my Mr. Ruffian

Chapter 314 Get everything, not as good as you
There is always the will to be worn down, and there is always the persistence to be destroyed.However, only because of one you.

I was only 13 when my mother died.Cinderella married into a wealthy family and lived happily ever after, only exists in fairy tales.This world is cruel, and she died by her own hands.

In my memory, she is not a loving mother.She suffers from severe depression, and when she has an attack, she is so hysterical that I hide in fear.

Maybe, she loved me at first.When you think you are happy.There is no perfect love in this world. I don't know if she will regret the first encounter when she knows that the Qi family is just a gorgeous golden birdcage, and she doesn't even have the right to resist.

Qi Ziyu is only half a year younger than me. When she was pregnant with me, Lin Lan was also pregnant with Qi Ziyu.After she knew of Lin Lan's existence, she drove herself crazy.

The Qi family is a tomb, and she cannot escape.She knew that only death was the only release.Before she died, she was sober.Cooked me a sumptuous dinner, and then died peacefully in my room.

She died in a dream, and when she left, there was still a faint smile on the corner of her mouth.That is the most beautiful smile I have ever seen.

After she left, Lin Lan soon moved into Qi's villa.Qi Yanhua didn't even give me the slightest buffer time.

Jincheng once said that I am cold, maybe, the Qi family members are all cold in their bones.Qi Yanhua, or Qi Da who left, or me, or Qi Ziyu.

Lin Lan is very scheming and knows how to divert Qi Yanhua's attention.Know what to kill.But she forgot that the blood flowing in my blood is called hatred.She forgot that I wasn't a 13-year-old since my mother passed away.

Although the name Qi Ershao sounds good, it almost made me die at an age when I should be acting like a baby in the arms of my parents.

When I was 14 years old, I smashed powder.I can't remember the feeling at that time.I only know that that thing can make me forget all the pain.

I learned half a year later that all of this was Lin Lan's conspiracy.At that time, I found out that she gave me large sums of money, regardless of the reason.

She wants to destroy me, before I threaten Qi Ziyu, destroy me.

Detoxification is painful. I had someone lock me in the basement, and three meals a day were fed through the window.I can still clearly remember the darkness and dampness of the basement.The most painful time was when I cut off my nails with a knife.

The ten fingers are connected to the heart, and even a little movement will hurt.Only pain can keep me awake.Only pain won't make me do stupid things.

Two months, when I came out of the basement.I'm skinny and skinny.I didn't go back to Qi's house again, I thought that I could use my own ability to deal a heavy blow to Qi Yanhua.

Facts have proved that I was still too immature at that time.I have been outside for half a year, worked as a handyman, and worked as a younger brother for others.Because of this pretty face, she was almost taken as a taboo by an old pervert.

The gloom of that time still makes me want to gag in retrospect.I didn't go overboard anymore and went back to Qi's house.

Qi Yanhua didn't welcome my return, and even hated it.Someone presented me, everything during this time to him.Including being almost touched by that old pervert.

Maybe because he felt ashamed of my mother, he didn't drive me away.Instead it sent me to boarding school.Only then did I know that I had to follow the path arranged by Lin Lan.Only if she fulfills her wish, can I survive in peace.

I started drinking and drinking and being the swinger she wanted me to be.Qi Yanhua doesn't care much about me, unless I hurt the Qi family's face.

When I met Yuerou, I was 22 years old.She looks six to seven points like my mother, can cook delicious meals, and can hum my mother's tunes.It's just that she was born in prostitution.

I thought she would be my sharp weapon against Qi Yanhua.I've always wanted to see what Qi Yanhua would do when faced with a person similar to my mother.

Facts have proved that I overestimated Qi Yanhua's conscience.When he saw Yuerou, he didn't even change his face.Probably out of hatred, I blurted out that I wanted to marry Yuerou.

He gave me a cold look, and then said no.That's right, of course he would not allow a mother-in-law and daughter-in-law to look the same.

The more he objected, the more I insisted, and I even wanted to break away from the Qi family.The persistence at that time was just to disgust him.

He beat me up and refused to eat me.After he had nothing to do with me, he actually attacked Yuerou.Knowing that Yue Rou had severe asthma, he made her kneel in the snow all night in winter.When Yuerou was sent to the hospital, she almost died.

I finally compromised, and the price of using others as a tool for revenge was far beyond my ability to afford.At that time, I didn't know what sincerity was.

I can't even face Yuerou's devotion to her.I can only use material things to express my guilt.

I never thought that I would fall in love sooner or later.It never even occurred to me that I would have feelings.I got everything from the Qi family as I wished, Lin Lan and Qi Ziyu left, I didn't feel the pleasure of revenge.

Really, not even a little bit of happiness.The fighting spirit that used to be high-spirited seems to have disappeared in an instant.I want her, and only her.I can't even control myself to do things that I know will never be forgiven.

There is a demon living in my heart, I am no longer me.That night, in the room, staring at her sleeping face, actually wanted her very much.Every cell, every tiny capillary, nerve, can't control the clamor.

But in the end, I got it under control.Because, I don't want to be hated by myself.Not to mention seeing the disgust in her eyes.

When Zheng Chong beat me, I actually felt happy.I borrowed his hand and punished myself.After they left, I was alone in the room for a long time.Under the anesthesia of alcohol, I knew very clearly that all my persistence and fighting spirit had disappeared.

The never-before-seen tiredness and pain filled my nerves, and I just wanted to escape far away, to escape from all of this.

Enmity and hate, the kingdom that was once bound to be won, what, don't want anything anymore.

Nothing is as good as a her, at that moment, I finally knew.Everything is inferior to her.

There was cold liquid flowing from the corner of my eyes, I looked at the pale ceiling, let the huge space rotate in front of my eyes, until I closed my eyes.

After all, I don't belong here. When I left, I went to my mother's cemetery to put a bouquet of her favorite lilies.

I went to see her, she has gone to Plum Blossom Town.When I saw her on the road opposite the supermarket, she was shopping with a little boy.From a distance, I saw the panic on her face.

I didn't go there again, a self-deprecating smile appeared on the corner of my mouth.I finally became, what she hates the most.

There is no return date from here, but I hope you will be safe forever—my little girl.

(End of this chapter)