Dust sleeps in light years

Chapter 34

[one]
I am a notorious person.There is no compassion, no shame, no respect, no right and wrong.Unrestrained, go its own way, do not listen to suggestions, comfort or slander, the heart is like a burning fire bursting from the chest, only believe in the energy in your heart, and ignore public opinion, ethics, morality, rules, no excuses , unwilling to whitewash, regardless of the consequences, retaliation for retaliation, retaliation in the same way as others, and fighting with their lives when necessary.

I have no family or girlfriends, but I am not alone.Like a tree stretching to the depths of the sky, there is an inseparable bond between me and the world under the surface, so that I have enough vitality to be myself.

I am who i am.

[two]
The time to meet again is faster than expected.The next morning, driving out from the east gate of the school, on the way to the Institute of Psychology, Professor Lu saw Qiu He walking along the street from a distance, so he turned to the side road at the next intersection and followed her to honk the horn.Qiu He turned around and stopped. Professor Lu rolled down the car window near her and asked, "Where are you going?" "Go to the subway station. Our department is shooting graduation works." In the past." Qiu He got into the car with no shame on his face, as if what happened yesterday had never happened, which surprised Professor Lu a little.When she got into the car, he looked at the road conditions and reminded lightly: "Did you get what you wanted?"

Qiu He didn't seem to think that he was at fault, and smiled a little: "Thank you for providing this evidence. Ouyang Chong is innocent, just a scapegoat who was framed. I don't know if saying this can relieve the pressure of your violation of professional ethics—— Umi is the murderer. Now that she has committed a crime, you naturally have no obligation to keep her secret. But in fact, no matter whether this medical record can prove that Umi is the murderer, I will do so, because I have always been in my heart, morality, and Compared to human beings, it is really insignificant."

"You... If you have any clues, you can tell the police. Wouldn't it be more logical for them to collect evidence? Because if you believe in your own reasoning, you can easily put yourself in danger."

"Actually, after this incident, I found that I am very happy to put myself in danger. When I have money, I will spend it as I want, never wanting to leave it to my family or to the future. When I have power, I will spend it. Things are done very well, but once you lose interest and abandon them without any scruples, you never listen to anyone’s regrets. I am such a person who likes crises, threats, and dangers, and feels that life must always have adrenaline in the blood It's good to be surging." She turned to Professor Lu with a half-smile, "Teacher, have you analyzed people like me?"

Professor Lu sighed: "You are a smart student. I sincerely hope that the first half of what you said to me yesterday was not true. Such a family and experience will definitely have some negative effects on you."

Qiu He smiled: "I'm afraid you will see through making it up from the beginning? I don't think the impact of these experiences on me is negative. An American poet said, 'The past is our definition. We may strive , with good reason, to escape it, or to escape what is badinit, but we will escape it only by adding something better to it. 'This is how I survive."

[three]
Reality has always taught me over and over again - you live in a world full of dust.

But Qiuhe, did you know that it is that kind of dust, where the entire universe erupts, and where all new life comes from.

[Four]
At the subway station at 10:30 in the morning, although the rush hour has passed, there is still a steady stream of people coming and going.Umi sat in the waiting area between two trains running in opposite directions.Qiu He walked down the stairs slowly in an eye-catching dress, a bright blue slanted shoulder T-shirt, fluorescent orange hot pants, black high-water platform super high heels, and a bright yellow lozenge shoulder bag.She became the dividing point of the flow of people, and the two opposite lines of sight collided back and forth at her.

Wu Mi couldn't take her eyes off her eyes, and sighed in her heart, only she dared to wear such dramatic contrasting colors without being gaudy, and only she had no scruples about the eyes of her surroundings.When she came to sit beside her, Umi said, "You didn't ask me to come here today because you need to reshoot the props and the ambient light, right?"

"Why are you so sure?" "You always have to calculate the last second before making your grand finale appearance. The classmate in charge of photography has not shown up yet, so it means he won't show up."

Since she was so insightful and had predicted Qiu He's coming, Qiu He cut to the chase: "I know what you did. Counting from Zeng Ye, four girls died in the school, but you killed them all." .”

Umi didn't deny it either, with a sneer in her smile: "In your eyes, I have so much ability?" "Don't you?"

"But Zeng Ye was obviously killed by Ouyang Chong, and the case has been settled long ago. How can it be blamed on me?"

"Ouyang Chong was drunk that night. He didn't know if he had killed someone. When he woke up the next morning, he was timid and afraid of breaking up the body and hiding it. Others naturally thought that he also killed someone. Even he himself recognized it in a daze. crime. But Zeng Ye was actually killed by you."

Umi smiled.

Seeing that she was not ready to answer, Qiu He continued: "You may not know that Zeng Ye and I are half-sisters. For this reason, she especially dislikes me and has trouble with me. In addition, Ouyang Chongyi She fell in love with me and angered her even more, so she wanted to find someone to beat me, but it happened that she was looking for Ye Xuan's friend, so the plan went bankrupt. She didn't say this and added a new problem, so she came to you. I I think you shouldn't tell her about your mental illness. She may have learned about it through Ouyang Chong's relationship and threatened her. As far as I know, Ouyang Chong's master's thesis is in this field. He was very excited Talked to me about antisocial personality disorder and violent tendencies are not necessarily linked, I guess you are probably one of his research cases."

Seen from Qiu He's point of view, Wu Mi's brow twitched, and her face immediately showed sullenness, and the previous self-satisfied expression disappeared.

"Before Zeng Ye died, he made a call to Professor Lu's Institute of Psychology. Ouyang Chong was with me at the time, so she called to find you. Guo Shujie heard her say 'crazy' on the phone, it may be Zeng Ye I'm forcing you to deal with me."

"She said, 'Crazy people don't even commit murder'," Umi recalled through gritted teeth.

"She threatened to publicize your illness. You remembered that you should not leave evidence for her, so you went to Ouyang Chong's house to find him, hoping that he would not use you as a case in the paper. But Zeng Ye put down the phone and remembered that since you wanted to The threat is to leave evidence, and go to Ouyang Chong’s house to copy the original case before you. You met her, argued and shoved, and committed murder. People know you've been there."

"Since when did you start to doubt me?"

"First of all, after Chen Yan's death, you shouldn't give false testimony for Ye Xuan. If you really have solar dermatitis, you will be more eye-catching than Ye Xuan when you go out wearing protective clothing. Usually, you will attract people to watch. There is no reason why you saw Ye Xuan. He But I didn’t see you. It doesn’t make sense that you happened to see him, and you happened to look at your watch. I just suspected your motives at first, thinking that you were in love with Ye Xuan. I didn’t expect that providing an alibi to the other party is also an alibi for yourself. It has been proved that you have successfully drawn my attention to jealousy."

The smug look returned to Umi's face again.Qiu He thought it was a bit weird. Wu Mi was diagnosed with antisocial personality disorder, and she was ruthless and ruthless to others. But when it came to victims other than Zeng Ye, she always showed a sense of accomplishment that was pretending to be mysterious. ruthless.If it weren't for Qiu He's [-]% certainty about the cause and effect of the case, he would almost shrink back, wondering if he was all wrong, and she would laugh at her.

"Secondly, Mi Bai sent a text message to clarify the misunderstanding that day. She shouldn't know what I said to Guo Shujie in the dormitory. Guo Shujie didn't know Mi Bai because she didn't hear anything outside the window, but when you were with me, you saw me. Over Mibai. I found out that you were fanning the flames in the Suling plagiarism incident through IP checking, and this time I found out that you were alienating me and Mibai. These things made me doubt your character. Finally, you came here again in a cocoon. To recruit a thief is to catch a thief. From the beginning to the end, you were directed and acted by yourself."

"How dare you conclude that I directed and acted on my own?"

"You shouldn't know Qu Heran. I moved into the dormitory and broke up with him at the same time. You should have only heard Xue Tao talk about him with me. At most, you have seen blurry mobile phone photos on school forums. He You don’t even know what he looks like, let alone recognize him as Qu Hongran at the moment of being attacked. Why did the murderer, who has always been so thoughtful and clear, suddenly make a wrong injection to save you? Because you are the murderer. So you choose to put the blame on Qu Hongran because you know that Xue Tao and I both hate Qu Hongran, and the judgment is likely to be affected by emotions, impulsively believing that he is the murderer."

"I never thought that Qiu and you would be impulsive." Umi said calmly, "I even suspected that you have antisocial personality disorder like me. You are very successful in every field, admired by others, and envied by others. It's also scary, but you have almost no emotion, you always have a deadpan face, and you are used to taking people and things as goals to achieve. Later I discovered your weakness, you just pretend that you don't care about anything, and you don't show likes and dislikes to protect Protect yourself from harm. You say that ruthlessness is your best weapon, but in fact you are bluffing, you can't be ruthless at all. Your life is in Ye Xuan, as long as it is about him, you will lose your judgment, I know. "

"So you killed Chen Yan to hurt Ye Xuan and make me shake?" "You can say that I have changed from passive killing to enjoying this game."

"You didn't kill people passively from the beginning. You wrote the dormitory application for me, sent me mysterious text messages, wrote me murder warning letters, and kept sending white camellias... You have always enjoyed this game."

"Everything started because of Zeng Ye's malice towards you. You are the queen of topics at school. I am curious about the solution to Qiu He's mystery. If someone is qualified to stop me from continuing this killing, that person It can only be you. If there is anyone worthy of a duel with me, it can only be you. If anyone is worthy of talking to me, as it is now, it can only be you."

"You are a confident person."

"What you mean is that I'm conceited," Umi sneered. "You should be blunt. I hate hypocrisy. I'm really conceited. Even geniuses are conceited. Qiuhe, you are not conceited or even confident enough, so you are worse than me. A piece of it. You have to admit, now that you've found me, it's all useless, and the damned are pretty much dead."

"You're right. I'm not confident enough, and I'm actually not smart enough. At first you looked up to me. I can't figure out why you want to kill these people. What standard do you use to judge them to be dead? Is it also to compete with them?"

"They don't have that qualification. Why did I choose to kill them instead of others, you find the answer yourself, I won't tell you. As long as you are confused, the interesting game for me will not end for a day .Now that you know I was the murderer, have you reported me to the police?"

"No. I know you are targeting me. You deliberately left a lot of clues for me. It doesn't matter whether you get caught or not. You have always defined this as a mental contest between you and me. Now I am by your side and silence me You will lose completely. Since I won, it doesn't matter if I die. You think highly of yourself, it's not your style, and it's your business whether you turn yourself in or not. Lifted to such a high position, you can’t justify yourself as a coward. A person who is qualified to be arrogant must first be a person who can take responsibility for his actions, right?”

Wu Mi stood up slowly, turned her head and smiled at Qiu He from a few steps away, and at this moment a strong wind poured into the track area, making her figure appear calm and gloomy and thin.Qiuhe couldn't imagine her madness before.

"Qiu and you are right in saying, 'Since I won, it doesn't matter if I die'. You haven't won me yet. I won't turn myself in. Of course I will be responsible for what I did. You know I What is the definition of responsible?"

Qiu He was stunned for a second, suddenly feeling ominous.Before she could react, Umi opened and closed her lips and smiled in the gust of wind, turning around and jumping off the platform in front of the incoming subway.Qiu He stood up in shock, but couldn't move.The entire station became noisy, and crowds came from all directions to watch the incident, and the surrounding area was quickly blocked.It's like being in a closed container, not only is the oxygen getting thinner and thinner, but the sound is so rich but completely isolated.Only her last words were repeated in her ears—"Do you know what my definition of responsibility is? Life for life."

[Fives]
Umi did win.It is true that Qiu He's understanding of the case is far from the truth, and there are countless questions. She wanted to press Wu Mi to get the answer, but the other party didn't even open a gap or a gap to her.As soon as Wu Mi died, this was an ending that Qiu He never thought of.

Based on the evidence she has now, she can neither exonerate Ouyang Chong nor convict Wu Mi.

Of course, Umi's suicide also caused quite a stir, but thanks to the suicide note she carried with her, she was quickly classified as a suicide caused by emotional frustration, and no investigation was filed.This reasonable and impeccable suicide note is not so much a suicide note as a love letter, and the hero is naturally Ye Xuan.Needless to say, this was also the last trick she played on Qiu He.

Qiu He couldn't help thinking of what she said, "A master chess player can usually predict the opponent's landing point of about ten moves."How much forethought does it take to carry around a false suicide note?It only makes people feel that the glimmer of life that just appeared on the road ahead has been smeared into darkness again.Her horror lies in her obsession, and also in that she can enter people's minds without reappearing. She is dead, but you can't ignore her omnipresence.

But what did she win?Qiu He always felt that the final suicide note and the answers she kept silent were just the tip of the iceberg of her chances of winning, and these slightly childish tricks were not enough to make her smile so confidently until the end.Qiu He will always remember her proud expression, as if mocking Qiu He's ignorance of the core of the problem.

[six]
Qiu He took the opportunity to help Umi sort out the relics to search for evidence, but what he got was nothing more than insignificant things.She finds the blue diary that Umi usually writes and draws in. Its paper is the same as that of the threatening letter to Qiu He.Qiu He lamented that he was limited by his fixed thinking, and he believed that the diary should turn pages horizontally, but he didn't want this one to be an exception.

Although some of these diaries have no testimonial value, they allow Qiu He to understand Umi's heart more thoroughly.

For example, one of them: She told a joke that was a bit boring but she thought it was funny, and she was expecting someone to respond.The result was very impersonal, and no one had the slightest reaction.I can obviously squeeze out a little laughter so that she won't be too embarrassed.But I chose silence.Then listening to her stiffly lost in the slowly freezing atmosphere, the joy of being a bad person suddenly rose in my heart, a kind of cruel comfort.

(End of this chapter)