they feel lonely, they will naturally find ways to eliminate it.

"By the way, didn't you say that you have family leave every year? I guess you shouldn't go for too long this time, so why don't you bring less clothes?"

Xing Kai sank lazily into the soft bed, and asked, "To be honest, do you have a childhood sweetheart hidden in your heart?"

Xing Yu was startled: "Why do you ask like that?"

"You asked about my childhood just now, you must have thought of your own childhood! Tell me, I want to wrestle with you!"

Xing Yu chuckled: "When I was young, I always played alone. Shuttlecock kicking, rubber band dancing, paper cutting and so on."

"Dance the rubber band alone?"

"Well, tie it to a tree and jump as long as you want."

"Is no one talking to you? You were less popular than me when you were young?"

"Who said that I don't like to play with others." Xing Yu is not as lucky as Xing Kai, even if he has no family affection, there are countless people who pay attention.Her parents have been fighting on the front line of emergency rescue in various places for a long time, and her birth was actually an accident.Of course, she only heard about this matter from her mother after she was sensible. Her parents' relationship is not deep, so it can be regarded as marriage with a son.Although the parents brought out a sentence or two inadvertently, they forgot that some words should not be said indiscriminately, which would bring a devastating blow to the precocious children.

[The precocious Xing Yu must not be hurt by accident, and thinks that marriage is unreliable, and marriage can be built on the basis of no love.But then a major event happened that overturned her views on love and led her to go to another extreme. 】

……

Xing Kai squinted his eyes at Xing Yu...

Although there was a smile on the corner of her mouth, Xing Kai didn't think it was funny, at least he was accompanied by Deng Yangming, Xing Yu was really miserable.

Xing Kai raised the tip of his toe to poke her back, and said, "I have something to discuss with you. When we are 30 years old, if you don't marry me and I won't marry again, just let us live together as a helping hand. Can you marry me?"

"30 years old? There are still six or seven years left, we'll talk about it later." Xing Yu's attitude was perfunctory.

"Oh, don't tidy up, let's talk about it first." Xing Kai rolled to Xing Yu's side, and sat down on the pile of clothes.

"I can't make unrealistic promises. Don't press down on your trousers, you have to iron them if they are creased." Xing Yu pushed Xing Kai and pulled out his trousers from under his legs.

"..." Xing Kai climbed back onto the bed, pulled her arm, and dragged her to his side.Xing Yu felt that he was stroking her waist through the clothes, so she pressed the back of Xing Yu's hand and said, "I'll pack it up first."

"?!"... Xing Kai's eyes lit up, he just sneaked around with the mentality of taking advantage, he didn't expect such a good benefit?
……

Today, three years after the siblings got married, Xing Yu once again captured Xing Kai's sight with his graceful posture. He embraced her naked, soft body, and felt a sense of happiness that was lost and found again.

The rapid panting sound spread in each other's ears, and Xing Yu frowned slightly, pandering to the hot kiss and accepting his demands like a tiger.

Xing Kai pursed his lips and smiled, and kissed every inch of her skin. In fact, men don't have much to pursue, and it is enough to be with the woman they love the most.He didn't want to delve into when it all changed, he just hoped that it wouldn't end.

……

From afternoon to dusk, they never separated for a second. Although he was exhausted, he didn't dare to let go, fearing that she would run away again.

"It's almost eight o'clock, are you hungry?" Xing Yu looked at the sky outside the window, beads of sweat were already all over her body.

As soon as her words fell, Xing Kai suddenly put his arms around her back, and both walked towards the bathroom.

The dense white mist lingered around them. He really didn't have the strength to do anything else, but he still had the strength to kiss her. He knew that if he opened his mouth, he would destroy the ambiguous and warm atmosphere, so he only used his body to communicate with her from the beginning to the end.

Xing Yu let him stroke and kiss.She half-kneeled in the bathtub, applying milky white bath bubbles on his skin, helping him to bathe and wash his hair as before, and Xing Kai would rub all the bath bubbles on her body as before, At the same time, they laughed mischievously, as if their relationship had never changed.

Xing Kai found that he began to understand Xing Yu, he just didn't say anything, but he knew in his heart that Xing Yu was telling him with practical actions-you can go at ease, I will not leave you.

This kind of tacit understanding requires a lot of time to exchange, and because of understanding, it is another kind of mental torture for him.She can give him youth and body, but she is unwilling to give up her feelings.

Xing Kai was quite troubled, did Xing Yu lack confidence in himself or was there another reason?Why doesn't he believe that she is his happiness for the rest of his life?

……

Until dinner time, a certain series was playing on TV. The direction of the story was unclear, but there was a small plot that caught Xing Kai’s attention——the heroine was suffering from leukemia. In order to prevent her boyfriend from being too sad, she was heartless. Propose a breakup, even kiss other men in front of her boyfriend.

Xing Kai suddenly looked at Xing Yu's fair face, put down the bowl and chopsticks, and sat her on his lap to observe carefully.

"What's wrong?" Xing Yu stroked his wet hair.

"No, just to see you." Xing Kai stroked her thin lips with his fingertips. He shouldn't think about bad things, but he couldn't help but think wildly.

"By the way, are you an intern at the hospital?"

"Ah."

"Tomorrow, I want to go to your hospital to take a picture. Recently, I always feel uncomfortable in my lungs."

"What kind of uncomfortable method?"

"It's hard to hold back, especially when you're sleeping."

Xing Yu's heart twitched, and he stood up anxiously: "Then what are you waiting for tomorrow, let's go now."

"Oh, it's not that serious. Let's talk about it tomorrow."

"How long has it been? Why didn't you tell me? Didn't you just have a full physical examination? Show me the test report." Xing Yu was already fidgeting.

"..." Just nonsense, about 1 minute.

"All the tests are normal. It should be nothing serious. Don't be so nervous. I'll just say that." Xing Kai pushed her back into the seat. He can basically confirm his weight in Xing Yu's heart, and at the same time prove that Xing Yu did have something to hide from him.

"Should we re-examine? I'll tell the director, and the test report will be issued on the spot."

"Well, I'll listen to you." Xing Kai lowered his head and picked up the rice.He designed it like this. Anyway, Xing Yu accompanied the inspection all the way, and asked her to check it by the way. If she refused the blood test, there must be something tricky.

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Early the next morning, they came to Peking University Hospital, where Xing Yu lived as an intern.

Xing Kai frowned in the face of all kinds of patients, saying that those who are not sick will go to the hospital to play.Oh, he is.

"Brother, come with me for a blood test." Holding a pile of receipts in his hand, Xing Yu walked towards Xing Kai in a white coat.

Xing Kai looked at her solemn appearance, with a stethoscope hanging on her chest, she really had the rigor of a female doctor.

"Where do you usually practice?"

"Emergency room."

"Ah? That's bloody enough." Xing Kai really didn't care about her working situation, anyway, the family didn't lack her salary for meals.

Xing Yu just smiled and said nothing, at this moment, someone walked behind them and called Xing Kai to stop.

Xing Kai's smile was slightly restrained. After all, the voice of a husband and wife can be accurately identified.He turned around and looked at An Yao: "Long time no see."

"How are you?" An Yao instead acted calmly and walked forward with a smile. She nodded to Xing Yu first. Although she and Xing Yu were interns in the same hospital, they were not in the same department and rarely met.

Xing Yu nodded and smiled, and tactfully walked away for a while.

Xing Kai smiled awkwardly: "I'm still like that, what about you?"

An Yao sighed lightly: "It's good. Thinking about what I did back then, I always wanted to apologize to you, but I didn't have the courage."

Xing Kai was startled: "Apologize? How do you say that?"

An Yao sat on the rest chair, played with the stethoscope in her hand, and smiled calmly: "I used to have too high expectations for marriage, thinking that we would have a sweet and happy life as written in a love novel, but now that I think about it...it's quite naive. "An Yao pursed her lips, and said: "It's not that you treated me badly, you didn't feel sorry for me, but that I have been pretending to be confused, knowing that I am not the heroine in your story, but I want to steal the spotlight... ..." Thinking back to the past, Xing Kai actually gave himself what he could give her, but he still lacked the spark of love.

Xing Kai was silent for a moment, then slowly sat next to her, and said with a smile: "Don't mention the past, I'm relieved to see that you're in good spirits. I'm leaving, and I won't see each other for a few years. "

"You still decided to work at the embassy?"

"Well, we're leaving next month, but! It's definitely not for the Korean teacher you accused, huh." Xing Kai teased.

"..." An Yao stroked her hair unnaturally, and said, "That's all out of anger. In fact, I knew very early on that the person you love is Xing Yu, but Xing Yu doesn't seem to understand this."

Xing Kai smiled and said nothing, how could Xing Yu not understand, just pretending to be stupid habitually.

"An Yao, can you do me a favor?"

"Well, you said."

Xing Yu tore off a piece of paper from the cigarette pack, and said while writing: "Help me pay attention to Xiaoyu's physical condition, this is my phone number after going abroad, if you have any questions, please call me in time, thank you gone."

An Yao pinched the number and was startled: "What's wrong with Xing Yu?"

"It's not clear, but I feel that she may not be in good health. She rarely gets sick, but one time she was very sick. When I found her, she fainted on the ground, her face was pale, and her fingers were tightly clenched on her heart. Of course, I hope I'm thinking too much..." Xing Kai frowned worriedly: "Also, please don't ask her."

Having said that, An Yao seemed to think of something: "By the way, on the day we finished the divorce procedures, Xing Yu once told me that she could leave with peace of mind only after entrusting you to me, but she didn't say where she was going, could it be Refers?……"

Xing Kai's heart skipped a beat, my God, it can't be true, can it? !
The two immediately reached an agreement that An Yao was entrusted by Xing Kai to "monitor" Xing Yu's every move, and would notify him as soon as any clues were found.An Yao saw that Xing Kai was so anxious about Xing Yu, it would be a lie to say that she didn't feel it at all.But what else could she do?Xing Kai's eyes have long since lost her image, so she can only retreat behind the scenes to give her blessings.

By the way, the dean's son is pursuing her. This time, she will think carefully about her future.

(End of this chapter)