my Mr. Ruffian

Chapter 313 Stay For You
Melbourne's winter is much better than that of S City, which is full of ice and snow. The sky is clear and bright, and a thin down jacket is enough to deal with it.It's a pity that no matter how good it is, it doesn't belong to me.I still miss City S, which is full of ice and snow, or City M, which is full of haze in winter.

A sharp pain came from somewhere in my heart, I took a slight step back, and hid behind the curtain with a large shadow, I covered my chest.Pain has become a habit. When I wake up in the middle of the night or see a similar figure on the street, I will always feel a habitual dull pain.

A few days ago, my grandfather was ill, so I went back to S city.I didn't expect to meet her and Zheng Chong in S City.While driving to the hospital, I met her and Zheng Chong coming out of the hotel.

It was cold and damp, and the early morning sky was cloudy with rain.She had a big belly and was pulled by Zheng Chong.Probably because of reluctance, she was a little two steps behind, like a child, with her mouth pursed slightly.

He took a few steps forward, and even kicked Zheng Chong's leg childishly.Zheng Chong raised his eyebrows, stopped walking, didn't know what he said to her, and then continued to walk forward.She was still unwilling, as if complaining about something, the expression on Zheng Chong's face became a little weird.

It can be seen that Zheng Chong is very considerate to her.He took her to the supermarket to buy fresh milk, and then carefully escorted her into the car.

She clearly knew that she would not have a bad life.But I couldn't help but want to follow along.I didn't know until I arrived at the destination that they were going for a prenatal checkup.

I sat in the car blankly without moving, and I didn't even have the courage to get out of the car to say hello... I always thought that freedom is for myself.But now, I realize that confinement is also given to me by myself.

And the most terrible imprisonment is not the restraint given by others.It's the shackles you give yourself.

I have talked about many small and big loves. Although the purpose is not to get married, it is not just for fun.

No one has the taste of peace like her.People can't help but want to stop.

I promised Qi Zichuan, but I never took this matter to heart.He didn't intend to use his body as bait.But I just want to play an ambiguous game that is close to each other.I never thought that one day, I would take it seriously.

Seeing her satisfied smile, or excited cheers, I couldn't help but sink.Maybe the premonition will not come to fruition, I rationally control my emotions, and get along carefully like a friend.

The more cautious you are, the sadder you will be.I didn't even dare to think about what would happen if she knew that I approached her for a purpose.Perhaps, those clear eyes that are grateful and guilt-ridden will suddenly dim, be disappointed and disgusted.

But this day will always come.I thought I was already prepared, but when it really came to that moment, I was so angry that I almost lost my mind.

At that time, I realized that subconsciously, I was afraid, an unprecedented fear.Sometimes, I hate myself for being cowardly. If I confessed earlier, would all this be different?
But when facing those clear and tired eyes, I didn't have any courage.Maybe, that's fine too.What I can't give her, now, someone else is giving it to her.

There was already a strong smell of smoke in the car, and he was about to roll down the window a little, and raised his head, but saw Zheng Chong walking over.That's right, I didn't have the slightest skill in tracking, and if he was a little more careful, he would notice it naturally.

Without any pause in his footsteps, he came over and knocked on the car window.I stubbed out my cigarette and tried to pull a smile, but it didn't work.I think he must have disdain to laugh at me, no more pretense, rolled down the car window, and nodded slightly as a compliment.

He didn't ask me when I came back, he just asked me how my grandpa was doing.He obviously didn't want to greet me very much, he just wanted to solve my love rival who was not a love rival.After saying a few words, he smiled and said, "The baby is already six months old. Young Master Jin didn't come when we got married. If you come here during the full moon wine, you will be very happy early."

After a slight pause, he smiled again and said, "Zao Zao has always regarded you as a good friend, and thank you for taking care of her during that time."

He deliberately bit the 'good friend' very hard, with a half-smile, more like a warning.My throat was so dry that I couldn't speak. I knew that because of the face of the two families, he secretly reminded me to be careful.Unspeakable bitterness lingered on the tip of my tongue, and it took me a long time before I smiled and said hello.

It turns out that I completely overestimated Zheng Chong.He nodded slightly, and left.After walking a few steps, he came back again, tapped his finger on the car window, and said with a half-smile: "Young Master Jin, Zaozao is indeed very pleasing, but if you keep on thinking about it, you may have to worry about it." I've been abroad for a lifetime. The feeling of being coveted by someone... how to put it, it's like having a thorn in the apex of the heart. People can't help but want to pull it out quickly. Well, your brother-in-law and your brother are both me Classmates. They... know my methods very well."

Ah!He is very confident.Although the Zheng family is in the limelight now, the Jin family is not vegetarian.But I know that he can say such a thing, obviously he has full confidence that my brother and my brother-in-law will not let me go back to China.

In fact, it doesn't matter to me whether I come back or not.I shrugged indifferently, but he didn't say much, smiled meaningfully, turned and left.

That night, my brother-in-law asked someone to book a plane ticket and sent me to the airport.He said earnestly: "Ah Cheng, your sister has always regarded you as a child. But in fact, you have grown up. Life must go on, and there are some things that don't belong to you. You have to let go. Your elder sister is planning to have a child, and your elder brother has been tired for so many years, so it's time for you to practice and start a family to take on your own responsibilities."

I didn't speak, just smiled.My brother-in-law sighed, patted my shoulder heavily, and murmured: "You will know one day that life can only move on if you let go."

I think he's right.But, let go, I don't know how to let go.I am poisoned, too deeply.

Back in Melbourne, I am no longer a son who only knows how to eat, drink and have fun.All credit cards are frozen and I'm on my own.

Relying on the family is completely different from relying on one's own hands for food.Finding a job is difficult, and life is like ants.At that time, I realized that I was indeed spoiled too much.It needs the tempering and precipitation of life.

In the tight time, her face gradually blurred in my world.Sometimes, when I stand alone at the station waiting for the bus, I still feel a dull pain when I hear a familiar song or see the dessert in the corner bakery.

But I already know that love is just a part of life.Although, maybe forever, I will never fall in love with someone again...and I will never want to stay for one person again.

(End of this chapter)