Follow the wind

Chapter 24 How to Say Goodbye to You

Lan Xin didn't know how she got home, she was in a daze along the way, with thousands of thoughts entangled her and assaulted her brain, she desperately resisted and refused, trying to make herself blank.The headache was severe, the two temples were popping out, and the eyes were swollen like they were about to burst.Even though I was lying under the thick blanket, I still felt cold, and my whole body was as cold as ice, which couldn't be melted.

She started to have a fever in the middle of the night, her whole body was hot, and her little face was flushed.Lan Xin vaguely felt that she was really sick, she was very happy.She felt that her body had turned into a ball of fire, burning blazingly, would it turn into ashes after burning?Will it die if it turns into ashes?Will she be able to see her elder brother Lin Feng after she dies?Brother, you are really cruel, why did you hide it from me, why did you break up?Why don't you let me stay with you?Why do you have to bear that pain alone?How did you get through that pain?You are so cruel, how can you embarrass me?How do you let me face myself in the future?What do you want me to do in the future?Once you die, you don't have to think about anything, isn't it great?Lan Xin let herself burn wantonly until she was empty.

Chen Zheyu, who was sleeping in the living room, came in to see Lan Xin a few times in the middle of the night. He touched her hot forehead and said that he would go to the hospital immediately, but Lan Xin refused to do so.In the middle of the night, I can only let her go.He brought a wet towel and applied it to Lan Xin's forehead to cool her down.After that, he never slept again. He sat on the edge of the bed, took off the towel after a while, wet it with water and wrung it dry, and then put it on. He tossed back and forth like this until dawn.

At dawn, Chen Zheyu went to the hospital.He went to the emergency room and told the doctor about Lan Xin's situation. The doctor prescribed her medicine and told Chen Zheyu: "Drink plenty of water, rest in bed, and try to eat as lightly as possible. If the high fever persists, you must come to the hospital." an examination."

Talking about drinking plenty of water and eating a light diet, she has refused to eat since yesterday, and she has not touched a drop of water. He still used force to drink the porridge and soup at night, and finally managed to drink a few mouthfuls.

Chen Zheyu asked timidly: "In this situation, her life will not be in danger."

The doctor looked at him, not knowing how to answer, so he could only say: "Take the medicine first, observe first, and do as I tell you. Don't be too nervous, usually not, unless she doesn't want to live anymore."

She just doesn't want to live anymore.Chen Zheyu was anxious and almost shouted out.

Based on this, Chen Zheyu didn't dare to stay for a long time, took the medicine and hurried back, thinking about what to do along the way.

The first thing she did when she got home was to pour the medicine. Lan Xin was still lying in a drowsy state, half asleep.All the medicine for the first time fell on the bed, and the water was also spilled on the quilt.Chen Zheyu didn't dare to vent his anger on her, so he went back and forth patiently two or three times, and finally poured the medicine into it.He looked at Lan Xin on the hospital bed. She was getting more and more haggard and depressed. He didn't know how to help her except pity and regret.

what can he doThis accident was too cruel for her, no one could bear it.This is the man she loved deeply, and this is the man who loved her deeply until his death. Even breaking up was for love, for her to live a good life.In his capacity, how would he persuade her?He could only watch her haggard, watch her silent, or, at most, stay by her side and take care of her.

It was already noon, and Aunt Zhang, the servant at home, brought soup and porridge as usual, as well as Chen Zheyu's meals.She repeatedly told Chen Zheyu that the brown sugar and ginger soup must be drunk now while it is hot, and that the clear porridge and white fungus pear soup should be made a little more, which can be saved for drinking at night.

Aunt Zhang asked curiously: "Xiaoyu, is this your new girlfriend?"

Chen Zheyu smiled, did not answer, and asked as usual: "You must keep it a secret for me, and don't tell your family."

Aunt Zhang smiled and nodded again: "Take it back early, your mother will be so happy."

Chen Zheyu sent her to the door and gave her 100 yuan to take her back.

"What do you want to eat tomorrow? Call me early, and I'll deliver it half a day earlier. Your father and the others will come back for dinner in the evening, so I won't have time to come out." Aunt Zhang explained as she walked. After so many years, they are more like relatives.

After sending Aunt Zhang away, Chen Zheyu hurriedly brought the ginger soup in, thinking that Lan Xin would drink it while it was hot.

Lan Xin, who was lying on the bed, still closed her eyes tightly, without saying a word, as if everything in this world had nothing to do with her.She just waited quietly, waiting for herself to turn into green smoke and go with the wind.

"Xinxin, drink this bowl of ginger soup first." Holding the bowl, Chen Zheyu approached it softly.

Lan Xin turned her head to one side and ignored him.

I'm afraid it won't work by force, and it will stain the quilt.

"Have you drank?" Chen Zheyu felt his humility.

Still no response here.

Chen Zheyu was in a hurry, he felt that he couldn't go on like this, he had to do something.

"The Tangshan Earthquake claimed 24 lives, and the 2004 Indian Ocean tsunami killed 29 people. Also, because of diseases and accidents, thousands of people leave this world every day! Among them, who Don’t want to live a good life? Tell me, what right do you have to trample on your own life? What right do you have to despise your own life? For Lin Feng, for his good intentions, you should also live a good life!” Chen Zheyu growled , A series of loud and loud words hit Lan Xin head and face.He had been thinking about these words for a long time, and held them in his heart for a long time.When it came to the excitement, he didn't care too much, held the bowl in one hand, opened Lan Xin's mouth with the other, and forcefully poured down half a bowl of ginger soup.Regardless of whether it will stain the quilt, let's fill it first.

Lan Xin passively gulped down the ginger soup. She swallowed so urgently that some of it overflowed from the corner of her mouth and flowed onto the quilt.She had never seen Chen Zheyu so excited, nor did she expect him to say such words.She opened her red and swollen eyes wide and stared at Chen Zheyu, her eyes were empty, without a single tear.

After staring at him for a while, Lan Xin still turned her head away without saying a word.Since yesterday, she hasn't said a word, and she doesn't want to say anything.

However, what Chen Zheyu said just now echoed and echoed in her ears for a long time.She felt her hot body becoming lighter and lighter, and she seemed to see her elder brother Lin Feng smiling at her, she thought: Will I be able to see him soon?
Chen Zheyu pushed her hard, desperately trying to pull her back, he shouted while pushing: "You can't do this, you must be strong, where did you go when you were strong before? For Lin Feng, you have to live well , for me, you have to live a better life, I can't live without you." This time it was not a growl, but more a begging.

Maybe it was too tired, maybe the medicine had taken effect, Lan Xin felt that she was so tired that she couldn't even open her eyes, her whole body was weak, without a trace of strength, a faint breath led her to the darkness, to the bottomless black hole.

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When she woke up again, Lan Xin realized that she was sweating profusely and drenched all over.The surroundings were dim, and the faint light from the bedside table reminded her that this was still her familiar home, or her familiar bed, she didn't go anywhere, she just slept.How long have you been asleep?It is already night.

There was also Chen Zheyu, whom she was familiar with, leaning against the head of the bed at the moment, as if asleep.Lan Xin turned her head to look at him, this tiny movement woke him up, maybe he wasn't asleep.He sat up, looked at Lan Xin, and said pleasantly, "Are you awake?"

"Dangdang Dangdang!" Accompanied by Chen Zheyu's own accompaniment, he turned on all the lights in the bedroom, and for a moment, the room was bright as day.Chen Zheyu stood up and looked at her pretending to be mysterious.

Lan Xin clearly saw the changes in the room, Lu Wei!reed!All reeds!Lan Xin looked around in surprise.On the three walls facing each other, there are some extra paintings. There are three pictures on each wall. In each painting, there are figures of reeds, either standing facing the morning sun, or swaying in the evening wind, or a large field of reed flowers. Raised, or gracefully by the water.This is Lan Xin's favorite reed, and she can't help but think of her favorite sentence: Man is a thinking reed.

Lan Xin's heart became hot, and a feeling touched her heart lightly.And this slight touch, Chen Zheyu, who had been watching her from the side, actually felt it, and a gleam of joy flashed across his heart.I've been busy all afternoon, and it's finally not in vain.

"You've slept for several hours, and your forehead doesn't seem so hot anymore. Would you like some porridge?" Chen Zheyu asked tentatively.

Lan Xin didn't speak, she didn't turn her head away, she just stared at the painting on the wall.Chen Zheyu pretended that she had no objection, and turned around to go to the living room.

Then she turned around again and said to her: "By the way, you sweat a lot, and your clothes must be wet. I'll find you some clothes, and you can change them first." She was really considerate and thoughtful. .

When Chen Zheyu came back after warming up the porridge, Lan Xin had already changed her clothes, but Chen Zheyu fed her a small bowl of porridge.

From yesterday until now, she hardly ate anything.Chen Zheyu is happy for this progress.

"Continue to take the medicine, the medicine is effective." Chen Zheyu's words revealed a little joy.

Lan Xin leaned against the head of the bed, still not speaking.After taking the medicine, he lay down.

She has been staring at the paintings on the wall, those reeds swaying in the wind, fluttering and swaying into her heart.She vaguely saw Lin Feng and her cheerful figure in the reed marsh.She also vaguely heard Chen Zheyu's voice in her ears, "The reeds are green, and the white dew is frost. The so-called Yiren is on the side of the water. Follow it backwards, and the road is long and obstructed. Follow it backwards, like in the middle of the water..." In a daze, she seemed to see Lin Feng standing among the reeds swaying in the wind, smiling at her, and said to her: "You must live well, live well for me."

Maybe the medicine had an effect, or maybe she was still very tired, Lan Xin fell into a deep sleep again.

The next morning, when Lan Xin woke up, she saw the sunlight coming in through the tulle curtains. It was a sunny morning.

"Good morning!" Chen Zheyu's magnetic voice conveyed happiness.At this moment, he was looking at her with a smile, and the corner of his mouth was still a little crooked, which she was familiar with. Lan Xin once vividly felt that it was his overflowing happiness.However, at this moment, his face was clearly haggard, he hadn't shaved for several days, and the dense stubble was growing vigorously.

Lan Xin looked at him, feeling hot in her heart: "It's really hard work for you." This was the first sentence Lan Xin said to him in the past few days.

"As long as you are well, that's fine." Chen Zheyu responded excitedly.

During this back and forth, Chen Zheyu actually felt the distance between the two of them, and the distance was invisibly widening.This subtle change immediately disturbed him again.

Zhou Lin came over early in the morning, and of course she already knew the news.As soon as she entered the door, she rushed to Lan Xin who was leaning on the bed, opened her arms, and gave Lan Xin a big hug.

The redness and swelling in Lan Xin's eyes hadn't completely disappeared. At this moment, tears flowed down again unconsciously.

Zhou Lin silently took a tissue from the bedside table and handed it to her, while weeping with her.

"You guys talk first, I'll go to the company to deal with something urgent." Chen Zheyu left in a hurry.

Zhou Lin was called by him. He hoped that she could have a good chat with Lan Xin and enlighten her.There are some words that only girlfriends have, and he can't replace them.

"You must hold on, Xin'er, definitely!" Zhou Lin comforted her with tears in her eyes.

Lan Xin didn't speak, she shed tears silently.

"I really didn't expect it to end like this. Alas! He is still so young." Zhou Lin was filled with regret and emotion.Yes, for such a young Lin Feng, his short life was like a shooting star passing across the sky, leaving only a brilliant light behind. His life is really fragile.

"Xin'er, it's already like this, and we can only accept this cruel reality." Zhou Lin looked helpless, "You must be strong, take care of your body, and live a good life."

She looked at Lan Xin in front of her with a haggard face, she became thinner and thinner, and felt more pity for her in her heart.From childhood to adulthood, I have experienced so many ups and downs, so many twists and turns and hardships, it is really not easy.

"Xin'er, you must get out of the grief as soon as possible, and you must be happy. Chen Zheyu treats you so well, you will be happy, and Lin Feng also hopes that you will be happy." Zhou Lin repeated "definitely" over and over again. Definitely", this is how she hopes.Fate has already been unfair to her, the years have polished her prematurely, everyone said that God is fair, in the days to come, there should be more pity for her.

Lan Xin still didn't speak, she remembered that phone number, that Lin Feng had used the number that Chen Zheyu was using.This world is really miraculous, could it be that her elder brother Lin Feng sent Chen Zheyu to her side?However, at this moment, she also remembered the letter Lin Feng left her, and what Lin Feng said to her, "You are the only woman I have ever loved in this life, and you are also the only woman in my life".She thought, these words must be engraved in her heart, so she also had to make him her only one.

"Tell me, why am I so stupid to believe that he will change his mind so easily?" Lan Xin suddenly said these words to Zhou Lin. This was the first sentence she said to Zhou Lin today.

"Who knew? Who knew there would be such an accident?" Zhou Lin froze for a moment, then began to persuade her.Chen Zheyu called her to tell her the news, but she couldn't believe it for a long time.

"Actually, I should have thought about how he would change his mind so quickly. How could that be? There must be some unavoidable reasons." Lan Xin blamed herself.Yes, she shouldn't trust him easily, let alone give up easily, she should find him persistently.Although nothing can be changed, at least she can always be with him and accompany him through the last time of his life.In this way, will there not be so many regrets and remorse?

"Don't think too much, it's already like this, it's useless to think too much. Lin Feng did this for you." Zhou Lin could only comfort her like this.

"I have always thought of myself as a very emotional person, but now it seems that, in fact, I am the most ruthless person." Lan Xin dissected herself fiercely, "I always use my own thoughts to judge the people around me. People and things, I don't believe in any love that is loyal to death, so when he proposes to break up, the first thing I think is that he has changed his mind. He is a ruthless person. He makes me very painful. But he didn't even think about his pain and helplessness behind this breakup."

"Don't belittle yourself like this." Zhou Lin was in a hurry, she didn't want to see Lan Xin blame herself so much, "If you were a fickle person, would you not let him go for so many years and stay single? You are just very proud, you I don't want to beg him for love. But, who would have thought it would be like this? It was really just an accident."

"However, the crux of the matter is that I don't believe in love from the bottom of my heart. If I had insisted on love, I wouldn't have let it go so easily. Even if he doesn't love me anymore, wouldn't I still love him? How could I Do you want to ignore him from now on? I am a heartless person." Lan Xin blamed herself painfully over and over again.

"Why don't you think that you are trying to fulfill him? You are so kind." Zhou Lin asked back.In her eyes, Lan Xin is perfect, not as unbearable as she imagined. If she is a bit regretful, it is because in this flashy society, people are not confident and afraid of love. This is a common emotion. crisis. "Don't do this, the matter is over, you have to get out as soon as possible and live your life well." Zhou Lin was very worried about Lan Xin, because she was always living in the shadow of the past, the past and the present.

"Can it pass so quickly?" Lan Xin didn't believe it.I'm afraid it will be difficult.Lan Xin thought so.

"If you can't pass it, you have to pass it." Zhou Lin saw Lan Xin's thoughts, "The future is still so long, you must live it well, this is definitely what Lin Feng hopes."

"Also, Chen Zheyu is so kind to you, you must cherish it. Cherishing the people around you is far more important and worthwhile than living in the past." Zhou Lin mentioned Chen Zheyu again and again, and she hoped that he could heal her wounds .

The future is so long, Lan Xin has no time to think about it, now her mind is full of the past.

After resting in bed for a few days, Lan Xin slowly recovered her health.Thinking of the last time she broke up with Lin Feng, she also suffered a serious illness.

But every time, she survived, as flexible and tenacious as a reed.

(End of this chapter)