Follow the wind

Chapter 23

The plane was flying at an altitude of [-] meters, and Lan Xin sat powerlessly, her face was cold and stiff, without any expression, but the despair and pain in her heart could not be added, this pain had already made her numb to the point of blankness.But at this moment, a thought floated in her blank mind, would this plane suddenly disintegrate and explode in the air?In this way, she will turn into foam, into dust, into ashes, into green smoke, and go with the wind, disappearing without a trace and cleanly.Wouldn't that be nice?

However, this accident did not happen.

After nearly two hours of flight, Lanxin landed safely at Guangzhou Baiyun Airport.She drifted off the plane with the people weakly like sleepwalking.At this time, Guangzhou is already brightly lit.

She left in such a hurry that she didn't bring any luggage, only a small bag with her.She looked around blankly outside the huge airport, then called a taxi and got in directly.

"Master, go to Foshan." Lan Xin said in a low voice.

As soon as the master stepped on the accelerator, the taxi drove out in a hurry.

Lan Xin sat quietly in the car.Although the summer solstice has passed and she is in Guangzhou again, she feels that she is extremely cold all over, without any warmth or vitality.The music station in the car stubbornly resisted the desertedness.

Life is so impermanent!A few hours ago, she was still talking about the past and the present in class, she was still chatting with students and discussing with colleagues.One phone call changed everything, forcing her to drop everything and fly here without a moment's delay.

Is this really going to Foshan?A trace of uneasiness and fear welled up in Lan Xin's heart.In the past few hours, Lan Xin felt as if she was trapped by a nightmare, unable to break free, everything was in a trance.

At this moment, sitting in the cold car, speeding on the road to Foshan, Lan Xin woke up like a dream, she clearly knew that all this was not a dream!Although she once doubted the accuracy of the news, although she also hoped that this time, like the last car accident, it was a big misunderstanding.However, how can others talk irresponsibly about such a matter of human life?Yes, it is true.Everything is a fact that cannot be changed.It's just that she must see is believing, she must let herself completely give up, and she must come and see him.How can we not go to Foshan?Now, the closer she was to her destination, the more frightened and uneasy she felt. It was a reality that she dared not face but had to face.What a cruel reality!Finally, two lines of cold tears silently slid down her beautiful cheeks.

In [-], Foshan changed a lot.Relying on her memory, Lan Xin saw the warm and dim light when she found the familiar and unfamiliar doorway through groping.

She wanted to try her luck, maybe, they didn't move.Lan Xin took a long breath, every breath made her feel painful.She calmed herself down and knocked lightly on the door.

"Who is it?" a low voice asked slowly.

Lan Xin's heart felt hot and her nose felt sore.This is a distant and familiar voice to her, it is Uncle Lin!
"It's me, Lan Xin." Her voice was almost choked with sobs.

"Who? Xiaoxin?" The other party's voice raised an octave, full of doubt and surprise.

The door opened with a "wow", and Uncle Lin's surprised face appeared.I haven't seen him for a few years, he is obviously much older, his hair is gray, and his eyes are full of the vicissitudes of time.

"Xiao Xin, it's really you." As soon as he grabbed Lan Xin's hand, he welcomed her in like a family member.

It was Aunt Qian who came after hearing the news, and she rushed to meet her, her body looking a little stooped.The carving knife of time also ruthlessly carved the traces of the years on the aunt's body.

The moment she saw Aunt Qian, Lan Xin, who was desperately holding back her tears, couldn't control herself anymore. She hugged Aunt Qian, and she burst into tears in an instant!
Aunt Qian patted Lan Xin's back lightly, weeping silently with her.

"I'm sorry, Auntie..." Lan Xin sobbed, breaking down in tears.

Aunt Qian shook her head silently: "Go...go and see Xiaofeng."

They silently walked to the door of Lin Feng's bedroom.She has been to their house twice, and this bedroom used to be the place Lan Xin was most familiar with. It left many happy and beautiful memories for them, and it also witnessed their young and sweet first time.Aunt Qian turned on the light in the bedroom.Lan Xin saw that the interior furnishings were exactly the same as a few years ago, clean and tidy, the only thing left was a black and white portrait of Lin Feng hanging on the wall.In the photo, he looked at Lan Xin quietly.

Aunt Qian looked at the photo on the wall and called softly: "Xiaofeng, Xiaoxin saw you coming." There was infinite sadness in this soft voice.

Only now did Lan Xin truly feel that Lin Feng had really left, gone forever!He would never come back, he was frozen into the photo on the wall, and engraved in her heart forever.

"Brother, I'm late." Lan Xin cried out in despair, and a heart-piercing pain permeated the air.

She rushed to the picture on the wall, she wanted to get closer to him, closer, but her legs were weak, her eyes were dark, and she collapsed on the floor within two steps.

Aunt Qian rushed in. She squatted on the floor, hugged Lan Xin, and the two embraced and wept.Uncle Lin stood lonely at the door, looking at them helplessly, behind him was the tall and lonely figure of his old man.

A few hours ago, Lan Xin, who had just finished class and was resting in the office, received a call from Xiao Hong, and her words were very heavy: "Lan Xin, do you want to tell your friend, a very unfortunate News, the Lin Feng you are looking for passed away a few years ago, and leukemia took him away."

……

"Xiaoxin, go to bed early, and I have to go to the cemetery tomorrow morning." Aunt Qian reminded her with concern.

"Okay." But how could she fall asleep?

"Shall we go with you, tomorrow?"

"No." She wanted to be alone with him, just like she insisted on sleeping in his room now.

"Auntie, you should go to bed earlier." Actually, it was getting late, it was already late at night.Before this, they chatted a lot, about Lin Feng's condition, and about Lin Feng's last time.

"Okay." Aunt Qian agreed and walked out, but she turned back immediately.

"Xiaoxin, if it's inconvenient to take some of these things away, they should be burned in front of Xiaofeng's tomb tomorrow." Auntie looked at the cardboard box on the desk beside Lanxin.The box was handed over to her by Aunt Qian just now. It's not big, smaller than a boarding suitcase. It's sealed with tape, so no one knows what's inside.This is the last thing her elder brother Lin Feng left her.

"No, I will definitely take it back."

Aunt Qian walked out silently.Yes, it was her son who knew her well and knew that she would come back to see him one day, so he left this box.He said that if one day his Xin'er came back, he must give it to her.

Lan Xin tore off the tape on the box, her red eyes from crying started to glisten with tears again.

Open the box, on the top is an envelope, under the envelope is a scarf.Lan Xin recognized this scarf, which she knitted stitch by stitch, and it was a Christmas gift for Lin Feng.She gently pressed the scarf to her face and let the tears seep into the scarf. Only in this way, she felt that she was so close to her brother Lin Feng.Further down, there are letters written by Lan Xin to Lin Feng, far less than that written by Lin Feng to her.At the bottom are some photos of them, which Lan Xin does not have.At the beginning, they agreed to keep them separately, and when they had a home, they would reunite these photos together.Looking at the young and energetic Lin Feng in the photo, with a handsome face and a bright smile, Lan Xin burst into tears again.

Why?Why?Fate wants to treat him so cruelly?To tease us so cruelly?

While crying, Lan Xin couldn't wait to open the envelope. She knew that this was Lin Feng's last confession to her. He must have a lot of things to tell her.

Lan Xin's teary eyes were greeted by the familiar yet powerful and elegant font.

Xiner:

When you read this letter, I have already gone to that distant place.Sorry, I have to leave early.Not being able to grow old with you is the biggest regret in my life.

Xin'er, I hope you will read this letter later, later, preferably ten years later, 20 years later.At that time, you must have a happy family, someone who loves you and loves you, and one or several lovely children.If you are so happy, will you not be so sad?Even if you are sad, someone will be there to comfort you. In this way, will you be less sad?The last thing I hope is that you read this letter early on. If that is the case, the blow and harm to you will undoubtedly be huge.I'm sorry to let you suffer this pain alone!So, I can only pray, if God still has a little pity for me, then let you read this letter as late as possible.

Forgive me, I have to break up with you, even though I have thousands of unwillingness and intolerance, I have to do this.You have experienced too many things and suffered too much since you were a child.When you are young, I don’t want you to go through life and death, it’s too cruel for you, and it will bring a lingering shadow to your future life, and this shadow will cover your whole life .So, pain, let you hurt for a short time!I hope you hate me and forget me, so that you who are stubborn will have a new happy life.

Besides, I have no choice, no courage to face you, I don't know how to say goodbye to you, because how much I don't want to say goodbye to you, how much I want to walk with you forever, for the rest of my life.

Fate really played a big joke on me.When I learned that I had this disease, and even more so when I learned that my uncle, whom I had never met, died of this disease at a very young age, how much fear and despair I felt in my heart!In this kind of fear, I can only accept my fate unwillingly!I can't sleep all night and all night, I miss you, I want to see you, but, I can't, I have to let you go!This kind of fear, this kind of torture, I can't let you bear it too.

Xiner, thank you for appearing in my short life in time, allowing me to realize what love is, what is sweetness, what is beauty, and what is happiness.Without you, my life is really too incomplete.So, thank you for the love you gave me, which gave me the courage to go to the darkness of ignorance.Xin'er, I love you. To this day, I can say without hesitation that you are the only woman I have ever loved in my life, and you are also the only woman in my life!
Xiner, in the days after the breakup, I was really in pain.I know that you must be the same as me, or even worse.I can't worry about you. A few months after we broke up, I quietly went back to school and visited you secretly once.I hid at the door of your dormitory, watching you slowly approaching me.Although you are still unhappy, although you are thinner than before, you are peaceful and serene, with a determined expression on your face.I know that you who have always been strong will be able to get out of the pain of losing love, and you have come out slowly.I'm happy for you, and I think I can rest easy too.I couldn't bear to take my eyes off you, I kept watching you walk into the gate and into the dormitory.This is the last time I will see you in this life.

When I miss you, I look at our photos, and then I look at the letters you wrote to me. These photos and letters have always been with me, and they have been with me in the most difficult times, just like you have always been by my side.Now, I leave them to you.

Xiner, when you read this letter, whether you are still alone or already have a happy family, I hope you can get out of the pain and shadow as soon as possible and live a good life.Yes, I have deeply realized that being alive is the greatest happiness!Because only by being alive can you do what you want to do and make your life live out the splendor you want.You must live well, live well for me!Enjoy life, enjoy every day of your life!
I know that our breakup will definitely bring you great pain and sequelae.You may also experience other pains and misfortunes in your life.However, no matter how much you have been hurt, no matter how disheartened you are, please always believe in love.Because of love, it has always been there, because of love, it is still the beauty that each of us most longs for and desires to meet in our lives.With this kind of belief and persistence, your life will be more active and healthy, and it will be easier for you to obtain happiness and happiness.

farewell!I love you the most.If there is a spirit in the sky, my spirit in the sky will guard you forever, forever!

love you Lin Feng

Outstanding
Tears have been flowing, how can it stop flowing?Lan Xin didn't bother to wipe it off and let it burst into tears.She read the letter over and over, then looked at their pictures over and over again.This night, doomed to sleepless.This night, is her elder brother Lin Feng looking at her from afar in the sky?

The next day, Lan Xin went out very early, she did not disturb the two old people, and only took the cardboard box with her.

Climbing up the quiet steps, Lan Xin found the resting place of Lin Feng, and Lin Feng on the tombstone was still looking at her so quietly.

The sky was gloomy, as if it was going to rain at any time, and this gloom made the atmosphere even more desolate.

Lan Xin remained silent in front of the tomb for 3 minutes, then put the cardboard box aside, and placed a bunch of white lilies she brought in front of the tombstone.She sat down, touched the tombstone with her hands, and then touched the portrait of Lin Feng on the tombstone, looking at him infinitely sadly.

Many times, she imagined their reunion, and the one thing she wanted to do the most was to cry on his shoulder and tell him all the sadness and grievances.But she never thought that the reunion would be like this today, but she still wants to cry on his shoulder.Lan Xin caressed the tombstone with both hands, and leaned against it lightly, tears instantly collapsed.She thought that she would not have any more tears, she thought that the tears had been shed long ago, but they still rolled wantonly, regardless.

"Brother, you just left, what do you want me to do?..."

A heavy rain finally came, and the raindrops hit the tombstone and Lan Xin's face, and it was hard to tell which was rain and which was tears.Lan Xin subconsciously hugged the cardboard box that Lin Feng left for her, for fear that it would get wet.She looked up at the gray sky, and the heavy rain made her unable to open her eyes. She felt that these were the tears that Brother Lin Feng shed in the sky, and she accepted them calmly, hoping that they would come more violently.

Amidst the "swooshing" sound of rain, Lan Xin vaguely heard a call from not far away, and the call was getting closer and closer, and she could hear it more and more clearly.

"Xinxin, Xinxin..." Yes, it was Chen Zheyu calling her.He was walking quickly towards her.

Not long after, Chen Zheyu came to her with an anxious expression on his face.When he saw Lan Xin's swollen eyes from crying, he felt pity and pity in his heart.While taking off his shirt, he squatted down and spread the shirt with his hands to cover Lan Xin's head.

"Xinxin, I've been looking for you, and my phone isn't turned on, are you trying to kill me?" There was no blame in his tone, it was full of love.

Yes, after answering Xiao Hong's call yesterday, the phone has been turned off, and she doesn't want anyone to disturb her.

But you still found me, Lan Xin thought in her heart.Yes, it is not difficult to really want to find someone.However, if this person doesn't want to see you, or can't see you, even if he is close at hand, he won't be able to see you after all.Just like that time when Lin Feng went to school, she didn't even know it was so close.And this kind of helplessness and sadness that he wants to see but can't see, he can only hide aside and bear it secretly. This is undoubtedly the most painful torture.

Lan Xin didn't speak.Chen Zheyu looked at her anxiously, how could he not find her?
Yesterday, just after negotiating a contract, I found two missed calls on my mobile phone.He quickly returned to the past, and soon after, he knew the unfortunate news.

"Don't tell Lan Xin yet." Chen Zheyu said to Xiao Hong.

"But I already told her." The other party was anxious, "You haven't answered the phone, so I called her. Isn't she a friend of her best friend? When I talked to you last time, didn't you just call her?" Her? Didn't she say that she would be notified immediately if there was any news? I thought..." The other party threw out a series of doubts.

Chen Zheyu frowned: "It's okay, nothing happened." He said so, but Chen Zheyu knew that something big was going to happen.

He immediately dialed Lan Xin's phone and turned off the phone.

"It's raining so heavily, let's go back first? Look at you, your whole body is soaked." He persuaded her heartbroken, and the first thing he thought of was to find a way to take her away first.

Lan Xin hugged the tombstone tightly, without saying a word, her actions showed her determination, she would not leave, she wanted to stay with him.Chen Zheyu also felt this.

"You have to go, you will catch a cold." He knew that the only way at present was to forcibly pull her away.

He firmly grabbed Lan Xin and hugged her by the waist.Just like that, Chen Zheyu hugged Lan Xin, Lan Xin hugged the box, and the two stumbled down the mountain in the pouring rain.

At the foot of the mountain, there was a car waiting for them. This was the car that Chen Zheyu transferred from the Shenzhen company last night.

Chen Zheyu stuffed Lan Xin into the passenger cab, and went around to the cab by himself.Closing the door instantly blocked the rain from the car.

Chen Zheyu wiped the rain and tears from Lan Xin's face, stroked her dripping hair, and said softly, "Go back to the hotel first, and change out of this wet clothes."

Chen Zheyu quickly started the car and rushed towards the hotel.

"I took the last flight to Guangzhou last night and arrived in Foshan early this morning." Chen Zheyu broke the silence in the car and began to answer Lan Xin's doubts, "Your phone has been turned off, I went to your home to find you, but you are not there. Think about it, you will definitely come here." Chen Zheyu glanced at Lan Xin.Lan Xin's lips were tightly closed, her face was cold.

"Xiao Hong helped me find out the address of his home. I ran there early in the morning, but you were already here." Chen Zheyu continued.Apart from saying this, at this moment, he didn't know how to comfort her.However, he had to talk to her, talking incessantly, to break the dead silence.

"No, we have to fly back as soon as possible. After this rain, I am worried that you are already sick." Chen Zheyu became more worried.

Lan Xin didn't say a word, her cold face was expressionless.It's better to be sick, and it's better to die, a bleak smile appeared on her expressionless face.

(End of this chapter)