If the sky will cry

Chapter 46

"But we know it ourselves!"

Li Yingqi was suddenly speechless, but Tan Qianqian said again: "Come here and kiss me now!"

What? ?Li Yingqi was stunned again. Is there a connection between her words?Is this getting a little faster?It was so fast that he was a little caught off guard.

But Tan Qianqian said: "In fact, you can't do it, right? You will also have a hurdle in your heart, and you will always remember that I am your sister, and then you will remind yourself what you should do What should not be done, that hurdle, I can't get over it, and you can't get over it, because it really exists! So I plan to leave here for a while to travel. Only when we are separated can we have the opportunity to try another kind of life, isn't it?"

Li Yingqi was so blocked by her words that he couldn't make a sound, he was always reluctant to let go, but she was right, there was indeed a hurdle in his heart that he couldn't overcome.He doesn't object to her wanting to go on a trip to relax, even if she wants to go alone, as long as she comes back well in the end, he doesn't object, but...

"What about baby?"

Speaking of this child, Tan Qianqian finally couldn't even squeeze out a fake smile, and said her decision with heartache: "I think... let's get rid of him!"

A trace of surprise and sorrow flashed across Li Yingqi's face.

He thought she would be reluctant, after all, she once said so firmly that even if he didn't want a child, she would give birth to him.Now she actually said that she wanted to kill him. If this child was gone, what would be left between them?

"You...decided?" He asked with difficulty, unable to say anything else.

Tan Qianqian sighed pretending to be relaxed, and raised her head. If she still shed tears, it would be better to let them flow back to her heart.

She replied: "Yes! Now I know why you told me to abort the child! I thought about it for a long time, maybe this is the best choice for us and him. We are just sisters and brothers and we must love each other. So hard, then what identity should this child come into this world? We may not be able to give him a complete family, maybe he will grow up under the eyes of others when he is born, maybe he will really unhealthy..."

She tried her best to endure it, but she still couldn't help sobbing when she said this, and it took a long time before she continued: "We made a mistake, shouldn't we let him suffer the crime? Although he didn't have the opportunity to come to this world, But I think... he should be able to understand!"

Li Yingqi nodded, as if a gash had been cut in her heart, but her calmness at the moment had left him without the courage to sew up the wound. If this is her decision, if she can be reborn and happy after this pain, then no matter what she intends Whatever, he agreed.

"Then when do you want to go? I'll accompany you!"

"No need!" Tan Qianqian immediately refused, "Ying Qi, I really don't need it, I didn't expect the scene where we hug each other and cry, I can do it by myself..."

"How can this be done?" Of course Li Yingqi would not agree, he should have been responsible for both her and the child, now that it has become like this, it is impossible for him to let her face this kind of thing alone.

Tan Qianqian still said stubbornly: "Stop talking! I understand your intentions, but I have decided that if you are good for me, I will treat you well this time? Because I will always become very vulnerable in front of you. Very fragile...but the road ahead is still very long, just let me go through this hurdle bravely alone, okay?"

This is the most difficult conversation between them. Even though they are so close, they still seem to be separated by thousands of mountains and rivers, and they don't even have the courage to hug again.

No matter what she said, Li Yingqi would agree, but in his heart, he was crying with her for the child who was about to be lost. What else could he do?Life has hit a wall, besides turning around, is it really necessary to hit a wall together?

"Sorry, I'm the one who hurt you..."

"I have no regrets!" The most beautiful scene in my life is meeting you!
In deep depression and forbearance, they finally continued this conversation calmly to the end, because they only had one common goal, enduring such pain, just hope that the other party can get up from this hurdle, To have another chance to pursue happiness.

In the end, Tan Qianqian still decided to leave, but she didn't know if changing a place would really change her life?
Li Yingqi calmly accepted her decision, and then walked up to her step by step with difficulty, the corners of his mouth curled up into an ugly curve that he himself felt. He was surprised that he could still calmly say to her: "It's okay! As long as you It doesn't matter how long you're happy, I'll always be here, tell me when you want to come back, and I'll pick you up!"

"Yingqi..." She could hear the meaning in his words, but she didn't want him to wait here for her, so she reminded him to face up to the fact, "Maybe I'll never come back!"

Even Li Yingqi's last bit of pretended calm was completely shattered by her words. There seemed to be a sense of resentment and grief burning in his chest, as if he had accumulated all his strength, and his arms had already stretched out following the voice of his heart. Go out, then hold her in his arms and lock her tightly.

"Yingqi..." she called him in a low voice, "Don't do this!"

Li Yingqi didn't seem to hear what she said, and still hugged her tightly, with a taste of self-deception, and said slowly: "No! I know you will definitely miss me, and you will come back when you miss me ..."

His voice became lower and lower, and his head was buried lower and lower in her neck. Tan Qianqian only felt suffocated because she felt that there seemed to be a hot liquid burning her skin. In an instant, all the camouflaged lines of defense collapsed, caught off guard, and burst into tears.

She heard his voice choked, but she still said stubbornly: "You have to take good care of yourself by yourself, and come back when you miss me... No matter how long it takes, as long as you want to come back, I will always be here forever !" As if he was afraid that she would forget, he repeatedly emphasized "always", as if he could already foresee that his life was destined to be for her!
Tan Qianqian's hands froze there, and she almost couldn't help reaching out to hug him in the same way, but she gritted her teeth, stretched out her hand, but pushed him away resolutely.

Then, she rushed into the room at the fastest speed, closed the door, locked it, leaned against the back of the door silently, let her body slide down little by little, and let her tears burst...

She felt like a cage, but at this moment, she wanted to give Li Yingqi a chance to be free.If he had never seen the scenery outside, how would he know whether it was the most correct choice to make a prison for her in this life?
She doesn't allow him to give up chasing all the beautiful things in this world just to love her, and she doesn't allow him to make himself so low, so low, as low as the dust just to love her... She will be so distressed!

Li Yingqi chased after her at all as she expected. She locked the door behind her. He was afraid that she was behind the door, so he didn't dare to open it easily, so he had to use his last strength to knock on the door while plead.

"Qianqian, can you open the door? You can't treat me like this, Qianqian..."

"Yingqi, listen to me!" Tan Qianqian finally stood up again, and said to him through a door, "I need time, we all need time!"

Li Yingqi didn't dare to press her, so she had to follow her and said, "Okay! I know you want to leave here to calm yourself down. Haven't I already promised you? It doesn't matter where you go, as long as you take good care of yourself, as long as Remember to come back, no matter how long I will wait for you!"

"That's not the case, none of us need to deliberately wait for anyone..."

She endured the pain, and said the following words word by word: "Didn't you say it? Even if I leave you, you still want me to be happy and have another chance to be happy, and I am the same! So , you don’t have to wait for me, and I won’t wait for you! If one day in the future, we can ignore the fact that we are related by blood, if that day comes, if you still insist on me, maybe we can still be together; if we If you can meet another piece of happiness during this period of time, then you can pursue it with confidence, don’t force anyone, don’t worry about the future, and don’t think who is sorry for anyone, because... Only when we work hard to make ourselves happy can we make us happy. We are at ease with each other, aren't we?"

Standing outside the door, Li Yingqi finally stopped knocking on the door, listened to her words quietly, and finally lowered her hand dejectedly.

She was right, just as he thought, they love each other so deeply, even if they are at the end of the road, if they want each other to live in peace, they must first let themselves be well.

Tan Qianqian couldn't hear his voice, so she just regarded him as acquiescing to her words, so she continued: "We have a hurdle in our hearts, and it can only be painful if we continue to be entangled with each other now, so... leave everything to time, let's go It's natural!"

"Okay..." Even though we know that time is the cruelest thing in this world, it can change the world and change the sea, who knows if it will destroy their love?
However, he can only say yes!Perhaps letting nature take its course is the most ideal ending between them.

"Yingqi, you have to promise me that no matter what happens in the future, you will never be bored and silent, you will not get drunk, you will not lock yourself in the room to smoke, and you will not eat any more. Sleeping pills, you must sleep well at night, okay? Promise me..."

At that moment, Li Yingqi felt colic in all internal organs.There seems to be such a door between them forever, and they have to cultivate to a positive result several times, but when they look back and turn around, what awaits them is to miss again and again.

Just like at this moment, inside and outside the door, separated by him and her, two lonely hearts, two lonely souls.

He clearly knew that he couldn't see it or touch it, but he still stubbornly leaned towards the door, trying to get closer to her, and a little closer, as if this would be the shortest distance between them in the future life. .

She said so many inaccuracies in a row, and he agreed to her one by one.

"Okay, I promise you... I will never stop talking to people, I will never get drunk again, I will never lock a person in a room to smoke again, I will sleep well every night..." In fact, there is the last sentence, He didn't say it out, he wanted to tell her: no matter when you turn around, I'm still the same Li Yingqi you used to be!
He agreed to all her requests, but he only wanted her to promise him one thing: "I won't bother you, I will listen to you whatever you say, but you have to promise me, no matter where you are, you must not Let me lose your news, be sure to let me know that you are fine."

"it is good…"

That day, they talked a lot inside and outside the door like this, with a sense of powerless despair, as if they wanted to confide all the love and sorrow in this life, because they were afraid that they would never have such an opportunity again.

The meaning given to the word "finally" is too realistic, too cruel.

I don't know how long it has been, and I don't know how many words have been said, and I don't know how they still have the strength to leave the hut that carries most of their memories.Li Yingqi only remembered that it was still dark after he left, but he would never forget that the sky was very gray that day!
She is always so cruel that he wants him to leave first, but he can only accept her cruelty to leave first, because he knows how much courage and pain it takes to walk away from the person he loves so much.

Li Yingqi didn't even know which day Tan Qianqian set off to leave. She didn't want him to see her off, and he didn't even think about sending her off. They were all afraid of facing that weak scene.

Before Tan Qianqian left, he had someone send her a card and a mobile phone. He knew that she was not short of money, but her savings were not much.He didn't have any other intentions in doing this, it wasn't to compensate her, and it wasn't a tribute to their hopeless relationship. He just didn't want her to suffer, and he just hoped that she could live a better life.

However, as he expected, she accepted the mobile phone, because she knew that the mobile phone was equipped with a GPS system and knew his intentions, but she returned the gold card with a note : Don't underestimate Tan Qianqian!

Looking at her graceful handwriting, he couldn't help laughing, but his heart was astringent.

Of course he knew that Tan Qianqian should not be underestimated. She has always been independent and intelligent, and she is fully capable of making her live a good life. However, he just selfishly hoped that she would not be too far away from him.She didn't accept it, and he didn't force it, but he felt a little sad. Without him, could she really fly to a wider world?
He has also contacted her, and he can know her exact location as long as he calls her phone number. Fortunately, her phone number can be reached every time, just as she promised him, he will not let him lose her information.

However, she never answered his call, and cut off his call every time, and then she would call again, only rang once, and hung up again... Gradually, this seemed to have become a tacit understanding between them, They are all telling each other in such a way: I'm fine, I'm fine!
Gradually, the tacit understanding became a habit, as if they really didn't deliberately wait for anyone, they just lived their own lives apart from each other, as long as they knew that the other party was fine, they felt relieved and lived with peace of mind.

Only the phone call that is necessary every day has become the only connection between them.

It is actually a painful and long process from being sad and decadent to standing up strong.

When Tan Qianqian just left, Li Yingqi was really depressed for a long time, and he didn't dare to think about everything related to her, but he didn't torture himself anymore, because every word she said was an imperial edict to him.

Once upon a time, she said: Li Yingqi, can you be more manly?
So, he endured all the pain and did everything a man should do; now he never forgets every word he promised her through that door that day, he said it, and he will definitely do it.

So after he was depressed, he finally stood up and threw himself into his new life with the best attitude. He occasionally played with Hua Yichen and Du Yufan, met other women, and told himself to give it a try. !

But why is there no one like Tan Qianqian?

That name, engraved in his heart, just thinking of it can affect every nerve in him, which is both sore and painful.

He still put almost all his energy on his work, and with the efforts of the two brothers of the Li family, the newly emerging Li Group gradually got on the right track and achieved success repeatedly in just over a year.

The name Li Yingqi finally no longer appeared on the gossip entertainment pages just because of scandals like in the past. He was the same as Li Yingze in the past. He was on the cover of major financial magazines at a young age. The two brothers jointly created a more brilliant business legend than Li Chengtian back then. .

However, due to Li Yingqi's negligence recently, the Li Group lost a big business. The reason was that it rained suddenly on the day the contract was signed, but Li Yingqi would rather let the female client negotiating with him get wet in the heavy rain. He was a drowned chicken, and he refused to let the other party sit in his passenger seat.

As a result, the other party became angry from embarrassment, and naturally a business deal was ruined by a heavy rain.

This inexplicable incident was a sensation, but when Li Yingqi was interviewed by the media, he had no regrets at all. Instead, he gave an answer that surprised all reporters.

He looked at the camera and smiled lightly: "I once promised someone, there is only her place!"

As soon as his words came out of his mouth, there was a lot of suspicion and uproar, and some even asked in public: "Third Young Master, can you reveal who that person is?"

"Is it your former fiancée, Miss Mu? Or Miss Tan?"

Li Yingqi still smiled lightly, but did not answer, only leaving a chic back view to the commotional reporters.

It doesn't matter what everyone guesses, he only needs that person to understand, that's enough!
(End of this chapter)