Wang Junkai in whose landscape are you in?

Chapter 292 [Kay Me] Treat you the same (7)

[7]
Slow down time, and let me look at my boy a few more times.

I still remember that Wang Junkai was busy in the kitchen by himself that day, and there was the sound of things falling on the floor from time to time. I wanted to go in and help. After all, I was a little anxious to hear his ping-pong sound, but I was still coaxed and tricked by him to refuse. up.

I looked at his gray nose and wanted to laugh, so I had no choice but to reply and sit on the sofa and press the TV in boredom, continuing to listen to the sound of him ruining things from time to time.

The TV shows are getting more and more boring, and I feel more and more drowsy watching them.I held on, and turned the channel awkwardly, and happened to be transferred to a hospital introduction.The introduction said that there is a half-price discount for the physical examination this Sunday. I pursed my lips and smiled, because I thought this hospital was a bit funny. According to my experience in running hospitals for so many years, no hospital is willing to give you a sincere physical examination. , They hope that you will get sicker and sicker, so that they can make a profit.

But there are also good people, but I don't believe in this kind of promotion.

I don't know how many times it took me to turn around before I smelled the aroma from the kitchen. I tiptoed to the door of the kitchen, but I suddenly heard Wang Junkai's voice, "What are you doing hiding behind, get out, the kitchen is too fume."

Like complaining and caring, I pouted and didn't move my steps until he came out with a chopstick in his hands helplessly and fed me, then I ran away contentedly, saying while running, "Hurry up!" It's ready, I'm going to eat! I'm hungry!"

Then after 5 minutes, I saw him come out, and the food was rich and tight. I put all the unhappy things not long ago behind my head and started to taste.

Frankly speaking, the taste of cooking is acceptable, but the shape of each one is very good-looking. I know that he is very careful and I can see from the dishes that he rarely cooks.The funniest thing is that Wang Junkai frowned after taking a bite, as if he was watching me take poison.

"Why are you frowning when you look at me? The food you cook won't be so unpalatable." I ate comfortably, but he was always nervous.

"Eh, really?" He seemed to breathe a sigh of relief.

I nodded, and then he picked up the spoon to drink the soup and the chopsticks to eat the vegetables. He himself felt that the taste was not bad, so he finally showed a slight smile.The eyes are bright, with an element of desperation, like a child showing off and yelling at me, well, I'm really good.

Wang Wusui, don't treat yourself like a child, and you always act cute to me.

After dinner, he went to the guest room to take a nap, while I was lying on the big bed in his room, staring at the ceiling stupidly, unable to fall asleep.

Tomorrow is the day of the physical examination.After a sigh, he picked up the quilt to cover his face, and soon took it away, and continued to look at the ceiling where there was nothing.Wang Junkai's room is also very clean, the bed is the One Piece series, really childlike, there is a big poster of Conan hanging on the opposite side, and a line of small characters crookedly underneath, it is only when you look closer that you know that it says not to pass the exam, but to hang on to Conan.

There is a table of One Piece figurines, almost every character has them, and the biggest feature is cleanliness.

Wang Junkai.

I was thinking that boys who like comics have the warmest and most passionate young hearts.

Please forgive my lack of words, I don't know what words to use to describe your goodness.

Then I got a little sleepy, so I fell asleep.

When I woke up, I saw Wang Junkai sitting on the stool next to my bed, holding a guitar and tuning the strings. "Wake up."

The surroundings were a bit dark, and when I looked out the window, I realized that the curtains had been drawn, leaving only a little light to come in. I didn't know when the air conditioner was turned on, and I felt cold unconsciously when I lifted the quilt.

"I'm cold." After saying that, I saw him get up and turn off the air conditioner, open the curtains, and then turn to look at me.

The sky outside the window is still a little blue, with a few white clouds floating in the sky, it is indeed beautiful, but at the moment my eyes are all on Wang Junkai, and it is difficult to divert.

Boy, is the kingly demeanor you exude from your innate?Thinking that I also met his eyes, I shook my head to express my joy.

"Stupid." He pouted and walked over, not forgetting to laugh. "I just came here to see you sweating from the heat, how can someone be so stupid."

"Come on, you're not smart." I fought back fiercely, but the disgusted look in his more gentle eyes became warmer, and the corners of my mouth curled up unconsciously.Anyway, since I met him, there is no fixed point of laughter.

Because Wang Junkai is my laughing point.

Dinner was done outside as usual that night, probably because he didn't want to experience the smell of oily smoke again, I know, because every time I cook, the smell of oily smoke makes me uncomfortable.

The night was very quiet.

Because the weather turned cold, there were not many people wandering around at night. It was already extremely cold in November, which gave me the illusion that it was going to be winter again.

In the two months or so that I have known Wang Junkai, I am actually much happier than before. Although I still feel sad, at least I will not be dragged by his tail. I often want to cry when I feel lost. Some readers even commented on my post Keep it: Sister Luo has been living a good life recently.

With a teasing tone, my heart warmed.

"A Luo, I have an audition tomorrow, and I'm going to a neighboring city." He took my hand and walked for a long time, and when he was about to reach the house, he said suddenly, and these words made me feel at ease.

Because, I don't want him to know that I'm going for a medical examination, which is really good.If he doesn't know, he won't worry too much. It's fine for me to be sad about many things. This kind of thing doesn't need to be shared by too many people.

"Okay." After I finished speaking, I felt his hand hold me tighter, and I looked up at him.

"But I always have bad premonitions." His eyes are black, as deep as the sea, and the sadness inside is like a bottomless pit, stealing his happiness as nourishment, I don't know why he is like this, is it , realized what?
My heart beats faster unconsciously, my hands are densely covered with sweat, I hold his hand more and more loosely, but he holds it tighter and tighter, like a restless child, helpless with those sad eyes looking at me.

"I think I'm going to lose you."

My heart was shocked again.

"How is it possible? You're overthinking it. Am I still here?" I tried to comfort him, but he remained silent until a few minutes later he responded with a muffled "Yeah."

"Don't leave." It seemed to be muttering to himself, and it seemed to be telling me.

After arriving home, Wang Junkai tossed him to watch an animation with him all night, and he didn't know when he fell asleep, or when he carried him to the room, and he didn't know when he left .

All I know is that he was gone when I woke up, and there was milk and bread on the table, still warm.The handwriting on the post-it note next to it is a bit scribbled, it says,

"Oh boy, I want to eat, I can't be hungry, I'll go first.

miss me. "

miss you.

Why don't you miss you.

After I finished eating, I went home and took some useful things to the hospital. On the way, Ah Jiu called me and asked some questions such as "Do I dare to go to the hospital?" I answered yes.

But daring to go for a physical examination and daring to see the results are two different things.I have the courage to do it but I don't have the courage to face the result, so I admit that I am a very cowardly person, just like I have the courage to be with Wang Junkai but have no courage to leave him.

It's good to leave early, if you don't feel tempted, you won't be sad later.But if it's just a hypothesis, it doesn't exist in this world.

So, swallow your pity and overflowing sorrow yourself.

It is much better to understand the reality first than to be confirmed by human beings.

Most hospitals are usually closed on Sundays, but those large-scale hospitals are generally open around the clock, and they have never been seen to close their doors.In fact, I have never understood how the hospital assigns work, but as a book writer, there is actually no need to know, and besides, no one will answer you if you ask.

The environment outside the hospital is very good. There are trees beside the road that I can't name.At this time, most of the leaves of the tall trees had fallen, and it was a bit bleak and cool.

Hospital.In my mind it is synonymous with death.It's just ridiculous that I would actually hook up with it.

I think.

If this is the price of meeting Wang Junkai.

My attending doctor, surnamed Chen, is a woman in her 30s with a gentle tone and a very educated mind.

When she led me into the physical examination room, she was nagging, "Xu Luo, you see that you have lost weight again, don't you eat well again, isn't it tiring for a little girl to make herself so old? "

"There is food." This sentence can only be taken as a deaf ear.

"I really hate that you take so many medicines, and you refuse to die even if you are advised to have an operation. It's not a problem to procrastinate." She sighed, pulled me to the seat and began to draw blood, and finally stopped talking Yes, I looked at her focused look and didn't answer.

In this world, you will meet many people who treat you well, maybe just by chance.So, while alive, thank them for their kindness to you.Because it is not her duty to be nice to you, even if she is a policeman or a doctor.

"But the chance of success of the operation is only [-] percent." I replied after drawing blood, licked my cracked lips, lowered my eyes, and said with a half-smile, "I still have a lot of things to do, I would rather , use drugs to live longer."

Chance to live?I'd rather not because it's too small and I don't want to risk it.

I'd rather live on my last breath than die right away.

This world is still so beautiful, I just can't bear it.

After the medical examination, an unexpected thing happened.I actually saw Jun En, his mother was holding his hand in the corridor not far away, and seemed to be anxiously waiting for something.

I watched from a distance and didn't intend to walk over, but Jun En's mother saw me first and then called my name, with a trembling voice, "A Luo, why are you here?"

I didn't answer, but just stared at the two of them.

Jun En also looked up at me, and then called softly, "Sister." Then I couldn't hold it anymore, and replied muffledly, "Yeah."

I can be very cold to everyone, provided that he is also polite to me.But I can't make others treat me well, and I can still put on a cold face. This is my fatal injury, and I am too soft-hearted.

"A Luo, are you sick?" Jun En's mother said in a very kind and gentle tone.

In fact, apart from the fact that she is with my dad, I think she is quite a nice person, with a gentle and nice tone, not like my mother or my harsh tone, and her temper is really gentle, I It's not surprising that Dad would like her. If it were me, maybe I would like it too.

But I also hate, I hate her for taking my mother's place, and I hate her child for taking my place, but no matter whether I live with hatred or with love, I haven't changed their lives.

I am the only one who is happy, and even the one who is unhappy is the only one.

"No." I gritted my teeth and spit out the word in a bad tone.

"A Luo." But she still pretended nothing happened and continued talking to me, "Go home."

I smiled, but shook my head.

"Sister, go home, Dad misses you very much." Jun En's voice still had a little milky tone, still childish and warm.

But these sudden concerns were like Ling Chi, dragging me to the brink of being overwhelmed.Want to refuse but can't bear to refuse, want to be silent but can't be silent.I stood stupidly for a long time, and gave a vague answer, but I saw a faint smile on Jun En's face.

"Let's talk about it later."

"Why are you here?" When there is no topic to talk about, I have to find a topic to continue or find a way to leave, but I obviously want to leave, but my tongue is tied and I say this sentence by accident. After I finish speaking, I want to beat myself. Show that you care about them?
"Jun En is sick." After she finished speaking, I glanced at Jun En's pale face, and I knew it instantly. "Bring him for an injection."

A child with a mother is really happy, and he doesn't have to worry about what will happen tomorrow, unlike me, who is wandering.Except for meeting Wang Junkai and Ah Jiu, it seems that too many things have been wasted in my life.

"Next time, remember to come back."

I don't know how long she hesitated before saying this.

In fact, I want to pretend that I can't hear it, but I can't do it, so since I heard it, I should go home, but how can the hatred that has been accumulated for so many years just go away?This is impossible.

Please give me a little time, let me learn to forgive.

Not much time.

I need to learn to forgive soon.

Wang Junkai has been away for two days, and there was only one phone call in the middle, his words were exhausted, he complained to me softly, "A Luo, actually, I never thought that one day I would feel so tired singing, but I am very happy, Because I am on the road of my dream."

"I am here."

"I will work hard, then I will be busy first, remember to eat and sleep well."

It's just a few words of dialogue.

Wang Junkai.

Your dream has always been to be able to sing many good songs on a broad stage, play your favorite melody, and make your favorite music, but did you ever know that when I met you, it was even until the end of my life For a moment, all my dreams are just you.

Karry Wang, you are my most persistent dream for so many years.

Life seems to be the same, but I have found that nightmares have become more and more frequent recently, and headaches are also there. Thinking more or even walking a few more steps, the headaches will become more severe.

Before the test results came out, I felt that my spirit had almost collapsed. I had to take Valium tablets for the past few days to sleep more peacefully, otherwise I would wake up in the silence of the night.

I feel death is getting closer.

Wang Junkai left for five days, and the anxiety in my heart became more and more serious, because in the next two days, I didn't receive a single call or even a text message from him. I don't know if there is something wrong with my mobile phone.

Otherwise, how could there be no concern at all?

The more anxious I am, the more I can't fall asleep, so I need to take more Valium tablets to stabilize my emotions.These emotions suppressed myself, and I wanted to cry, but I couldn't find a suitable reason.

Maybe it's too busy.

I am so self-deceiving to comfort myself.

In fact, it was really hard to convince, but I didn't have a suitable reason to press the number I knew so well.Missing is sometimes not a good excuse to make a phone call. Thinking about it like this, I can only look at the key that I can't press the pain repeatedly.

I really hate this self who misses but dare not act, making a phone call will not lose a piece of meat, right?But... it's because I care too much, so I'm afraid that I will bore him. I don't want him to feel that I have to control him and have to interfere in everything. I probably want to prove that I trust him enough .

But I know I can't do it, because if I can do it later, I will give him more tolerance and give him more time to explain, instead of leaving like that without listening to anything, taking what I have left For a short time, I lost my temper and made a fuss, not going to see him.

I spent too much time regretting, but forgot to leave some time for him to explain why.

I am too stubborn.So I deserve it.

The physical examination form will be taken tomorrow, and my spirit has reached a certain level of fatigue. This is the first time in so many days that I can sleep well without needing Valium.

When people are too tired, they will naturally fall asleep.

It's just that this way is not right. After all, I have suffered so many days of nightmares in vain, and I don't feel reconciled no matter how I think about it.

The next day, the rain was a bit heavy, so I didn't want to wake up. I felt a little tired after seeing the gray sky, and I really wanted to just sleep like this.

I seldom have such thoughts.

But there will be times when you feel discouraged.Frustration is nourishment, nourishing those bad thoughts to quickly take root and sprout, and then I will be silent for a long time.

In fact, it’s good to not wake up, because I will probably forget a lot of things I like in my dreams, so I won’t feel so regretful?
It would be best to die like this.But this idea dissipated decisively after seeing Wang Junkai's poster.

[Phase [-]/Original Work: Min Luo/To be continued]
　Happy Children's Day.

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