Late at night, please give me half a cigarette

Chapter 111
Seeing my mother crying bitterly and hugging me heartbroken, to be honest, the hatred accumulated over the years cannot disappear immediately. I also swore in my heart that I will never forgive this treatment of me in this life. Heartless woman.

But when my own mother stood in front of me, knelt down and begged me to forgive her, and said that she had been unable to express her difficulties for so many years, and said that she had been under pressure for so many years, I admitted that I was a little soft-hearted. .

No matter how much I hate her, she is my dearest person in this world. Originally, I could grow up under her care. I should be the most ordinary girl, but everything happened nine years ago Change.

Who should I hate?

Hate my mother?hate my dad?Hate the leader of my dad's construction site?Do you hate this indifferent world, or do you hate that my family is poor and has no money, so you can only sell me and pay back the money to save my dad?
My chest was so tight that it was hard for me to even breathe.

I didn't want to forgive my mother so easily, but what can I do if I don't forgive?Live with her with hatred?Then we might as well not meet each other, not recognize each other.

In fact, I didn't have much hope for finding my real mother before. I didn't expect the police to be so persistent, and they would investigate the abducted child if they had any clues.

I admit that when I heard that my mother was found, I was excited and eager. I even fantasized that if they had a good life, I would taunt them and question them in front of the police. I can't feel at ease with the money I got from selling my children to live a good life!
But when I saw this so-called "home" that was dilapidated and barren, I couldn't say anything.

I also asked myself in my heart, did I just forgive her like this?
the answer is negative.I actually rejected it in my heart, because they couldn't imagine the hardships I have suffered over the years.

But what if you don't forgive?Live together with hatred?We have missed nine years, should we continue to torture each other?
So I thought, since I choose to come to see her, I will try to forgive her and accept her, regardless of the past, as long as she can love me in the future.

Thinking of this, I said softly to my mother: "Don't cry, I'm back now."

When my mother heard me say this, she quickly wiped her tears and said with a smile, "Mom is so excited. Have you eaten your lunch? Mom will make it for you."

"Hmm." I nodded.

"What do you like to eat?" My mother asked.

"...Steamed buns." I thought for a while and said, in fact, I don't know what I like to eat. There are many dishes that I ate for the first time after I went to the orphanage.

"Then mom is going to buy you two steamed buns." My mother walked out as she said that. Just as she reached the door, a boy walked in from the door and walked across from her. My mother looked at the boy with a look on her face. Asked in surprise: "Why are you back?"

When the boy saw my mother, he had an obviously surprised expression on his face, and subconsciously asked, "Why are you at home?"

"Oh!" My mother seemed to realize suddenly, she reached out and took the boy's hand, dragged him to me, and said to me, "Dandan, this is your brother."

When I heard that he was my younger brother, I immediately looked at him excitedly, because in my unclear memory, my brother and I had a very good relationship when we were young. He was two years younger than me and often pestered me to play. His hands were running around in the alley.

But my younger brother's expression was obviously very impatient. He was passively dragged in front of me by my mother, and when he was introduced to me, he frowned and asked my mother, "Who is she?"

"Jianping, she is your older sister!" My mother introduced him excitedly.

"Sister?" Zhao Jianping frowned, looked at my mother exaggeratedly, and suddenly laughed, "Mom, are you confused, my sister died a long time ago!"

"Don't talk nonsense!" My mother glared at Zhao Jianping.

"I'm not talking nonsense! You told me!" After Zhao Jianping finished speaking, he stared at me with a scrutinizing look. That kind of look suddenly reminded me of Long Ge, who bullied the market, and those under his hands. gangster.

Seeing this look in my eyes, I instinctively disliked the younger brother in front of me.

I don't know if I expected too much from this younger brother, so when he looked at me with that look, I was extremely disappointed.

Because I can't see surprise in his eyes at all, and I can't see that I am welcomed by him.

This made me not only start to look at him, but Zhao Jianping looks very good, with fair skin and big eyes. It is conceivable that he will be a handsome guy when he grows up, but I was surprised to find that Zhao Jianping's dress and My mom doesn't fit in with this family at all.

Although I haven't done much research on clothes, the suit he is wearing should not be cheap, because of the brand of his clothes, I often see classmates wearing them in school.His hair was dyed yellow, and he looked like a young man in society.

If I remember correctly, he is only 13 years old this year, and he should be about to enter the second year of junior high school.

"Jianping, she is really your older sister. The police could be wrong. Besides, you two look alike! At first glance, you look like siblings..." My mother was still explaining to Zhao Jianping, but it was obvious that Zhao Jianping was no longer Getting impatient, he waved his hand casually, and said to my mother: "Mom, have you been fooled by the police, and you can believe it if you send a girl at random and say it's your daughter! Our family is so poor, how can you support me?" Can you afford it!"

"..." My mother was speechless after being questioned by Zhao Jianping, and then looked at me with some embarrassment, unable to utter a word.

"Oh, I don't care. I don't care who she is. Anyway, you can raise her if you want, but you can't lose any of my money!" Zhao Jianping stretched out his hand to my mother and said, "Give me 200 yuan!" Yuan money!"

"What do you want 200 yuan for?" My mother asked.

"Tuition and miscellaneous fees!" Zhao Jianping looked too lazy to explain, and shook his outstretched hand in front of my mother, "Hurry up, I'm still in a hurry to go back to school!"

"Didn't you just pay the tuition and miscellaneous fees two days ago?" My mother asked, taking money out of her pocket.

I stood aside and looked at the crumpled money tightly clutched in her hand, some were a hundred, some were ten, some were one and ten.

"Oh, why are you talking so much nonsense! I didn't know that the school charged money, otherwise I would not study, and I would drop out of school tomorrow!" Zhao Jianping said angrily.

"Don't don't!" My mother hurriedly took out 200 yuan and handed it to Zhao Jianping, and said: "Jianping, you are my only hope in this life! You are also the only seedling of our old Zhao family. Promising! Otherwise, I would be sorry for your dead father..."

"Okay! Don't be too wordy! Move my dad out every now and then! I'm so annoying!" Zhao Jianping reached out and snatched the 200 yuan, turned around and left the room angrily.

My mother watched Zhao Jianping leave, turned around and smiled, and proudly said to me: "Dandan, your brother is doing well in his studies, and he can score [-] in every exam! He is the only hope for our family. Now, don’t take offense at what he said, you are a sister, let her order.”

After finishing speaking, my mother said to go out and buy steamed buns for me.

I watched all this with cold eyes, and watched my mother go out to sell steamed buns happily, but my heart was desolate.

Zhao Jianping is her only hope.

Zhao Jianping is the only seedling in the old Zhao family.

Then what am I, Zhao Dandan?

It seems that it is impossible for me to be Zhao Dandan in this life, I am still He Qiu.

(End of this chapter)